Sympathy, The Weird Kind [07 Oct 2008|10:04pm] kafkaenthusiast [ mood | pregnancy scare ] I’ve been feeling nauseous these past few days. I was able to hide the symptoms; yes, even that one time when I literally vomited after a patient pooped. That was easy, but when my appetite increased, carbo-loading every chance I get, people started to take notice. Somebody even noted that I’ve been sleeping a lot. Just last night I had 12 hours of sleep. That was still fine, people assumed I was just getting lazier. Until today, when I entered the callroom and complained, “What’s that smell?” “huh?” “Did someone put on perfume?” “Nobody.” “Did someone spray airfreshener in the bathroom?” “Nope.” “Then what’s that smell? God, it’s, uckh.” “Yves, what’s wrong with you? Oh my god, are you PREGNANT?” medical students have this instinct of diagnosing everyone on the spot, one inevitably finds it annoying. [you should avoid psych rotators, they’re the worst!] *** i had to go home early, well, for obvious reasons. i felt very sleepy. i didn’t really spend too much time thinking of what was said about me being possibly pregnant. Yes, yes, I know I don’t have a uterus, or ovaries, or a partner to conceive anything with. After dinner, my mom decided to color dad’s hair, and about that time my sister walked in, and almost in chorus, we said, “Ang baho!” I looked at my sister, and I realized, the culprit! You see, it’s not me who’s pregnant, it’s her! Couvade (sympathetic pregnancy) is a common but poorly understood phenomenon whereby a man experiences physical symptoms during the pregnancy for which there is no recognized physiological basis. Symptoms commonly include indigestion, increased or decreased appetite, weight gain, diarrhea or constipation, headache, and toothache... Couvade has been seen as an expression of somatized anxiety, pseudo-sibling rivalry, identification with the fetus, ambivalence about fatherhood, a statement of paternity, or parturition envy. It is likely that the dynamics of couvade may vary between individuals and may be multidetermined (Klein, 1991). *** I do remember having grumpy episodes in the past, for no reason, usually associated with crampy abdominal pain, only to find out that one of my sisters was having her monthly period. Happarently, despite being horribly self-involved, I’ve been unconsciously sympathetic [in the weirdest way] the whole time. Maybe this is also the reason why I feel worn out, emotionally. As if my heart has been broken a million times. I know I’ve mentioned at least a couple of names in the past, but to be honest, the context is always more romanticized than it truly is. It’s a curse. I no longer have to experience the real thing, I just suffer vicariously. A double curse: No real experience, Just real suffering. post comment

First year research [04 Oct 2008|12:51pm] kafkaenthusiast more blast from the past... i've completely forgotten that i have these photos. i was just looking for files from an old back-up disc, when whoa! here they were. memory 1: the research group I accidentally became a part of this research group (predominated by biodiliman peeps) when my original group was dissolved. Like most things attributable to fate, I later realized it was one of the most mark-it-on-the-wall event in the early years of my medlife. First year. Everything seemed complicated. A lot of firsts. My first ever encounter with a microscope. The first time I held a scalpel to cut a cadaver. The first time I had to lose sleep studying for an exam (unheard of!). The first time I had… oops. just kidding. In retrospect, we were fussing about the littlest things. Hello, the main worry was, will I go to this party or will I start reading biochem? Shall I turn off the telly? It was just an eight-fiver type of schedule, and we were complaining?!!! memory 2: phi alpha gamma written 17th October 2004 Phi Alpha Gamma (PhAG) is a newly established fraternity in UP College of Medicine where the members are exclusively homosexuals. As of now, it has four members of august value. The cream of the crop. The cherries of the cream of the crop. Myke. Venzo. James. Yves Remember those names, they are the chosen ones. 13 October 2004, 20h00, Robinson's Place Ermita. First Genmeet of PhAG. Agenda: 1. Introduce Myke to the wonderful world of Malate. Specific site will be in the Nakpil corner Orosa, also known as New York Café where the ratio of women to men is 0ne in a thousand, and half of them are the female waiters. 2. Scour the place and discover the ways of flirtation. Stare, Stare, smile, wink, smile. 3. Get ourselves a slave. Someone to worship us and follow our every command. This agenda shall exempt Venzo, since he already has a slave. **** yvesness: hoi, call ka naman ng phi alpha gama genmeet. venzomania: sure... kelan mo gusto? send ko sa ygroups ng 09? yvesness: gago? yvesness: minus the question mark. venzomania: haha yvesness: by genmeet, i mean you, myke, and me. yvesness: and james na din. venzomania: cge ba...san nyo gusto? day of the week na pwede? yvesness: siyempre yung day of the week na may happening ang other members of our species. venzomania: hmm... how about the 16th of october? libot tayo malate yvesness: what day is that? venzomania : saturday yvesness: that would be okay. yvesness: pangit kasi sembreak, my season of loneliness. yvesness: grrr. venzomania: cge, I'll ask their opinion about it tom, i just have to get their nos from leng... di pa nya binibigay directory ko... game naman siguro sila ryt? yvesness: yeah, james and myke. yvesness: nag suggest din ata si myke the other day. venzomania: game! genmit na to! yvesness: hoy, bawal magdala ng boy unless meron para sa lahat. venzomania: sure, no prob jan yvesness: which one, yung part na bawal magdala ng boy, or yung meron para sa lahat? venzomania: mahirap naman ata yung meron para sa lahat... syempre yung part na bawal magdala ng boy...tska mas masaya yun single tau lahat durin that nyt para we could go boy "watching"...hehe memory 3: the research we had cute little hamsters for specimens, and we killed them one by one. I think two hamsters survived, aptly named “jennylyn” and “yasmin” after the two celebrity-wannabes who ended up in the finals of some reality show. we spent most of our time at the fatima dorm; myka, leng, iyay, and venzo were still living there. wait, myka still lives there, it's her place anyway. i miss the fatima people. post comment

