[Most Recent Entries] [Calendar View] [Friends]
Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in
Eddy's Blurty:
| Sunday, October 24th, 2004 | |
| 7:57 pm | just let it be for if it is ment to be then it will be |
| 7:55 pm | if u wanna see my update of my life go to www.livejournal.com/~thesoldier187 ill still be updating here but not as much |
| Saturday, September 4th, 2004 | |
| 11:18 pm | u know what forget everything... i dont know what i want anymore. i thought i knew who i cared bout an i thought i finally got my feelings set an understood everything that i needed to but guess what... nope once again i was wrong i left my guard down for a few moments an then i just destroyed my self with out even trying to. i dont care anymore, well i shouldnt say that... i guess my problem is i care to much for too many people right now... well ill guess ill update more sometime soon |
| Monday, August 30th, 2004 | |
| 8:23 pm | summer has been great partys, chillaxn, drinking, and other illegal things =D wow im kinda sad that its all gonna end but it brings forth school an more girl, parties, drinking, and god knows what lmfao... its been a great summer an will be till the very end!!!!!!! Party Hardy & Drink Barcardie! =p well thats all i got to say for now PeAcE |
| 7:06 pm | I have screamed until my veins collapsed I've waited as my time's elapsed Now, All I do is live with so much fate I've wished for this, I've bitched at that I've left behind this little fact: You cannot kill what you did not create - Slipknot |
| Friday, August 6th, 2004 | |
| 12:14 am | Love-Hate I don't give a fucking shit anymore You never fucking cared about me It was all a fucking big lie Just so you could watch me be in pain I told you I loved you And you said the same You said 'mine' when ever you talked to me And I called you 'mine' We said we will be together forever But forever is a long time We claimed that we were in love An that no matter what- We would always be together But in the end You fooled me by saying 'We will always be friends' But I thought friends were Supposed to be there for each other Not turn their back on the other one When they are needed the most... written by me Current Mood:  angry |
| Wednesday, August 4th, 2004 | |
| 8:17 am | Chronic Future- 'Time and Time Again' Chronic Future- 'Time and Time Again' Inspiring, shining, rising And when you're in my way I'm not dividing me from you cause we're working together Perfect in its splendor like the currents of the weather The splinter in my center hindering all of my pleasure Is me manifested as you in this endeavor Once responsibility is taken I can render Experience to be however I want to remember Time and time again we fall in to the depths of who we are But you can't keep running away from what you're trying to find Put yourself through the scariest of scenarios Enter experiences you normally wouldn't dare to go It's all for the character and the aroogant afterglow Of knowing it's appearance according to your patterns of growth And what your parents handed down to you to handle Make sure you carry torches when their puttin out your candles Prediction can be unkind but unwind them still Don't erase the part of you that's responsible for your will Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are But you can't keep running away from what wou're trying to find Well I've seen you and those things you do And the way you hide that shadow can't be good for you Your dark defines your light There's some utterly damaged particles to deal with And if I stutter I'm sorry but it's hard to feel swift When stuck in my stomach is a cannon ball anchor to life I've been pushing it down pretending it doesn't exist Well this is what happens when you're pissed about being pissed You dig yourself so deep you resist just to resist And there's no way to get back experiences you missed So start right now today and risk furiousness for bliss Time and time again we fall into the depths of who we are But you can't keep running away from what you're trying to find Current Mood:  blahCurrent Music: Chronic Future- 'Time and Time Again' |
| 8:05 am | love-hate i dont give a fukin shit anymore u neva fukin cared about me it was all a fukin big lie just so u cud watch me be in pain i told u i loved u an u said the same u said 'mine' wen eva u talked 2 me an i called u 'mine' we said well b 2gether forever but forever is a long time we claimed that we were in love an that no matter what- we wud always be together but in the end u fooled me by saying 'we will always be friends' but i thought friends were supposed to be there 4 each other not turn their back on the other 1 when they are needed the most... written by me Current Mood: blahCurrent Music: The Roots- 'Dont Say Nuthin' |
| Friday, July 30th, 2004 | |
| 9:33 pm | good qoute "Some rules were made with all intentions to break..." |
| Saturday, July 24th, 2004 | |
