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It's been awhile! [10 Apr 2004|01:55pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Good Charlotte - Wondering ] I haven't updated this in ages...blame it on livejournal! I've moved from here over to there, guess I just followed the wagon!! check it out >>> My LJ It's acquaintances only...I refuse to use the word 'friends' because most people don't deserve that title! Well here's a couple quiz thingys to complete my entry, I got them from Moonie's journal. I'm sorry about not adding you back earlier! Anyway, I may stray back here later! Your Suicide.. by Konstantine Your Name/Username Favorite Number? Favorite Color? Gender? FemaleMaleUndecidedBoth How will you commit suicide? You will jump off of the nearest, highest building How many tries will it take? 74 When will you commit suicide? September 23, 2024 What will your suicide note say? "Mother, Father .. where did we go wrong?" Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0! Your True Nature by llScorpiusll Username The quality that most appeals to you: Strength In a survival situation, you: Act crazy as a diversion Your hidden talent is: A beautiful mind Your gift is: Athletic ability In groups, you: Play an organisational role Your best quality is: Your kindness Your weakness is: Your overbearing nature Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0! What Makes You Sexy? by eva71 Name/NickName Gender Sexy Body Part Is Your Feet Special Talents Are Showing off Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0! ^^MY FEET?? The most ugliest part on a person body! As fucking if!^^ Oh, just heard Evanescence's new song, Everybody's Fool! I was wondering when the hell they were gonna release it. It seems like every time I buy an album or download songs off an album and dub one of them as 'my overall favorite', it always gets released as a single! I should be hired by a record label and get paid for doing that! Also, about damn time BB [Breaking Benjamin] came back! I wondered where they wandered off to! I just downloaded the video to the song they did for 'Hellboy'...guess I'll go take a look! leave your lies

[28 Dec 2003|04:51pm] [ mood | grumpy ] [ music | Blink182 - Feelin' This ] Well it's been a fairly large lapse in time since last updating, I didn't have much to ramble about so I didn't see the point in updating! Well Christmas 2003 has come and gone, and I'm ecstatic that it is. It's not that I didn't have a good Christmas, I did, I just think the holiday is way too overrated. You spend countless hours on figuring what to get certain people, straining your mind trying to ponder whether or not the gift you chose will suit them and hope that they will like what was given to them. And when they open it and you find out they don't like it, your heart slumps. I don't need any more of this mind boggling shit! I can screw up my normal thinking capacity all without a special holiday! Well I received some good presents, 3 Eeyore shirts, 2 'Spoiled' shirts, a pair of Eeyore lounging pants, slipper socks, and A DVD Player from Mommy & Daddy. A $20 gift certificate from Mom & Dad! Yes, I have 2 sets of parents, my biological ones, and the ones who took care of me from age 15-17 and still take care of me now and then. Anyway, back on track...got some goodies [aka food] from Holly, Jim, and the girls! My brother Norm gave me a cute kitty card, 5 scratch tickets and $20! The cat pictured on the front of the card was hanging in a Christmas tree. Inside it said something along the lines of since he'll be in there why not use him as an ornament?! It reminded me and the rest of the family of Benjamin, my kitty. If given the chance, he'd probably would have been dangling from one of the tree's branches! The family spent Christmas at Norm's new apartment, cuz he thought it would be easier to spend it in there, then have to pick him up, bring him out here, then after Christmas was finished here, bring him back to the apartment. It was a good idea and had a fairly decent time, except for the times where I was picked on or ratted out and embarrassed! Dad did most of the embarrassing! For about 3 or 4 days, I had a desktop of Britney Spears naked to the waist [from behind mind you], and Dad revealed to Norm and Jessica, his roommate, what I had for my desktop and stated that he thought he was on my brother's computer cuz there was a half-naked woman as the wallpaper. I felt really embarrassed about it, cuz my family doesn't know I'm bi and what I'm really thinking when I see her! I think the woman is downright sexy! Sooner or later, I'm gonna have to come clean, but I want to do it when I know that I have another place where I can crash. I'm pretty sure I'll be thrown out and probably disowned as well. So all in all, I had a fairly decent Christmas, but I don't like what has to go on before it all arrives! Well I'm gonna rush off....got a few things that need to be done, getting dinner and doing dishes being a couple of them! leave your lies

