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Friday, July 30th, 2004
11:57 am	change in case you've not figured...i post somewhere else more. it is... www.othespacebetween.blogspot.com hope that satisfies your cravings. Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: silence (i think that's a first) (Comment on this)
Monday, October 20th, 2003
9:58 pm	............................ so many things since i last wrote! hmmmm well, went to otterbein for a speech meet on the 10 and 11 of october. it was a bit too small for me to learn anything...i had no competitive drive, especially against all of the novice competitors. i decided to recut my piece ten minutes before first round. boy oh boy am i the smart one. it's all good though...that kept me entertained and on my toes, because the good Lord knows i needed it! sunday the 12th...went to church and then took a little nap and then i went to the FFH/Big Daddy Weave/ Warren Barfield concert with dez, kelly v., and jenny c. and that was a fun time. i drove all the way there and back while the girls slept because they were all tired and i had caffeine, so why not? haha and a fun little excursion to get wendy's with kelly because i couldn't figure out for the life of me how to turn into the parking lot. got back late-ish and ran to mcdonalds to get brian a vanilla milkshake because he was sick and wanted one...he smiled :-D monday the 13th...my birthday. i am now 22. OLD *gaaaaa* and i have officially been kidnapped. by the wonderful friends i have, my girls, dressed up as fairies in black with glitter everywhere and wings and garland. never have i seen anything more special than that! fridays with the girls (trena, ddot, emily, jenny c., dez) and a few guys (b and jared among them yaaaaaaa)....then b drove me back to school and he gave me the best birthday present EVER. *insert the biggest smile you've ever seen on kristy's face right now* tuesday and wednesday i got a ton of homework and midterms and such done, and thursday, i went to classes, had a meeting, packed like it was my job or something with a quickness, and was off to hop a flight to LA for the weekend...i slept for a lot of the flight, but in my connecting flight in LA, there was such a gorgeous sunset. i got to LA and headed to baggage claim and there was ERIN!!!!! YA!!!!!!!!! i surprised melk aka niffer aka jen davies once we got back to the apartments by popping out of erins trunk. friday, we got up and headed to the set of days of our lives to hang out with jen (that's where she works) and that was cool...mmmm chai and meeting the actors that i have made fun of with such glee in front of jen. then erin and i headed off to the getty to play around for a few hours, and then we headed to the cheesecake factory. both were delicious in their own respects. and then a nap before going to some ghetto place for a sundance film festival short to be extras but then we decided against that because of the horrendous time commitment for a short film (1-7 am friday and saturday nights) sooo we left and went back to sleep. saturday, we got up and went to the santa monica pier. we played on a jungle gym and in the sand and on the pier...i made erin ride the ferris wheel and she almost peed her pants i think, but it was so beautiful! i mean, how can you go to the pier and not ride that ferris wheel???? some random guys were playing football and were all like, do you wanna play with us? so i caught the football in one hand and did a perfect toss to the next guy and said, sorry, we've got other plans. that was greatness...it's so sad that guys don't think that girls can do stuff like that, just because we carry purses and wear make-up and do our hair and such...gaaaaaaa....and then we played on the beach and a bit in the ocean (getting our pants soaked) to get some "ocean in a bottle" for our little sis's. driving home in pants full of saltwater and sand is not fun...and then a quick lunch before picking up melk and heading to "it's a wrap"...a thrift store that has all of it's clothes from studios, either from tv sets or film...wardrobe doesn't need the clothes anymore, it hands them over to it's a wrap...so many cool things...i almost fit into a pair of heather locklear pants, so that was kind of fun...i picked up a few things for me and for b. and then, a quick nap before heading to hollywood, playing around grahman's theater and such, then mel's diner which had kareoke BUT no fever by peggy lee...because jen and erin and i were all up for that. but alas...then there was much tiredness, so we went back and headed to sleep. sunday, erin and i got up way too early to be considered a Godly hour and got ready, packed up my stuff, and headed to the hollywood bowl before the airport. and, SADNESS...the stage was already torn down. we had really wanted to stand on that stage together and snort a little symphony, but the classic and beautiful theater is already on it's way to being torn down completely. we didn't talk the whole way to the airport. we did snort a few times though. i knew if i talked i would just start crying and those are the worst kinds of goodbyes...so i got through the long long lines of security at LAX and waited a bit before boarding my plane. i slept the WHOLE way from LA to atlanta, and then i wrote and listened to switchfoot from atlanta to home. jared picked me up, and i started crying as soon as i saw him, not because of him, but because i missed erin so much already. yes, i am a dork. the drive home was fun though, with jared. we sang and talked and i leaned halfway out the window to get a picture that i really hope turns out. i snorted a few times and played with the bear that erin made for me at build a bear. its left arm moos when you squeeze it hehe. monday, today...class, chapel, lunch, quick nap, and then a drive home to go to the dr's. haha except a slight detour through PA to get there....gaaa. i stopped by my favorite lil bro's house to wish him a happy birthday and give him a quick hug and that was great to surprise him like that. YA for johnny! but then, i got to hang out with my mom and visit my grandma in the rehab/nursing home she's in...37 pins in her hip and all. then i chilled at home for a bit, and finally headed back to school, where i am now, avoiding my homework and the mere thought of unpacking like the plague. sighs....soon, i shall be seeing thouroughly modern millie...and that will be greatness!!! and now, off to the races, onward Christian soldiers, it's homework times kids. and you know what that means. okay, well i don't either. but, either way- i must go and get some stuff done so i can sleep and do more stuff all day tomorrow. good niiiiiiiiight (to the tune from the sound of music) <> Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: silence (i think that's a first) (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 5th, 2003
11:36 pm	beautiful sooooooo. homecoming was last night...and i've never had a better time at a dance- ever. there was a group of about fifty of us, which 40 or so were seniors, that went to la pizzeria and had dinner....we had a banquet room all to ourselves. and it was great to just be all dressed up and out with these people that i've gotten to know strangely well and toast to that and laugh and talk. brian came to pick me up at quarter 'till seven...and i went out of the room to meet him, because i knew he was there...and he couldn't speak when he saw me. we just looked at each other and i ran up to him and we hugged....like a movie or something. and i followed him outside to his car...but he kept turning around and staring at me...and in a non-vain way, i was joyful about all this, because i know that he did not turn around because i was beautiful as i was in a dress with my hair and makeup all perfectly in place, but simply because he was looking at me because i am beautiful [to him]. and when we got to the car, he pulls out this one white rose, because he wanted to get me something. so i ran back to the room and put it in a vase real quick, and back out to head over to la pizzeria. the dinner time was fun (as i mentioned before) and it was good to just sit with my friends, and with b, and just have fun...forgetting about all the stresses of homework and work and classes and activities we have...and just being with each other, if only for a night. and we got to the dance, and the music was kind of, well, crappy. but, it's because they play it really safe, which is cool too. i can handle that. and it was great to dance, with b, and be in that new atmosphere with him. with each new experience and new "thing" or place i go with b, the more i can see how comfortable i am with him...not in a "comfort zone" only sort of way- where neither of us is growing- because that is definitely not the case. but in a way that i know i can grow and change and be myself around him and he can with me and we will still be the best of friends. and brian did look quite dashing, as well, i must say. new hair cut and all *winks* after, a group went to k. vroomans, and that was fun, but we were all real tired so we all just about fell asleep by 2 or so and got up and said, hey, we should go back and go to sleep....cept brian and i walked and talked and hung out till a bit after three...it was such an amazing night, with him, that i didn't want it to end. but a person's gotta sleep sometime, ya know? (sadness!) how i loathe that pesky little sleep elf. i slept in today and skipped church *yes, i am a heathen. and got up and got ready and went to work...fairly enjoyable, with the people i work with and such. just went to muggswigz with b and andrew (sooooooo fun by the way, that dear andrew). if you don't know him, you should. cause he's great. it's been a really busy week. and this one shall be too...i have a persuasion exam coming up on friday. i might pee my pants over that one...ripping apart aristotle's rhetoric is not my ideal exam material. ssssssssss i live in fear. okay i have a short paper to write for faith and personal ethics now. which should be no problem as i had a very large hot chocolate and peanut butter mocha frappe at muggswigz so im prolly wired for at least another hour and a half. ecclesiastes has been a great read as of late. puts things in perspective with my way too "busy" life....always in need of a better perspective than my own. and 1 Peter. true beauty....whoa. i still want to be a pickle when i grow up....a sweet gherkin. 'cause they are little, and cute. and sweet, in a pickley-sweet sort of way. i'll be at otterbein this weekend, if anyone wants to come see me perform. i won't promise miracles, but i do promise to make you laugh at least once or twice. i love my family. oooo and how to lose a guy in ten days is actually a good chick flick. who knew? okay g'night kids. have a *swell* day! <> Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: caedmon's call...faith my eyes (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 2nd, 2003
