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Guilty. [Thursday
February 3rd, 2005 at 12:23am]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | afi - Just like heaven [Cure cover] ]

Well .. I feel incredibly guilty for neglecting my blurty :( There's just so much more commenting action over at LJ .. argh :(

-pets blurty-

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Stress sickness strikes again [Wednesday
January 12th, 2005 at 5:32pm]
[ mood | scared ]
[ music | [...] ]

My stress illness is back again. The same dodgy stomach feeling, the same feeling sick, the same inability to decide wether i'm really hungry or i'm not hungry atall.

Oh, and over-eating over Christmas has come for it's revenge too, put a teeny bit of weight on. Caz is right, when you put weight on why doesn't it go somewhere useful like your breasts, instead of going "Muh haha .. giving her a fat tummy would be really nice of me"?? .. i'm not fat atall though, i'm curvy-thin as Sam described me, but i'm still holding in this teeny bit of extra-chub i've newly aquired, gonna cut down on the crap now, I can't get fat, i'd rather die.

But this stress illness makes my crampy bloated stomach it gives me hard to hold in without great discomfort even sometimes pain ::sob:: .. plenty of water, more fruit, less chocolate. That's my plan. Yes indeed.

Will update more later [?] going to go watch Neighbours now. [coincidentally, i've been so over-emotional this werk i've cried every day at Neighbours]

Urgh ::cries::

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Can I bear it? [Friday
January 7th, 2005 at 3:35pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | The Cardigans - My favorite game ]

Grr .. stupid broken computer, my pc has been broken since sept/oct & wont let me do anything fun, no chatty or messangery things [No msn is killing me & my bank account] & NOW it won't let me create a livejournal!! I'm pissed off .. I had a sexy new username to use & everything :( Of course blurty is my first-born journal so i'm not abandonning it lol, i'm just greedy & obsessed with journals & stuffs. So I can't take it anymore, i'm going to PARTIALLY swallow my pride & call my dad to ask for the money to fix it. I'll go from the angle that I can't do college work on it [truth] & he wont be able to refuse .. [i'm getting deja vue, have I said this before?] so yeah, I suppose i'd better go call him & my friend Sarah, I called her lastnight but she was out so her mum chatted with me instead lol which might seem weird but i've been friends with Sarah since we were 5 years old, so her mum has seen me grow up with her.

Feeling a bit meh today .. if it weren't for his freaking exams i'd be in his arms right this very second. Fucking university.

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January 7th, 2005 at 1:16pm]
"A girl died in 1933 by a homicidal murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewarded."

Me scared now ::cries::
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January 5th, 2005 at 8:22pm]
How DARE she evesdrop on my PRIVATE conversation with him?! I am infuriated! Grrrrr!! And I was so stupid & mean to him again on the phone, it's these fucking pills, i've been over-sensitive & agressive & snappy since I started on them, but my Dr did warn me about this side-effect :(

I can't believe she was evesdropping though! And then she started laughing at me & wouldn't tell me what she was laughing at exactly! I could fucking throttle her.

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HTML//HoTMaLe [Monday
January 3rd, 2005 at 2:08am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | [...] ]

Hmm .. i'm quite getting used to this layout for now. I want something more gothic in the long run, but until I figure out a means for doing that, this is quite sexy. I like the font better.

Do any of you darlings know how to do HTML or whatever i'd need to get the dream layout?

I'm exhausted right now, I should go to bed I guess, the forum I frequent is playing silly buggers & i've nothing to do online .. even photobucket is down. The reason i'm avoiding bed is because it isn't Ste's, this happens every time; I love being in his bed, all snuggly warm, spooning with him, feeling safe and loved and beautiful .. not feeling cold & alone in my own icy bed. I might not mind so much but my bed doesn't even smell of him. I was still laying in his bed when he got up for a shower thismorning, and even then, I breathed him in, from his scent on the pillow, and I could hear the shower across the landing .. mmm .. Le sigh it will be at least a month before we can do that again methinx, all snuggled up for the weekend together .. mmph, if I go to bed now i'll cry until I pass out. I cannot bear to be out of his arms.

Guess i'll go to bed then.

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January 3rd, 2005 at 12:13am]
I don't know what i've done to my journal trying to make it look prettier but it scares me & I want my old look back but i'm crap at HTML ::cries::
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Wuv [Sunday
January 2nd, 2005 at 10:32pm]
[ mood | loved ]

A text he just sent me -

"I could not bear to be without you, I know that now, you are my soulmate!"

Mmmmmmmmmmm .. wuv

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Gold, Frankinsense & Mhyrr [Sunday
December 26th, 2004 at 7:53pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | [TV in the next room] ]

Well now! From my mummy I got:

3 books
The Lady & the Unicorn [Tracy Chevalier]
The Queens Fool [Philippa Gregory]
Oryx & Crake [Margaret Atwood]

Little Miss Splendid & Mr Christmas lol

Not much from my mum this year, she's outta work atm so y'know..

From my Ste I got:

-Disneys Hercules
-Squishy soft Eeyore toy
-Ferrero Rocher
-Scarling Bandaid covers the bullethole album
-An original 1950s filigree butterfly brooch

I heart all my presents, especially the brooch, it's beautiful!! He put it in a little bag labelled "Hello! Open me last!" lmao bless him ^_^ Mmm ::stupid grin::

His mummy got my a cranberry bath-stuff thingy, smells gorgeous! And my mums cousin Helen got me this hand-made windchime, the top part is rainbow coloured glass :)

I've almost finished The Lady & the Unicorn already! It's brilliant, I recommend it my darlings! .. i've also almost finished the Ferrero Rocher .. not so brilliant, I feel sick. Lmao.

Right. Tharr be me presents for this year, hope you all got what you wanted, do tell ^_^

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"I'm not Okay [I promise]" [Thursday
December 23rd, 2004 at 11:18am]
[ mood | peaceful ]
[ music | Scarling - Alexander the burn victim ]

Forgot to mention, yesterday after he left, his coach drove away, I turned around, and burst into tears on the spot. I was smiling, holding back most of my tears as I waved him off, he doesn't like the way I get so upset every time, because it hurts him too, and it's never that long until we see each other again, and we talk on the phone every day. But still, it tears my insides apart every second we're parted. Therefore I can't stop my tears. It was even worse, much worse, than usual lastnight too, I don't quite know why really. Anyway, I walked from the coach station bit through to the bus station bit on the other side to get a bus home, and 3 police officers stopped to ask me if I was ok, what the tears were for & if I was sure that's all it was. Ten I sat & waited for the bus, sobbing, and a guy waiting for the bus also, came up and said "you can tell me to go away if you want to, I was just wondering if you were ok?". Lol, guess I looked so shite, like i'd been attacked or something then. Great stuff [/sarcasm]

I'm going to see him over New Years anyway, that's like 7/8 days away now, i'll see the new year in with my love, and wake up on the first of January, a whole new year, in his bed, in his arms, in his tshirt. I cannot wait.

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