| 1:41 pm | One Long Survey What time are you starting this?: 11:10 A.M. Name?: Edward Nicknames?: Ed, Nazi, Otto Skorzeny >given 2 me by Mein Schöner Engel!< Date of birth?: January 15, 1987 Sex?: Male Height?: 6'2" - 6'3" Eye color?: blue Where were you born?: Woman and infants hospital in providence. Number of candles on your last birthday cake?: 17 Pets?: none Hair color?: blonde/brown Piercings?: none Town you live in?: Johnston Favorite foods?: pizza Ever been to Africa?: nope Been toilet papering?: nope Love someone so much it made you cry?: Been in a car accident?: yea... not my fault i wasnt driving Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon bits Favorite day of the week?: during the summer Thursday, Fri, Sat... during skool yr Fri an Sat Favorite resturant?: dun got 1 Favorite flower?: black rose Favorite sport to watch?: none Favorite drink?: vanilla coke, Mountain Dew, Vanilla pepsi Favorite ice cream flavor?: no specific 1 Warner Bros. or Disney?: either or Favorite fast food restuarant?: none Carpet color in your bedroom?: dunno How many times did you fail your driver's test?: written test or actual driving test? written never driving 1 time >NOT MY FAULT< then i got it Whom did you get your last email from?: Ash P Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: hmmmmm not sure... What do you do most often when you are bored?: call friends 2 see if they can chill, go online, and listen 2 music Most annoying thing to say to me?: Bedtime?: dont have one Favorite TV show?: none Last person you went out to dinner with?:: no 1 Been out of country?: nope Believe in magick?: yesh Ford or Chevy?: depends on what type of vehicles r being offered from both companies :-D What are you listening to right now?: Mix... right now its playing ??????? Have you ever failed a grade?: no but i have failed classes If you have, what grade did you fail?: none Do you have a crush on someone?: yesh Do you have a bf/gf?: nope If so, what is their name?: wtf i jux said no :-p How long have you been together?: wtf i jux said no :-p What are you wearing right now?: black raver pants, black boots, black T an camo vest... o yea an black chicago fire dept cap Would you have sex before marriage?: yesh Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: nope Are you a virgin?: yesh Do you smoke?: ciggarrettes are bad 4 u Do you drink?: once in a while Are you ghetto?: ummm geee lemme think bout it? fuk no? im me, i have my own style Are you a player?: FuK NoOo thats bs 2 do that What are your favorite colors?: black, blood red, white, an ummm blue What is your favorite animal?: pitbull, rottweilder, wired haired fox terrier Do you have any birthmarks?: not that i know of Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: heh nope :-D Who do you talk to most on the phone?: it depeneds on whats happining but lately i talk 2 my friends in person... seeing i can go to there house when ever i want now Have you ever been slapped?: yesh Do you get online a lot?: yesh all the time Are you shy or outgoing?: depends... Do you shower?: yesh Do you hate school?: FuK No... I OnLy Go To SeE My FrIeNdS Do you have a social life?: yesh How easily do you trust people?: it depends on who it is an what im trusting them with Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: maybe... i know the cops wud b interested in what i kno lmfao Would you ever sky dive?: why jump outta a perfectly good airplane... unless its to go 2 war >WOOT< Do you like to dance?: depends on what type... Have you ever been out of state?: yesh Do you like to travel?: it depends on the reason 2 travel... travel round state 2 chill w/ friends then yea otherwise not really Have you ever been expelled from school?: nope Have you ever been suspended from school?: yup... for being late, but only in-school suspension Do you want to get out of your hometown?: sorta Are you spoiled?: depends sumtimes yea... Are you a brat?: i was Have you ever been dumped?: yesh Have you ever gotten high?: yesh... without meaning to though thats the funny part... family part chilled wit cuz an his friends pauly, murder, an like 2 or 3 other ppl Do you like snapple?: sumtimes Do you drink a lot of water?: nope What toothpaste do you use?: colgate Do you have a cell phone?: yesh... prepaid it sux but yet its better than nothing Do you have a curfew?: nope Who do you look up to?: my cuz steve Are you a role model?: im my cuzin sean's role model... thats a scary thought... Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?: nope What name brand do you wear the most?: dont care what it is not like i keep tags on anyways What kind of jewelry do you wear?: my chain round my neck, an my wrist chain... i made both :-D What do you want pierced?: nuthin Do you like takin pictures?: yesh Do you like gettin your picture taken?: sometimes Do you have a tan?: nope Do you get annoyed easily?: depends Have you ever started a rumor?: nope Do you have your own phone or phone line?: my cell phone Do you have your own pool?: nope dont want 1 either Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: i wear boxers Do you have any siblings?: sorta Jenn, LeeAnn, Have you ever been played?: probably Have you ever played anyone?: nope... thats jux being a asshole Do you get along with your parents?: neva knew my dad an me an my mom fought cuz i was a asshole an took her for granted an i wish i could change that now but i cant How do you vent your anger?: put it in my journals, or metal doors Have you ever ran away?: what good would that do? Have you ever been fired from a job?: nope neva had a real 1 to get fired from Do you even have a job?: no Do you daydream a lot?: sometimes Do you have a lot of ex's?: no Do you run your mouth?: depends how you mean that What do you want a tattoo of?: Iron Cross @ least that an mayb a grim reaper on right arm not sure where 2 put iron cross What do you have a tattoo of?: dont got 1 yet What does your ex bf/gf look like?: wtf??? What does your most recent crush look like?: again wtf??? Whats her/his name?: why u care??? Have you ever been bitched out?: oh yes many times by steph... i swear to god >wait i shuddnt swear 2 myself< that she hates me with a passion... oh well 2 bad i dont kare no more Are you rude?: not really... but i am totally sarcastic What was the last compliment you recieved?: not