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i think i´ll work as a prophet in the near future
sooo. today: shopping, end of part two, hopefully not to be continued, (success!!!) ... kiwi peeling... history, 15th-17th century, europe... scrabble... plan for the rest of the day: tv watching, oscar wilde reading at the same time... more history... quasimodo´s poetry, bed. the end :-)
what exciting weekends, aren´t they? ;-))
giant kiss to all, have a pleasant rest of the day, byeeeeeeee
is this what´s usually called weekend?
stress, running about the city center, running about the city´s shopping centers and searching like an idiot for suitable christmas presents. all of you know the feeling, i assume. who has been the one to invent christmas anyway?? the only people who profit from it are the proprietors of the shops, i guess. well, i survived it... end of part one :-)
the rest of the day? peeling grapefruits and other foreign unidentifiable citrus fruits for my lazy parents and watching a seemingly never ending movie about some guys who went for a trip to the past in the evening.
fine day, wasn´t it?... and if i imagine tomorrow will be the same... perfectly the same with the only exception that instead of italian literature i will be studying history....
there´s nothing to add... only: have a pleasant weekend... at least some of you...
guess my entries are getting longer all the time - have to take care of that:
memo to myself: no long monologues about nothing
and: alex, please don´t kill me for what i´ve written here, ok?
note for my mum in case she finds out about this blog: more than sixty per cent of the things written here are only fiction, like you said they would be. no one is stupid enough to write about real life here :-)))))
come on sing it!
nay, just another happy day :-) nothing serious, really. and my mental health is getting better, believe me :-)
yesterday i have decided to see what happens if i turn on skype on the skype-me mode... you know, when i turn on the ordinary skype in one afternoon usually about two new people write to me. but with skype-me mode i got eight replies from unknown people in less than two minutes! and i´m not kidding! what confusion! i had it going bout twenty minutes but i thought i was going to get mad. in about ten minutes i had no idea what i had repied to whom so i had to re-read the whole conversation everytime i wanted to send a reply... that was hard. i quit it all and returned to chat with brian - didn´t hear anything from him in a long time. he´s on skype right now but i don´t feel like writing him at the moment... (and i still have to solve the problem with my bikini photos. he promised me to become a millionaire and to marry me afterwards. but he said he´ll show me my engagement ring only after having seen my semi-naked photos... hmmm... should i get some taken? i wonder what he would say if i sent them to him... ;-)
speaking of semi-naked-ness ;-) reminds me of alex. today i wrote him. i´ve decided to change my mind after all :-) hard decision, really ;-) it makes no sence blaming him for anything... poor guy. had suffered enough just listening to me (like all of you do now) but, well, i´m still curious how things will end... i didn´t want to write him first - he should be the one looking for me - i thought but... well... it just wouldn´t be ME anymore if i left him alone :-) (sorry, okay?, doday i´ve sent you my blog adress so you´ll be probably reading this, right? i wonder what you think about my english... we´ve always been speaking in italian...)
is there anything else to discuss in public? oh, sure. i´d like to apologize to all of my friends for ruining their privacy by this blog... but i have a damn good excuse. i´m mad. and it´s your fault that you are my friends.
i have still about seven minutes´ time to write.... i´ve decided to go to bed early every day... improves my thinking skills, it´s good for the memory AND i´m less tired in the morning :-) all in one.
hmmm... can´t think of anything... well, i´ve become a friend of patricia´s dog but... well... i´ll tell you about that another time. you need the full version... :-)
and besides, it´s already late, so... goodnight all... means ludka, tina, macca ( or whatever his blurty-name was - my english penfriend - if he has found out about my blog existence - i´ll make it known to him later on - however i´ve added him to my friends list soooo... hmm. hope he isn´t reading this, yet, there´s a lot of nonsence i´ve written) :-) and alex, of yourse (ever present in my life since he´s written to me for the first time)
late. tired. goodnight. sweet dreams... and dream of ME, all of you ;-) byeeeeeee
yours forever, dragontail
what a day!
