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Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
2:01 pm - Been a while. . .
Lots has happened since I wrote last. I have a job for the summer, finally. I'm doing a show called "Sing Down the Moon" for Theater at Lime Kiln in Virginia. It's only for six weeks, so I am not sure what I will do the rest of the summer-- except I know that I need to have some wisdom teeth pulled, so that will probably be on my itinerary. :-(

And I just found out that I got into the American Musical and Dramatic Academy in New York for spring of next year. Accepting would mean graduating from here in December (waaaay early), but I talked to my advisor, and if I can get into all the right classes for the Fall, then I can pull it off. We'll see. They gave me an assload of financial aid, so I am very tempted to kiss Chapel Hill goodbye and head to New York.

I've had a lot of good news recently. Spring is here and I feel like things are going my way-- a lot. In fact, it's kind of creepy, this sudden change from having a kind of depressing semester to feeling so lucky. Karma, I hope. . .

Anyways, that's all for now. It's a pretty day and I am going outside to lay on the grass and be a bum.


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Saturday, January 1st, 2005
2:37 pm - Since all the cool kids are doing it. . .
1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? went over my credit limit

2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? No resolutions last year or this year.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Nope.

4. Did anyone close to you die? Yes. My grandmother.

5. What countries did you visit? Kirblakistan and New Lavinia.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? a car

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? April 13, 2004. My nineteenth birthday.

8. What was biggest achievement of the year? My 4.0 this semester. Take that, Carolina bitches! Woot.

9. What was your biggest failure? not getting a part in any of the first six shows I auditioned for. :-(

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? No.

11. What was the best thing you bought? my plane ticket to Chicago

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Crystal's, for being so brave

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? George W. Bush

14. Where did most of your money go? Food, textbooks, and credit card/phone bills.

15. What did you get really, really excited about? Hedwig and the Angry Inch

16. Compared to this time last year are you:
A. happier or sadder? about the same
B. thinner or fatter? about the same
C. richer or poorer? much, much poorer

17. What do you wish you'd done more of? stopping and smelling the roses

18. What do you wish you'd done less of? whining

19. How did you spend Christmas? at home, with my parents

20. Did you fall in love in 2004? yes

21. How many one-night stands? too many to count

22. What was your favorite TV program? I really don't watch TV when I'm away at school (maybe like an hour every three weeks or so--seriously), but maybe Family Guy

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Hate is such a strong word. . .

24. What was the best book you read? Einstein's Dream. So good.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery? Fiona Apple.

26. What was your favorite film of this year? Big Fish

27. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I drove with my parents through the night to get to grandmother's funeral. I was 19.

28. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? an Academy Award

29. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? um. . .too many red shirts

30. What kept you sane? work and my friend Holly

31. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Anderson Cooper or that hot Croatian on E.R. (Gorban something)

32. What political issue stirred you the most? war in Iraq

33. Who do you miss? NCSA people

34. Who was the best new person you met? Anthony

35. Tell us a valuable lesson you learned in 2004? it's better to be happy than successful

36. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

"You're older than you've ever been, and now you're even older. . ."

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Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
2:08 pm
Well, the medieval torture devices on my teeth were finally removed last Wednesday. I wouldn't say it was worth it, but it's nice to have them off.

Life is going well. I just finished all my midterms and am getting ready to enter tech week for "Waiting for Lefty." The day after the show closes, I am leaving for Chicago for fall break. I'll see Ryan there--and his parents. . . .Yeah.

I am off to the mall to buy myself some clothes that don't have holes or toothpaste stains for the trip (first impressions?). I got my old job back, so I (finally) have some money. My roommate, three of our hallmates, and I are making a day out of it. We're leaving soon, so I am going to attempt to clean my room (ha!) and get ready to go.

Love you guys.


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Monday, September 20th, 2004
But I am not. Instead, I am updating my journal.

It's been a long day, y'all. Like an ass, I skipped Linguistics on Friday and didn't check to see if we had homework due on Monday. Of course, we did, and of course she doesn't take late work. Super.

But. . .I have good news as well. After a very painful rejection by "Into the Woods," my luck changed and I was cast in "Hedwig and the Angry Inch." There are only two parts: my friend Kyle is playing Hedwig, a drag queen, and I am playing Yitzhak, a man. Yes, a man. My director said she'd buy me a strap-on--I shit you not.
I'm very excited about the show. It goes up in November, about a month after the one-acts, and I can't wait! I have to learn how to talk and walk like a boy, which should be interesting.

