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Friday, August 12th, 2005
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2:06 pm - blah blah
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wow.. havent wrote in this in a while... but right now, my life is like utter shit.. my parents are getting divorced... they dont have any money.. i had to go to the eye doctor today.. and i need 3 pairs of glasses.. one for reading, one for regular day and one for night.... then i had to pay for my visit and for my glasses.... i have to go to the dr. for my ear later today cause i have a hole in my ear drum.. then i have to make an appointment with an orthapedic for my knee... so tough.. and im moving out soon.... like usual i have a new b/f.. went through a few this year...but I am going stick with this one for a long time... <3 jeff
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| Thursday, February 24th, 2005
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9:53 pm - ...well...
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eh.. life is doing alright... i drive now so i have a lot more frredom.. my dad is still being an asshole... dosent matter if he is sober or not he acts the same.... i still have to get a car... well like.. i got a job... and i still am with dan... well yea...
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| Thursday, January 27th, 2005
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10:09 am - ... in school ...
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my life has been pure hell....don't really want the whole world knowing.. if you are close you know what is going on... i drive in less then 2 weeks... so it will be awesome...i am going bach to my "gothic" style. I am more comfortable that way.. i like the darkside better.. beside my parents are being retarted... all well. my boyfriend and I are doing really well... i fell in love again..... i love you dan.... my baby... <3... well... gtg bell for 2nd is gunna ring and i have work to do for shop... madd luvv
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| Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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9:35 am - ...well...
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well... i'll give it one more shot and hopefully nobody ruins it again........................
... my life is going pretty shitty right now... my winter break was the worst ever.. my mother wants to get divorced.. and what a better time to say it then christmas morning.. and my father being the dickhead that he is.. says no.. and if i do give you a divorce i wil fight for custody of the kids... you know... i never liked my father... so still today, we have constant arguing and depression running through the walls of my home... sound like a great break right.. well i slept home one day last week.. and this week so far, because i have school i must sleep home... not fun... well i g back to work today.. i am looking for a job that pays better then the one i have now... so far, waitressing sounds pretty damn good right now.. and i think it will be very cool.. no matter what anyone says.. well.. i am in school typing this from now on, because my father goes through my computer and all my shit that i do... so i really don't have any privacy anymore...
Me and Dan are doing great... I think im in love... and i think we will really work out.. i love this kid to death... and i know he loves me to.. i hope all works out.. this month will be our 4th month on the 28th andwe are going strong... i lost a lot of weight over the break because of the fact i havent really been eating much.. like 2 meals a day.. no soda or sugary drinks.. and no salt... pretty much all carbs... well i have this old lady coming in in like 10 minutes.. so i have to get her work ready.. I am making a book for her, design and all... so it will be really cool.. i am making my first book in shop... well laterzz all.... MwAHZ
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| Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
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10:57 pm - ...
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people were so immature... i changed my name for this journal crap... if you want it.. call my cell or text me...
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| Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
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8:35 pm - ...wow...
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Dan is a great guy... my new boyfriend... i feel like such a slut going out with a guy for 4 days, and im really like nervous.. more nervous now then when i did it with mark when i was like 15.. i mean ... there was no condom involed this time.. so idk...im a little shaky.. and for amanda n toni ann.. have you ever had to pee when ur having sex? well.. it happens to the best of us... lol... but yea... tonight was great, aside from the fact of getting laid...well.. i gotta go to bed so i can wake up tomorrow morning to go watch dan's baseball game again...woo.. i feel so loved... then i have nothing to so after the games, so i might clean my room... o yea.. school is doing good... im running for office, i might have some luck but idk a lot of people dont like me so i dont know if im gunna win...Soccer has been good with the Tigers.. we won our first State Tech Tournament.. next game we play is against Cape May.. theres nothing really more to talk about... well adios....
