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Blurty for Heather.
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| Saturday, August 30th, 2003 |
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| LAYLA SAW MARY BETH'S BEWBIES AND I DIDN'T..... | ||||
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| Tuesday, August 26th, 2003 |
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Friday, Kevin and I watched chicago AGAIN. twas nice. so was sarah's party. all tho it would have been better if i was drunk. Things that went down on Sat. nite : Audrey gives me many things she can't take to college, such as hats, shoes, hawaii stuff, smuggled bathroom signs, airplane merchandise, posters, etc. We car dance to ROONEY. (4 those of you who don't know, this is one of my TOP5 fave pastimes) "fine then. i'll just lick it and rub it (in a circular motion) on my boobs like I ALWAYS DO." - she says that, which causes me to fall out of the window. went to drew's grandmother's house ?!?!?!?! i kissed audrey. (In a non-lezzie mcguire way, mind u) cause it was on her FOREHEAD. brent raped me. the plant died of exhaustion. donnie darko was impaled. and it was too much. michela ate paper. a lot. she feels the pain today. frank ignored me. =( i had some beer-battered mushrooms. Drew and I get into a huge fight, for real. It started with him saying : "what the hell was that all about?" and ended with him saying "i really hate you." and not in the nice casual way. i woke up sunday with no voice because i screamed at him for so long. even after i came home. Its funny how I almost went to his triatholon and kicked his ass in front of everyone. Audrey was right about ... Everything. I should have listened. I'm really gonna miss her. I don't have anyone to annoy @ BK. & no one to burn me cds filled with 60s stuff. & no one to set me straight when i try to buy nasty coffee. or an unworthy book. this is all casey's fault. And as a final word, i only have 1 thing left to say: NOTNERT, fucker, notnert. *****  this past week i have been SEW into the ramones/clash/sex pistols. ITS INSANE. i've fallen for oldscool punk once again. i hope this isn't one of my 'musical phases'. cause that justin timberlake week was just not respectable. mr. kofag still calls me senorita.  I LOVE YOU SID VICIOUS!! ~ ~ ~ we were running across the football field for like 6 YEARS when coach massey comes out and tells us the field was just fertilized THIS MORNIN'. how uncool. needless to say, my beautiful feetsies smell like shit. natalia the mex brought me a wonderful goody bag full of surprises "only us brown kids can enjoy." she is 'teh greatest'. <3 <3 |
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| Saturday, August 23rd, 2003 |
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AT meet the bucks (an after-school assembly to introduce the many org. at our school) , we were all standing around (the majorettes, drummers, and the football team)..... and cameron came up to me and asked me to feel his 'muscle' (which are HUGE btw) and then trent said something and i totally ignored cameron ..... and then cameron got all pissed off and walked away. Now, he is angry, because he says that I don't give him the necessary attn. that 'friends like us' deserve. ?!?!?!??!? I don't want to be friends with him. He should know this. trent sure as hell does. and at the football game thursday, i yelled 'i love you trent' (which i do) and cameron heard it, & once again got angry with me. when i screamed for him the ENTIRE DAMN game..... all this petty football related drama is making me sick ...... when the season hasn't even started yet. bleh..die. trent is soo hott. i've got to stop stalking him. what an odd post. |
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The night has fallen down the staircase And I, for one, have felt its bruises Equilbrium; inebriated Our social graces have been displaced As we sink deeper into the drink The volume increases.... Night time resurrects fault lines Silent wars -- rumble somewhere below The surfaces verses... The surfaces verses... The shoe is dropped, lungs explode Shards of words of a shattered voice And there's still a hole where the phone was thrown The moon is rising, a revolution I close my eyes and the room is spinning You're screaming: "Sweetie, the moon has raped me -- It has left its seeds like a tomb inside me So I must learn to abort these feelings This romance is bleeding..." Night time triggers the land mines Bedroom wounds -- lovers like brigadiers Marching two by two... Marching two by two... A soldier's down Flood gates burst I've said some things I wish you'd never heard Like, "There's still a hole where the phone was thrown." It's growing as we speak And it's sucking us both in A vacuum of sorrow to swallow up the day. |
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| Thursday, August 21st, 2003 |
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| JEREMY : "it's a fun story. basically we were just kicking it and boxing each other one day (like me, layla, adam, wes, travis, ryan, chas, and 3 other people i don't remmeber...) so yeah he decides to box madison. well he like punched her rEALLY hard and knocked her down and made her cry. that pissed me off. i didnt take kindly to the situation in the first place, but esp. since he made her cry. so yeah i got angry and i was like come on wes box me. you'll box a girl but you won't box me. step up pussy. and he never would. he doesn't take well to direct confrontation. which is why he runs everytime someone mentions brandon rosenberry." | ||||
