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Opposites attract? [16 Mar 2005|01:08am]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | "Sweet Child O' Mine" by Guns N' Roses ]

K, I currently have this HUUUUGE crush on this girl at my work. Tonight I basically HAD to make a move because this other idiot was starting to hit on her. Supposedly they talked on the phone for like an hour and he asked her if she wanted to hang out sometime. In guy terms, a date. I heard that and I was like "fuck no... she's mine" And I honestly felt like she was for a while there. But then I realized that I was jealous over some kid who doesn't know her and like her like I do. She even told me herself... I'm closer to her than anyone right now. She's told me more than she's told anyone, which right there tells me she has some feelings for me too. But I've never really acted on it because 1) She's a big flirt. Sometiems I wonder if she does this just to make me jealous, but she flirts around with a lot of guys and that kinda iritates me sometimes, but that might change if we go out. 2) Her parents are extreme-churchies... Nothing against that whatsoever but the thing is... I'm not exactly what they want their daughter dating. I'm agnostic... It's taken me a while to realize this, but I know that deep inside I'm agnostic and obviously her parents might not like that. They'll tell her "no dating this Satan worshiper" (which isn't what I am) and bam... Instant bummer. But if I had to go to church and "pretend" that I believed everything said there and enjoyed it, I honestly feel it might be worth it to show this girl I love her. Then again, I'd be lying to her parents and they'd think I'm a fake. So, that sucks. 3) We work together. We see each other A LOT. But she's a shitty worker sometimes and I get annoyed with the things she does. I love her to death, but the way she WORKS is just... ARG! And at times I'm left to clean her messes because I'm willing to sacrifice my time for that. I just feel that working together in the same place and dating might become annoying to me, but at the same time, when we work together she puts a huge smile on my face. We flirt too much at work lol... I think my boss is getting pissed.

Funny thing is though... My boss (Not Matt... my new kickass sub-boss) pushed me to tell her to call me sometime. Yes, her to call me becuase I HATE calling people. I HATE the phone. I'm either a face-to-face person, or I best express myself in writing... My feelings are always stronger when I write it down on paper. The phone just makes me feel like we're seperated by this wall... i can hear her, but I can't see her or touch her. Sucks. But yeah, I hate the phone but if that's gonna be our main connection, besides work, then so be it.

Another funny thing is... My last girlfriend came from a big churhy family too. WTF is up with that?! Here i am with an orange car that has skulls all over it with a "SolTaker" license plate (I'll post pictures at some point) and I'm dating these very bubbly, upbeat, outgoing, hyper and cute girls that have parents who worship the very religion I question. I'm completely opposite of that! I'm pretty mellow, calm, keep to myself, quiet-ish but with a weird sense of the world around us. So yeah, these last two big crushes I've had have been pretty strange because they're not what people would expect I'd like. Like the saying goes though... Opposites attract. She brings out the funny but cheesy side in me and I bring out this calm but loving side in her. We're comfortable to be who we are in front of each other. I mean, we have moments where we just stare at each other and it's not awkward... That's when I think you know it's right. So before this jackass guy decides to reel her in before I do (although I know my line's stronger ;)) I think I need to start making a stronger effort... K, maybe he's not a jackass since I haven't met him, but he's trying to take something I love away from me. Das not coo!

Wow... Sean gone soft? Save this foos! :P

stnemmoC

Home Alone... [13 Feb 2005|10:16pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | "Cells" by The Servant ]

My parents went to Vegas for the weekend until Tuesday, so I've been home alone. Sounds fun, right? Considering I requested the weekend off from work because I thought I might be going to my grandparents (which I obviously didn't) I've had nothing to do. I mean, nothing. All my friends work, and they honestly don't give a shit about me. I don't have a girlfriend (lmao...) and the only girl I do like (I mean... Really like. I have plenty of girl-friends o_O) was working all weekend... She works at KFC/Taco Bell, btw... The only good thing to come from that job. So, I watched movies all weekend. I watched: Resident Evil: Apocolypse, Meet The Fockers (ripped DVD), Spider-Man 2, and The Bourne Supremacy... So yeah, nothing too bad, actually. Then I drove around a lot to get gas, dinner, visit that girl at my work and get her a chocolate shake from Dairy Queen, laid around, did nothing but drown myself in boredom. Then I have to go to school tomorrow... But since I don't have a parking spot at school and my mom isn't here to give me a ride... I have to ride my bike to school. Woo hoo. Then tomorrow night I work until 11:00 (which I probably won't get out until 11:30... On a school night. Bullshit) and then I work basically the rest of the week. Mon-Wed, Fri-Sun... Tomorrow I pick up my check, which better have the 17 something hours that was missing from my last paycheck on there... If that check isn't over $300 I'm gonna be pissed.

Anyways, I got my class ring this week :D It's sooooooo badass. Except the "jewel" in it which looks like it came from a gumball machine. But the whole thing is sterling silver with my school's mountain lion mascott on it, and a yin-yang with my name above it, then my name engraved on the inside. My initials are on the sides of the jewel, and the jewel is square and this cool silver color with this multi-diamond design. It's very very cool up close, but it looks kinda "cheap" far away with that jewel... It's a $250+ dollar ring though... That's not cheap my friends. Anyways, I took pictures of it, so hopefully I'll be able to get those posted sometime soon.

Also, I signed up to do some community service which is a project we have to do for my Government class... We have to do 8 hours of community service, take pictures, and write a report and all this shit. Basically, I'm gonna do this habitat for humanity thing where we go out to a part of Arizona and build a home for a family... Well, help paint, do electrical, put stuff up and all that. That's 4 hours. Then I'm picking citrus fruit (...woohoo *end sarcasm*) for the other 4 hours. I think it's stupid to force us to do community service (20% of our grade)... Once you're out of school that time should be yours, and the school should not be able to control that. I think it's nice that they want to push us into helping others, but not tell us "20% of your grade depends on doing community service... And it's done out of school, where we're sure you all have JOBS and LIVES... So, try to find a way to put those aside and do this for school" It's kinda bullshitty if you ask me. But I'll do it... And hopefully get some good experiences outta it.

Matt, that bastard boss of mine pissed me off the other night. Basically, when you're working Drive-Thru, you have to get people their food by a certain time (shows good record) and a couple of times I got behind on some of my times, mainly because the Taco Bell food makers had to make TONS of food for people and got a little behind. So Matt starts snoring into the headsets we have, saying that he's bored back there because he can't take orders/collect money because the cars are backed up. Then he tells me to get in there and make some of the Taco Bell stuff which I haven't even been trained to do. So he blamed me for killing some of the times, and comes to me and says "you need to work on getting that food out before the 60 second mark"... When I was, all night, kicking ass by getting the food out in about 20-40 seconds. Not to mention people like to CHANGE their orders at the window, which makes it harder to do all that in 1 minute. Matt acts like I don't know what I'm doing and treats me like I'm still new at this. Compared to him, yeah, I'm new... But I know what I'm doing and he KNOWS that... He just likes to harp at me because he knows I'm the best worker there (my kickass boss told me so :D) and he doesn't want me to think so. Why, I dunno... He's a jackass, I guess that's why.

Anyways, that was my work rant for this blog. Valentine's Day is tomorrow, and I'm kinda bummed that I don't got anyone... But I'm thinking about trying to hook up with the girl at my work. We've gotten pretty close and I know she likes me... My only problem is that she's REALLY flirty. And she likes all these guys... One of them is my new 18 year old jackass jr. boss. So that kinda turns me off a bit. But hopefully I can break through my shyness and ask her to go out sometime. And it's not like we won't see each other... We work at the same place and talk all the time. Matt would have a fit though, because he'll think that's gonna distract us from real work. That's OK though, because I might quit here soon. Maybe you people don't realize how busy this place gets... But for what I'm getting paid it's not worth it. I mean, there's times when we have 80-100 cars come through the drive-thru in a ROW... Without a break. People are fat, lazy, and need to find the pleasures in home cooking... That, or go to McDonalds! >_< lol... So, hopefully I can find something better.