12:09 am	TA DA trena has inspired me to journal a bit more. and she's GREAT so why shouldn't she inspire me? hmm...so my week or two weeks or whatever. ann is married! how amazing is that! for those of you who don't know ann, i'm sorry-- you really should 'cause she's adorable. and her wedding was so, HER, ya know? how something just fits. and it's perfect. and the wedding gifts were little altoid "love" tins-- in the shape of hearts. how cute is that??? i really wanted chocolate milk tonight. so dez came with me to the late night snack thing and boy that chocolate milk/french vanilla capucinno mix was the best. and i got to relax and have APO inductions and work and baby-sit the Rudd children. and that was so much fun! jaelynn inherited my splat pig because she fell in love with it, and we played in the sand volleyball court and in the quad with the big blue ball and visited a few people in heritage, and then came back to the room and made popcorn and told stories and had juice and animal cookies and told a Bible story and then andrew and lynn were back, and whooshed the children away (sadness!) but still, great all around. spent a bit of time with b, but then there was this drama because of taco bell sauce packets, among other things. so that wasn't fun, but it was good...it was okay. to be human and have all of these EMOTIONS can be so tedious to work through sometimes, but it's in working through them that i find out more of who i truly am and who i truly need to be, so i can work towards that. he's a great influence on me...keeps me in check. went to BGSU this weekend for speech competition...great road trip with audrey! such a random mix of music...you never realize how much you have in common with a person until you realize how little you know yourself. or something deep and meaningful like that. great time with casey last night....chilled and watched Amelie....whoa. almost as good as Whale Rider with casey, which was not too long ago....we are now great movie buddies or something? he's so much fun to hang out with...and he let me borrow bottle rocket (wes anderson and such) so i feel special. i want to watch that with andrew g (no, he's NOT third string andrew...hes awesome really!) so before amelie tuesday night, i dropped of a happy note to b, and a little treat because he had a long day of exams and such and was up really late the night before studying, soooooooo i dropped off the note and headed up to casey's...not a half hour later, b calls wondering if i'll go to walmart with him, but alas, amelie won. so once the movie finished, casey and i chatted it up for a few and then i headed back to b's room/lounge and ended up going to walmart with him after all...so once we get back, he's gotta help his boys with the construction of this set/costumes for this contest that was today, and he stops me, and asks, "do you want to go to homecoming with me?" and i laughed in his face...not in a mean way! just....homecoming is on saturday, and he waited until late on tuesday night to ask me....me, who loves to plan EVERYTHING and it's mom way in advance...but of course nothing could be better on saturday night than being at homecoming with brian, so yes, that is the plan. i wish i wasn't a girl sometimes. but i figure, it's prolly just as difficult to be a guy, so i'd rather not go there either. darn adam and eve, choosing to mess things up. i have to finish my groups journal still. gaaaa. so much work for that class, but it's great 'cause i learn a lot. so much more, but i'd rather not write about that now. maybe later, but prolly not. i leave in two weeks to go to LA for the weekend and visit erin...much excitement for that! ooooo i got to see some friends from u of a and cedarville this past weekend. and spent time with j along with b who drove up for the tourney and for j/movie stuff. i need to read now...i have today a bit, but not enough. so homecoming's on saturday, and then my birthday is right after otterbein and the ffh concert (i turn 22 on the 13th, so let me know what happiness you want to send my way *winks*) okay reading, and then bed. for real yo. later kids!!! have a great night<> Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: mercy me (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 13th, 2003
2:03 pm	golly gee haha, sooooo....it's been what? six weeks since i last wrote??? what?!?!? you may say in defiance at your computer screen. such a long time to go without the musings of kristy. i know, i know dear child. but alas, fret no longer because i am here. so in all honesty, i've been avoiding an update. i just get so carried away with them and i keep typing and then i look at the clock and i've just spent a forty-five minute span of time writing about me and i don't even know if more than maybe two people glance at this. ever. but that's okay! because, i like to record. memories fail us so often....they can be so inaccurate. and we forget the details of the day to day if we don't pause to remember them. it's that whole "stop to smell the roses" concept...cheesey, i know, but true. i've actually done it before...there's this one garden semi-near my house, and it's full of flowers and the lushest green grass i have ever seen. and i can walk through it for hours just smelling each flower....they're all unique, you know. every rose has a different scent to it. but so beautiful and so far from the capitalist driven society that is the land we know and love...(that was for Andrew Rudd right there). soooo....since i didn't write at all in August, i need to fill ya'll in. hmm. madness with packing for school and lots of rain storms that were not so enjoyable to drive (long distances) in. in case you didn't know, my dad took a wonderful one o'clock in the AM trip to the emergency room. first, they said it was a heart attack seeing as my dad's blood pressure was like sixty over thirty (really bad for anyone, and especially so for a man as big as my father). and then, the doctors were like, oops...not a heart attack...internal bleeding. somewhere. not quite sure where...so through the probing and poking of my father, the brains of the operation found two bleeding ulcers in his stomach and a few irritated areas in there as well. so, he was in ICU for a few days, but then he got out of the hospital (and his soft foods diet) and went right on back to spicey chicken and pop and even a hot pepper. i swear, if he doesn't do it himself with his health, i might kill him soon! i hate to see him in pain, and he's so stubborn (yes, that's where i get it from). but, after a couple of pints of blood were pumped into him, he was near good as new and he's been pretty good since then...he even fixed his bike finally! so he and my mom can ride. (im not talking about a schwinn here, people). my cousin got married on the second of august i believe? brian drove all the way from lakeside (leaving WAY early in the morning) to come with me. haha, baptism by fire into meeting my family...and it was only my mom's side!!! ha. but, after the wedding and short reception, we went back to my house, then headed to the rose gardens for a while and made fun of the multiple instances of really ugly bridesmaids dresses. after that, we were going to go to the tokyo house (which i LOVE) but alas, it was closed for the summer. so, mocha house sufficed and was a fun time. then, to anger management, which was quite funny, and to handle's for ice cream and chatting for a while. then back to my house so brian could go to bed because he was way tired. i got up early on sunday morning and cooked him breakfast and brought it to him in bed. i got ready, went to church, and b went back to lakeside (he had to work). how silly of a girl am i....i can always remember every detail of every moment i get to spend with brian. even the really random ones...like studying before classes. *sighs* i think i can handle this whole, being a girl thing. *winks* so i went back to school a week early, to get some stuff done for speech. and i did. it was great times...and i worked a bit too. then classes started, and i see brian EVERY single day in either persuasion or groups. wheter i want to or not. *winks* i cannot believe i am taking 18 credit hours this semester. and i still have to finish my art and music *which was extended because of my father's random late night emergency room visit*. Lord Willing i will be graduated in May and i don't even know what from there. it's kind of scary and there's a part of me that doesn't want to face it, but there's a part of me that can't wait. oh, the duality of the human soul. so, i have this little plan of "what kristy is going to do with her life once her BA is completed" but we all know that no matter how wonderful your plans are, nothing in this life is ever certain, except change. and that is always certain. i'd like to audition at CITA and get a job with a company for a year, and then maybe go to grad school. if i don't get a job when i go to CITA then i want to just move somewhere (LA or Chicago or NY or London) for a year and get myself out of Ohio. I know i need to do that at least....just be- OUT. saw cabaret last night at the guild. interesting to sit next to b as girls whipped their bras off and such....it's not your mom's players guild anymore, to say the least. i dont know what else to say about that...lucas is in it...he did pretty good. the chick who played sally had a great voice...steve the way cool musical director rocked out. i took eight pages of notes...i am such a theater dork. but ellen was proud! i got to hang out with her last week (and steve) at el campesino and then steve had call and ellen and i went to muggswigz and talked about rites of passage and bounced ideas off each other. i can't begin to tell you how much i love that woman! she's great. it's been such a blessing these past six years plus of knowing her and her being a mentor/friend/teacher. i'm not gonna get all emotional and such...tears will be for another day. because, as chad bettz said in groups, i am chipper *winks* boy oh boy. if you've never before, check out the book of Ephesians. it's been a total blessing to me this week. www.biblegateway.com so much else...but alas...i need to get ready for work. yaaa....well, at least i get a paycheck. that's always a happy moment. anyhow, hope ya'll are well and alive and kickin'. come back anytime now, k? <> Current Mood: chipper Current Music: thoroughly modern millie soundtrack (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 31st, 2003