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| Sunday, August 17th, 2003 |
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I don't think I'll ever be sorryNo I'm not sorry for a thing I've doneAnd I don't think I'll ever wake up lonelyCause having her around wasn't all that special  yesyes - I keep the strange jokes a rolling ... THINGS THAT MUST BE DONE BEFORE SUNDOWN TONITE : - 1. go to some wholesale grocer's and sample the many free samples - 2. confess my undying love to 'DejaEntendizzle' - 3. buy a 'cause mikes are for swinging not singing' t-shirts - 4. mediate between the JJ vs Layla match that will go down in approx. 3 hours - 5. listen to the clash while jumping on my brothers bed - 6. throw out nasty moldy thai leftovers - 7. find the bacardi - 8. turn japanese - 9. free my troops - 10. sing chingy until Jeremy kills me |
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| Friday, August 15th, 2003 |
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"It's three in the morning, you are... " "my... hispanic... ass is calling up the waffle house and ordering pork chops."  TOMORROW, DEAREST ADAM, TOMORROW. ***** ( MY BEST JJ ) |
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2003 |
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The Frequent and Highly Publicized Relations of My So-called Clique (a few months ago) Madison and Wesley become bf/gf, thus forming the cutest emo-loving couple at our dear school. Everyone is all smiles. (a few weeks ago) Layla apologizes to an anonymous person for lying. The other person has yet to know. Layla has massive conflicting problem that I notice but do not confront her about. (friday) Madison goes missing. I worry. Madison is found. I worry still. Madison is depressed & cynical. I think to myself 'Maybe I should ask Layla to talk with her'. BAD IDEA. (today)I find Brooke's note to Maddie trying to lift her solemn spirits : "no! no! dont worry about him...i didnt think u would really care honestly...he fucks ugly girls while he has pretty girl friends ("kayla" vs. you)...you should have dumped him a LOOOONNNGG time ago!" NO ONE IN OUR CIRCLE IS NAMED KAYLA. NO ONE EVEN CLOSE. except for maybe layla. My mind is now going back to like march of 2001 when wes and layla first became casual-sex buddies, up until about 3 months ago. I was opposed to it then. and still am. I think they became sex-buddies again, but i am too nice to ask. and i love maddie. and i love layla. and i tolerate wes. THIS CAN AND WILL NOT BREAK UP MY FRIENDS. all though I think it may. i feel like sarah jessica fucking parker. |
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| Sunday, August 10th, 2003 |
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| Saturday, August 9th, 2003 |
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RizzoGurl: so when are softball tryouts...,cause i really am gona try out,??? iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: next week iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: monday and tuesday iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: are you really? RizzoGurl: HELL NO RizzoGurl: i did play for a while ... iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: in the first grade? RizzoGurl: no, 7th and 8th during the summer RizzoGurl: however, i quit cause it sucked RizzoGurl: and volleyball was betta iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: you don't even play volleyball though RizzoGurl: you're right, cause i suck at that too iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: so did you go see swat last night? RizzoGurl: hellmotheryes iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: me too iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: i want to have sex with that movie. RizzoGurl: nice username btw iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: i liked it RizzoGurl: i want to have sex with colin farrell RizzoGurl: i want the soundtrack RizzoGurl: cause i danced for 4/5ths of the movie iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: colin farrell is my sex toy. RizzoGurl: he is my number 1 plastic pleasure. RizzoGurl: yes, i have el figurine of him. iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: i don't. iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: i have the real thing. iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: he comes over all the time. RizzoGurl: >:o RizzoGurl: sxkfuck you RizzoGurl: it's probably not important iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: hey now, no need to get hostile RizzoGurl: you called me a whore RizzoGurl: you whore iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: that i did iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: it could have been worse RizzoGurl: drew's says you need a stalker iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: i don't get it RizzoGurl: you are starved for attn. RizzoGurl: a stalker will make you feel loved iFiWEREYOUiDGAG: so, he wants to stalk me? RizzoGurl: um....no. |
