Just Jealouse   
05:11pm 30/01/2004
mood: bitchy
music: Last To Know *Pink*
I use to be great friends with all this girls for a long time. They are real preps, i have nothing agianst them, till they have to be mean. or talk behind my back. All my friends backs, what the hell. One of them are the biggest slut in the school she lost her V-card in the 6th grade she was 12...but the are so rude, i am friends with some of them out of school, but during school the wouldn't even say hi, is don't undersatnd...I know i an't jealouse, but if they talk about myfriends and me at lunch or anytime that is jealousey my friends, i mean we sat at the lunch table right infront of them, and the where talking about us..what the hell how rude, talk abouts if you want but not so we can hear LOSERS haha
Faking All Outside   
11:23pm 30/01/2004
mood: lethargic
music: Walk Away *Pink*
Trying hard, to think happy thoughts. Laughing like I am aren't happy, they are sad, or around there. Can't get away to let out my fears, my pain I'm trying to hold in. Keep a secret, nobody can know. Can anyone tell, since yesterday that I am faking a smile? Playing them all, acting out a performance. I'm to afraid, and annoyed to show everyone what I feel like inside, for now...Until this changes, I will still be faking that smile.