My stepdad wants me to become a DJ, because in 3 nights, he makes $1000 in tips... And I love music, so you'd think I'd want to do that. But it's the environment that he works in... Strippers with drama, PMSing at the same time, drugs... And not to mention I'm not comfortable around drunk people. Matter a fact, I can't stand being around them because they annoy me so much. My mom called me last night from Vegas drunk and I was just annoyed at her. I guess I have this feeling that people who drink have no idea what they're doing to themselves... I just feel like smacking them and telling them to wake the fuck up and look at themselves for a second because they're so blind to the fact that they're acting like idiots. And when people tell you that they can handle their alcohol, they're bullshiting themselves. No one can handle their alcohol, because the stuff becomes your puppetmaster once you finish your first drink. Why would you enjoy being in a state where you basically have no conscience, no sense of what you're doing or what you say? Where you can say a few wrong things because you're so out of it and end up hurting someone you love? Where you'll forget everything the next day, wake up puking and with a headache? Sure, I can see the greatness of drinking *end sarcasm*... It's a very bad social tool. I've said it before... Drink all you want, because that's your decision. But with what I've gone through because of alcohol in my family and around my life, I've chosen to keep myself away from the shit. I'd rather tough my life out sober and aware of what's going on instead of drowning out my sorrows to ease my pain for a few hours. It's not worth it.

Now, I'm not saying people who drink are bad. I can understand ya'll wanting to have fun. And I don't mind that some people do it every once in a while. But when it becomes a habit, when people turn to it just because it's there, when people turn to it for support... I just don't understand it. It's nasty as fuck to boot... How could you enjoy that? No thanks... I'll stick to my delicious flavored sodas!

One more issue I'd like to cover... WTF IS UP WITH ARIZONA?! It's been raining CONSTANTLY since December! I mean, CONSTANTLY! Yesterday the whole state had flood warnings. Let me remind you... This is Arizona! The dryest, hottest state of them all. We're not called the "City of the Sun" for no reason! It's the friggin desert! Sand... Mountains... Cacti... AND NO RAIN! But it's been... Crazy. The weather has just gona crazy around the world lately. And I'm beginning to wonder if that earthquake/Tsunami had something to do with it because ever since that happened the weather has been weird. Hmmm... Global Warming? Perhaps...

Anyways, I'm going to bed. So this is goodnight for now...

stnemmoC

More job ranting... [03 Feb 2005|12:08am]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | "Sleeping Beauty" by A Perfect Circle ]

Alrighty... Figured I'd update and let you guys in on how fucking terrible the fast food industry is for us workers... Not that I haven't already :P

K, basically... I got my last paycheck and I'm pissed as fuck. The robbed me of 20 HOURS! That's about... 120 FUCKING DOLLARS! How can they possible fuck me out of that much? Supposedly they checked my clock ins/outs and it totalled up to 41 hours (opposed to the 60+ I worked in two weeks). Well, I found out that my fucking idiot 18 year old boss didn't clock me out when I closed (which he's SUPPOSED to do) so it screwed up my entire clock ins/outs. Now I have to talk to my jackass manager tomorrow about it and knowing him he'll blame me for not making sure I was clocked in or out.

Speaking of my jackass manager... He's managed to piss me off again! Yes, what a surprise. The story on this is that this one kid called out for the millionth fucking time, so Matt (the jackass manager) decided that he'd take this kid off the schedule all week to punish him. What does he do with the kid's hours? Oh yeah, HE GIVES THEM TO ME! Now, usually I wouldn't mind, but he gave me those hours on Thursday (tomorrow) on the ONLY day I can't work this week because I made plans with someone who had to change their work schedule around just so we could go out. The thing that pissed me off was that Matt didn't even ASK me if I could work. He just put me on the schedule, assuming that I'd be free. This is after the first schedule was posted last Saturday, by the way... He changed the schedule on Mon.

And the thing that pisses me off even more is that I've tried to get everyone to work for me during those hours and every's said no. After I've taken time out of my LIFE schedule to come in and replace their ungrateful asses so they can go frolic off with their fucking friend while I busted my ass off doing something they should have been doing in the first place. I've come in every time they've asked me to come in when someone calls out/no shows... I take people's shifts when they can't work and they ask me... And I half expected to get the same in return, but fuck no. So, I'm calling out for the first time working there, tomorrow! And then I'm going to go in LATER that night to talk to Matt about my check. And if it's not fixed... I'm quitting. I'm not about to get robbed of 120 dollars that's not even WORTH the 20 hours I worked but didn't get paid for. I need to quit that fucking place anyways. I go above and beyon what I was hired/am paid to do... And yet, no one appreciates it? My awesome as hell boss (Jose) complimented me and called me one of his best workers (next to this one chick)... Matt's just like "You're starting to catch on... Good job" but doesn't offer me anything? But he'll give the kid that calls out 3-4 times a WEEK a raise? Naw, I'm not about to be played and fucked over like that.

I love my job *roll eyes*

What else? Well, not much. I had today off from school, which was cool. But it's back to school tomorrow! Joy!

Oh, go out and buy "Mer de Noms" by A Perfect Circle. It's such a great album... I'm serious, one of the best albums in the past few years. Ignore "eMOTIVe" though... It's not that it's a bad album... It's just not very APC. There's a few songs off "eMOTIVe" that are good though, like "Passive" and "Peace, Love and Understanding" (which isn't even SUNG by Maynard!). "Imagine" is good, IMO. But the album just didn't give me that APC vibe where I'm blown away like I was with "Mer de Noms". Their second album, "Thirteenth Step" is also kickass... Very powerful, sweet album. A great follow up to "MdN" Just... Don't judge APC by "eMOTIVEe". Because they are definitely better than that. Here's my favorite APC songs, for those of you that want to "sample" through downloading:
"Pet"
"Judith"
"Passive"
"Sleeping Beauty"
"The Outsider"
"The Noose"
"Blue"
"Peace, Love and Understanding"
"The Hollow"
"Weak and Powerless"
"3 Libras"


K, maybe that's a lot :P But they're worth it, trust me!

Enjoy, and good night.

stnemmoC

First short story... [29 Jan 2005|01:24am]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | "No Quarter [Live]" by Tool ]

Alright, here's my short story I wrote for my creative writing class that I actually feel I did a good job on... And so did my teacher and a few other kids. Yeah, I used names from my efed characters... Sue me :P It's not like anyone in my class or my teacher knew. Just be sure to block out what their names mean to you in the story ;) Enjoy... And respond with opinions if you'd like. The title of it was originally "Rise and Shine" but now I'm contemplating that... Ok, I'll stop stalling. Now, read! :D

