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[03 Jun 2008|08:36pm] |
Are you really all the things you've done
Your job you're slowly dying from
The day to day your dragging on
for in betweens that get you along
All paperwork and fitted clothes
I'm really not fitted for those
We are paths that cross everyday
and there are no signs for most dead ends
When I've made just enough to have some
there'll be nothing left to spend it on
When I've lived enough to know what's wrong
right will be so hard to come upon
When I've had just enough of what I know
I hope I'll know which way to go
Are you really all the things you want
May someday we all be saying so
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[17 May 2008|09:34pm] |
The second you think you know
Someone
Ask them one more dumb
Question
One less layer to go
There's never enough time to blow
Try to hide
Although it shows
Try to pry
But it's no use
You know it's easy to see
Opening these eyes isn't easy for me
The moment you feel you care
Take it
Make it work for you
Question
What you thought you knew
Take a lie and make it true
Take a fight and make a truce
You'll be fine
You always will
You can find
A way to live
I know there's much more to see
Drawing the blinds is too easy for me
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[23 Apr 2008|11:27pm] |
We walked through the park
down by Red Bug's Lake
Broke a little sweat
dragging out these things
All we're carrying
we never found it's place
Or the way to make a space
to settle down and live
We spread out that day
spread out on a bench
Got ourselves a tan
Now our hands are red
The closer we get
the sooner I forget
Most things come along as this
when your not ready yet
Now I can't work straight
can't cross off a thing
couldn't make a single call
your name's not on the list
Want this shift to end
cause you are coming in
waiting for your strawberry hair
to swing right past at four
Now I'm getting home
sprawled out on my bed
Got a few more scabs to peel
A few skin cells to mend
Wished sooner could I see
how bad you were for me
But I am set to self destruct
I've been programmed for this
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[18 Mar 2008|05:40pm] |
Without sweat
the stadium's just a field
Without a breath
the emptiness is real
Without words
the eyes are very clear that
Without love
the soul is up for sale
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[05 Mar 2008|08:08pm] |
When difference is all you dream
And thoughts of one are all you think
And plans to change are all you make
And clumsy falls are all you take
When faking it will only leave
Less candles on the birthday cake
On every year that might have been
On everything that never came
It's taken me till you to see
That love is all you really need
Not sure what I write this for
For things to say I can't afford
For your face that I can't allure
For all the things that I'm unsure of
Or just to get out on my back porch
Feel like the weather a little more
Feel boarded up from any door
And cast away from any shore
Predictable but not for sure
Disastrous but beautiful
It's taken me too long to see
That love is all you really need
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[02 Mar 2008|11:50am] |
Left out all your things the way you left them
Left along the hallways I'd be stepping
Kept the bed the same as when you left it
Left more than my sheets with your impression
Like your chap stick that rubs off on my lips
on the glass of what we took only a sip
from the faucet that was left to slowly drip
How things are always going to waste like this
Left with one last kiss for good measure
One more memory that lasts forever
Left with just a hint that I'll take never
To my grave your someone I will remember
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[03 Feb 2008|05:51pm] |
If I whisper goodnight tonight
When your not round not in sight
The static of my voice may keep
the words from getting round to you
Through the power lines or phones
Or in the Morse code radio tones
Or on the paper planes I wrote
Then threw away, wind taking notes
The every breath it tears apart
Words my lips have blown off
How we're damaged from the start
With cracking hands and bony arms
Dry levels sounding the alarms
To breaking news I fall apart
But don't be sorry that you are
My very own channel of fears
Remember that I'm sorry that
I'm always lost in what I had
Remember that I'm sorry that
I miss you where you stand
Remember that I'm sorry that
I'm always lost in what I am
Remember that I'm sorry that
I miss you as it stands
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[01 Feb 2008|08:47pm] |