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| So the deal is ... Maddie and I are friends and the thing about friends is you help each other. But I don't know how i can help her without offending her. She gets so uptight about ppl telling her what to do. You see, it all started back in the day, when some of our older senior friends started giving Madison pills. And she did the joy-popping thing for a while. Slowly, she made the transition from perscription drugs to pot. and alcohol. She only used to dabble. but now, it's gotten bad. i am worried. she breathes pot. and is driving everywhere. I drove by maddie's house 6 times and she was not there. i know her parents are worried for her. even jeremy's worried for her. however, i tend to make things a bigger deal than they already are. maybe I can get layla to talk to her. | ||||||||
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| Friday, August 8th, 2003 |
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SWAT tonite. colin farrell, oh orgasm. colin farrell. i like the way you did that rite thurr.... lmao. I simply heart Tara. Tara is one of a kind. Tara is a lot nicer than ppl think she is. When I think of miss congeniality, I think of Tara. I think Tara needs to know that I live for our nightly talks on aim. I want to buy gifts for Tara. Tara has a lot of chest. The worst thing about Tara is she's gonna graduate. The best thing about Tara is her breasts, err, talent. Tara can't seem to stop thinking about Jamison. I love Tara's smile .... it's so perfect and inviting. If I could describe Tara in one world, it would be pervish. Tara reminds me of plastic pleasures. Open is how I would describe myself when I'm with Tara. I am in a better mood with Tara. |
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| Wednesday, August 6th, 2003 |
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ME: tomorrow i will throw rotten heads of lettuce at her locker Jeremy: i know...it saddened me Jeremy: i'll just set her house on fire ME: you.......pyromaniac Jeremy: you.........schizotypal arachnaphobiac ME: i'm not afraid of spiders ME: roches are my only fear Jeremy: schizotypal acrophobiac ME: Piscataqua-lovin, patchouli-stinkin ye haynos ME: pow. Jeremy: hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobiac! ME: YOUR MOM Jeremy: yeahp she probably is Jeremy: so you're a quick orgasmer eh? ME: HECK YES Jeremy: like how quick? 10 seconds quick? or like...33 minutes quick/ ME: my record is 11 seconds and then orgasm ME: 33 minutes is not quick Jeremy: fascinating ME: but only around certain ppl ME: like the drum instructor @ buckhorn, francis Jeremy: only around certain people Jeremy: ? ME: certain ppl that make me supa horny Jeremy: oooo...like layla? ME: israelis just do it for me ME: so, you + mike both like madison? ME: interesting.... ME: and she is with someone else... ME: also interesting Jeremy: liked ME: oh, that's what i meant Jeremy: yeahp...i don't understand it myself but i'm not one to argue about such things ME: how can you not have the hotts for maddie.....SHE'S SEXY ME: like two goats on prom night Jeremy: the whole smoking pot/drinking thing is a mucho turn off for me ME: oh Jeremy: yeah i'm weird i know ME: yes yes. pot=bad. alcohol -> not so much Jeremy: yeah i'm' not a huge fan of a drunk girl...like if you're not sloppy ass drunk then i don't mind it as much but it still bothers me ME: i've never seen madison sloppy ass drunk and i have never been sloppy ass drunk, so i can't imagine it Jeremy: yeah i've never seen her that way either but she smokes a lot of pot Jeremy: so yeah that kidna yeah |
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| Sunday, August 3rd, 2003 |
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| I LOVE NATALIA MARIE FRANCO!!! SHE IS NUMBER 1 TO ME!!!! WE ARE TO BECOME GREAT FRIENDS!! AND BUY DORA THE EXPLORA LUNCHBOXES!! AND TO PULL PRANKS ON CRAIG HAITH[no]COCK! FOR WE ARE THE GREATEST SPANISH SPEAKING DUO!!! ME, THE CUBAN, & SHE, THE MEXICAN. WE WILL CURSE THE DIRRTY GRINGOS BEHIND THEIR BACKS. AND SING SELENA WHILST WE CAR DANCE!!!! WE WILL FIGHT OVER SHANES JONES, BUT THEN MAKE UP AND SETTLE FOR OUR SIGNIFICANT HOMOSEXUALS (EVAN AND DREW)!!!! IF LAYLA WAS NOT MY TWIN, I WOULD SUBSTITUTE FOR TALIA!!! | ||||||
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my world is fucked. what the hell is wrong with me? i have too much fun them. i joke with tara and amy jo, as if we are BFF. in fact, they think we are BFF. but in secret, i want to give them SARS. and watch as they are painfully intubated with a 7.5 inch tube. drew and i fight for 3 nights in a row. He lies to me. I tell him to fuck off. He shows up at our twirling fundraiser and brings in the money. i did not ask for this. why are you so damn nice when i tell you repeatedly to sod off? i am confuzzled. how does layla feel about moi? why do i try to be why did colin farrell ever even answer the phone??? you stupid fuckass... and then, there's cameron. i sell gold cards for the football team .... why? bc cameron is on the football team and I am a good friend. i force two freshmen to wash, dry, & 'shimmy' his car. why? bc I am his good friend. I do not speak about his pregnant [yet, butch] ex-girlfriend. why? bc I am NOT a gossip queen. and i am a good friend to him. and then he calls celia ... IN DETROIT. she doesn't even like you. she gives head sporactically to your friends and team-mates. WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO, CAMERON?????? you could just tell me. i would do it. que sera (Sarah Alise) says i am in love with him. i say -what? no, if anyone, i am in love with drew.- she replies - well, cameron is his best friend. - she then proceeds with a subtle reference to a theatrical drama/ soap opera called Passions. i know of no dwarves named Timmy. and again, I am left puzzled and dazed. why does House of Pain make so many references to eggs in a song about the bad-ass Irish? |