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He lied there with his eyes closed, knowing that he had to get up and deal with his useless life as he’s done many times before. His stomach growled, eager for the breakfast it wouldn’t get. He wanted to stay in his bed, excluded from the cruel world and drown out his hate for it behind his eyelids. The room grew silent, sending him deeper into slumber, until something echoed through the walls—a muffled female’s voice. He quickly snapped up as his cautious eyes searched the room, not sure of what to expect while they adjusted to the sudden burst of light. It took the man’s eyes a few moments to focus, but what he saw flung him into panic. He scrambled out of his bed, tripping over the sheets as he searched the room in fright. The room was bright and blank, with a steel blue color flooding the walls, floor, ceiling, and even furniture—a bed and nightstand. Two windows were placed on opposite sides of the room, each with bars outside of them.
The man looked as if he wanted to scream, but the words froze in his throat. He felt along the icy cold walls, looking for an exit of some sort. Then the muffled voice echoed again, coming from outside of his door, which helped him with his search. He raced towards the door, and then jiggled the knob to discover it was unlocked. The man pushed the door open and found himself at the end of a long hallway with multiple doors like his, evenly spaced on the walls. He glanced up at the corner by his door to notice an intercom, which seemed to be the source of the voice.
He shouted at it, “What have you done to me? Where am I?”
Without waiting for an answer he made his way down the hallway, dressed in baby blue pants and a plain shirt of the same color. As he reached each door he banged on it, then moved to the next one.
“Someone tell me where the hell I am,” he screamed, his words bouncing off the walls.
The doors opened shortly after he passed and people poked their heads out, wondering what the commotion was about. Once he reached the end of the hallway where he spotted the last door, which was labeled “Bathroom”, and he opened it. He searched the room and slipped inside. The man searched the small space, from the pearly white toilet to the glistening marble sink. He immediately turned the faucet on and let the water run through his fingers before splashing it onto his pale face. Slowly he glanced up at the mirror above the sink and looked at his reflection. He froze for a moment, and then backed into the wall behind him.
“That’s not me! That’s not what I look like,” he said in horror, shaking his head.
He took his fist and slammed it into the mirror with rage, forcing a spider-web design of cracks to consume the glass and break his reflection. He then stumbled out of the bathroom, but found a crowd of people, all dressed in the same clothes as him. They stared at the man as he stood there, his fists dripping with blood from the shards of glass, gazing back at them.
A man whispered to the woman next to him, “He went to the bathroom without permission! Sharron isn’t going to like this... Not at all! What ya think his problem is, anyways?”
The woman replied, “I don’t know! Why don’t you ask him?”
He reluctantly stepped to the front of the crowd, pushing his way through, and smiled nervously at the stranger.
“Uh… Sir? Is something wrong?”
The man didn’t answer.
“You must be new here? What’s your name, if you don’t mind me asking?”
The man looked at the group of people, not sure if he should trust them. He then replied with an unknowing tone, “Bryce… Bryce Corbin.”
“Bryce, eh? You hear that everyone? The new guy’s name is Bryce,” he said joyously.
The crowd whispered between each other and gave Bryce a few glances before bursting out with cheerful welcomes while surrounding him. But Bryce quickly silenced everyone as he grabbed the man who had approached him moments ago by the shirt and brought him close to his face. He growled at the man while the blood from his fists seeped into his shirt’s fabric.
Bryce demanded, “Where am I? What’s happened to me?”
The man answered in a shaky voice, “Uh… You’re at the… Uh…”
“Tell me or I swear I’ll snap your neck in half,” Bryce threatened.
Before the man could answer a group of men dressed in dull silver uniforms came from behind him, apparently seeing the incident from the surveillance camera placed on the wall nearby and rushed to the scene. They managed to pry Bryce off the man, but Bryce kicked and tried to fight out of their grasps. One of the men then pulled out a long syringe and flicked the sharp end, which Bryce spotted. His eyes grew wide as he screamed his disapproval. The man stabbed the needle into Bryce’s arm while one of the other men held it still. He injected the fluid into Bryce’s arm, which immediately called him down. Shortly after, Bryce stopped struggling as his eyes slowly drooped shut, and then he drifted into an unconscious state. Everything faded to black.

“Hey… You awake?”
Those words reverberated in his head as he opened his eyes. Everything was a blur to him, but became clear after his eyes adjusted to the beaming lights shining down on him. His body felt numb while he looked around the room, trying to figure out where he was. The voice shot out again:
“Rise and shine, pumpkin pie!”
Bryce aimed his head towards the voice, which seemed to have been coming from the small cell across the room. In one of the corners of the cage was a dark figure of a man, his eyes glowing and staring back at Bryce. Bryce tried to move his body, but discovered that he was strapped down—his wrists and feet bound by leather to a large chair. The man in the cell chuckled at Bryce as he struggled to free himself, then a grin became visible through the darkness—his crooked teeth peeking from his lips.
“They’re gonna put ya in isolation if ya don’t calm down,” the man said.
Bryce continued to work at the straps, but once realizing they grew tighter, he gave up on his escape. He glanced at the man in the cell, who was still staring at him.
He asked, “What is this place?”
The man laughed and answered, “I ask myself the same question all the time. But the answer is something I tend to forget, ‘cause I never believe it. Or at least I don’t want to.”
“Well, can you try to remember,” Bryce asked, seeming paranoid and desperate.
The man shook his head and sunk further into his dark corner.
“You don’t wanna know. No one ever wants to know. Just accept the fact that ya are where ya are, ‘cause you’ll never find a way out,” the man said coldly as he crouched down until he was no longer visible.
Bryce growled and tried to free himself again, but he suddenly heard a door open across the room. A woman walked inside, dressed in a long white coat with her fiery red hair tied back in a bun. She made her way towards Bryce, her high heels clocking against the tile floor as she looked over the clipboard in her hands.
“Seth?”
Bryce raised an eyebrow as she asked the question. She looked at him, then repeated herself.
“Seth?”
“No… My name’s Bryce, “ he snapped.
She gave him a dirty look for his attitude, then wrote something down on her clipboard.
“Fine, Bryce. Sorry,” she commented.
“Whatever,” Bryce interrupted.
“My name’s Sharron; I’m your counselor. I hear you caused a disturbance earlier?”
Bryce sarcastically growled back, “Yeah, it must have been the whole abduction thing going on here. I wake up in some strange place, I take a look in the mirror to discover I’m not the same person I was, and now I’m strapped in this chair like a criminal. Sure, this is normal! I have no idea why I would overreact! Maybe if I knew where the hell I am or what’s happened to me I’d be a little more relaxed!”
He shook violently in his chair, causing Sharron to back away.
“Bryce… Listen to me, please! Calm down and let’s talk! That’s all I’m here to do—to help you,” she said, trying to plead with her enraged patient.
Bryce stopped jerking, but yelled back at his counselor, “Calm down? Listen toots, I’ll calm down if you tell me what’s going on!”
“You promise? Because one more outburst like that and I’m sending you to isolation, “ Sharron said as she approached Bryce again, but with a hint of hesitation.
“Sure! I’ll be a good boy, just for you,” he said with a smile that masked his frustration. “But do me a favor, please” Bryce said, trying to sound polite, “and loosen these straps. I think they’re beginning to cut off my circulation, and we don’t want that, do we Mrs. Sharron?”
The man in the cell suddenly shouted, “Don’t trust him! He’s up to no good!”
“Shut your god damn face,“ Bryce barked in reply.
Sharron, just as she unbuckled the first strap on Bryce’s wrists, stopped and stared into her patient’s cold, gray eyes.
“Excuse me? I didn’t say anything,” she commented, obviously thinking Bryce was talking to her.
Bryce looked back into her dark coffee brown eyes:
“I was talking to the monkey in the cage over there! Didn’t you hear him?”
Sharron paused, and then turned around to glance inside the cell. She faced Bryce again, “I don’t see anyone.”
“What? What do you mean you don’t see him? He’s right there in the corner!”
Bryce aimed his head towards the far corner of the cell. Sharron sighed, “Alright, I’ll look. But I’m telling you, there’s no one there!”
She slowly made her way towards the cell as Bryce tugged at the strap Sharron unbuckled moments ago. He suddenly freed his hand and quickly unfastened his other straps. Sharron reached the cell and took a few seconds to search the area. Bryce managed to escape the chair and approached Sharron from behind. She heard his footsteps get closer and turned around in panic, knowing what to expect.
“Seth, please don’t do anything you’ll regret! I’m only here to help you!” Sharron backed into the cell, finding herself trapped.
Bryce squinted his eyes as he lightly pressed her against the aluminum bars, “You keep calling me Seth… Why?”
“I’m sorry, Bryce! You just remind me of someone I know, “ she said with a nervous tone.
“Don’t give me this crap! I’m sick of excuses! Now tell me what’s going on, “ Bryce demanded as he grabbed her hair by the bun to keep her from running.
She remained strong about the situation, but also feared deep inside what Bryce might have on mind. Suddenly, the outside guard peeked through the window on the door and burst through the door. He rushed to Sharron’s rescue, but to keep her safe he stopped and placed his hand on the taser gun in the holster attached to his belt. Bryce turned around and stared at the guard with a grin.
“Sir, release the woman,” the guard said calmly, making Bryce feel somewhat unthreatened.
Bryce chuckled, then responded, “I’m not going to hurt her! I just want some answers! And so far I haven’t gotten any!”
“I’ll give them to you, I promise! Just please let me go, “ Sharron said. “You have my word! But you have to let the officer take you back to your room.”
Bryce stared down the guard, and then released his grip on Sharron’s hair after a short moment of contemplating. He put his hands up in the air in surrender as the officer pulled out a pair of handcuffs. Bryce allowed the guard to lock his hands behind his back and guide him towards the door.
“Officer Randal, take him to isolation,” she said bitterly as she adjusted her hair.
Bryce grew a large smile, then deeply laughed out of hysteria. The guard opened the door and guided him down the hall. Bryce continued to laugh all the way until they reached a large steel door, which Officer Randal unlocked, then opened for Bryce to step inside.
The room was completely padded with white cushions, proving not so much as a window on the walls or furniture, unlike his previous room. The guard unhooked the cuffs and quickly closed the door behind Bryce, who remained still with the same smile stained onto his face.
A familiar voice called out from out of nowhere, “I told ya ya didn’t wanna know.”
Bryce looked around the room until he spotted the same man from the cell, leaning up against the corner behind him. The man was scrawny with long tangled hair and dressed in the same baby blue attire as Bryce and the other patients. He looked identical to the man Bryce also saw in the mirror he shattered earlier. Bryce’s eyes glowed with disbelief.
“Who… Who are you, “ Bryce asked.
The man smirked, “I’m Seth Raide… Sound familiar?” Seth walked towards Bryce and stood right in front of him, appearing to be his reflection. “I’m you,” Seth said with a hyena laugh.
Outside of the isolation chamber a loud scream was heard, followed by the hysteric howling of Bryce. The guard was peeking into the room through a small looking-glass window as Sharron approached him.
“How’s he doing,” she asked worriedly.
He answered, “Uh… He just completely snapped, so I’m not sure. Say, what’s his problem anyways?”
She glanced at her clipboard, then sighed, “Multi-personality disorder; Schizophrenia. His real name is Seth Raide, but he has a history of calling himself various names, which in this case it’s Bryce Corbin. And he believes he’s a completely different person—from his entire life to his appearance, “ she said. “You have to sympathize with him, though. I’d hate to wake up one morning having no idea what’s happened to me—not knowing I’m insane. But if you look at it this way: We all wake up not knowing we’re insane. Bryce just happened to find out the hard way.”
Sharron looked through the window to see how Seth was doing. He sat on the floor, banging his head against the padded wall and repeated the same question over and over, “What have they done to me? What have they done to me? What have they done to me?”