Stole from Jenn.... [05 Dec 2003|10:34pm] [ mood | indifferent ] -- Name: Lanay -- Birthdate: 5/4 -- Birthplace: Maine -- Current Location: Maine -- Eye Color: hazel green -- Hair Color: light brown/auburn -- Righty or Lefty: righty -- Zodiac Sign: taurus -- Innie or Outtie: innie -----------------DESCRIBE------------------ -- The shoes you wore today: sketchers sneakers..blue ones -- Your eyes: umm. they're just like my daddy's! -- Your fears: losing my family or friends -----------------WHAT IS------------------ -- Your most overused phrase on aim: uh huh -- Your thoughts first waking up: damn again! -- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes -- Your best physical feature: eyes -- Your bedtime: don't have one..go to bed when I'm tired! -- Your most missed memory: ..... -----------------YOU PREFER------------------ -- Pepsi or coke: coke -- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King -- Single or group dates: group -- Adidas or Nike: neither -- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate -- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino -- Thongs or Panties: panties -----------------DO YOU------------------ -- Smoke: never -- Cuss: when it strikes me -- Take a shower everyday: yes -- Have a crush(es): who doesn't?? -- Who are they: ask me later... -- Do you think you've been in love?: yup -- Want to go to college: yes, already there -- Like high school: hated it, glad it's over! -- Want to get married: no, it costs too much to get divorced! -- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: hell no -- Believe in yourself: nope -- Get motion sickness: no -- Think you're attractive: definitely not! -- Think you're a health freak: far from being one! -- Get along with your parents: yeah -- Like thunderstorms: yes and no -- Play an instrument: would like to ------------IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU-------------- -- Drank alcohol: yes -- Smoke(d): no -- Done a drug: no -- Have Sex: no -- Made Out: nope -- Go on a date: nope..I'm a loser -- Go to the mall: yes -- Eaten sushi: nope -- Been on stage: no -- Been dumped: yes -- Gone skating: no -- Made homemade cookies: no -- Been in love: yes -- Dyed your hair: no -- Stolen anything: no -----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------ -- Flown on a plane: yeah -- Missed school because it was raining?: nope -- Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes -- Cried during a Movie?: no -- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: Yes -- Had an imaginary friend: yea...he's still around somewhere :lol: -- Been on stage?: no..wish though! -- Cut your hair: who hasn't?? -- Had crush on a teacher?: yeah..Mr. Adams! -- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: nope -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: hell yeah -- Been caught "doing something": uh huh -- Been called a tease: nope -- Gotten beaten up ?: by siblings -- Been in a fight: yes, with siblings -- Shoplifted: no -----------------THE FUTURE------------------ -- Age you hope to be married: never -- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 - 5. Jacob Ezra; Jaden Christopher; Sebastian Lee; .... -- Descibe your Dream Wedding: ..... -- How do you want to die?: while sleeping -- What do you want to be when you grow up?: a performer or a librarian in a crime library. -- What country would you most like to visit?: Switzerland/France/Ireland -----------------OPPOSITE SEX------------------ -- Best eye color: chocolate brown -- Best hair color: brown or black -- Short or long hair: can't be longer than mine -- Best height: over 5' 7" -- Best weight: not over 200 -- Best first date location: drawing a blank here -- Best first kiss location: somewhere exotic! -----------------NUMBER OF----------------- -- Number of Boyfriends you've had: 12 -- Number of kisses you've given: too many -- Number of drugs taken illegally: 2 -- Number of people I could trust with my life: 2 -- Number of CDs that I own: at last count...35 -- Number of piercings: 2 -- Number of tattoos: 0 -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 1 -- Number of scars on my body: 6 -- Number of things in my past that I regret: way too many ----------------FAVORITES------------------ -- Shampoo: .... -- Fav Color: black or pink -- Day/Night: night -- Summer/Winter: summer -- Lace or Satin: lace -- Fave Cartoon Chatacter: Eeyore -- Fave Food: seafood -- Fave Movies: Steel Magnolias, anything by Tim Burton and Wes Craven. -- Fave sport: hockey ----------------RIGHT NOW------------------ -- Wearing: NC shirt and sweatpants -- Drinking: Diet Coke -- Thinking about: how to describe my perfect mate... -- Listening to: Amanda Marshall - Out Of Bounds ---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------ -- Cried: nope -- Worn jeans: yes -- Met someone new online: yes -- Done laundry: yes -- Drove a car: no -- Talked on the phone: yes ---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-------------- -- Yourself: *shakes head no fervently* -- Your friends: a couple -- Santa Claus: yeah -- Tooth Fairy: nope -- Destiny/Fate: kind of -- Angels: yes...I've got my own guardian angel! -- Ghosts: hell yeah -- UFO's: nope -- God: yes --------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------ -- Do you ever wish you had another name?: sometimes -- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: no :( -- Do you like anyone?: yes -- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: none of them, I don't think I'd be friends with them if they were :lol: -- Who have you known the longest of your friends?: Holly and Anna -- Are you close to any family member?: yup...my mommy! -- Who do you hang around the most?: Holly -- When have you cried the most: during my deepest depression stages -- What's the best feeling in the world?: being loved -- Worst Feeling?: losing someone you care and love deeply -- What time is it now?: 10:12 pm Damn that was long.... .-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-. Quiz result.... My life is rated R. What is your life rated? leave your lies

I hate December! [05 Dec 2003|09:01pm] [ mood | sore ] Today I figured out why Mom always hated the month of December! Christmas shopping is an outright bitch! You never have enough money to go around, that is the one major thing that sucks! Thankfully I get out of buying anything for my sister! I asked her what she wanted for Christmas and she told me to buy for my nephew! I had him mostly done back in July or August! I bought him 8 books, and just recently went a third on a Power Wheels Jeep and two radio controlled vehicles with my mom and sister! Then just yesterday I bought him a Winnie The Pooh reading & math CD-ROM. It fits his age range (3-6), so he'll get at least 3 years out of it! So I believe he's done, unless I find something else I might be able to get him! I still have to pay on my layaway for Mom, only got 20.07 left to pay on that, I'm giving my youngest brother cash so he can save up for driver's ed. I gotta give Mom some money to put on Daddy's present even though I don't like what he's getting! I went half on some presents for my other brother, and I still need to get him a gift certificate for groceries, either that or I'll go out and buy him at least 40 or 50 bucks worth of groceries, since the kid hardly ever eats. He's way too skinny! Well getting off that subject! I've spent the last two days and nights at Holly's place! She's a friend of mine from middle school, I watch her two girls, Zoiya and Ziaya every Wednesday. Tuesday afternoon, Grammie called and asked me if I could go over that night so she didn't have to bring the baby out in the cold the next morning while she brought Grampie to work. I told her I wasn't doing anything so I went over there. I got there around 9:00 pm and sat and talked with Mom #2 {what I call her} until about 11 or so, had a beer with her, then took Ziaya to bed with me. She gave me an easy night, she slept from 10:30 pm until 5:50 am the next morning. Which is really good considering she wakes up for her mom every couple of hours or so. Once I fed, burped, and changed her, she went back to sleep until 8:45 when her mom arrived back from her job with Zoiya. I had the girls until about 4 that afternoon, one hellish afternoon. Most of it was spent in a panic and in the cold! The trailer had a gas leak, and I was left with a phone which you can't make hardly any calls from, no vehicle that worked, at least 15 miles from town, and no way to contact the girls' mother. I had to open all windows, turn on all exhaust and ceiling fans, hoping to keep most of the smell down to a minimum. I had all the kids bundled up in sweatshirts, long-sleeved shirts, jackets and blankets hoping that they wouldn't catch cold. I couldn't take them anywhere else, unless it was outside. Not once did it cross my mind to call the fire dept., they probably could have helped. What can I say, I'm a blond in disguise! At least when their Mom and Grammie arrived back home, I knew how to deal with the situation if anything like that happens again! I sure hope it doesn't! Anyway, other than that things have been pretty decent! I'm now trying to figure out when the next EAO show is gonna be and see if Tina has the night off so we can go together. I also gotta see if I can come up with extra money to buy a ticket or 2 to the Guster show[s] coming up on the 19th and 20th! I'd love to be a part of their DVD! That would be kinda cool to put as extras on a resume! :lol: A migraine is coming on..so I'm gonna jet! Peace! leave your lies