10:07 pm	ketchup. or catsup. hmmmmm haha. i love that the title of where you write is called "event" like it's some earth shattering movement. anyhow. it's been a great few weeks. finished up my new testament class, but still no word on the grade for it...i think my paper was pretty darn good. i based most of it and the ideas within on bob briner's "roaring lambs" so any lambs out there, that are or desire to roar- let me know *winks* hmm so art and music online has started. and i don't think i've ever been more bored with a class. dull pencils are pointing straight towards my eyes just thinking about it! but, i want to get it done, well, to the best of my abilities. last week, erin and i got to hang out with steve a lot. i think it was tuesday night that we hung out with steve, kevin, greg, and tracie...went to donato's, ran around the obese hawk looking for ice cream, hung out at steve's for a while....but they all started watching some bmx bike movie thing so i went up and hung out with matt mackey (ya one of the coolest kids ever that i have met) and then skipping ahead to near one am...erin went home and steve, matt, and i rode around on steve's cruiser bike's and i became an honorary member of the bike gang for the night. rode up to the cemetery and rode around in it for a while, steve and i got to chat, as well as with matt...it was peaceful. no one's really gonna bother you there, ya know? erin and i went to six flags on thursday. i've been way too stressed out lately, and i hate that. and it's going to be a hard semester without erin here, but i know that i must rely on God more. still, she's that best friend, that God blesses you with and you never expect and you take for granted too often and i am going to miss her. a lot. but six flags was fun...haha...i must insert the story of the big black woman here. soooo...erin and i get on the batman ride, and behind us in line are this big black woman and her skinny man. (insert, i am not prejudiced, i just believe that big black woman describes this woman in my mind like no other words can). sooo...the ride seats four people to a row, and the boyfriend asks if they can ride with erin and i...we of course say yes, and we get on the ride. it's erin, me, the big black woman, and her man. going up the hill, she's all fine and calm, excited for the ride, but just talking...ya know? sooooo....as soon as we start going down the first hill, the big one...she starts screaming. but it wasn't just a scream...it was so...unique. i'll never forget it...so if you see me, and want the full effect, just ask. oh, but it gets better...half way down this hill, she definitely decides to scream "oh ya, give it meeeeeee!!!!" and proceeds to do her unique scream for the remaining two minutes of the ride. hahahaa....i've never come so close to peeing myself...i laughed so hard i could barely stand when we got off the ride...nothing better really. but that was such a fun day... friday i got up and drove to lakeside...spent the weekend with brian and his fam again. on saturday, jason, lisa, andrew, adam, jen, and emily arrived. much fun was had. we went to island fest at kelly's and lisa and i bonded. walked around lakeside, played on the dock, went to bed. got up sunday morning and went to service. it was nice...somewhat liturgical, but i liked it...cept for that whole woman pastor thing...whether or not one says it is Biblical, i'm just not comfortable with it...it just doesn't seem right to me. went out on the boat again and then i was real tired so i drove home...through horrible pouring rain the whole way. got home, real tired, had to get up way early, and worked monday-weds. stayed with jared cuz he rocks and just opened up his place to me as erin was out of town. got to chill with him and ddot and andy aka monkey boy and got to have serious chat time with jared tuesday night...my heart has just seriously been heavy. since wednesday i've been way quiet. well, not really. i just have been avoiding the phone like the plague since tuesday in all reality. i finished reading elisabeth elliot's passion and purity. the theme, the main point, of the book is "bringing one's love life under the authority and leadership of Christ Jesus" so it's a way cool book. there has been so much within it that has challenged me and i keep rereading different parts of it. and i have wanted and desired the silence of the world around me to me so i can better listen to what God has to say...it's like...there can be a wonderful harmony between where i will be on this "spiritual mountain" persay, or there's silence of one area of the other...the world or my ability to to quiet myself and hear God...without impatience. which is really hard for me...i've come to realize more and more that i am extremely impatient. and i don't like that. i want to hand that fully over to God to be changed. more. there...i openly admitted it...so if you see me being impatient- call me on it, k? i got to spend last night with my mom and her friend linda. we went to dinner and i had some amazing tuna salad on a bed of lettuce mmmmm and hot tea...and then we stopped at linda's and ended up chatting for some three hours until ten thirty pm...on the ride between the point and linda's, we ended up talking about spiritual warfare and we ended up talking about so many things, mostly dealing with relationships, for the remainder of the evening...life kinda revolves around relationships, don't you think? that search for love and acceptance can only be fulfilled in a relationship...only fully one with God, and He allows others in our lives this side of Heaven to draw us closer to Him...while we draw closer to one another...building up a body, perhaps would be a term for it. it was great fun either way, very candid, and we always laugh together....my mom always says that i am "an entertainment section" ...which i enjoy, but i don't think you'll find me in wal-mart or whatever. i know, that wasn't funny...just...i wonder how talented she'll think i am once i'm not in school and pursueing my dream? today, i've been going through a lot of my books and papers. some happy memories, some sad, always with joy....some things i do not understand why i save...i need to not be a packrat! hehe...hmmm okay i think a mug of green tea and a warm blankie and my Bible are calling me....so later kids! until i write again (i shall hopefully be moving back to school on the 18th, so i look forward to seeing my "school friends" soon!) i leave you with closing words wiser than my own... 2 Timothy 2 1You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable men who will also be qualified to teach others. 3Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. 4No one serving as a soldier gets involved in civilian affairs--he wants to please his commanding officer. 5Similarly, if anyone competes as an athlete, he does not receive the victor's crown unless he competes according to the rules. 6The hardworking farmer should be the first to receive a share of the crops. 7Reflect on what I am saying, for the Lord will give you insight into all this. 8Remember Jesus Christ, raised from the dead, descended from David. This is my gospel, 9for which I am suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal. But God's word is not chained. 10Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they too may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory. 11Here is a trustworthy saying: If we died with him, we will also live with him; 12if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us; 13if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself. A Workman Approved by God 14Keep reminding them of these things. Warn them before God against quarreling about words; it is of no value, and only ruins those who listen. 15Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. 16Avoid godless chatter, because those who indulge in it will become more and more ungodly. 17Their teaching will spread like gangrene. Among them are Hymenaeus and Philetus, 18who have wandered away from the truth. They say that the resurrection has already taken place, and they destroy the faith of some. 19Nevertheless, God's solid foundation stands firm, sealed with this inscription: "The Lord knows those who are his,"[1] and, "Everyone who confesses the name of the Lord must turn away from wickedness." 20In a large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some are for noble purposes and some for ignoble. 21If a man cleanses himself from the latter, he will be an instrument for noble purposes, made holy, useful to the Master and prepared to do any good work. 22Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. 24And the Lord's servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. 25Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, 26and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will. an excert from Paul's famous last (recorded) words...goodnight kids<> Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: "famous last words", jars of clay (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 10th, 2003
7:19 pm	the fresh prince of bel air whoa, it's been a looooooooooooong time since i've last written in here. sorry to all my adoring fans! i've been way too busy, but in a good way. hmmm....nearly a month has gone by. okay, what to write about since then... welllll...kristy went camping. i know, it sounds like one of those really bad "bernie" movies from the early '90's or something. but i did. God is really working on the whole high maintenance thing this summer- completely breaking it that is. i camped at alive with some amazing friends, and God truly blessed the week. for those of you who don't know what "alive" is, i'll fill ya'll in...it's like a four-day Christian version of woodstock. and it rocks, man. i was down in the pit almost every night, i camped, i showered in "porta-clean" showers, and i had a blast with sarita, ryan, derek, kevin, fig, jimmy, erin, julie, and others. i was also blessed to get to hang out with brian, jason, and matt, along with other members of "brians" group from his home church. they were pretty darn cool...i prolly wouldn't have survived the supertones if it weren't for julia, so props to my sis on that one!!! let's see...some of the bands i saw....rebecca st. james, audio adrenaline, ffh, jars of clay, oc supertones, third day, chris tomlin, lincoln brewster, shane bernard and shane everett, andrew berg (ya nater and ry), john reuben, and many, many, many more. four days of concerts man-- i saw a lot of bands. and a lot of awesome speakers. so then i worked for a few days. weeee that was fun. and then i did homework for my online class and my friend from high school, andrea, got married, so i went to her wedding (it was beautiful and truly graced by the hand of God). had rehearsal for camp dramas, got those off the ground, and headed to camp as a counselor for my church. ya! that was AWESOME. butt awesome, even. props to God for speaking and moving in so many ways over the course of that week for every person there. I LOVE THE YBC GIRLS AND ALL 3 DRAMA TEAMS. just thought i'd let ya'll know that....i love them a lot. haha so many funny stories associated with camp...too many to record all of them. but, there was much junkfood in my cabin...seven girls, two counselors, and an entire closet full of junk food. fun with the sound team in the back. driving a 15 passenger van....through the pouring rain. thursday night PARTY for Jesus...road trip with bethanie to pick up the t-shirts...mmm taco bell. and the list goes on. haha. okay so no one reading this paragraph is prolly gonna get any of it, but when i look back and read it, i will laugh. and pee my pants. so there. straight from camp, after arriving back at the church, and loaded my luggage into the car and hauled my ghetto self over to lakeside. to spend. the entire weekend. with brian. (insert gasps of surprise here). and meet his entire family. so that was really cool. friday, that i refer to, was the fourth of july. so i got there, and we got to watch fireworks on the lake. and walk around, and get ice cream, and sit by the lake and talk for a while. and then watch the ring (well, i saw maybe half of it when i wasn't squealing like the pansie that i am and hiding). then i was supposed to sleep in on saturday- brian's orders. but i didn't. i woke up at 830 or so, lay there for a while, and then got up and had seriously amazing alone time, prayer closet time, Jesus time. and i got to chat with b's mom (who is an amazing sweetheart). then, brian took me to the lighthouse and we ate lunch, sitting on the rocks by the water. after that, we went back to the cottage and left to go boating with papa