november 2004 the situation never changed
Life is absurd. I mean, what are we here for? I could look for the answer in religion, but that isn´t the right thing either. Religion is only about giving people something to believe in. It isn´t a solution to the problem. It tells us to live our lifes as well as possible and believe there is a better world somewhere out there waiting for us. But I cannot say I´m really satisfied with being told only to live „well“. What is well? Everyone of us has a different point of view, different wants and needs and so it is completely impossible to summarize life as a whole and find a global life aspiration when it is clear that so such thing can be achieved. Life is something special and I´m convinced that there is still a lot to find out about it. However, I am also quite sure that this, meaning to find out, is completely impossible.
Another darling day of my exciting life is running past me and I can´t do anything but watch it slowly disappearing in the veil of the Past leaving a now fresh, though still slowly disappearing, memory of boredom, cold, fever and flu.