Learned My Lesson.. [30 Nov 2003|10:23pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | The Used - Blue and Yellow ] and it was that love is not my friend! What a way to spend a majority of your day! Mostly depressed and yearning for something you can never have! Is it so wrong to want to be in a relationship after many years? Being single is getting the best of me. I crave the companionship, the closeness...everything that goes along with a relationship. It's been about 3 years now since my last relationship. I guess I have trouble opening up myself to others afraid of heartbreak. Mostly because of what happened in one of my earlier ones, I was engaged to be married and him and I got on the subject of having children, we both wanted them, however I am unable to conceive children. I probably could with all the treatments out there now, but I guess that's not what he wanted to hear and I was dropped in a heartbeat! I survived through what happened but I'm weary of what I do, say, and feel when I start dating again! I guess all of this was brought on by the fact that the guy I'm competing with my sister for, showed up today at the house to talk to her. He told her today about what happened between us, a little bit of weight off my shoulders, even though she didn't believe him at first, cuz I usually wouldn't pull a stint like that, but I think she believed it after I told her almost everything that happened. I also told her that I'd love to be a relationship with him, but it's her that he wants not me! I guess I'll have to settle for second best as always, always in the shadow of my beautiful big sister! Well...I don't want to talk about that anymore..it's a touchy subject! One really good thing happened today! I got my pictures back from my Even All Out concert. :O) Some weren't of the greatest quality, plus the lighting affected the pics greatly, but the pics I had taken with all the members came out and I was sooo happy! Billy had his Cheshire Cat grin on, Jon had a kooky look on his face, while Pete and Ryland were just as gorgeous as ever! Anyway...I'm off to place them in my photo album along with my pics of Benji, Billy [Martin], and Chris! :O) Peace!! leave your lies

Last Night! [15 Nov 2003|10:51am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | Even All Out - Thank You For The Good Night ] First off, Even All Out is awesome! I went to The Edge last night to see the guys perform, and it was amazing! They played some songs I've already heard [Written It Off, 11 Hours, Slip Away] and some I hadn't heard before[Got It Figured Out, Thank You For The Good Night, etc.], but were great anyhow! I picked up their CD at the show, paid only $10 for it, a very cool price! I would have paid more just cuz I really wanted it! I'm listening to it right now, and it's fantastic! The vocals, the lyrics, the music, everything! I believe this will be in my cd rotation constantly! I think the guys deserve to hit the mainstream, I think they would be very successful, however I know the backlash of what the mainstream does to bands. They forget who/what made them who they are! And that truly is a bummer! After their set, my sister and I had all four of the guys sign my cd. From that you can tell who the wallflowers are and who the outgoing ones are! Billy and Ryland are the outgoing ones, while Pete and Jon are the wallflowers! I must admit I have a certain fascination with Ryland. I don't know what it is about guys who play the drums, I'm drawn to them. Maybe it's because they have one hard job in bands. It's really not that difficult in my mind to play the guitar, but the drums are a bit different! Anyway, I also had my pic taken with all four of them, Ryland first, then Pete and Jon together, then Billy. They certainly are sweet guys! I plan on seeing them again very soon! I'd like to check them out in Orono, but I can't make it. Hopefully they can do more shows in Augusta, and other places close by! They are an awesome band to see live!! I'm not gonna go into what happened after we [my sis and I] left The Edge, cuz it has to do with the guy on October 13th! Plus, I don't want to spoil such a great memory for me! :O) Until next time....Peace! leave your lies

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