stnemmoC

Update... [27 Jan 2005|09:15pm]
[ mood | lazy ]
[ music | "Passenger" by Deftones (Ft. Maynard... of course) ]

This week I only have to work 3 days... Wed. (yesterday), Sat. and Mon. :D That friggin rocks! This is going to be my first Friday off (without requesting it) in AGES! And I finally get a PPV Sunday off too! Not that WWE is much to pay $40 for, but there's that chance than it MIGHT be worth it. And, I've had an easy school week which is awesome too. But I haven't been going to bed early... Mainly because I'm reading my favorite book of all time... Ender's Game (by Orson Scott Card). Yes, I've already read it once last year... But it was so friggin good that I'm actually reading it again O_O It's hard for me to read one book ONCE... Let alone TWICE. But yeah, Ender's Game is still as great as it was, and even better, than the first time I read it. Hopefully when I'm done reading this I can read Ender's Shadow (which I bought and haven't been about to start/get into it yet). But I've been staying up late re-reading Ender's Game... I swear, time flies reading that book. It's at the top of my "must read" list... Along with Fade and I Am The Cheese, both by Robert Cormier.

Anyways... The other night at work my boss told me if I keep doing what I'm doing, in about 6-7 months he'll promote me to Shift Supervisor... lmao. You know what he's doing, right? He's doing his best to keep me there because he knows I'm about to leave soon. So he's bribing me with the POTENTIAL to get a promotion/raise. But the more I think about it, the more I might want to take it... Mainly for my future resume. I mean, that'll get me a better job right there. 10-11 months into my FIRST job I become Shift Supervisor? I know people who have been working at that same place WAAAY longer than I have who are still at my level (except with a better ranking)! But 6-7 months? I dunno... With that job it's a loooong way away. I feel I've been working there 6 months already... I've only been working there 3 >_<. So, unless I find some kickass job here soon... Looks like I'll be stuck at KFC/Taco Bell until my promotion comes calling. But I'll be asking for a raise if they plan to make me wait that long... And if they don't even offer me the position, I'm outta there in a heartbeat. Hello McDonalds (or unemployment :P)

What else has gone on? Oh... Not sure if I've told many people or not... But my dad's back in jail (since October). Yup, the dumbass couldn't resist the drinking and driving and got himself caught. Another year and a half in the slammer for him. When I heard the news (the day after my fucking birthday...) I wasn't surprised or upset. I actually... Didn't care. Shouldn't that mean something? Maybe that my dad is a horrible father? That I don't even CONSIDER him my father. That he can go to jail and throw his life away again and I don't give a shit. I mean, I love him and all but he hasn't been there for me ever. He wasn't there for me when I was growing up. He wasn't there for me when I became a teen. He wasn't there for me when I turned 18. And he isn't going to be there for my high school graduation. All because of... Yes! Alcohol! The magical drink that finds itself medling with my life, when I don't even have to touch the shit! And people wonder why I'm so anti-alcohol? Hey, I don't care if you drink... Just keep it away from me. I can't stand hanging around drunk people, I can't stand the smell of it, I can't stand the taste of it, I can't stand what it does to people. It makes them idiots! It makes them jackasses/bitches! It makes them... Not themselves! It completely kills the mood for me and I hate the stuff! If you have to drink something that changes your entire personality and attitude, just to have fun... I probably won't be hanging around you that much. IMO, you can have more fun without the shit! Same with drugs. Anything that turns you into something you're not is just... Useless. Not to mention that I've gotten hurt by every person who's been drunk around me, or in my life. The words and actions they have done are heartless and cold... But they have no idea they're saying it because they have no fucking conscience! And when I'm mad at them the next day they have no idea why... And they blame me! Like I'm being rude or mean to them. Heh... I could go on and on for hours about it. But it just gets be angrier every time. Like I said though... You can drink it all you like. Just so long as you keep it away from me, because nothing good has ever come out of it IMO.

Hmm... What else? Oh yeah... My mom thinks I drink too much soda. lmao... OK, this is coming from someone who smokes. If she starts getting onto me about drinking tons of soda... I'll get onto her about smoking. And I'll make her a deal... I quit drinking soda if she quits smoking... Might be worth it too, but I drinking soda is FAR better than doing drugs, drinking alcohol, and/or smoking... And my mom does two of the following (No, she doesn't do drugs :P). I'll be drinking soda to my death bed... And even then I'll have it injected into my veins through an IV :P

Not sure what else I gotta say. Once I start thinking of some more I'll post it. But otherwise... I'm off to read Ender's Game!

(2) stnemmoC

... [24 Jan 2005|11:11pm]
I figured I'd start updating this for my own sake... Let out some bottled up stuff... All that jazz.

Customer Service: Es le muchos suckos! SI! Fuck customers. Honestly... They suck. I get nice ones, sure... Hell, I got a $5 tip once... I make that much in about 50 minutes! But to the rude, inconsiderate ones who think that I'm just the guy who's supposed to take their order and serve them... Fuck you! Yeah, believe it or not, I'm actually HUMAN! You know... With emotions and feelings. You piss me off and be rude to me... I'm going to give you that same shit back.

Work: SUCKS EVEN MORE! KFC/Taco Bell... Bussiest in the nation... Supposedly... And after the shit we've been though, I'm beginning to believe it. The other night we had 3 $3000 hours IN A ROW! That's $9000 in 3 hours... If that's not busy... I dunno what is. But out of all the money we make... I'm getting paid $6.10 an hour? After all the ass-busting I've done just to keep the place running smoothly... I'm getting paid $6.10 an HOUR?! When someone calls out... When someone calls in sick... When they are short on people they ALWAYS call me and I ALWAYS come in... And I'm still getting $6.10? I've never once been late... I've never once called out... I've always done my job and I've always been nice to EVERYONE I work with (except my jackass manager behind his back)... I've put up with stupid people... Not to mention I'm always getting compliments from customers... And I'm still... Getting paid... $6.10... An hour? Fuck... That. Oh, and on top of that... My new boss, who is the new assistant manager there... HE'S 18 FUCKING YEARS OLD! I'M TAKING ORDERS FROM SOMEONE MY OWN AGE?! No... Fuck no. And on top of that they've scheduled me to work til about 12 (midnight) ON SCHOOL NIGHTS! So I've been getting 4-6 hours of sleep every night, getting up for school, and end up falling asleep in class. That, and I can't get my homework done because I'm working... And that kills my grades. It's my final fucking year... I need to pass these 4 classes. If I don't... It's my parent's fault for forcing me to get a job.

And to add insult to injury... My friend is getting paid $10 an hour... To sit in a cubical... AND MAKE FUCKING PHONE CALLS >_<

Yeah... I'm quitting here soon. Unless they give me a dollar raise or some shit

Shit, I have to go... I'll edit this later. Adios.
(1) stnemmoC

Do do do... [24 Jan 2005|10:49pm]
I figured I'd start updating this for my own sake... Let out some bottled up stuff... All that jazz.