had an exam of economy. i survived... the teacher asked us to write down the names of those of us who don´t wont to take the final exam in economy in the end of the year. i was one of the few "lucky" ones. all of the other lucky ones were there by mistake. (i adore the slovak school system, you know) they had chosen this subject last year because last year we had to choose more subjects from which we had to take the final exam. but in the end, instead of five subjects there will be only four and so some people have weird unuseful subjects in addition... (haha) and the teacher asked us why the people on the list were here and i was the only one to be there NOT by accident. he asked me why on earth had i chosen a subject that i won´t need for the exam and i said "you know i´m following you. i liked your subject last year (when it was obligatory) and so i´m here this year as well..." and he replied: "well, suchanova, that´s the most irrational answer i´ve ever heard" and he began to laugh. seemed to be having a good time... :-) but, well, i like him - and that´s not my fault ;-)
what else happened today? well, i have been examined in italian literature as well. (pirandello. not bad. quite interesting. good style. partially enjoyable.) and, evidently, i did a good job. some of my classmates came to congratulate me at the end of the lesson. now this is what i call success! :-)
and after school i spent three hours discussing boys with one of my best friends, tina. had a relaxing chat about them. tina asked me "how do you know when you´re in love?" i simply HAD to find an answer good enough for her. and i was curious myself. what IS love? can you explain it in words? what are words good for? well, in the end i kinda gave up. no sense to try to describe it in words. it truly IS impossible. but we solved her love problem together so she forgave me that i hadn´t given her an answer to her first question. then she asked ME how did things work out with alex. well, and i confess... i complained a bit.
guess it´s okay when i consider myself single at the time. had he been able to come and see me, things might have been different... i loved him. i truly did. but what is that good for if he lives in italy and i´m in slovakia... e-mails just aren´t enough forever. especially if he doesn´t write me enough. i was begging him to tell me... to tell me anything... truly anything - i would have listened - but no, he didn´t. said he was busy at work. said he didn´t want to turn on the home computer after work, said he´s fed up with computers at work and doesn´t want do sit at the pc at home as well if it wasn´t really necessary. i though i would be enough important for him to make him turn on that damned thing in the evening - guess i was mistaken. and phone calls? he rarely called me. said it´s too expensive and he was right, of course... i can´t blame him for that. and, thinking about it i can´t blame him for not writing me, either. it hadn´t made any sense from the beginning. yes, fine idea to fall in love with a person i met only on the internet, but, on the whole, the whole thing was destined to fall apart, sooner or later... and i knew it... the whole time. but it left a hole in my heart anyway. my fault. i know it.
gotta go. mum´s home
still alive. guess i just lived another happy day of my life. and THAT doesn´t happen very often.
i had a very pleasant chat on skype with a 28 year old italian guy from treviso... reminds me of alex... hm. i wonder if they know each other... that might be fun :-)
however this guy, his name is andrea if i´m not mistaken, said he´s coming to bratislava to celebrate new year´s eve... said he´s coming with some friends of his and one of them is going to see his slovak girlfriend. oh, well, that probably won´t be me...
alex said he can´t come. busy at work. has only one or two days of holiday... he surely won´t come to see ME...
and now this new guy askes me to stay in bratislava after christmas to meet HIM. should i? shouldn´t i?
no, i wouldn´t. of course. the only person on planet earth that would have the power to convince me is alex. and he won´t come.
hmm. i guess i´m repeating myself. that´s a bad sign, isn´t it? ;-)
i also should do some serious writing here but... dunno... i´m not in the right mood to do that. but i probably won´t be in the right mood in the next months either so in the meantime i´m just gonna write some rubbish. the only person who knows about this blog so far is ludka... and she´ll survive it. i´m sure of that.
anyways, ludka has no time to read stupid diaries at the time... she´s gonna take the FCE english exam in the near future. has to study a lot, poor thing. i wonder how she manages it. english, dancing AND school. and she´s doing really well at school. am i envious? well, probably... ;-)
i´d better go to sleep now. i know it´s still early but i´ve been too lazy to study for tomorrow´s exam at school, had other things to do (rewriting some notes of italian literature for one of my classmates, for example) so i´ll have to get up early tomorrow to study. or study now? noooo. what a silly idea :-))
good night people. sweet dreams. i´m sending a colossal good night kiss to anyone who is reading this. i admire you for reading it ;-) byeeeee
dear diary
how are you?
lol
just kidding. i´m still quite sane, don´t worry. temporarily stressed, but guess i´ll have to cope with that. yes, life in general is a difficult thing to handle :-) but that´s the reason it´s been created for...
ok. i survived another day of my life, or so it seems. done a lot of error correcting - seems my darling classmates are unable to write their english essays without my help. but it´s fun, believe me. you get to see the most incredible mistakes. funny my slovak classmates make typical italian errors... oh, well, life is strange after all...
okay. gotta go now. hope to write soon. and then email my blog adress to some friends. i truly have no time to write o tthem. that´s a pity! but this way i have to write my news only once. saves a lot of time... hope my friends won´t get angry with me for being neglected in this way. and for my displaying their personal happenings on net. i´m an awfully sincere person. and even more so when i´m writing. :-) some of my "friends" might be surprised in a not very pleasant way... but it´s their fault if they´re not enough nice to me, right? ;-)
italian literature is awaiting me... great thing. you should try reading some
byeeeeeee