Oh, and I think I'm going to apply to be in a group on campus that teaches sex ed to Latina women. I want to undo the cruel injustice done to myself and my peers by Lifetime Wellness *shudder*. All I can remember from our one brush with formal sex ed is the Abstinence lady telling us that boys were only after our "jewels" (that is, anything above the knees and below the shoulders) and giving us a coupon for Chick-Fil-A if we promised to be abstinent. How's that for informative?

I should get back to that paper. . .it is never going to be finished.

Later, kiddies.

current mood: working
current music: the hum of the printers at Davis library

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Monday, September 6th, 2004
11:34 am
Well, I had pretty hideous luck with auditions this year. I got called back for only one of the six shows the Drama Department auditioned for this year. . .and then didn't get ithe part. But the same thing happened to one of my friends-- and she is a good actor-- so maybe we all just have dry spells. I was really disappointed, though. My old director from Hair didn't even call me back, and (I thought) I gave a really good audition.

I really wanted to do the show I got called back for-- it was directed by this woman who went to Juilliard and is kind of the Acting Goddess of the department. There were a lot of senior drama majors that she didn't call back, so I was really honored that she picked me for a second audition, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be. . .

I was kind of hysterical when I saw the cast list, and Ryan said he'd never heard me sound so upset (I called him to whine). I know it sounds like it shouldn't have been a big deal, but it was to me. I've been rejected before and haven't cried over anything like that in a while, but I wanted to do her show so much. . .I thought, "What am I going to do?" Not just her show, but almost every drama dept. show through October or November had just been cast, and I was in *none* of them. It was a pretty crappy feeling, especially since I didn't fuck up my auditions or anything like that.

That night I had a call-back for the one-act festival I did last year, and I almost blew it off. I was like, "Screw it. I don't want another rejection." But, I pulled myself up my the seat of my proverbial pants and went and acted like hell. So, I guess the story does have a happy ending. . .I am playing Edna in "Waiting for Lefty" (one of the one-acts) and life is good. I was so happy when I saw the cast list. Lefty was my first choice for one-act, and Edna was my favorite character w/i the play. I am the belligerent wife of a striking taxi-driver-- woo-hoo! First rehearsal is tonight. Oh yeah, and the director is really talented.

So, I think I'm gonna be all right. Amen.

current mood: relieved
current music: Coldplay

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Thursday, August 26th, 2004
9:46 am - Snap!
Things are definitely looking up now.

I LOVE my roommate! She never watches Seventh Heaven (I don't think we have even turned on the t.v. since we moved in), *and* she drove me to the orthodontist yesterday. By the way, I am theoretically getting my braces off in a month-- dig it!!

Classes are good, with the exception of Linguistics, which seems like it might be a bit dull. Ah, well.

I'm thinking I felt so uncomfortable at the beginning of the year because I was still desperately trying to hold on to the past. I had a really good freshman year, and I think that in the back of my mind I was attempting to re-create it. Once I even started walking back to my old dorm after class instead of heading back to Carmichael. But I think I have realized that, like it or not, this year is going to be different. I am going to have different classes, a different dorm, some different friends, etc. But, all in all, I think it will be an improvement.

Hope everyone's classes are going well. Later.

current mood: energetic
current music: Toby Lightman, "The Guy in the Front Row"

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Thursday, August 12th, 2004
3:51 pm
I had lunch with Crystal at Smokey's today and had my first real taste of sushi. Different, but not bad.

Chapel Hill is getting closer, and I haven't started packing. I have a feeling I'll be throwing dirty laundry in my suitcase at the last moment. . .

I talked to a few Carolina people on IM today. One of my friends is on academic probation (again) and might not get to come back to school. They won't let him know until less than a week before classes start, which I think is crap. I really hope they let him back because he's one of my favorite people at school. I think I'll feel kind of lost without him in my routine. He was supposed to live in the suite next door to me this year, and I was looking forward to that.

Anyway, more later.


current mood: bored

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Sunday, August 8th, 2004
9:56 pm
This is my first update in a long time. What a slacker.