Customer Service: Es le muchos suckos! SI! Fuck customers. Honestly... They suck. I get nice ones, sure... Hell, I got a $5 tip once... I make that much in about 50 minutes! But to the rude, inconsiderate ones who think that I'm just the guy who's supposed to take their order and serve them... Fuck you! Yeah, believe it or not, I'm actually HUMAN! You know... With emotions and feelings. You piss me off and be rude to me... I'm going to give you that same shit back.

Work: SUCKS EVEN MORE! KFC/Taco Bell... Bussiest in the nation... Supposedly... And after the shit we've been though, I'm beginning to believe it. The other night we had 3 $3000 hours IN A ROW! That's $9000 in 3 hours... If that's not busy... I dunno what is. But out of all the money we make... I'm getting paid $6.10 an hour? After all the ass-busting I've done just to keep the place running smoothly... I'm getting paid $6.10 an HOUR?! When someone calls out... When someone calls in sick... When they are short on people they ALWAYS call me and I ALWAYS come in... And I'm still getting $6.10? I've never once been late... I've never once called out... I've always done my job and I've always been nice to EVERYONE I work with (except my jackass manager behind his back)... I've put up with stupid people... Not to mention I'm always getting compliments from customers... And I'm still... Getting paid... $6.10... An hour? Fuck... That. Oh, and on top of that... My new boss, who is the new assistant manager there... HE'S 18 FUCKING YEARS OLD! I'M TAKING ORDERS FROM SOMEONE MY OWN AGE?! No... Fuck no. And on top of that they've scheduled me to work til about 12 (midnight) ON SCHOOL NIGHTS! So I've been getting 4-6 hours of sleep every night, getting up for school, and end up falling asleep in class. That, and I can't get my homework done because I'm working... And that kills my grades. It's my final fucking year... I need to pass these 4 classes. If I don't... It's my parent's fault for forcing me to get a job.

And to add insult to injury... My friend is getting paid $10 an hour... To sit in a cubical... AND MAKE FUCKING PHONE CALLS >_<

Yeah... I'm quitting here soon. Unless they give me a dollar raise or some shit

Shit, I have to go... I'll edit this later. Adios.
stnemmoC

Hmm... [24 Jan 2005|10:09pm]
[ mood | calm ]
[ music | "Lateralus" by Tool ]

I guess I'll try to revive this thing...

stnemmoC

Hmm... [24 Jan 2005|10:09pm]
I guess I'll try to revive this thing...
stnemmoC

[19 Dec 2003|03:19pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | "Ya'll Want A Single" by Korn ]

...



Hmm, I haven't updated in like 2 weeks. Why? Because I haven't felt like it. Anyways, just updating to let ya'll know I'm alive and kicking. I just got done with all my finals and out of school for Winter Break :D!! And then I'm getting my lisence around New Years :D!! AND CHRISTMAS IS THRUSDAY! YAY!

So... that's about it. I honestly have nothing to update about and stuff I COULD update about I don't FEEL like updating about :P so take that. I'm gonna go... do things right now. I'm leaving some lyrics at the end of this for some new songs I like.

ADIOS! AND HAVE A GREAT CHRISTMAS (or whatever winter holiday you celebrate) EVERYONE!

Sean


"Broken Promises" by Element Eighty

The day you left me
there was i feeling i have never shown
the day you told me
there were the words that i have never known
and now it's over
so what's left that i should ever feel
cause since the day you left me i have been so alone

Chorus
and now we're left with broken promises
my heart can't take no more
and now we're left with broekn promises
my mind has had enough

deep inside me
there are things that i have never told
they burn inside me
and noe i need to know
why are you trying to take everything away from me
well i'm begging you
i'm here with nothing left to show you
cause since the day you left me i have been so alone

chorus

look at how you turned on me
you ran away and left me here with nothing to see
i'm a man so turn around and say it to me
don't you think i've got something to say
(3x)

and now we're left with broken promises
my heart can't take no more (4x)




"Departure Plan" by Soilwork

You're taking care of your instincts
No matter what you do
Your life could be so much better when everything is through
The demons that refused to let you go
They left with empty hands
You got to give it a try
Don't put an end to your life
Cause that's where you choke your last sigh

[Chorus:]
You gotta rise with me!
Cause you're so vulnerable... Me!
No need for sympathy now...
Yet so admirable... Say...

Your passion for art is your well hidden cure
Cause that's where you have a plan
Escaping could be such a movement now
In your fragile heart all so true

... You'll never ever hurt yourself again!



"Alive" by Korn

i can not ever find a way
to throw these darkened thoughts away
need a place to hide
its thrown in my face everyday
guess thats the price i have to pay
for whats inside my mind
a-live!
i am alive
i will never run away
places inside
my heart screams inside with pride
once i cried
now i wipe away the tears
once i died
now im alive
a-live!
little things take me everyday
lots of pain is how i like to play
better not cross that line
voices in my head have to be saved
its something i cant throw away
whats inside my mind
i am alive
i will never run away
places inside
my heart screams inside with pride
once i cried
now i wipe away the tears
once i died
now im alive

i find my time
im in a twine
im falling in this place i thought i left behind
(feeling so alive)
a-live!
i am alive
i will never run away
places inside
my heart screams inside with pride
once i cried
now i wipe away the tears
once i died



"Sun Doesn't Rise" by Mushroomhead

Some kind of evidence
Some kind of reason
Why I can't find a way
To begin my life

Somewhere in this dying day
If I can only find a way for my escape
I find it hard to concentrate with all my past mistakes

To begin my life

I can't feel my faith can't recall my crime
I think I sealed my fate along the way I may have lost my mind
I guess we're all damaged in our own way
Alone in our own way
Distant headlights desolate highway

Sun doesn't rise at all
Who knows how far I'll fall
Sun doesn't rise at all
Who knows how far I'll fall

With eyes wide open
I can't recall my crime I think I sealed my fate
I can watch my world evolve
Alone in our own way, I think I sealed my fate
Nothing left to die for
I can't recall my crime I think I sealed my fate
Thoughts inside can make me crawl
Think I sealed my fate
Make me drop down on my knees
Break me down until I question me
Darkness can't destroy my drive

Sun doesn't rise at all
Who knows how far I'll fall
Sun doesn't rise at all
Welcome my downfall
Sun doesn't rise at all

Somewhere in this dying day as I plan my great escape
I find it hard to concentrate while you maintain to control
I fold and falter, empty alter, all I gave I pray it makes me whole
I think the brink's around the corner
There's an error in my soul

I can't feel my faith can't recall my crime
I think I sealed my fate along the way I may have lost my mind
I guess we're all damaged in our own way
Alone in our own way
Distant headlights desolate highway

Sun doesn't rise at all
Who knows how far I'll fall
Sun doesn't rise at all
Who knows how far I'll fall

I can't feel my faith
Can't recall my crime
Damaged in our own way
Alone in our own way
Desolate highway





Those are all awesome songs. And the song I have for my "Current Music" is kick ass too. The beat is awesome in this. It's a fun song! Here are my last lyrics for that song:


"Ya'll Want A Single" by Korn

Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that
Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that
Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that
Y'all want a single say fuck that
Boom Boom Boom Boom

What's going on today?
We gotta break away
We got a problem and
I think it's going to make us go down

They think we're all the same
And always we're to blame
For shit I think is lame
It's time to stop the game
I think it's time to pay for everything you made me say

Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that [x4]

What's going on today?
Why must it be this way?
We're going nowhere and
We're still knocking the need to bow down

They think we're all the same
And always we're to blame
For shit I think is lame
It's time to stop the game
I think it's time to pay for everything you made me say

Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that [x4]

We are the ones breaking you down
We are the hope to drown out your sounds
All Across the world you think we're to found
All Across the world you're breaking you down

Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that shit [x4]
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

Y'all want a single say fuck that
Fuck that, Fuck that [x6]

stnemmoC

Me... Updating? [05 Dec 2003|11:45pm]
[ mood | sick ]
[ music | "Sun Doesn't Rise" by Mushroomhead (FUCKING AWESOME SONG!) ]

Hmm, yup, still alive over here. Just... Not updating! I've been busy as shit with school. I had TWO... Count 'em... TWO Spanish projects due this last week. Monday and today (Friday). Pain in the ass. And I have another project in Language Arts but our teacher never told us when that's due. It's a group project too o_O We're supposed to get graded on participation and group effort... But my group wants to assign parts to do each seperately. So far we've done... Nothing. Bad idea. Hopefully I don't get shafted or I'm gonna be pissed. Lets see... Finals are coming up. I hate finals... With a passion. Uh, I hate to do an essay in every class for the final too! Try doing an essay for Painting and Drawing... BOOOORING! Then there's a reading test in Language Arts which wasn't expected. GAAAAAAAAAAH! This is why I am not going to college.

