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I dont know what im doing anymore..Carlos is everything i wanted but i dont know what the hell is going thorugh my head, its all a fog and smoke and im scared...Im drowning and there is absolutely nothing i can do about it..And then Chris...Im never good enough..Everything wrong with me ive fixed it and still its not good enough..Im never gonna live up to what he wants me to be..Ive accepted him as just a friend and id be FINE with that but he just wont talk to me and its killing me..I ended my damn obession!! WHAT ELSE CAN I GIVE YOU!!!!!
My life's a waste.Nothing left for me to hate.I hate myself. I have no friends.I'm treading water, I'm struggling by the edge.I'm sitting here all alone, I just can't lose myself.My friends ignore me, they think my life's a waste.They're now my enemies, all of which I hate.Im always unhappy, Got a gun pointed to my head...Will someone come save me before i end up dead--Home Grown
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