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| Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004
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9:51 pm - ...woo hoo
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today was great.. i hug out with mark cause he came to school.. well we like walked around for 4 periods just like talking about shit... it was nice to be able to like talk to him with out other people there... but yea.. then i came home... played s/c... went to work.. then here i am.. i told you i do the same thing everyday.. o and if anyone wants to come.. EB Mall this friday around 5.. call me for details.. you should have my number.. if not ask me... im always online or leave a comment...
madd luv
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| Monday, June 21st, 2004
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9:32 pm - ...ssdd...
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well... today was actually hilarious...i had like 3 water fights.. then Mrs.Tsai (chinese sub) was like " i write you up, go to brown" i walked around the school for two periods... i got suspended for tuesday and wednesday... but i dont care.. i got work to do in shop.. so like i gotta so, and i have phsyicals for soccer next year tomorrow... all wells... then i went to work... talked to drew.. then took class.. then came home... talked to chris... thne i am now on starcraft.. all well... laterz ya'll
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| Friday, June 18th, 2004
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10:20 pm - ... well, could be better....
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well.. school was crazy! in gym, everyone was like.. i dare you to light up a cig and smoke it in front of everyone.... so i did, and i walked around with it, smoking... and i was talking to melissa and her friends were like... jeez.. i don't even have the balls to do that... that was funny... then i came home... had an argument with my parents.. whats new... it's like a daily thing now.. then went to work.. went to the movies with Andrew... the movie was gay.. it was like an immitation of Matrix.. and the graphics were horrible... then i come home to this convo on my away message...
Silentstalker40: hello
Silentstalker40: i know what u and mark have been doing
Silentstalker40: i kno what your doing to rachel
Silentstalker40: your gonna regret this
Silentstalker40: wake up and face ur worse nightmare NOW!!!!!!!!
well im sorry.. but whoever the fick this is, must not know mark..cause he isnt even in jersey... all well... im not gunna let it bother me, but if i find out who it is... that's another story.. then i say.. unless they know me, how did they get my s/n? all well... all people want is attention now a days... well imma go play starcraft...
Laterzz.. Brandy
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| Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
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6:45 pm - la di dum
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Today, school was alright i guess... ssdd... my english finals are over, i started biology and shop.... so like... yea.. .thank god that school is almost over... like in a way i want it over, but in a way i dont want it to.... cause that means i have to work more.... i think... lol... wel then if i work more, i get more money, then i get a car.. woo hoo...I am at work right now.... really bored.. nothing really fun to do.. i get off at like 8:45 ish today.... then go home and play s/c and talk to Andrew... yey... then i found out mark is coming to school next week for the last days... i miss him a lot.. like i feel like a part of me is missing... then i look on the bright side, Andrew is there for me, and i am hoping that everything works out... for soccer in school, havent really heard much.. i am really curious who are the captains next year... all well.. ill find out in august... well got to get back to work.... MWAHZ
current mood:  gloomy
current music:
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| Monday, June 14th, 2004
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9:33 pm - ...
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long time... and no talk... not that anyone cares anyway.. but for you people that do...
mark is in NC... i miss him so much...like OMG!! hehe.. ::inside joke:: but i've been like emo today... i hung out at the harbor.. it was great... and my hand doesnt hurt from playing handball.. like it's amazing.. and then the beach was the greatest on saturday... i felt a feeling i didnt feel for a while... maybe a hint of love, stuck in me is still left.. my heart is slowly healing.. and hopfully it won't be broken again.. the last one hurt, a lot... but Andrew, i don't think will be moving anytime soon.. so i'm good in that perspective... i got a cool ass tan from this weekend too... im not like mad white... hehe... yea.. i got drunk on saturday night too.. got in another huge ass arguement with my dick head father... i promised people to stop doing drugs...i hope i can do it... oh and on friday.. when i went for a health exam thingie.. i lost 10 pounds since my birthday.. i was SO happy... but i have to lose a little more... then i'd be happy... or lose my baby fat would be great... and then on sunday, andrew came in my lifee... such a sweetheart... i really don't care what people are going to say about us two... so keep your fucking mouth shut, cause i know there are mad assholes out there wanting to start shit... and if you wanna start say it to my fucking face not as a gay comment in my journal.. please... but off that subject.. i actually think that we are going to last a while... at least i hope... and i usually don't have a positive opinion on things, but this time i do... well.. i gtg,.. laterzz
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| Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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10:26 pm - still crying...