I'm reading my book for Language. I read about 15 pages within a span of 1 month and I finally started reading more today. A pretty weird book so far. It's called Fade by Robert Cormier. There's incest in it too, between this 13 year old kid and his aunt. I hear twins fuck in it too... Honestly... What teacher would suggest this book? Obviously my school! But the incest isn't all what the book is about. This kid is learning out about this thing called "fading" or invisibility. I hear people saying that this is a pretty "dark" book and they can't put it down... So far it's more weird than dark. Anyways, I'd suggest it. The last book I read by Robert Cormier, I Am The Cheese... I'll just say I was disappointed in the ending. I read a little bit before the end before I started reading the beginning. I had so many better ideas on how this books ends. IT BUGS ME! But it was a great story the rest of the way through.

I've been sick for a while now. On and off. Bad coughing right now. It's worrying me too because there's this serious flu going around AZ... One baby even died because of it. I know if a baby gets a flu it's way more serious, but at the rate this flu is going... It's gonna be spread across the country pretty bad. So take your vitamins, wash your hands, keep warm! It sucks being sick.

One more thing. I watched the music video/cartoon for Korn's new song "Right Now"... Holy fucking shit that is a fucked up video. It's a cartoon okay. And this guy does these freaky things to himself, like he's heavy on drugs or something. http://98kupd.com/downloads.html Go there to download it. It's the first thing on there. It's sick but I LOVE IT! lmao.

It's that time boys and girls for me to end this. I want to read my book and get at least halfway through it tonight (yeah right). So take care... And all that. *points to the song part. Great song once you get past the guys mumbling... And I don't even like Muchroomhead that much*

Sean

PS: Lucie, I got your email =] Thanks. I guess I offended you, and you kinda offended me a while back and we just never got around to solving it... Since our time zones SUCK! Just thought I'd say ily and give a shout out. I'm not mad... Just felt left out I guess =\ LATER!

(1) stnemmoC

My name is Sean... And I get high on cold pills *hangs head in shame* [29 Nov 2003|05:21am]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | "The Outside" by A Perfect Circle ]

HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLA MY PEEPS! WHAT'S HAPPENING?! I'm very weird right now and thought I'd update. I took my cold pills about 3 hours ago and man are they kicking in. It's 5:30 in the morning. I'm bored. Hyper. Wide awake but very sleepy (ever been in that stage?). Everyting is in slow motion. I can't think straight because I have all these thoughs running through my head. If this is how being high feels... lmao nevermind! NO DRUGS FOR SEAN! ONLY HARMLESS COLD PILLS >_< Just messin'. Once I get over this cold I'll be back to normal... BUT I NEED MY COLD PILLS DAMNIT! No I don't I'm fine... FUCK YOU SEAN YOU NEED THEM! NO I DON'T!

No seriously though, I'm fine. *looks around quickly* Maybe I should add some NyQuil stuff into the mix.... lmao, that would really screw me up. But no kids, drugs are BAD. Cold pills are good when your SICK. Insanity is not a drug nor a pill, therefore I have claimed myself insane, not high. I'm dellusional. I need to check myself into an asylum right about now. If I don't talk to any of you for a few weeks or you don't see me on... I'm in a paded room talking to the dancing M&M guys.

SPEAKING OF ASYLUMS! I forgot about this movie I saw sometime last year called Session 9. GO RENT THAT MOVIE! It's a creepy weird dark movie. OMG, I'm gonna ask for it for christmas.

I was watching South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut... on Comedy Central... Uncensored... It was funny and great. Anyways, I started writing this an hour ago and got preoccupied so I'm gonna stop writing and just update later today maybe. So talk to ya'll later.

Sean


EDITED

Well, I'm back to "normal" again lmao. Yeah, I was pretty messed earlier this morning. Anyways, I'm updating to add lyrics to this really good song. It's a little dark, but what do you expect from Maynard (lead singer of the band). So DL the song sometime! Awesome stuff.

The Outsider by A Perfect Circle

Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way, I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires.

Lying to yourself again,
Suicidal imbecile.
Think about it, put it on the faultline.
What'll it take to get it through to you precious?
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this?
Such a mess. I don't want to watch you.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time.
What's your rush now? Everyone will have his day to die.

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence.
Narcisistic, drama queen, craving fame and all this decadance.

Lying through your teeth again,
Suicidal imbecile.
Think about it, put it on the fautline.
What'll it take to get it through to you precious?
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this?
Such a mess, I don't wanna watch you...

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time.
What's your rush now? Everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you.
They were right about you.

Lying to my face again,
Suicidal imbecile.
Think about it, put it on the fautline.
What'll it take to get it through to you precious?
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this?
Such a mess, come to this, come to this.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your hurry? Everyone will have his day to die.
If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere far away from here.



Well, that's the song. I have to start working on my spanish project that's due Monday lol. Yup, I'm a procrastinator! lmao. I've already done all my research though, so it should be smooth sailing from there... Hopefully. I'll chat with ya'll later!

Sean
(1) stnemmoC

[26 Nov 2003|07:31pm]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | "45" by Shinedown (It's the only thing I'm playing) ]

I changed my main "Peek A Boo" eyecon (lmao, get it?! Icon... eye-con... Yes, lame, give me a break). The eye changes colors... yup, awesome. Anyways, nothin much going on over here. Just wanted to wish ya'll a HAPPY THANKSGIVING! I'm a little sick right now. Bad cough, runny nose. BUT THREE DAYS OFF FROM HELL-HOLE SCHOOL WILL CURE ME! lmao I dunno, I guess that's it. I ditched Painting class today... actually... I was kicked out... actually... my teacher sent me to drop something off at the lost and found. But I got "lost" and sat with my friend's at lunch for a few lmao. That was fun. Then I acted all high in my painting class and freaked the girls at my table out. I told them I did some drugs when I was out... inhaled some paint...

School was boring besides that. *nods* So yeah, that's about it I guess. It's that time of month people start ignoring me ;] I'm forced to having to talk to my walls and little people that live in my closet. We're planning on taking over the world one day *nods*... I really did inhale some paint lmao, j/k o_O I'll shout at ya'll later.

Sean

stnemmoC

[22 Nov 2003|11:53pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | "Fortune Faded" by Red Hot Chili Peppers ]

Well, I'm updating. Letting ya'll know I'm alive (and begining to wonder if the majority of you CARE). Thanks Kate and Marky for your comments on my book again. Much apreciated. I haven't made any progression in writing it yet though. Not sure how I would start it off and what point of view to put it in. I have a few idas in mind, just trying to figure out which is best. Uh, besides my book I've been doing nothing lately. Yay, loads of fun. Been playing "Smackdown: Here Comes The Pain" :D. I got addictive. So for all you wrestling haters, shush, I don't wanna hear it. It's a great sport :P. Anyways, yeah, that's about it. I'm bored out of my mind right now but hey, what's new? I guess I'll start on my Spanish project.

OH YEAH! IT'S A THREE DAY WEEK AND THEN IT'S THANKSGIVING THURSDAY! Can't wait! :D Also, it's International Week at my school, so each day in my Spanish class I'm going to watch all these different cultural things like Karate, dancing, stuff like that. So it should be interesting. Have a great Thanksgiving everyone. PIG OUT! lmao.

Sean

(2) stnemmoC

Blurty... Boomspeed... [13 Nov 2003|10:37pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace ]

Okay, Blurty and Boomspeed is pissing me off. Boomspeed deleted my FREE acount because it was... Free. So I tried uploading my blurty BG and pics to this new site and Blurty says I'm still using my boomspeed pics? WTF! Okay, I'm starting to wonder if Blurty and Boomspeed are holes... surrounded by ass... lmao, gotta love Dharma (sp?) and Greg! Anyways, I just wanted to rant because it's pissing me off. If you have any other free image hosting sites you could slip by me, please comment me with a link.