Wishlist! 2008 [03 Oct 2008|10:35pm] thuspakeciriaco Dahil October na! Aurahan photoshoots! I'm currently loving the 'Trash the Dress' concept ( photos by Smart Shot Studio ). Dahil hindi kelangan ikasal para magka wedding album! P.S.: Ispeaking of aurahan... Sana naman kayo sakin this Nov! Siquiijor! Palawan! Esp sa Siquijor, kasi medyo one week yon. You don't have to stay with me the whole time. Just book your flight/plan your trip around the places and days I'm going. I'll be posting the itineraries soon! A big-ass inflatable globe. Wala lang. Sa National meron! Php 200+ * Yung accurate at nababasa yung mga pangalan ng lugar, please. Atlas (World / Philippines) Yung current (pwede na yung 2005 edition onwards) tsaka super nabubuklat/flexible yung binding/spine. Meron akong nakikita dati sa mga gas stations (not all, malamang yung along NLEX/SLEX) na local atlas cum listahan ng mga travel spots sa Philippines. Parang Php 699 ata. Sathura synthetic hair spray. SM Cosmetics Dept (sa may bilihan ng wig). Php 199. A yellow 'BRO. EDDIE V. for PRESIDENT' shirt (can't find even a photo!), or an NY Herald Tribune shirt, much like the one Jean Seberg was sporting in the movie À bout de souffle (Breathless). ( at marami pang iba... ) post comment

Crush Crush Crush (Ang Pagnanasa) [03 Oct 2008|01:22pm] kafkaenthusiast Reunited with the powerpuff gelays. I was happy to report to them that I had this new crush, and attempted to talk about our encounters. But before I began to narrate distressing details, Buttercup interrupted. “crush na naman. Parati ka na lang may crush. Lahat na lang ng rotation meron ka crush,” he said. “Oo nga. Sino yan, si ******?” Bubbles asked. “Wait, pano nyo nalaman? Nakwento ko naba?” “Kwinento na ni joyce!” Bubbles responded. But I got to talking about the sordid details despite protests from Buttercup, silly one. After a few minutes, a certain pre-res (one who’s applying for any specialization) entered the callroom to rest and cool down. He looked exhausted. We all asked how pre-residency was, if it was as ruthless as it seemed. He talked for a while then he excused himself, and promised to come back. “Sana matanggap siya,” said Bubbles. “Ahaha. Bet mo siya Eugene? Sabi ko na nga ba.” I responded. Then the ever-nega Buttercup said, “Hay naku, ang lalandi niyo talaga! Gaad…” “Hoy nickson, ayan ka na naman, hinuhusgahan mo na naman kami!” I told him. Bubbles agreed, “Oo nga, jina-judge mo na naman kami!” Sometimes we just have to remind Buttercup his place of loyalty, “A powerpuff girl is not supposed to judge another powerpuff girl!” I explained. “Judge others na lang, fine,” he finally yielded. The pre-res came back and chatted with us. Even flirted, according to Bubbles. As another one of the rules of the Powerpuff girls, one should never contest the delusion of the other, so I agreed. Flirting it was. End of duty, and it was pretty clear our dear Bubbles was smitten. “Sana makasalubong ko siya bago man lang tayo makauwi,” he kept on saying. We were already a few meters away from the hospital gate, but I’m not the one who gives up easily, “Wag kang mag-alala, may ilang minuto pa, malay mo makita mo pa siya.” “Dahil sa kanya may dahilan na ako para mag residency sa PGH!” He proclaimed. “Ahaha. Totoo yan. Nung sinabi ni Nickson na marami akong crush, well totoo naman yon. Dahil narealize ko kung hindi dahil sa pagnanasa, hindi tayo magsu-survive sa Med!” I told him. Bubbles laughed, obviously agreeing to the principle that lust makes the world go round! post comment

Yalers Wishdom [03 Oct 2008|11:37am] kafkaenthusiast Where… age ain’t just a number, it’s a badge! and work ain’t a practice, it’s a concept! We had to spend time with these guys if only to gain life-lessons through osmosis. Age, as they say, comes mockery, err wisdom. Ohsotrue! Despite individual struggles from all parties involved, we all ended up unearthing boys, memories, friends – hatchets we thought we’ve buried a long and embarrassing time ago. And it had to be brought up, “Para lang siyang si Dawn Zulueta at ako naman si Sharon Cuneta sa peliculang,” Jowein joining me in chorus, “Una Kang Naging Akin!” post comment

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