brian, julie, jamie, alex, and hunter. julie and i got to bond a bit, and i got to chat with his dad a bit too. after that, back to the cottage for dinner and then brian and i went to the dock, and sat and watched the sun set. and walked around for a while. and then b got his guitar and i got to hear the song he just wrote, after seeing his photography in the photography show. and we chatted again for quite some time, and then did devotions before each heading off to bed. definitely had to get up at six thirty in the morning to get back for church, but it was worth it. camp service was in the morning, and then i took a long nap and took my online exams, and then i worked for a few days. went home, worked on my paper, went to bed, got up, worked on my paper some more, and then erin, april and i went to the spaghetti warehouse and saw "the tempest" outdoors together last night. it was butt cool. if you can say butt cool about shakespeare, i just did...and it was. for the most part, very well acted. and so amazing to see shakespeare outdoors...i loved it and i think i am going to go see 12th night now too outdoors. anyhow, i should get back to working on my paper. seeing as it's due tomorrow at midnight. but, to all my adoring fans out there (disclaimer for the slower ones reading this: i am being slightly sarcastic about having fans) adieu! to my friends, and dear family, brothers and sisters...i love you. and i miss you. some of you i will see in less than two months back at school. some of you i will see saturday. some of you i may never see again this side of Heaven. but i love you. please, know that. God bless<> Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: caedmon's call, the worship album (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 15th, 2003
6:26 pm	my happy place so i haven't written in like two or three weeks. oops. haaaaaaaa....anyhow! it's been great! however, i would like to say- that i miss my friends! trena- you are such a sweetie and i miss your infectious laughter and loving honesty jared- i miss your randomness and your kind soul amanda- i miss your purpose driven life (an inspiration to me) and your intelligent conversation and your humor dita- i miss living with you (no pants, lots of ice cream, venting about boys, loud music, and true fellowship) and boy you are a funny girl jess- i miss living with you too! next year will not be the same...the golden girls must reunite. with lemonade or maybe hot apple cider or hot chocolate (depending on the time of year) and we will all wear crowns but you will always be the princess!!! dez- with her joy in the Lord smith...my roomie! your constant love and devotion to the Lord continually inspire me. thank you for your wisdom and your laughter (baseball bats and doors and such) kayla- i miss living with you too girlie! your quiet faith is steadfast and your rock and foundation in the Lord shall not be moved...and you are hilarious child!!! my speechies- wow. the fact that we are speechies says enough. oh ya, and i miss the debaters too. *stiffles a yawn* hehe i never knew debaters could be so funny...thanks for enlightening me lucas- schnookums! theater will not be the same without you. i miss you already...and i know you wont be in town for long...God's got big plans for you rachel- my chancellette! words cannot express how much you encourage, inspire, and uplift me. colorado's a long way away for four months! i miss you and our randomness girl! derik- it takes a strong man to deal with the three women you had to for an entire year (preparing you for teaching and such) we shall play with the horsies soon!!! erin- hahahahahaha i see you like what, half the week now? but i know in my heart i am not yet prepared for you to leave for LA. a whole semester apart? it's like a small piggy torn in two *gasp* but in the mean time, we shall continue our competition to get the other to pee her pants first brian- you are a random from the sky out of the blue total surprise amazing awesome unbelievable blessing. child like faith and joyful laughter (giggles, ahem) and continual encouragement and creativity. and true friendship. thank you (God) okay, sighs, now that ya'll had to read about how cool and amazing some of my friends are, i shall fill you in on the important stuff (the life and times of me, of course). soooooooo.... i've been working. that's been fun kind of... and i have laryngitis still. hahaha. funny joke God. thanks *big smiles* so at first, i sounded like a man...and my voice kept cracking. so i sounded like a man reentering puberty. so, when i am speaking to a large group of teens, there is much laughter. at me. eh, it's all good. because i am laughing too. but my voice is stronger...all but for thursday. i am a youth leader at my church, and thursday was our teen ministry's Cedar Point Blowout. it's an outreach ministry where we invite teens from all over the area to go to cedar point for a cheaper price and a bunch of chaperones (ie, me and the other youth leaders) go as well. the kids start arriving at 7 am and some of the leaders do registration madness for quite some time and then there is lots of fun and games, like fear factor stuff, in the auditorium, that the kids all get into. this year, there were about 225 kids that went and.....here's the really cool part. after the games and "fun" stuff, the gospel is preached (any questions about what i am talking about, feel free to ask) and 81 teens decided to start a personal relationship with Jesus. wahoooooooooooo says my church (myself included) *huge smiles* so, on the way up, i was a bus leader. because i am mean. see ----> *grrrrrrr* and i got to know a lot of the kids, especially the group in the back of the bus pretty well. they rocked. so i hopefully built some relationships, and i hope some of the kids come back to other events and tnl and such. and while at cedar point, i was with a couple of really cool teens and a few other leaders, and i said to myself, that i shall quit being a weinie and ride the millenium force. so i did. it rocked! i screamed in sheer delight the entire time. and then i got off the ride and got back in line again. me and char bonded after that, which is fantastic. and the bus ride back was quite fun as well. friday i worked on my online class, which started this past week. i worked allllllll day it seemed (i slept till 1030 though after my 21 hour day with teens) and then i got up real early saturday and worked and then drove to my cousin's grad party and made plans for her sister's wedding because i am doing her hair. and now i am also doing another girl in the weddings hair. should be interesting. and then home, working on the online class some more, and picking my sis up from work. then chattin' it up with my dear steph, the coolest incoming freshman my college shall see this year. (well, theres kristy and age too, and they rock). and chatting with b because the coolest steele got up early and drove down to come to church with me. after church, b and i went to the rose gardens. my happy place (except, unlike adam sandler, i have no midgets on tricycles or half naken women with alcohol). it's gorgeous. so we got to hang out for a few hours, and then b had to head back for family time. but it was a fantastic few hours, and i am incredibly blessed that God has placed someone such as b in my life. ever really. and then i drove to pick up my grandma and brought her home with me where we ate as a fam. for father's day and my dad was/is real happy because he made his favorite key lime pie and we had that for dessert (ask me for the recipe it's tasty and simple). and now, i am avoiding working on my online exam. which i must do. but, God is awesome. i am so incredibly blessed, and i too often forget that. it's so easy to get caught up in little petty things, and get the focus taken off the Lord...and that is so not the desire of my heart. but even though i stumble, the Lord is my strength and my shield. i will not be moved from the path that He has set before me, and i will not stop running the race i have chosen to enter- for Him. camp is in a few weeks. if you so desire, and are a believer, please pray for the kids that God has going. it's for June 30-July 4th. i'm in charge of dramas again. it's such an awesome ministry. I LOVE MY KIDS!!!! they are such blessings! okay, seriously off to work on my class. or maybe i shall play with the bucket of flying geckos. another random and hilarious gift from my bestest friend in the world, erin. hehehe. work's never boring with her!!! my cup runneth over (as cheesey as that sounds). there's a whole lotta joy in my life. thank you. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: john mayer "3x5" (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 29th, 2003
2:24 pm	lions and tigers and bears! oh my. soooooo. i haven't written in like two weeks or something? if you are an avid fan of the chronicles of kristy, you already know that. if you aren't though, now you do. hmmmm. well, the deal is pretty much that i work monday thru wednesday, either at hades in khaki's and hunter green or playing with paint at the theater. i get up on monday morning, pack for my three day excursion, and work. and then when i'm not working, i'm at erin's house. and we have pregnant women feeding cravings, and run to giant eagle to get egg rolls, frozen veggie pizza, sausage, and crab delights. don't ask me- ask erin about those. yummmm. or stuff to bake up a storm. it was great last week....we went on a kick where we baked chocolate chip cookies and kariboooo krunchies and more egg rolls. and then we brought all the chocolate goods to andrew rudd's house the next day so he could have extra sweets for the film party he hosted. his and lynn's eyes got big as quarters when they saw all the chocolate. and lil jaelynn and adisson (prolly spelled those wrong) were adorable as well. i need to baby sit those children sometime. erin and i went up to the rib burn-off festival thingiemagiggerpooh in cleveland this past thursday because....evanescence was playing. wahooo. they are better on their cd than live, but eh, it was still pretty good. b met us up there (an hour late, ahem) so that was fun. i had never been to a concert with erin before so it was quite amusing to find out that she and i are also alike there...we kind of just, observe everything. somewhat stone faced (no not stoned). i mean, we really enjoy the concert. just without the crowd surfing and random humping of strangers that often can happen. plus when you are just observing, you really can effectively count the mullets that abound in such a high fashion establishment of living such as cleveland. and boy there were some super mullets to be found. and then, we got to see booty! *squeals of happiness and pure delight abound* he followed me and erin, and b, to mentor to go to a steak and shake because jason was a punk and didnt want to get his butt out of bed at 1215 to see me *grrrrrrr* but it was still interesting. booty and i tend to have a rapid fire conversation which is fantastic though i witnessed shy brian for what i believe to be the first time ever for me. erin built a fort of random condiments and booty and i chatted for a while, and brian got involved when the conversation was turned to film. so that was cool. we left there around 3 am, filled up the gas tank, and headed back to my house where we promptly