READ THE ENTRY BEFORE THIS IF YOU HAVEN'T! It has a summary of the first half of the book I'm writing and I want comments/suggestions to it! PLEEEEEEEEASE!

Much Love.

Sean

EDIT

Okay, I got the prob fixed and used a different image hosting site. So my BG and sig pic should work! I didn't use Angelfire Kat because... I think Angelfire sucks and usually their pictures end up with their logo on them o_O So yeah, thanks for the suggestion though :D! I used VillagePhotos.com... I guess it's good? I dunno. So far so good.

(4) stnemmoC

I'm writing a book! [11 Nov 2003|10:34pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | The rain outside ]

HOLA PEOPLE! I had today off from school thanks to Veterans Day (HAPPY VETERANS DAY) so I stayed up late last night and slept for about 10 hours lmao. I needed it. Anyways, pretty much all day I sat at my computer and I decided to start up on a story. I've planned on writing a book for quite a while now but never got around to it. I had originally wanted to write a mystery/thriller kinda thing (like Scream or Halloween... a slasher story). But now it's more than that. I've already writen an outline/summary of the first half of my book. So far I'm getting pretty good compliments about it. Not sure if these people were being nice because they thought it'd upset me or not... But I'm glad they read it.

I don't want to copy and paste all that I've written in here for a few reasons. 1. People might steal my idea :P 2. It might be offensive to some people because some parts in it have happened to other people I know and yeah, I don't wanna upset them =\ 3. It's A LOT to read and I'd rather you buy the book or pay to see the movie in theaters :P lmao, just messin. I don't even have a title to this book yet, but I think it'll turn out good.

I'll give ya'll a short short short summary on the first half though. This kid Ivan (born in Russia) came to America with his family but they had a hard time with money and all. His sister was always out so he decided to follow her, witnessed her murder. His dad found the killers, killed them, got caught, was sentenced to life in jail. Ivan had to support his emotionally sick mother and worked as a butcher. He made some extra money fighting in an underground illegal circuit. Grew up (duh) and when he got out of school moved to Chicago where he was promoted in his underground fighting. He kicked a lot of ass, became a fan fav. The boss, Cougar, asked for him to lose to his next opponent so he could make a profit off the bets. Ivan said yes but beat the guy anyway. Cougar was mad and made Ivan fight a mystery guy. Mystery guy was Cougar but the cops busted in on the party and Cougar was arrested before the fight. Cougar somehow escaped though and called Ivan, threatening that he would kill not him, but the person he'd fall in love with. Cougar was never seen or heard from again. Cougar's brother Gavin took over the fighting buisness and had Ivan join as his top fighter. He kicked ass again. A year later after one of his fights he was on his way home and heard a woman scream. He ran to the alleyway and saw some guy holding her up against the wall, covering her mouth. He kicked the guys ass but he ran away. The two ended up going out later. A couple of years went by and their love grew. They had a house, a couple of dogs, and a strong love. Veronica (the girl) announced she was pregnant so Ivan thought it'd be a good time to ask the big question. He had is all planned out with a ring and everything. He got home late one night and found the front door cracked open. The house was a mess and there was a trail of blood. He found Veronica dead on the floor and he was suddenly knocked out cold by someone. He woke up in a hospital, in pain, where his mom was calling out his name. He got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash his face. He saw a scar running down the left side of his face and through where his eye used to be, which is now replaced by a glass one. He freaked out and ran away. He went to his abandoned house, grabbed some things, found the engagement ring he was gonna propose to Veronica with and put it on his necklace. He had a strong feel of who the killer was, Cougar. He went in search of him, and started with his brother, Gavin. Gavin said there was no way Cougar could have done it because he was caught the night before the murder and sent back to jail. Ivan blacks out because of a sudden migraine. He woke back up later on Gavin's couch in his office. Gavin suggested that he not continue fighting and move on. He wanted to say no, but he was hungry for revenge. So he set off on his journy to find out who the killer was. He knew someone out in the world knows who killed the love of his life, and that is the killer himself.

Bam, Bang, Boom! Yes, that's a short summary :P Trust me, I had three pages of an extended version of all that mess. So yeah, I hope ya'll like the idea, and the second half is a huge shocker. I know the ending but I just have to work up to that now. I would like comments/suggestions! So if you could comment it would be much appreciated. Anyways, I'm tired and have school tomorrow >_< so I'll talk to ya'll later.

Much love.

Sean

PS: Sorry if there is mucho typos in there, but I'm typing fast and I'm tired, so yeah, I'm not stupid or anything. Just in a rush to get this posted :P lol later!

(2) stnemmoC

Damn you Halloween! [08 Nov 2003|01:25pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | MLB High Heat sound effects... ]

jksdvbfhdbvjk Stupid Halloween *pouts* I have (or had) too much candy! Everywhere I look there's candy in this house >_< Driving me INSANE... MORE INSANE THAN BEFORE! Ugh, I sense a food cut coming soon.

Anyways, it's update time... But I got nothing to update with. I'm listening to Pink's upcoming album on The Leak (at MTV.com)... She was right when she said she changed her music. o_O This album is all... weird. You got some techno country rock songs (mixed in one), then some bubblegum pop crap, and then slow love songs that are nice (if you are about to get it on ;]) lmao. But yeah, that's how bored I was, so I listened to that and now I'm here... Updating... About nothing.

I've been playing my baseball game a lot lately o_O MLB High Heat 2004... I'm addicted to it again. And I have the best team, the best players, and whoop everyone :D It's fun... and take a guess which team I am playing as..................................................... times up. THE DIAMONDBACKS! lmao. If only they could make a team like I have on this game... they'd be unstoppable. For some reason I got Pudge (Ivan) Rodriguez out of my Triple A farm system o_O. I was like "oookay" But I'll take it because he's kicking ass right now :D

Enough about the stuff you people don't care for. It's time to play more baseball! So I will talk to ya'll later!

Much love.

Sean

stnemmoC

Quick Update [04 Nov 2003|10:28pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | "Welcome Home (Sanitarium)" by Limp Bizkit *live* ]

I'm doing a quick "before *it's actually way past* bedtime" update. So... What's new with me? Nothing really. Just... Nothing. Uh, my Halloween wasn't all that great. I'm going out with friends next year. My grandmother turned Halloween into a big friggin complain fest. If it's not one thing it's another thing for her. She just can't sit there and ENJOY IT! Or at least ACT like she enjoys it. She freaked out about some dumb talking witch they have and how it doesn't work right. Then it moved onto the neighbors and how "weird" they made Halloween. Although, I didn't like how their neighbors did things o_O.. So next year I'm going with friends which I SHOULD have done last Friday. My costume was cool I guess. I scared a group of girls so that was fun. They came back and one of the chicks was like "can I touch your hole" because I had a fake bullet hole in my head. Then she's like "quit looking at my clevage" LMAO, I'm sorry, but that was THE funniest thing. I was like "yeah, if you had a clevage... I'd look" lmao... I'm mean :P Anyways, I'll try and get pics of my costume the next time I go to my g-parents.

My dad's wasn't fun. It actually SUCKED. Why? Because he had to work on the water heater all weekend... And he kept "renewing" parts and shit and it would never work. So he finally gave up Sat. night and we watched... Frailty... Which I had JUST watch a one week before that plus I OWN that movie now. We had root beer floats for dinner... Root... beeer... floats... WTF!? I swear, I had the worst headache the next day. Speaking of the next day, he was back on the water heater... And then he went into his infamous tempertantrums when it wouldn't work and then it flooded the garage. I was like "omfg, he didn't change one fucking bit since jail." He even said "fuck you" to his girlfriend (of 6 years) because he was mad. So yeah, he finally got over it and came inside. I swear, I wanted to grab my bags and just... LEAVE! I wanted to get away from him because that's the kind of dad I've been trying to escape from my whole life... and now I know beer isn't what fueled his anger. Now I'm afraid because I have that temper in me (thanks to genes), but I ALWAYS hold in my anger until I finally just explode... ARG! I just wish he'd... just take anger management or something because he needs it.