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| Wednesday, July 30th, 2003 |
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Opening Credits: the s.w.a.t. theme song Average-day Scene: firefly - saves the day Best-friend Scene: why try- rooney First Date Scene: timberwolves at new jersey - tbs Falling-in-love scene: great romances of the 20th century- tbs Love Scene: just like heaven - the cure, best of me- the starting line Fight-with-friend Scene: something isn't right here - the juliana theory Break Up Scene: one armed scissor- at the drive in, screaming infedelities - dashboard confessional, wasted & ready - ben kweller, piece of my heart - best interest, excerpts from various notes... - cursive Get-back-together Scene: nothing better - the postal service, soco amaretto lime- brand new Empowered Single Girl Scene: these boots are made for walkin' Fights-at-home Scene: buried myself alive - the used 'Life's okay' Scene: bittersweet symphony - the verve Heartbreak Scene: sea anemone - jets to brazil Mental-breakdown Scene: the killing moon - echo and the bunnymen Driving scene: rocket city - northstar Driving-in-the-rain Scene: the quiet things no one ever knows- brand new Lesson-learning Scene: 9 things everybody knows - q and not u Deep-thought scene: mad world Flashback scene: our house in the middle of the street - talking heads Party scene: a girl like you - edwyn collins Regret Scene: Me vs. Maradonna vs. Elvis - brand new Happy-dance Scene: All you is drums to start a dance party - piebald Long-night-alone Scene: overkill -colin hay Closing Credits: i sing the body electric - me first and the gimme gimmes |
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on the brink of me junior year, and the second half of my high school career, I decided at 3 am last night that i should make a list of the ten things i was going to do before i graduated. 2. see as many as possible of the Top 5 in concert 3. write something personal and true 4. learn to cook (not to become a culinary master, but i can't make add-water brownies) 5. take up photography 6. graffiti something. 7. tell a certain someone I love them 8. give blood 9. learn to ride a bike 10. make some serious decisons chances are, none of this will be done. i haven't even made a dent in my summer projects and school starts TOMORROW. why do i procrastinate so ? |
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| Tuesday, July 29th, 2003 |
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wrote a poem, it's not very personal, in fact I think it's about winona ryder. ( Read more... ) |
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| Saturday, July 26th, 2003 |
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| It's funny how your worst enemies always seem to turn out to be all of your best friend's best friends But I folded I told These aren't things I've saved to sing you but I folded I told So draw or throw and I will explode It's time for you to choose the bullet or the chapstick Or you are far too cute or whatever he said Every time I hear it I am wishing I was great I wished her past tense my best friend But then I folded and I told These aren't things I say to save me But I folded I told I hope she's caught in the explosion It's time for you to choose the bullet or the chapstick Or you are far too cute or whatever he said It's time for you to choose the bullet or the chapstick This is me in his room Red Gold I told We don't play fair Red Gold I told We never stand too close So I update this almost every single day for you I begin to hate you for your face and not just the things you go So go tell him why my wrist is sore from pulling out your insides all night Nothing that you do is new to anything or anyone but you | ||||
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wtf is celia's problem??? just when i start being nice to her and forgetting all the things she's done to me during the season, she starts lying about me to one of my friends and then flat-out lies to me. god, i can't stand how i'm always the one making the effort to keep things all animosity-free, but it's kind of hard when you're surrounded by back-stabbing whorey cunt-faced bitches. now, i have to wait while cameron goes to buy his mum some food and come back so we can straighten things out, while celia is in detroit. i just hate when i try my hardest to keep my friends, make nice all the time, and end up constantly hoping things will fall in place. WHY DO THINGS NEVER GO AS PLANNED?? i hate having to associate myself with her. i can't all together ignore her, since she is cameron's friend. i love her to death, too. she's an awesome twirler and we always have cross-mojoantions when we perform together. i like to think that we're really good friends, BUT i never know which side of her is real. she's so fucking two-faced. xskfuckher. |
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Blurty for Heather.
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ecstatic.
discontent.