passed out at 430 shortly after walking in the door. but alas, had to get up shortly after and drive erin home. i think i've just mainly been lying around and cleaning lately. not much else. just to relax. saturday my mum and i traveled to the lake/campgrounds for my cousin's birthday party. it's sad to not really know your family anymore, ya know? i mean, you get together on holidays and for the kid's birthdays, and weddings and showers, and the conversation seems to always be the same. and everyone's health is failing, and people get on new kicks with things, but no one really knows too much about each other. and i'm at that age where it's like, i'm not a kid anymore to them, but i'm definitely still not an adult. which i know. and that's fine by me. it's just akward. not as akward as puberty mind you, but nonetheless... it was great to see the fam. my aunts and mom and i all laugh alike. so i know what i could sound like and look like when i am their age. and i love them dearly...but that's part of the reason that i am dieting and working out now. trying to set a good habit for myself. because i don't want to be sitting places with my sister and talking about my bad back or flabby arms. i just need to be careful and not over-obsess. wow, this is like the first time i publically talked about my weight. mark it down.... i really don't talk about my weight or self-image with many people. erin, b i've mentioned it to. i just mentioned it to my mom for the first time in months last week. i keep reading psalm 139, and meditating on it. and, i know that i am fearfully and wonderfully made and that every thing about me, everything i see as good, and think is bad...it's not. because i know God designed me that way. just that way. for ways i can't even imagine. yet. one day...it's the whole perfection thing i strive for i guess. okay, i know it is. i think that i can work and work and work sometimes until my body is as perfect as every other star out there. and that will help me be there. but it's not so much about image as about what's inside. and God's got that. too. but if i don't do everything i can, to be the best that i can be in every area...am i wasting my time? or God's? seeing as He's not really bound by that whole funny time thing the rest of us are... brian told me that i am drama. not a drama queen...basically, just drama personified. and i still don't quite know how to take that. i guess because the words are from b that they weigh that much more heavily on my heart. just because, he can see me, ya know? and he's honest with me, in a way that is truly uplifting and edifying. not too many people you'll meet in your life like that. so if i make little things in to big things, like i am right now, do i really want to do that? i do think too much. again though- that's the way God wired me. and i'm not a bad person because of that. and because other people...most other people, aren't like me, that's not a bad thing either. thump. darn it, i fell off my soap box again. hmm today was supposed to be six flags day with erin, but i woke up feeling like my head had been implanted with a lot of heavy lead (something has to fill up all the space in there) and there was no way i could drive so much feeling like this. sooooo lying around the house like a bum is my life. i just got a phone call finding out that my uncle is going into surgery tomorrow. to try and patch up a hole in his lung...and the doctors dont think he's going to make it. and i had to tell my mom. great. but i've learned never to ask God to make things "easy" because- that's just not life. plus, where would i have any character if this kind of thing wasn't a weekly event? but, as brian says, i am drama. okay i think i've written enough for now. it's long...i haven't written in a while. it all evens out. i am sure you hope to hear from me soon! and hey, if it's not on here, come find me, hunt me down, give me a real hug, and we'll grab a cup of oregon chai or maybe a fresh fruit smoothie and chat for a while. <> Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: frank sinatra duets "i've got a crush on you" (Comment on this)
Friday, May 9th, 2003
12:00 am	so i am a wallabee. whoa...over a week since i've written. bet you all have been sitting by your computers, waiting for the latest word in the life and times of kristy. well, hold your pants on no longer, for that time has arrived!!! hmm...let's see. what has happened? i worked on friday and saturday, so i was up at school again for what might not be the last time. i have to stop back up there again monday and get my phone from my roommate lol. and i had another wonderful three hour chat with brian...way too serious of a chat mind you- and one that is not going to happen again for a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time. i think we let ourselves get way too focused on how other people see how things "should" be or how the world outside wants things, and it's not a God-centered thing when that happens. so until he gets back from chorale tour, kristy is taking a brian sabbatical...no phone, email, anything...just praying about what i should do and how to best react and act as a woman of God towards my bro in Jesus. okay enough with that topic. now on to more exciting things. like the fact that i am an airhead! (news news news) so i forgot that my home church started at 1045 and not 11 like my church at school...so i definitely slept in to begin with and would have been ten or fifteen minutes late to the 11 oclock service...but alas, i realized before i left that i would be not a mere fifteen minutes late to church, but a whopping half hour...over a third of the way through the service. so i didnt go. i worked on my room and had some fantastic alone time. and then i went over to my grandma's with my mom and dad so we could make her a birthday dinner...she wants the weirdest things as something special...like pork. i mean, who in the world but my grandma is like, oh i want pork for my birthday? hahaha guess that's where it comes from or something. so grandma time for the whole evening, and then over to lil bro johnny's and i got to give him the green really cool chopsticks and rootbeer i got for him in san diego...and he got me this cool ring made from a sea shell he got in florida. and then his dad yelled at him to go to bed, so i went home and crawled into my warm and toasty bed with my new comforter on it. monday i worked on the room all day after i slept in till noon because doggonit, i didnt have to set an alarm and i wasnt going to! so there! tuesday, there also was working on the roomage going on (see a pattern yet???) and i think i did something else with my mom but i can't remember now because all i see in my mind is all of the stuff sprawled around my room and me trying to make calm out of chaos. its definitely a daunting task to say the least. wednesday, i had a date with my grandma (ya for grandma again!) basically, it was kristy running grandma all aorund town...ya she gets around i suppose. but it was real hard on her, which i knew it would be...she has arthritis horribly bad and all the walking around and in and out of the car and stores and then lunch at perkins...it just kicked her in the butt..she was real sore and i knew that would happen but you can't say no when grandma tells you to do something! and then i went and...dun dun DUN...got my hair chopped! okay, so it was only a little more than two inches. but it feels so much lighter and all my gross split ends are gone (another thing i hate...yuck. girls...just chop them off. long hair doesn't look good when its all crispy and frizzy. and that goes for all y'all with mullets too). so there are layers, and angles, and not shortness, but shorter than it was before. then i ran home real quick and had din-din with the fam, then off to Bible study...which was quite intriguing. we prayed and sang hymns, and then we talked about what it means to evangelize. so interesting to hear other people's takes on evangelism and witnessing and things like that. i definitely am continuing to think and pray upon what i learned and how i was challenged. then i ran into u-turn (that'd be the youth room for all of you who aren't so up to date with ybc (that's my church) lingo). got to see a lot of my girls (which i love dearly)...i miss them all so much during the school year, and it's amazing to see prayers being answered...though i get sad seeing how much they grow! they are all nearly as tall as me now...so i feel like a midget counselor or something!!! sighs...oh well! and then home, and nearly straight to bed. today i slept in again...till 11. that was nice *big smiles* and then i got up and worked on the room...yeps, still working on it...there's so much to throw away. i still can't fathom why i saved notes and papers from junior high and high school...like science notes. what was i thinking??? and i ran to wal-mart with my mom and barnes and noble because her medical dictionary that she ordered got in already. and now i figured i'd update y'all on my life...nothing deep and meaningful for now. i think i have a hard time writing at home. i never really feel at peace. i'm still waiting for that...patiently! well tomorrow i am off to work...and i will most likely be bunny-sitting (how cool is that?) more to come sooner and later...<> Current Mood: calm Current Music: justin mcroberts "after my all" (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 29th, 2003
12:12 pm	between now and then... okay this may be the shortest entry yet. i just wanted to let everyone know (who knows me) that i did not get accepted to the focus on the family institute. my heart was set on attending the institute, but i am content in knowing that God has other plans for me. this does not mean i am not sad or disappointed...right now, this hurts and it is not fun and it sucks...but that is with my limited vision. Gods plan for me is bigger and better, and i trust and hope in that. now i shall pack like a tornado and make a quick trip home. have a great day kids! (more reflections to come after i have had more reflection time...ie- not finals week!) <> Current Mood: confused Current Music: shifting sand ~caedman's call (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 23rd, 2003
11:22 pm	hmm... so, i've been thinking a lot today (that might explain the current migraine situation) and sometimes, no matter how much you love someone, or how much they love you...they still have this wonderful tendency to fail you sometimes. i mean, they aren't perfect and you aren't perfect. and you still have all these hopes and dreams and wishes for what you think a person should be- even if you say you don't. you still have these expectations- one's that you set for yourself and you still don't meet, no matter how hard you try...you always fall short somehow. so you keep trying. and you keep raising your standards...at least, in your eyes your standards are raised...because of what you've learned. and how you've grown. it's not always this tragic loss of innosence (yes i know i can't spell) but it's this loss of a part of you that didn't know...and now does. if that makes any sense? and today was really hard because it was the last chancels performance. i'm not thinking about it too much yet because i know i'll start to cry when it really hits me. it has been so amazing to perform with erin and rachel and derik all year...we have been through soooooooooooooo much together and have really seen each other through it all...if a marriage is anything like the relationship of our group, then i want to get married. because it's amazing. and then the comm. arts banquet, saying goodbye to all the seniors...i didn't realize how close i was to so many people...and so that was emotional. and amy was talked about a lot...so i am on emotional overload and i'm about to shut down so i can get through the next few days without stopping and just bawling my eyes out or whatever. anyhow, i have a special delivery to make to one special, stressed out guy. so i bid thee all farewell, and pleasant greetings and the like...have a fantastic night kids (if anyone is reading this! lol) hmmmm peace out yo<> Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: switchfoot "company car" (Comment on this)