When you've come way too far to be nowhere at all but here
Where you never unpacked your asleep on the couch
In your room it is loneliest still
When your muscles lack tense swinging out for the fence each time
Fleeting past like the words that weren't meant to be heard
Can't tell what your saying through the sigh
And you won't show
Not in a smile or the glance of an eye
that says "Hey I still want you to know"
Waiting for the hours you always fell into
Mostly waiting for moments you kill
When you can't seem to write and it keeps you from keeping still
Re-arranging the words that remind you of girls
It's a meaningless motion of nerves
And a blow to the head might be your only chance to get
Just a little more rest so that you might forget
All you won't that you wanted to show
It's my life now
I could just sit here to wait for a chance
Sit here patiently rotting for you
I Put up a fight, a war it grew into
Till I've killed every moment I knew
Lost the will to take a stand for you
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[01 Feb 2008|01:15am] |
It wasn't in between words or the way
that they're emptying
It wasn't in few moments left to learn
I know anything
It wasn't in the things I won't forget
I remember you
I Sat back just long enough to see
you from every view
Write awhile bout all I can't explain
that leaves everything
Write the lines I'm never walking straight
Bent right at the knees
Write to rhyme as many words with pain
All that ever seems
To make it's way from underneath my pen
are bad memories
To be able to show how much you knows
to just know something
To be able to get how much you gave is
to have given little
To be able to say how much you loves
knowing just a dream
And My face has been to the clouds long enough
to be fast asleep
It wasn't in the all the smiles you gave
that I'm smiling
It wasn't in just four days spent away
I'm admiring
It wasn't in the precious things you say
when you're accenting
It was there in the sound of the name
that you called me with
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[20 Jan 2008|12:48am] |
Wake....
From your sleep
Theres everlasting peace
To dreams
Such a drag
Such a drag
Please....
Don't be late
But keep my eyes to wander
I see
What's ahead
What we had
Leave....
Leave through me
The tearing up, The tears
To feels
Such a pain
to be had
What....
May be next
Could never be as this
Today
I won't pray
You won't stay
I can't tell
My wish is in the well
When falling in
Is all the change I see
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[16 Jan 2008|08:33pm] |
This is to stretch far and wide
To the girl who wisely bends the rules
who hangs me off a fingers noose
the only one who's one to me
the one who's eyes can dilate mine
This would have to make it far
To the girl who refuses to stay
who refuses to leave the next day
who might as well just cling to me
Just enough time to suffocate
This is for you who reels me out
who hangs me off a phrases hook
I never knew a prettier face
than the one as I watched you sleep
This is for what you couldn't give
that's everything I have to give
It's cruel of fate to have us meet
without a way to ever be
This is for you looking wonderful
never more literal could I say
how much you make me want to know
This is for the girl who'll come to be
the best that never happened to me
still nice to know that you exist
This is for you to know I tried
tried to fight for what seemed right
This is for what holds you down
the same old sky that hangs around
This is the sound of thinking of you
This is for music that always reminds
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[16 Jan 2008|12:00am] |
Go ahead and play their game
Blame
It always has a name
It's oddly bends the shape of things
If you look where they're all pointing
Nothing brings me to my knees
Please
Surrender to your needs
Saving a lifetime to never spend
Still owing something to your grave
You have to fall harder than hard
Scarred
Marking everything you are
Most of us ashamed of ours
Mine I'm afraid I see as art
Go ahead and take the blame
Fame
It quickly turns to shame
It's millions who only knew your name
It's why your gone and why you came
Don't blink an eye and miss a scene
Seems
That nothings ever as it seemed
The long fade out you thought was it
The price of gas in 90's flicks
You have to be everything but still
Filled
With any kind of pill
Where you can swallow some pride
We all could use a little life
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[12 Jan 2008|10:37pm] |
Lying here all out of breath
All I miss inside of me
My heart's beat reminds me this
That I still think the world is flat
Pick it out in spite of me