This summer has gone by so damn fast. I am leaving for Chapel Hill in two weeks, and it feels like I haven't even been home. It just drags by so slowly, and then. . .

I am looking forward to the change, though. It's gonna be a good semester. I get to have Acting for Majors in the fall, my schedule lets me out at 2:00 every day, and I get a brand new--and hopefully *improved*--roommate. Oh, yeah, and one of my fellow drama geeks is having a superhero party on the first day of school. I thought I might go as Bath Girl-- you know, tie a towel around my neck and carry a loofah on a stick. Somehow, no one else thinks this idea is nearly as clever as I do. . .

I can't wait to go back, but part of me is kind of sad about it. As much as I like change in a theoretical sort of sense, I don't like it when it happens to me. It'll take a couple of days to adjust.

We'll see.

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Friday, June 18th, 2004
4:49 pm
So I never made it to Sundown last night. Here's why:

I met Andy Stringfield at 5 for dinner, and we decided to go to Stefano's Pizza on the strip. I ordered a slice with ham and mushrooms. This was a bad idea. The last time I ate mushrooms, I was four years old and they made me sick as hell. My parents always told me that it was just a coincidence, that mushrooms had nothing to do with my illness.

So, yesterday, after fifteen years, I decided that if I could not tame my fear of heights, bugs, or Bob Barker *shudder*, I could at least cure my fear of mushrooms.

Stringfield dropped me off at Ryan's apartment after dinner and we decided to go to Sundown around 7:30. Well, I start feeling kind of nauseous, and Ryan suggests we hang out at his place until I feel better. Around 9:30 I give up on trying to feel better and tell him to just take me home.

Of course he doesn't want me to puke all over has fancy-ass car, so he drives like a maniac, going sixty miles an hour over every damn pothole. He drops me off at my door and thirty seconds later, I'm kneeling before the porcelein god, puking my guts out.

Needless to say, it was the greatest night of my life.

Anyway, that's my excuse. Later.

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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
2:26 pm
As Amanda pointed out, I forgot to mention the fact that I had lunch w/ her and Brian yesterday and that they rock my socks. ;-)

It really is a small world. The strangest thing happened today. I went to class this morning and, as usual, sat next to this girl named Shannon; she's kind of my Philosophy 110 buddy. Well today, out of nowhere, she asked me if I had a boyfriend. I said yes, and she asked if he was a freshman (ha!). I said no, that he was a little older; she asked how old. I said he was a grad student in physics. Well, apparently one of Ryan's best friends is a really good friend of her and her family. Random, huh? It's really strange being back in Knoxville; stuff like this never happens to me in Chapel Hill.

I am looking forward to the weekend and it is only Wednesday. . .I have realized that, without my S'mores pop tart in the morning, I might go schizo. It is the S'mores pop tart (donated to me daily by Betty the VolCard lady) that gives me hope to carry on. . .

On that happy note, I'm going to sign off. Later.


current mood: tired
current music: Toby Lightman

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Monday, June 7th, 2004
3:23 pm - Lalalalalala
I have not written in a while. . .there has not been much to write. Work, class, sleep, food-- that's been my life for the past few weeks. I am going into work at 6:30 a.m. for the next two months, so that should be interesting. Today was okay, but we'll see how I feel on Friday. :-/
Oh, and my preppy scum of a boyfriend has turned me into an exercise beast; I now spend all my time between work and class at the damn gym. I was just trying to gain a little muscle, but now it has gone too far. . .I need an intervention.
Well, that's all for now. I'm beat. Oh, yeah-- if anybody wants to see Harry Potter, holla.


current mood: Drowsy

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Monday, May 24th, 2004
10:15 pm - I hate my teeth
I just got back from ghetto fabulous Durham, NC. Why, you ask? Because I just paid a very expensive visit to the orthodontist. I couldn't go to the one in Knoxville because my parents cancelled my contract with them and signed with the one near UNC, assuming my braces would be off before summer. Oops.

For starters, I was accompanied by my mother, who, like a broken record, constantly reminded me to "stay below 70" every few seconds during the entire six and-a-half hour drive (and back). Then of course, I go to the damn orthodontist and they tell me that no, in fact, I will not be getting my braces off in July but rather No-fuckin'-vember. I am nineteen years old and I have braces that were supposed to be removed when I was sixteen, and I am pissed. GRRRRR. What a waste of a weekend.

