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[20 Jul 2003|07:14pm] |
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Beyonce Knowles - Baby Boy |
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uuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmm hi.
so I was thinking, it's cool and everything to be really friendly with guys right? I mean, huggy huggy, cuddle cuddle, baby names and all- right? yah whatever. To a certain extent at least. What gets me mad is girls who are like that with eeeeevvvvvvvvvvvery single guy. Again, I had a huge conversation with Sofia about this a couple of days ago. How she should settle down and not jump to every guy that gives her the littlest bit of attention. I mean it as a friend. Not as a jealous girl.
The thing though that triggered all of this is how she out of the blue tells me that I should be more touchy-touchy feely-feely with Eric in public because 'Eric' likes that sort of thing. As she was telling me this I swear my fists were clenched so tight that all circulation must have stopped because every time I'm about to go up to him to lean against him, or hug him or SOMETHING, Sofia is already there. I know they're friends. I know they're good friends, but I mean knowing the situation or whatever that's going on between he and I, and after her telling me that I should be closer to him- WHY in the WORLD are you gonna be like that with the guy that your best friend is completely crazy about? Gauranteed if I acted that same exact way with Mike, she'd be so jealous. I just find it so hard to 'flirt' or whatever when other girls aka my best friend beats me to it. When she's around it looks like they're going out and as though he and I dont even know eachother. Mind you he doesnt go out of his way to give her that kind of attention, not anymore that he does for me so yah.
i'm so pathetic. can't I write a single journal entry without mentioning his name? he must be so fucking fed up of me.I feel bad for him. I need to get a fucking grip on myself...
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