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no matter what i do.. i always come back to thinking of you..
yea... don't worry about it... school has been alright... no fights lately... going to see HP3 friday... well... update later
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10:26 pm - still crying...
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no matter what i do.. i always come back to thinking of you..
yea... don't worry about it... school has been alright... no fights lately... going to see HP3 friday... well... update later
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10:26 pm - still crying...
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no matter what i do.. i always come back to thinking of you..
yea... don't worry about it... school has been alright... no fights lately... going to see HP3 friday... well... update later
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| Tuesday, June 1st, 2004
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9:26 am - like totally whatever...
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well... my weekend was alright.... went ot Hershey Park for my sisters soccer tournament... I actually didn't get sunburn... OMG... what is the world coming to... well anywho... before i went away, i was on this diet.. and when i was gone i couldnt really eat the foods i wanted to and shit... and i gained 5 pounds, just from this weekend :-*(
::emo tear:: so i gotta lose all the weight again...... but then i came home at like 2 on sunday, slept all the way through till monday morning... then monday, my dad pissed me off... fucking ass hole.. whats new... i dont really feel like explaining... then all last night, all i could think about was mark... and everything... and i really want to like talk to him.. b/c he's not going to be here, and after spending all that time with him, not talking to him, and then him moving.. .and never ever talking to him again, would simply crush me....but hey.... any way... im in school right now... not doing what i am supposed to (not anything new) doing... well... field day was cancelled today, stupid rain... all well... i am going to write some notes.... laterzz
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| Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
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2:49 pm - another love?
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I make Believe that you are here, it's the only way I see clear...
Like OMG! i hate it when people do that... lmao.. bobby ur great, we got like so much in common.. he's great.. ok... "i don't have a hat anymore, so you can't do anything" hehe.. just wait till monday... he is great... and really cute... i love his baby face...
school has gotten better, im doing great.. on thursday i am running for State Officer for a club for exceptional students that excell is their shops... it's great...
im at work right now... waiting for someone to call me... lol... never guess who... but yea.. my boss is back.
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| Sunday, May 9th, 2004
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11:42 pm - ...
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this weekend was alright.... Competition wasn't as great as I thought it was gunna be... I think i did shitty, but as everyone else said, you only went this year, so next year you can kick everyones ass!! so yea... if i think of it that way it was a good weekend... today was alright also, went to my aunts in jackson, gave my cuz some tips on playing guitar... then i played it and showed him up... and then it led to my walking around town with my sister... and then talking to people... all well... im going to bedd so like.. laterz
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| Thursday, May 6th, 2004
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8:18 pm - zip-a-dee do dah
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well today went alright... nothing amazing happened... finished testing though...finally.. now for competition this weekend.... good luck to me.!!
laterz
current mood:  bored
current music: absolutly nothing
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| Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
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10:58 pm - la di da
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well.. today went better then my usual day...i've been smoking more then usual also.. so like yea... and um, this testing shit is mad gay... my sisters friend died on sunday... everytime i see her she is crying... its so upsetting.... but anyway...shit happens.. and i guess im lucky... well.. what ever... got to go study for VICA competition this weekend.. GO Vo-TECH.... we gunna take all the medals!! laterz
current mood:  drained
current music: Echo - Trapt
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| Monday, May 3rd, 2004
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9:29 pm - yea... w/e
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today was shitty as hell... lucky for these two girls im going to VICA Competition this weekend and i can't get suspended... people love to start shit.... i mean it was thier choice to do it i didnt force them... so they can kiss my ass... but anyway.. i was pissed all day today... hey and i even dressed like a slut... woopie.. Dom said he was gunna call me... but i guess he isnt... cause he didnt call yet.... and well... idk... things arent working out between us, his frineds can't keep thier mouth shut, sorta like when i was going out with mark.... well i gotta finish copying cd's for chris... laterz
current mood:  exanimate
current music: Self Medicate - 40 Below Summer
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