10:08 am	so, i haven't written in what? two or three days...i figured now is as good a time as any for a quick update. that and i am avoiding my homework like the plague. anyhow! let's see...we went out for our last hoorah with chancels monday night, after rehearsal...it was kinda sad, but as usual with this group, soooooooooo much fun (derik deserves a medal being the only guy with three girls and two women all year). we went to the spaghetti warehouse and ate A LOT and then to friday's for a lot of coffee/desserts. mmmmm...i eat like a horse. then i got back on monday night and i ran up to jen's "surprise" birthday party (which was also quite amusing as she was the one who invited half the people there)...and then i tried to get some hw done but instead ended up talking with erin for a while...and then i finally started on the hw and brian called, and i got to hang out with him for a while (which is so much more fun than hw anyhow....but if i keep saying that, i will end up failing all of my classes). but i got back from b-time and read for a bit and then went to sleep approximately two hours later than i should have. but, tuesday was fantastic because ellen came here and taught a musical theater audition to my auditioning class (yaaaaaaaa!) how i have missed working with that woman! she is always so full of energy, thought, and creativity. she really is amazing...one of the rare things i miss about high school. after class, ellen had to book it to pittsburgh, and erin and i ran to work to beg to have our schedules changed....then to red robin because i havent had a blta in forever and a day...then back to school for a power nap before the apo meeting (which i believe to be the longest in the history of apo ever maybe) and then erin and i ran to walgreens and target to pick up some things for diff. people....and then it was 930 and i was back in my room...and my day was just sooooooo long...one of those days, where it's completely a normal day, but near the end, you're just drained, ya know? so i went on gospelcom.net and read a few devotionals, and part of I Corinthians....ooooooo and i finally scheduled a meeting time with dave...because i need to talk with him. something that's been on my heart for quite some time. and i got to hang out with b for a bit again last night...wow he is special. i only mean that in a short bus way a little bit. *winks* he had a long day yesterday too...funny though. how you can just not say anything with someone for so long and speak volumes...if that makes any sense? anyhow....i must stop this avoidance of hw...finals starting friday and all...have a great day kids! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "anything" from triumph of love (Comment on this)
Monday, April 21st, 2003
10:36 am	MT!!!!!!! http://quizilla.com/users/Meredith/quizzes/What%20Musical%20are%20You%3F/ haha gotta check it out. me? well... So where does the rain in Spain fall? You're My Fair Lady. You've got great music and some famous actors (Audrey Hepburn played the lead role in the movie). And by a stroke of luck, you've got a happy ending. Our low-class heroine becomes a lady, leaves the hero (after learning about his insensitive experiment on her), but eventually comes back. Yup, you're a classic! What Musical are You? brought to you by Quizilla okay sorry if that looks really ghetto or something...i just wanted to share this with y'all seeing as i am a big mt freak *winks* <> Current Mood: giddy Current Music: the answering maching beeping (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 20th, 2003
1:53 am	tee-hee-hee-ha-ho-hummmmmm.... okay, so the life and times of kristy and ponderings from thursday, friday, and saturday... thursday, i slept in. oh yes i did. until nearly 1030 am...it was glorious *big smiles* and then, up and ready for a lil shopping, then class at one...after class, i got some errands done and then worked from 4-close, but it was with erin so all was cool and entertaining...cept for the nasty customers...i swear, they pick nights and come all at once or something. so, i run to walmart after work with erin and we get food from taco bell or some disgusting place like that and i head back to my room to do laundry. i throw a load in the wash, and i think i might just pass out and die or something, so i go to take a (brief) nap while my clothes spin and rinse away. i sleep for 3 hours, until three am...wake up, finish my laundry, and pack like a madwoman, and shower and get ready so i can be at the theater at 730 to leave for sight and sound. friday morning, three hours barely of sleep, and i am still my usual fifteen minutes late to the theater. i was actually all ready on time except i couldn't find my Bible....there was a mad twenty minute search for it in the living room while three girls were passed out on the futon, couch, and extra bed out there...and i finally realized that someone had shoved my Bible under the futon...i proceeded to haul it across campus as fast as i could with two large bags of clothes/shoes for the trip and my time at home, plus my bookbag, purse, and rob bear. im sure it was a sight to anyone who was awake to see...anyhow, the eight plus hour trip to sight and sound was entertaining in itself, as derik drove the whole way. granted, i love derik with my whole heart, really...but he scares the living daylights out of me when he's behind the wheel, especially the wheel of a rather large van. and i like my daylights all nice and quiet inside me. so i slept most of the way there, minus food times. i also wrote a rather lengthly letter...with much thought put into it. and listened to my random music. finally, around 430 pm, we arrived. anne and rachel and i went promptly to our room, and a few of the kids decided to head to the vast expanse of a wal-mart in lancaster, PA, while the rest of us stayed and explored. we really wanted to go into the hot tub, but at 430 pm, feared the thought, for there were many a fat old men with hair in gross places that were dispersed throughout the pool/hot tub area, along with many noisy children and their frustrated parents. so, we waited until about five pm, and anne and i put our suits on, knowing that good parents would have their kids getting ready for dinner by this point and the elderly generation in the sauna area would want their early bird specials. and as common sense would have it, we were right, and the hot tub was empty and waiting for us...so relaxing...and we chilled for nearly an hour before getting out to get ready for the show that evening. the story of daniel, at sight and sound, was AMAZING. real animals, the most amazing sets i believe i will ever see (to rival broadway in truth) and some very talented actors and singers. it was very good, as the genesis account would say. afterwards, we went out to dinner with john and darci (aww, so cute together really). john played satan and darci was in the ensemble, jumping to various roles as she was called to. we had some good convo and food yummmm....and then there was much reading about intercourse, PA as the amish evidentally have lots of journals and brochures about intercourse (the city that is) and picture taking with anne (lol in different positions mind you) and trena falling between the bed and the wall and continually laughing as we tortured her and yelling out that her butt was too big to get up....such fun with the girlies, mind you! and i got to talk with brian for a brief moment...poor thing was prolly frightened to death because trena was purring into the phone at him and i was laughing so hard i thought i might pee myself...and the mounting comment couldnt have helped anything...but its always good to talk with him. he can always make me laugh, and i get to catch some of the details of his day, which is a wonderful thing. lol....oh and i yelled at t and i feel real bad about it (so trena, my dear friend, i apologize, sincerely, for nearly cussing you out on the phone). she called to tell me a joke and make me smile before i fell asleep, but the problem was that i had already gone to sleep. so i just said, not cool kristy was sleeping ya thanks bye, and hung up on her...oh bless her heart! then, up again wayyyyyy too early saturday morning, but after packing and a bagel breakfast, we got a tour from one of the SM's of the theater, the inner workings and whatnot. and i kept having to smack jared because there were a lot of buttons when we were around the sound, light, and media boards (not to mention the pyrotechnics they were setting up while we were on stage) and well, bright shiney objects can be distracting. man i am such a mom. but the tour rocked out and i might just go to CITA this summer so i can audition for the groups even though i cant join any till after i graduate....if i dont get this college thing done at once, it wont get done. and i know it...if i left, i wouldnt come back...not for a long while. and ive put too much into it already to do that. then the drive home (where i again slept most of the way with jared as my new footrest or something) and thank heavens Jim drove on the way back....i wasnt so scared at all. and, the group dropped me off at my house so i wouldnt have to drive the hour back from school...wahooooo! and i am now at home with my puppies, parents, and sibling. i ran some errands with my mom, and then showered, and then erin called and she came up for the evening with her friend josh...we wanted the mocha house, but alas, any and everything remotely cool closes before midnight in a small town. so, we settled for TGIFridays. and josh is prolly scared to death of me from the first impression because they didnt even get here till almost midnight, so i was already slap happy from the tiredness of my being. oh well...he can laugh it up i suppose. and now i am real tired. i don't know whats on the agenda for travel plans as of Easter Sunday. i might have to meander around and pick my grandma up, or she just might not want to go...lots of family time will be had either way, which is always entertaining... ive been thinking a lot about my catholic roots and how i have changed since i left the church. how forgetful i am about some things, while others could not escape my mind if i tried to force them out. i think i am going to start celebrating lent again this coming year. i want to make sure that i really reflect on the purpose of Jesus on this earth, and not just allow it to be this pagan holiday to the fertility gods with eggs and a fuzzy white bunny. i want to remember who my Victor is more than i do now. im not saying ill be perfect because i remember more, just that it puts things in perspective a lot more when i have the intelligence to know What my focus should be. ive been more and more thankful for life lately. ive been realizing more and more how undeserving we all are of grace, yet how it is given to us with unconditional love...and how that can be right in front of us and we dont even realize it. the book i am reading now, max lucado's "God Came Near" is really making me think more and more about what grace truly is, and who i am because of it. anyhow, again, i am real tired...so off to read a bit and then bed time for kristy o. hope you all have a wonderful day and a happy and blessed Easter...because the blessing truly is the celebration of knowing that Jesus Is Risen...God bless<> Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: ffh "take me as i am" (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 17th, 2003
