Disc-oh's Journal
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Date:2008-06-24 11:21

This relationship doesn't seem to be going anywhere anymore. It hurts so fucking much. I'm putting my foot down, I refuse to go round. But all I want to do right now is hug him. I don't want to see him, I know its for the best if I clear my head. I hate this so much.

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Date:2008-05-22 22:05
Subject:You're just like a dream

Have you ever told anyone you were OK when you really weren't?

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you should just pretty much be with?
No. I am with him.

What are you looking forward to?
youandeye. having to share a bed. hells yeah.

Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
i should hope so.

What is one thing you miss about your past?
being 14.

Can you see yourself ever being with someone you've been with before?
the person i'm with.

What is your greatest accomplishment?
i havnt accomplished shit. actually i did make this really great pancake once, it was just right.

Have you ever hooked up with one of your girl/boyfriend's best friends?

Do you talk a lot?
i can do. especially when i'm nervous.

Can you play pool?
i'm sure i can.

Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment
slip into my empty bed and educate me my co co co.
I feel safe on the toilet seat.
I havent finished my water.

Did you cry today?
yeah baby. when do i not cry.

Where were you at 8:00 this morning?
in my warm bed.

Are you gonna be home alone tonight?
Not so much.

How do you feel about babies?
Gosh I hate this subject. No babies for me for a long while I guess.

Who do you make fun of the most?
mostly strangers because i'm an insecure bitch, which is why i make fun of others right? fucking psychologists and their stooopid fucking theories. "you called someone a shit face, therefore you believe that YOU are a shit face.' fucking morons.

Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
No, i'd actually kill her.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?
no. its too hard.

Would you prefer a thunderstorm or for it to be snowing?
a thunderstorm.

Do you like to smile?
no. i dont like smile lines either.

How Tall Are You?

What time do you usually wake up on the weekends?

Last thing you had to drink?
sparkling water.

Do you like your phone?
yeah i guess i do. that phone and i have been through a hell of a lot. she knows all my secrets.

The way to win your heart?
VALENTINES GIFTS FOR FRICKS SAKE. Being romantic is not a crime. I want all that lovey dovey shit. I want long walks, picnics, late night conversations, roses, twenty minute kisses. I want it all.

Are you tanned?
not so much.

Are there any part of your body that hurts?

Are you happy with your life right now?
yes. however. i. need. a. cigarette. now. like.

Who made you laugh today?

Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
not that im aware of.

When was the last time you cried really hard?

Last bed you slept in?
my own.

Last words you spoke?
'if you say so'

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Date:2008-05-22 21:49
Subject:Don't YAWN so fucking loud

Its been a great day, even though I've been sniffing like an absolute bitch. I'm craving alcohol. And I've only had a cigarette a day for three days. It's killing me. I know its bad but I'm seriously craving booze...I want something down me but I'm skint.

Anywho, I'm looking forward to exams being over. I've got to lose some serious weight. I calculated my BMI and apparently I'm at a healthy weight...no wonder people are so fucking obese these days...when they're saying I'm a normal weight. That's some seriously fucked up shit.

My fathers officially going back to crazy again. If he thinks he's gonna drag me down with him. he's got another thing coming. Fool.

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Date:2008-04-20 18:04

Hey, does anyone know any photographers who particularly focus on erosion? or even aging? I've got an exam coming up and my subject is "Erode" but I can't find any photographers to reference to. Please help!!

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Date:2008-04-16 00:37

I'm going to uni in September and moving in with my boyfriend. I haven't had the guts to tell my parent's I'll be living with him. My mum knows I'm leaving but I haven't spoken to my dad about it...my parents haven't yet talked to me about the fact that I'm moving out and its getting really hard for me because I need them to be supportive instead of pretending its not happening. They're making me feel like I'm doing something wrong. We're all avoiding the subject because we dont want to face the truth.

I feel like such a baby. I need my mum to be there for me. I want to be able to share my excitement with her.


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Date:2008-04-10 21:19
Subject:Aim: 1000 calories a day.

I can do this. I will do this.

Calorie counting sucks. But I'm getting the gist of it.

Special K cereal: 117

Chicken: 211

Tomato: 27

Soya Milk: 110

Lemon: 61

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Date:2008-04-10 20:13
Subject:His name is 'Daddy'

I hate it when he comes home drunk. Such a fucking loser. He actually makes me physically sick. The way he stumbles across the room and drops everything. Fucking disgusting. Bastard.

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