| Today's The Big Day.... |
[22 Apr 2003|11:39pm] |
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Well...here it is. The day that my baby is due to be born and so far..no baby yet. The doctors told me that the day could be off by a few days, so I'm trying not to stress too much. I just can't really grasp the concept of me being a mother. It just seems too unreal for me, almost like I feel like it's a dream and I'm gonna wake up any second. I hope I'm half as good of a mom as my mother was. She's a tough act to follow, but I'm gonna try my best.
I wish soo much that me and Steve were together for good without anyone interfering, but I know that won't come true. I love him with all I have, with every last bit of my heart and soul. I don't think he really understands just how deeply I care for him.
To tell the truth, I'm so scared right now. I'm scared about the baby. What if something goes wrong? And I'm scared to lose Steve. What would I do without him? Nowadays he's my whole world and everything in it and I don't want that to change. God, I'm so scared....
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