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Wednesday, August 27th, 2003
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3:11a
ooooh, the procrastination! Cannot. Perform. Meaningful. Actions. Argghh....
So, a regular Tuesday in the life of me. Got up later than I wanted to (and this will most likely happen tomorrow as well despite planned shopping expedition) and sat around watching videos. I haven't seen Labyrinth for so long. I was suprised I could sit through it really! And also at the semi-attractiveness of David Bowie. Worrying.
Felt guilty for not doing any work.
Went to the pub with Kel and Em. We actually did ok at the pub quiz tonight (14 out of 20, which is good for us!) but it was still a lot of 'me me me' from Em, which doesn't get on my nerves so much as depress me ever so slightly, so that I hardly really notice until I'm back home and talking to my mum about it. Grrrr.
Apparently they'll be closing the pub for a while soon for refurbishment, which means finding somewhere else we can hang like a bunch of stalkers on quiz nights. It's very unlike me to say this, but I'm sort of wishing that we did something else together occasionally. When at the pub there's always a niggling feeling of expecting R to walk through the door, which happens so rarely it's ridiculous. It's ridiculous from beginning to end with him, but hey. So it'd be nice to have a bar or a different pub to go to, do a different quiz, see some different regulars. Just for a change, y'know? I'm not saying I'm mad keen to 'go out', I'm not. but a change of scenery would be nice. It is of course just possible that Leeds might afford me some kind of life in the long run, with some new friends that I can do that stuff with.
The topic of friends has really been niggling lately. Actually, pretty much from the first year at uni, when it became apparent that everyone was having a fab time except me. I feel lonelier than I have in a long time right now and as it's coinciding with times where a lot of my friends are beginning to feel grown-up and fulfilled it's getting me down. Coming back from uni for good in July I really felt that I should consider Durham as ridiculous wasted time that I should just forget. Maybe just pretend that I'm still 18 and I've got those three years back and use them in Leeds instead. I'm just so much happier to be at home with my folks, but with my friends I still feel isolated. They just can't shut up about how they'd rather be anywhere else, and, even though I know I shouldn't take it to heart, it does hurt me.
But yes, in other news:
Almost come up with a plot bunny for a short story. Just need to figure out how a man could re-ingest a gold ring...
And I still miss R. No suprises there then.
current mood:  geeky
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4:10a - I'm sorry...I just had to
THE SQUIRREL JOKE!
Just because youre profane doesnt mean youre not
hilarious. Youre the unique kind of joke
people remember for a long time.
Which Eddie Izzard Joke Are You?
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hehehe:D
Mervyn Peake
What classically cool poet or writer are you?
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Yeah, I wish.
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