2:45 am	denny's... so i have the best friend ever...i got to hang out again with b tonight...such a blessing i tell ya! let's see...what have i been up to... monday...class, paper, lunch, class, strike, pics with trena, strike, pics with brian, apo (a newly elected secretary for the spring semester because i will hopefully be in colorado springs in the fall wahooooo), strike...wow the make-up and dressing rooms are amazing, after erin and i got through with them. i think they might actually sparkle because they are that clean and organized. and thennnnnnn...we watched a copy of chicago and i don't know where it came from or who's it was, but it was great to see that again...and then i was up till four am doing my focus app...but it's done! and all is sent in, and now i shall just wait until i know if i am in or not... tuesday we worked on our final audition package in class....and yaaaaaaa...my shakespeare sucks a rotten egg. blech. i so need to work on it (anyone with character tips for isabella from measure for measure, feel free to let me know!) then a quick trip to linda's office and to the post office to get everything mailed off...then some reading and such and dinner with my girlies and then christian drama class (ya, the coolest group of girls i've ever been in class with!!!) and then i came back to my room last night and passed out before the clock even hit ten pm...which is this rare occassion for me *as you can see with me posting a journal at 245 in the am... and then up again at eight for class, chapel, lunch, paper, class, quick dinner, classish/cancelled/nap time...however i think it was in the forces of nature and satan that i not get a nap today...three phone calls in twenty minutes is a bit much, dont you think so? and then work until close weeeeee.....and then time with brian. so great...laughing the whole time really...it's just...strange? and i've got south pacific running through my head and my internal monologue is going "FRIENDS! FRIENDS! he is your FRIEND!" but there is that pesky part of my heart that evidentally wants to get broken a lot or something that is trying to convince me otherwise...and regardless of all this, i know that first, he is my brother in Christ, and all else stems from that. so he truly is my friend. such great times and random rovings around...killer shadows and statues and whatnot (feel free to ask) and now i am just real tired so i am gonna wind things up here and head to cuddle with my warm blankies and teddy bear. night kids <> Current Mood: grateful Current Music: "you wouldn't know" justin mcroberts (Comment on this)
Monday, April 14th, 2003
2:13 am	lol...hmmmmmmm You are Tatyana from Tchaikovsky's "Eugene Onegin"! You're definitely a dreamer, and though you may seem reserved you're actually a very warm and passionate person. Unfortunately, not a lot of people get to know the real you since you tend to keep to yourself and your books. You love deeply--just try not to get too crushed if things don't work out. which DIVA are you? http://quizilla.com/users/greenteez/quizzes/Which%20DIVA%20are%20you%3F/ (Comment on this)
1:19 am	movie time... the film fest rocked last night! my parents came to see the play, and then to the film fest to see the movie i was in....I LOVE MY MOM AND DAD A LOT- they are the best! brian and jason swept really in awards...the won best editing, best direction, and the audience choice award. brian also won best actor (cuz he rocked out) and i won best actress...five awards for one movie...i think jason and brian almost peed their pants or something. actually...when the movie came on, i thought brian would pee his pants for real. not to say that i wasn't nervous, in a semi-large room full to over max capacity with people peering in the doors and in the lobby so they could see, and me on screen. *screams of terror* (leans in to whisper) i made brian hold my hand when it came on because i was scared. and because he can always calm me down and make me smile. you know, sometimes i watch brian (not in that creepy stalker way)...just, people watching. and sometimes, i find myself envying his childlike heart. everything is always new and wonderful and exciting for him...all things little and seemingly mundane, and all things large and full of glamour...it's all exciting for him...and sometimes i wish i had that, more. and his laughter (how many times i have told him this!) comes from his heart...i don't believe he could do that fake, petty laughter that so many of my aquaintances do...that laughter that almost seems to be pitying the person who's benefit it is for (usually my own). and i hate when that fake laughter comes out of me. but, sometimes it does. and i'd be a fool to deny it. i guess it's a part of who i am. no scratch the guessing...i know. and it's one of those parts of myself that i would rather not admit to at times...most times. but it's also so encouraging to see that brian laughs from his heart...and that all things are always new with him...to see the child-like faith in such a real way. it reminds me that's where i need to be more...for real yo. anyhow, after the so so soooooo cool open frame film contest (which all six films really were amazing by the way) there was a group of about 14 or 15 of us that went to perkins...so much drama i tell you! so there are these drunk girls who are all fat...well not fat, just those girls that are not skinny but are wearing clothes like they shouldn't showing that roll over their pants and cleavage that shouldn't be happenin' for the general public, ya know? (ya, pleeeeeeeeaase do not be "that" girl)...all drunk and yelling at the random cop and the waitresses in perkins at 230 in the am....LOL and of course my whole table is just staring at them all...i tell ya, these people need to come to y-town with me for like two days, and i'll show them around...cuz i don't think these people really understand the true meaning of the word ghetto as has been defined by the y-town area. i mean, the fight thing would have been like "pshhhhhha whateva" in y-town really. well that and much laughter from the surrounding patrons. so the poor waitress is real tired or something and can't really get our orders straight....it takes like over an hour to serve our table and about five or six of us just ordered a piece of pie, or a small sundae and a few people didn't order anything but drinks, and then maybe four people got actual "meals"....and poor matt wanted a small order of fries, and when they finally came out (an hour and a half later) it was this reject fry plate with maybe a half-order on it....so, the waitress didn't really get a good tip...other than the mandatory gratuity already added on to the bill. there was also a bit of drama because brian got all mad that i insisted on paying for him...he wanted to pay for me or something...some guys just don't want ya to do something nice for them every once in a while! but, as i never ever ever lose an argument *winks* i paid for him anyway. i think he was a bit upset but he got over real quick. so then it's maybe 3 or 4 in the morning, and a group of us head over to brian's grandma's house (for those who were there, the random pointed fingers and wiggle are inserted here for the sign to "party"). at this point, we're all real tired, and mellow...so we're just sitting around and the guys are all playing with the random grandma stuff (ps...brian's fam was in florida so the house was empty for us to chill in at four am) like afghan blankets and the bevy of toys for brian's cousins. the best was chad sitting in the corner with the keyboard and random plastic instruments and making a variety of musical selections as the background music for the rest of our conversation for at least an hour or two. and as we were all so tired, no one thought this was weird...except when the music would stop. and then requests were tossed over to chad and the beat would be picked up or a tambourine would be added. by 5:30 i was wiped out and though there were a bunch of guys all sleeping in the same room, i felt that it'd be best that i went back to my room for the night...sleeping in a small dark room with a bunch of guys might not be the best idea...more to expound on that but just ask me if ya really want to know. so brian was an absolute doll *surprise, yet again, and big smiles all around inserted here* and brought me back to school...so, in bed at six am...took the first day of rest i've had in a VERY long time and skipped church to sleep until 230 pm...got up, got ready, chilled for a bit...and surprised erin with jared with the most random assortment of gifts i may have ever seen...but erin laughed real hard (it involved the decoration of the interior of her car with a large purple hoola-hoop, a long lime green sponge noodle for swimming wrapped around the steering wheel like "the club" and a bag full of a small lobster beanie-baby, a cinnamon and sugar container in the shape of a penguin, rawhide treats for erin's dog, a game entitled "tower of bunnies" and a large sum of big fake cash (which was also strewn about the interior of her car and placed under the windshield wipers to flap in the wind)). wow that was a long sentence- sorry! and then j and i went to the yummy chinese place and ate a lot...also, chocolate pudding with chopsticks is the best, i might add! anyhow, there is much avoidance of both sleep and hw right now...just thinking too much, i suppose. ever get that way? where it's like...you have so much on your mind and you don't even know how to express it all? i don't know. maybe i'm just rambling at this point. either way, i need to sleep. have a great night kids! and let me know what you think...i'd love to know! <> Current Mood: mellow Current Music: "ants" dmb (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 12th, 2003