I came home Sunday thank God! LATE Sunday... Because Cowboys were playing and I had to stay at his house and wait for that game to end... So much for this being a quick update. Anyways, yeah, that's all of my weekend. These couple of days... Eh... Boring. I had a half day today too! I dunno what the reason was... But hey, who cares? I told myself to take a nap because I was TIRED this morning... But I never did... And I'll regret it tomorrow. So yeah, pretty much it o_O

And to Lu, sorry I kinda went off on you when I comment to your "american" comment... I've just been annoyed lately. I dunno what for... Just annoyed at everyone. So I'm not mad. But for the people that responded to the the other people who were against Lu's "american" comment and tried to bitch us out... Can go fuck a duck. I won't mention names... but you know who you are. The only reason we said Lu's comment was a bit out of line was because we KNOW that ALL Americans aren't like that. Maybe the pricks you live around are like that. But I can say from personal experience... There's WAY more nice Americans than the stupid, bitchy, asshole, dramatic Americans. I live in Arizona... and trust me... The people here are pretty nice. Everyone says that when they come here from another state. So lay off mine and some other's cases because we disagreed with Lu on some small minor comment. And have a nice day while you're at it :D

MMK, I think it's time for everyone to shut up now because the more everyone talks, the worse things get, and the more pissed people become, and the more hate spreads. Honestly, just shut the fuck up, mind your OWN business, and quit being such inconsiderate (sp? big word lol) assholes. It would be a better WORLD without it :D.............. And that's my cue! Bedtime! lmao.

Love ya'll, later.

Sean

(1) stnemmoC

Update time! [30 Oct 2003|06:44pm]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | "My Life" by 12 Stones ]

I haven't updated since my b-day, so I guess it's time to update! Where to begin? *rolls eyes*

On my b-day I got more presents than usual, more money than usual, and actually went out and did something. I ended up going to that Fear Farm thing. Let me tell you, it was damn scary... Standing in those 30 min - 1 hour lines! The "haunted" BS... not scary. They had people dressed up all cool and trying to make people jump but it didn't really work good. Then we did the "haunted" corn maze... Right, they just had people walking all around in masks and shit. And then to make it even more funny... Some of them chated with us! lmao. Anyways... Yeah. There was also one guy with a chainsaw in the "haunted house" part and about 4 guys with chainsaws in the "haunted cornfield" part. They aren't even scary. I was like "cut me fucker, I'll sue you! MORE MONEY FOR ME!" lmao. They all tried to stalk my mom and scare her (plus she's pretty good looking o_O So I'm sure they were just trying to check her out). But my mom never gets scared. The only time she got scared was when this one girl came up behind her, and my mom turned around and she screamed right in her face lol. After that we went to Top Shelf... AWESOME Mexican food. The drunk people were doing Kerokee (sp?) in the bar area. lmao, that was pretty entertaining.

Lets go over the b-day presents though! I got 8 movies (on DVD): Jumanji, Frailty, Sixth Sense, Final Destination (#1), The Huanting, Mortal Kombat: Annihilation, Dungeons and Dragons, and Glass House. Then I got a game, Hot Shots Golf 3 *thumbs up*. And last but not least my new toy! A NetMD minidisk MP3 walkman player :DDDDDDDDDD! Awesome! Plus I got about $350-$400!!! lmao, YAY! So yeah, that was awesome.

I have proof that women are evil:

women= money and time... time= money... money= the root of all evil... therefore women= evil

lmao, just thought I'd throw that in :P Since girls are always dogging guys... which I think is hypocritical because ya'll girls ain't NEAR perfect either :P

But yeah, my show's on so I'm gonna edit this post when that's over. BE BACK!


:.:EDIT:.:

I'm back! K, more updates. Lets see, I've done nothing all week. I FINALLY got a call from my dad last Friday and I guess I'm going over to his place Saturday afternoon. lmao, he sounded pissed because I haven't called him ONCE in about two months. He deserved it. I always call HIM, he never calls ME! But I forced him to. But, he can be mad all he wants, it's his fault for not proving to me that he REALLY care. God, I love him to death and he's the coolest guy when I'm there with him, but sometimes I just want to strangle him! Maybe he's still holding a grudge against me for moving out of his GIRLFRIEND'S house when he was in jail and living with my FAMILY instead. Psh, whatever, I'm going there Sat. so I guess we'll see how things turn out.

What else, what else? Uh... I'm going out tomorrow night with my little cousins (both girls) and I'm gonna be what I've been two times already in the past three years... A Zombie. But this time I'm roamin the streats. I used to just hand out candy and scared people. The little kids would NEVER come up to the door, so they dragged their parents along and they seemed a bit hesitant too ;] I'll try and get pictures for ya'll though! This year... Is gonna be a kickass costume!

On Monday I saw Texas Chainsaw Massacre... OH SHIT YEAH! That was an AWESOME movie! I didn't jump but a couple of times, so I wasn't THAT scared... I was just more disturbed/freaked out by what happened to these people. But that's my kinda movie. I just hope there isn't a sequel (another remake) because I think it'll ruin it. So yeah, LOVED the movie. Great acting, great scenery (very creepy), great story, and just... great! lmao.

Right now it's late though. I painted a small pumpkin kinda late. I couldn't care it because that would have taken LONGER! Anyways, my pumpkin is a face with it's eyes and mouth "sewed" shut. it's painted this dead-green kinda color, a really pale green. And I'm gonna carry this head around with me tomorrow! :D A new prop lmao.

I'm off to bed though folks. I need to get some sleep. BTW, Tania, sorry you're feelin down in the dumps. I haven't been here for you for the past few days. But guess what?! I love you ;] I hope things start to go better. I just wish I was there... with you... comforting you... making you smile... and all that good stuff ;] Anyways, maybe you do need some time by yourself? I know I need it A LOT. Well, ily Tania! I'll talk to you in IM next week when I catch you online though!

Much love...

Sean

PS: OH! I just want to thank everyone for their happy b-day wishes. It's VERY much appreciated. LOVE YA'LL! THANKS!

(1) stnemmoC

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO... MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! [25 Oct 2003|03:30am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | "Fourty-Six & 2" by TOOL! ]

GUESS WHAT TODAY IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! :D lmao, I'm really not that excited. It's just another day really o_O Except that I get presents, money, and I get to say I'm 17! *mocks a prep girl* 16 was SO 3 1/2 hours ago! rofl. Wow... And guess what?! I can LEGALLY see rated R movies (on my own... But who goes to the movies alone?). So yeah, today is my 17th birthday, put all presents on the table to the left *points* :D lmao.

Lets see, tonight I think I'm going to Fear Farm. I've never been there but the local BIG rock station promotes that and I guess it's a haunted cornfield? I hear some dude chases you around with a fake chainsaw lol. It might be PACKED though... So we'll see. Then on Monday I'm going to see texas Chainsaw Massacre!!!!!! :D Can't wait. Body parts sliced off, blood flying everywhere, Jessica Biel's white tank top... *drools*. To think I was just watching her on 7th Heaven all those years back. *cries* She's all grown up now... AND IT'S GREAT! lmao. I feel like being weird tonight/today. It's my b-day, I have a right to.

Hmm, what else? I've had half days the past couple of school days which was awesome. Some girl in my Spanish class wrote "Sean Loves (with the heart) Jacky". I dunno why. I just met her lmao. I know her twin sister though, and I had a crush on her a little bit last year. They hate each other, go figure =\ lmao. Uh, then I came home and chilled all day. Chatted with Tania, Lu and I finally got a chance to talk (not much though =\), and that's about it. OH! Okay, I have some changes in my SN... and for the few people that read this, listen up. For some reason I can't log into my original YIM SN... So I made a new one. It's downfall838. The old one was THEdownfall838, which no longer works until I can fix it again. And then I have a new AIM/AOL SN! I still have thedownfall838 for that one, but I have ANOTHER one! It's PLAcid x TurmoiL. I got it to play a trick on Tania, but decided to keep it. So I have both names now!

That's about it. Comment me for my b-day *puppy eyes* PLEEEEEEEEEEASE. o_O Now I'm begging? Well, comment if you want. I'm off to hit the sack. I've partied up on too much soda tonight lmao, so talk to ya later!

Much love.

Birthday Boy! 17 Years Down... Plenty More To Go!
\m/(-_O)\m/~Sean~\m/(O_-)\m/

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