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I'm not quite sure whether or not I believe in angels. ...That's not true. I believe in angels, but I don't know what to believe as to their role and their interaction with us on earth. By all logical accounts, it doesn't make sense to say that people we encounter may be angels. They're normal people, with lives, families, and connections with other people. People don't just show up and disappear a little while later. But, still, I'm not quite sure what to make of it.
Freshman year of high school, I was just as terrified as everyone else about meeting new people and making new friends. Probably even more so, because I was quiet and introverted (still am, just not as much) and only one other person from my gradeschool had come to my high school, and I didn't know her that well.
There was a girl named Jessica who was in three of my classes: Biology, which we had first thing in the morning (ugh), English, which was third bell (I think), and Algebra, which was fifth bell, right after lunch. The seating chart put us together at one of the two-person tables in Biology, and we talked a bit before the start of class every day. Over time we became friends. I had other classes with her second semester, we were both in the same Chorus class (actually a required course, go figure). By that time, we were pretty good friends and would sit together in class and such. I remember writing a poem about her always having a cup of ice in Algebra class (the one right after lunch, remember?) that she would eat during the class. When I showed her the poem, she thought it was awesome and showed it to the Algebra teacher (who was also a cool teacher, one of my favorites out of the teachers I had in high school), who was also impressed.
Toward the end of the year, she invited me to a Survivor party. I think it was the second Survivor, and we went to her house to watch the final episode, where the winner was revealed. (We being myself, Jessica, another of our friends named Stephanie, one more girl from MND who I can't remember (was it Lia? >_>), and some guy that Jessica knew (just a friend).) That was one of the only times I had ever done something with school friends outside of school activities. (Sad, I know, but as I said, I'm not what you'd call a social butterfly.) And I actually had a really good time. I remember I made peanut butter cookies and brought them for everyone.
I didn't see her at all over the summer, and I went back sophomore year anxious to see if she'd be in any of my classes. The day progressed and I didn't see her at all, so I thought maybe she was absent. After a few days with no sign of her, I asked around, and Stephanie told me that she had heard that Jess wasn't coming back to MND because of something to do with a tuition dispute or a tuition problem or something like that. I never heard anything more about her.
Here's the thing. Early on in freshman year, I did a Biology group project with her and another girl (was it Caitlin? XD I'm too young for my memory to be this fuzzy), and we exchanged AIM names. Of course, I didn't have AIM back then, but when I got it later in the year, I added her name to my buddy list. I can't remember if I ever actually saw her online, because I didn't really start using AIM until years later. But she's still on my list, and I haven't seen her online at all in at least the past four years.
Now, I'm sure it's quite possible, and probably even likely, that she got a new screenname, which is very easy to do, as Marcus has so kindly demonstrated for us. But I still wonder. All I know is that I'm glad to have known her.
And now, I owe Tempest an email. Because I've been a jerk and I still have a lot of learning to do.
~DigiFaith
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