To the hilt I'm digging in
Softly scraping in my chest
This open heart surgery on myself
You can't time good timing
As quick as it strikes you dead
Time will pull you from your friends
Livings dying at it's best
Could I just be fine with it
The tearing up inside of me
How words alone won't change a thing
How all I love still stays the same
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[04 Jan 2008|11:37pm] |
I'd have little more faith
were I a god myself
that chosen by me
Is every word you speak
Don't believe
Please don't believe
Your freckled cheeks
The smile that is your face
I'd watch you fall asleep
My eyes see to your needs
Don't believe
Just don't believe
I'd live an eternity
to watch you die in peace
And know you would be
sure that I was real
Don't believe
Please just don't believe
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[02 Jan 2008|01:53pm] |
Odd this is a blinding light
Like seeing nothing else for the first time
And sweet it is to stare so long
To turn away and your still there
Longer than the looks I gave
You held my breath until I cave
Withdrew this hiccup from my life
To choke me on a savory bite
Time this is upon my clock
It's time for me to not wake up
I've never wanted anything
but time with you I couldn't have
Life this is a humoring thing
Like walking right through a screen door
Laughing at myself evermore
Cause I fell for you Raggedy Anne
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[25 Dec 2007|11:19pm] |
Walked with you to talk with you
Still sitting on that bench we found
Thought you saw shadows in the lake
You edged closer as I began to shake
Haven't moved at all since then
Any direction would do
Back to some forgotten place
Onward down tracks already laid
Too bad your so bourgeois
Here for more than a wealthy heart
Can't give the finer things in life
If love isn't the finest one
Fate seemed much more becoming
but no silent force led me that way
Fate's lost the directions to my life
and every X marked descending stairs
Maybe if the sky were falling
It'd be the only thing to hold us down
But baby if the sky were falling
I'd give myself to keep you around
And that's how stupid I really am.
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[21 Dec 2007|09:40pm] |
You put part of you into me.
A seed I wanted to make a sapling.
Numerous as our leaves could be,
Are all the smiles you placed on me.
Lasting as carving in my bark,
I'll remember this way I feel.
Could you spend years and grow with me,
If your roots weren't already sown?
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[21 Dec 2007|09:39pm] |
If you are too tired again,
come lay your head onto me.
Lay it on the line for me.
Oh god!, I'd make you feel like one.
I want you to see forever.
Cause no one has your eyes for me.
Whenever I lose sight of me,
they follow me into the dark.
If you couldn't sleep I'd say
Come lay your body under mine
The closest that I long to be
is cheek to cheek not back to back
If you want only me honey
Then let it be your only words
Reel us out and cut the string
and get lost if you won't get lost with me.
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[21 Dec 2007|12:50am] |
If you are too tired again,
come lay your head onto me.
Lay it on the line for me.
Oh god!, I'd make you feel like one.
I want you to see forever.
Cause no one has your eyes for me.
Whenever I lose sight of me,
they follow me into the dark.
If you couldn't sleep I'd say
Come lay your head onto me.
The closest that I long to be
is cheek to cheek not back to back
Tried never needing anything.
It leaves so much left wanting.
A thousand faces are taunting.
But I don't want love the way they got it.
I want ours to be
the first limb to a tree sapling.
Days numerous as our leaves could be.
Could you spend years and grow with me?
Could we become a family tree?
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[10 Dec 2007|02:40pm] |
Is it Neurotic or Psychotic of me,
Somaticizing all the things that I feel?
Your running laps through the curves of my veins.
Your doing backstrokes in my stomach again.
You could be crooked toothed or have twelve toes.
Not shave your legs or ever wash your clothes.
And I'd still mutter that doesn't matter to me.
Splitting hairs atop your tiny red head.
I've lived just long enough to know that I'm dumb,
and wasn't ready for you to come along.
Just a product of the way that I am.
Give up most everything to be loved again.
But I'll always be these moments too late.
Time conquers all, even love I'm afraid.
Giving nothing but everything I have to give
has gotten me nowhere but the palm of your hand.
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