4:23 pm	wow... *sighs* alas, i have not written for a few days and i am sure y'all have been dying to know what has been going on in my life....so, i digress into filling in the blanks for you wonderful folks (southern accent and all). so...i think the last time i wrote i was a complete airhead and accidentally posted this insanely long journal twice...sorry 'bout that! but...since then...let's see...i've been working so hard on my focus on the fam. app....and it's still not done! i am gonna have to fax it to them so they get it in time, and then send the hardcopy so they have all the original stuff as well. i've got two alum's sending in letters of reference for me, so that should be a plus as well! so much work on these essays though, really. i ended up working on that and the "got milk?" thing until about three a.m. thursday night (whoa the wild child i am, staying up all hours of the night after a show to do...homework). *rolls eyes* thursday, i got to see my headshots and whoa scary times for that!!! not so much a fan of the headshot-ness. at least not of me (but then again, there have been like, three pictures of myself that i've liked, ever, so, eh). but it was a terrifically fun auditioning class (so funny that we are actually now starting to mesh at the very very end of the semester, but it's good to be able to laugh and joke with these people now...for a while, two of the guys were real stand-offish to me and erin, i guess 'cause we're not models or whatever. now only one is real weird like that, but he just needs to get over himself...no more shall be said about him. AND the best part of the class- it is for sure that ellen is going to come on the 22nd and teach class about music rep and musical theater auditions (such excitement from me *squeals* weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!). i have missed her so much...and it will be lots of fun to work with her again (always a good time). after auditioning class...i think i took a nap. *surprise* and then i got up and went to call, putting on make-up and such for so long of a time. then there was the show, and then after the show, the aforementioned diligent work on the focus app and whatnot... and more fun times were had on friday...even though it was way early in the am. for me at least. i got up at 9 am, but it was well worth it because i went shopping with trena (a new great friend) and i helped her pick out this rockin' outfit for the film fest, as she's student coordinator of it and all (and i must say, dang i have great taste). and we had lunch and then i was wisked off to class, which wasn't too boring for the only class i have on friday's. after class, i headed on down to the comm. arts office as i was supposed to *cough cough* have a meeting with dear oh great one dr. andrew rudd...but to no avail, as he forgot that he double booked with CA interviews (again, i pause in such shock and disbelief). but i ended up getting to see the film i am in while i was down there, so i don't freak out when i see it tonight with myself on a big screen in a semi-large room full of people. and i had lots of bonding time with anne lawson- a new hero of mine, mind you. such a hilarious prof! i don't think i could major in anything but comm...they are all really the best *big smiles* and i helped make the awards for the film fest as well...why i did, i don't quite know, as i am in the film fest, so it might just be weird if i have to go up and accept and award that i made. eh, whateva.... i then picked up the book "God Came Near" by max lucado and read a lot of it...a fantastic read if you'd like...it's a compilation of lots of short stories, although i have to say...it's a little more thought provoking than chicken soup for the *insert group here* soul.....so watch out if you don't expect to be inspired! and then. off to call. again. make-up, act, blah blah blah...oh but the funniest thing happened during the show! LOL the ramp broke during act one (of three) so me and two other peeps were there, and thankfully, mind you...because we knew what to do...so we disasemble the ramp from the ark at intermission and we have extension cords and power tools and paint and all else so we fix the ramp in 20 minutes...good as new...and have it back in for when it is next needed- in act 3. whoa that rocked...love the adrenaline of dealing with stuff in live theater...both technically and on stage (acting and such). so after the show, i do the usual clean the make-up and dressing rooms thing, haul it back to my room, change, make-up, and hair in fifteen minutes, and i am ready for the dance...where i make a fifteen minute appearance to appease friends that i had promised i would go...and then, off to the cast party. j and erin and i went together...but we only stayed 'till midnight (so much tiredness going on) and i was back and in bed at one...to get my ghetto booty to roll out of bed way to early yet again (this time, 8 am!) to get ready for work...well that was fun. i ended up in the cage, yet again...10-4...and let me tell you...be nice to people when you have to return stuff in stores! lol there are people that are near or are cussing me out because i have to follow store policy on stuff like how to do a return. and i was real tired so i got chocolate and that helped....and dr. pepper....mmmmmmmm it's soooo good. and now i am back in my dorm room, chillin' before call tonight...i think i shall head to the theater earlier and make sure the ramp is secured for the last night of the show....IT'S THE LAST NIGHT OF THE SHOW (THE HALLELUIA CHORUS RINGS IN MY EARS) and tonight is the best because my parents are amazing....they are coming up to see the show, and then after the show they are gonna head to the film festival with me....so they'll just be spending from 730-100 am watching me perform. just because they love me, that much *insert HUGE smile here* after the fest, i guess brian is having people hang out or something? i will most likely go....i don't have to get up real early on Sunday, cuz i go to church at 11 pm (thank the Lord for later services) and then it's more photo time with trena...but that's the update on the funness of my life right now...maybe i'll go do something real interesting like read or nap or i don't know...something not involved with customer service at this point really. more to come later, like actual thoughts from me. have a great day and smile a lot for me! it's been fun<> Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "all that jazz" chicago, ya baby *winks* (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 10th, 2003
12:57 am	weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. SORRY I THINK THIS POSTED TWICE BUT HERE IS THE COMPLETE VERSION!!! wow kristy is now on chocolate. lots of chocolate...oreo madness from friday's....so, i apologize in advance for any random stupidity that incoherently finds it's way onto this page tonight. wow i am tired as well. so it's been a pretty fantastic day all in all. i made it to my 9 am class (a real triumph if you know me and mornings) then i came back and slept through chapel time (cuz i only have to go to one more right now) until 1130 and then went up to lunch with the coolest roommie ever...and we laughed. a lot. along with a few cool other people who were laughing and such with us. and i saw dear courtney, whom i love ever so much and her and i must get together for starbucks soon so please remind me of that all lest i forget and she graduates and leaves me without a warm mug of caramel apple cider and some big ole' laughs!!! that would be sad times. hmm and then i did my homework for my 1 oclock class and went to it. and it was pretty boring because when we are told to write a story about a person, the people in my class evidentally think that to tell about a person means to write about how a person effected them. BORING...and everything in first person. after class, i finished up a letter to send out to theater peeps about an award APO is starting in memory and honor of Amy E. Watkins....that is a complete other journal entry and i don't wanna cry now so i will not write about her now. anyhow! finished up the letter, ran to mail some stuff, drop off a recommendation to pastor r-dawg in the hizzouse. worked some more on my focus app and then took a break and went to dinner with dita and jess *always a fun time with those two...gotta love the roommies!!! haha all was well and full of giggles and thinly sliced bananas and slushies...and then i look over to the table next to us as a *cough cough* former boy "friend" sits down and that pesky inner monologue of mine just doesn't know how to hide itself...so i immediately, without really thinking of course, blurt out "yuck!" and dita and jess both erupt into laughter because i was so loud. and it was funny. although totally inadvertent in action by me...wow i need to start watching what i say. but eh, you only live once, ya know? then i ran back to the room to help erin choreograph what i am sure was probably one of the funniest things this campus has ever seen...so there's this whole "superstar" american idol thing going on, on campus, this evening. and erin get's the bright idea to enter, with the peggy lee song "fever"...if you don't know it, look up the lyrics and you'll recognize it. the song in itself would be funny enough, but never do erin or i just go for funny "enough" sooooo...erin sings the song in her now infamous "little voice" (think elf on speed or something like that). alas, i sadly could not witness the comedy of the evening as i sat up in the dressing room working on hw for an hour because i have nothing else to do up there for an hour...but i caught the end of it so i captured some of the essence of the crowd...they were cool. afterwards, erin, dee, and i went to the aforementioned friday's and got desserts. because ya just can't be chocolate when all else fails. and we laughed (wow i seem to do that a lot...and say the word wow a lot tonight as well). and erin almost peed her pants. that was fun...really a goal i have to make her do that (oh what i aspire to). and now, there's this quote that i read from a friend tonight... "The very worst thing you can do in life is settle for anything or anyone just because it's "fine." Search until your heart soars, until you know that you wouldn't want to be any other place in the world. Because the most terrible thing to be is the person who was settled for by the one you love the most." and i am sitting here thinking about that. because, the previously mentioned former friend would have just been me settling. because i really don't know what i want right now, at least not "in a man" (that was in the hen voice from disney cartoons). i just want to be friends. and have fun. without worrying that some guy is gonna get all fresh on my or something. and i was thinking about something my friend mike wrote earlier....how it's like....there are all these people all around you that seem to be falling in love or in love or have been in love and still have this great friendship...and i've not had that. i've had a lot of learning experiences. painful ones, for the most part. and i keep holding out in the hope that one day, i will have that. i don't expect it...but i hope and pray for it. and i believe we all need to hope....ya know...i don't know if i could go a day without hope in it. that'd be pretty depressing. because there is this hope that there is someone out there made for me, and i for him. and there's always hope. there's always faith, hope, and love...but the greatest of these, is love. and i hope in true love...not just from some amazing man that God has for me and i for him, but of the love that God has for me....it's so much bigger. bigger than me, or me fears, and insecurities...bigger than my dreams and all that i could ever imagine...more than enough. with that parting, joyful, thought...goodnight. sweet dreams and starlight kisses on your eyelids...peacefully. *winks* Godspeed and my prayers are with you<> (Comment on this)