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Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
10:16 am - Happy happy joy joy
Hey kids,

I got a job! Yay! I am working at the UC as an office assistant.

Not much new other than that. Ryan, Justin, and I are going to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tomorrow after I get off work. . .

Crystal, I am scheduled for 1-5 every day, so maybe we can have lunch sometime. What time is your German class?


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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
9:03 pm
I need a job so bad, you guys. Seriously. I have applied at least seven places and have not even gotten a single stinkin' interview. Grrr. Everyone is taking applications, but it seems that no one is actually hiring. Bitches.

That said, I am pumped about Friday-- It's at the apartment, right?

Hope everyone finds gainly employment. . .If not, we can start a brothel. I'm game.

Abigail the Unemployed

current mood: Slightly Stressed

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Friday, May 7th, 2004
4:18 pm
I am back in town for the summer, at last.

I had the best day yesterday. I was just hanging out at home and my mom told me to come downstairs and look at the newspaper. Well-- it turns out that Jump Little Children (I love them. I want their babies!) was playing at the Disc Exchange on Chapman for FREE at 5:00. Unfortunately, it was 5:15. So I called Ryan and he hauled ass over to South Knoxville, and we went and saw them. We only got to hear two songs, but they were so amazing. I have no idea why they were in town, but I got them to sign my poster, and the hot one smiled at me. So it's all good. Oh, and I saw Joseph Gillenwater there. He's playing at the Pilot Light on the 20th, if anyone wants to go. . .

And on a more somber note, I am still looking for a job, unfortunately. I interviewed at the Marriott, but they said they generally want people who'll be able to work during the year as well. :-( But it looked like a really nice place to work, so I would definitely recommend applying there to any of you still looking for jobs. . .

I went to the library today and checked out The Return of the King. I am going to get through the trilogy if it kills me.


P.S. I am spending the night unpacking the rest of my shit, but if anyone wants to do something on Saturday, gimme a call.

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Friday, April 30th, 2004
5:44 pm
This morning I got up early and went to breakfast with Nick, this guy from my English class. He is graduating this year and going to grad school for French at UVA-- they are giving him a free summer in Lyon before he starts classes, and I am so jealous. After breakfast I went to work and stayed there until 5. PlayMakers (the theater where I work) is doing a subscription campaign, and so they are bringing in all these new student workers to hog my computer. . .Fools! Don't they know that if I don't enter the Box Office reports into the database, the sky will crumble?

Anyway. . .

I am so pumped because, while my weekends are almost always completely uneventful, I have two drama parties tonight-- one for Pauper Players (a student company that does musicals), and then the HAiR cast party. I guess since it's near the end of finals everyone needs to get drunk. My friend Sean and I are supposedly walking from one party to the other, but we'll see. . .I have a feeling that I'll end up carrying him.

Oh yeah-- I went to yoga at 7:45 a.m. yesterday! Am I crazy or what?

Love you guys. Later.


current mood: hyper
current music: "Fast As You Can" by Fiona Apple

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Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
7:03 pm
I got up at 7 am to study for Poli Sci, and I am beat. I am thinking about ordering takeout and going to bed early.

Now that HAiR and most of my finals are over, I don't know what to do with my time. I'm so bored. After my Comm 009 presentation tomorrow, all I have to do is pack, write a paper, and turn it in on Tuesday. Nothing else before that. I am working all day Thursday and Friday, but I'm thinking of going to the mall sometime; that's how desperate I am for something to do. . .

I'm ready to go home. I love it here, but it's much better when I have stuff to do. I'll see you guys soon.

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Sunday, April 25th, 2004
3:39 pm
Well, today I put off studying for finals as much as possible. Poli Sci 123 is gonna kick my ass. . .
I am still unsure of summer plans-- probably going back to K-Town, getting a job, and sulking. I got called back for a second audition for this theater company in Texas, but I guess that is not going to work out. I have to find some good honest work as soon as I get to town; no play-actin' for me this summer. At least it will be nice to catch up with everyone.

Gone to my English study group. . .dinner w/ my friend Stephen afterwards and then a long night of studying, wailing, and gnashing of teeth.

current mood: intimidated
current music: "Rock Me" by Liz Phair

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