sure what it was but it was from Mein Engel >Raina< Do you like getting dirty?: yesh... it means i werked that day Are you flexiable?: nope What is your heritage?: 1/2 German & 1/2 Irish What is your lucky number?: 187 What does your hair look like right now?: just there Could you ever be a vegetarian?: yea probaly Describe your looks?: blonde/brown hair, blue eyes, 6'2" - 6'3" If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: blue... not sure the darkness but yesh blue Would you ever date someone younger than you?: i have on 4 occasions and i might ask someone else out who is younger than me... My Ex's: Christina, Kayla, Ashley, & Hayley Would you ever date someone older than you?: yesh When was the last time you were drunk?: ummmm i dunno if i was drunk but last time i drank was ummm sumtime this month... sry kay i had 2 How many rings until you answer the phone?: usually not more than 2 or rings Have you ever been skinny dipping?: nope If yes, when was the last time?: like i said b4 nope When was the last time you went on a date?: April Do you look more like your mother or father?: not sure Do you cry a lot?: i never cry infront of anyone... only person who i cried infront of was Charly... thanx 4 being there 4 me chicky Do you ever cry to get your way?: nope What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: dont know? Are you the romantic type?: i can be if i want to be... Have you ever been chased by cops?: sorta... What do you like most about your body?: not sure What do you like least about your body?: not sure When did you have your first crush?: kindergarten... yup i can member that lol When was the last time you threw up?: i never really ever threw up i wouldnt let myself In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: does not matter Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?: no... im a guy we dont do that What about cleavage?: no im a guy we dont have that Is your best friend a virgin?: which best friend? Have you ever fucked someone up?: sorta Have you ever been fucked up?: sorta... Vicodine What theme does your room have?: dun got 1 What size show do you wear?: 12 or 13 mens boot What is your screen name on AIM?: DemonicWarrior05 How are you feeling right now?: bored When was the last time you were at a party?: ummm cam's surprise party Have you ever given a lapdance?: nope Have you ever recieved one?: yup Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: most likey... after all this IS JOHNSTON! What is one of your bad qualilties?: Caring too much What is one of your good qualilties?: im protective of friends and family Would you marry for money?: nope What do you drive?: Yesh got my license July 9th :-D Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?: neither So?: ??? Well?: ??? When was the last time you cried in school?: Never I told u b4 i dont cry Would you ever hook up with the same sex?: nope i love girls What kind of music do you like?: alternative, metal, rock, rap, punk, goth, industrial, an others... Would you ever bungee jump?: yesh What is your worst fear?: being lied to about how a person really feels about me Would you ever join the army?: I wanted to but now I decided Im going to make MY OWN ARMY AN TAKE OVER THE WORLD Do you like cows?: yesh If you were to die today, what would you do?: id wanna spend the last of my time on earth with my family and friends If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?: sorry Do you like to party?: yesh Hearts or broken hearts?: hearts Moons or stars?: both Coke or pepsi?: either or Favorite scent?: incense Favorite band?: dont have ONE favorite band Would you ever dye your hair red?: nope How many languages can you speak?: english and im learning german What time are you finishing this?: 12:00 |
| 2:19 am | July 23rd 2004 First of i wanna say Happy Birthday Mom R.I.P. 4-16-02 we miss an love you. Also happy Sweet Sixteen Christina!!!! an Happy B-Day Raina's mom! :-p wow last night was cool... surprisingly lol. well lets see went 2 St. Marys Feast met up wit cam & rissa... i thought bout how i shudda asked Raina >Mein Schöner Engel< if she wanted to go... im sorry chicky... but i know that was ur moms bday so i thought u shudda spent it wit her... well lets see what else happened.. met up wit lindsay c., kat, jon, nick, ron & his gf, an a few other ppl along the way... then outta nowhere i saw of all ppl CHRISTINA!!!!!! i was like wtf is that her then i knew it was her when she came over an said hi 2 every1 but me then she took like a long look at me an she was like holy shit EDDY!!!!!!!! i was like hi.. it was great 2 see her after 2 yrs she changed but then again who doesnt i used 2 be shy an quiet but now im an asshole who wont shut up lol... well thats all for now i know i forgot stuff but ill update later |
| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004 | |
| 10:07 pm | FuK It ALL!!!!!! i jux luv when ppl say that they will always be ur friend no matter what... fuk ppl especially the lying backstabbing a$$holes who swear that they will always be there for u... i dont give a fuk no mo cuz its all gunna end soon... loose ends will be dealt with an not every1 will be happy when they get dealt with so FUK ALL YA'LL A$$HOLES |
| 6:47 pm | Whiskey Lullabye Brad Paisley- 'Whiskey Lullabye' She put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette. She broke his heart: He spent his whole life trying to forget. We watched him drink his pain away, a little at a time, But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind, Until the night: He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger. And finally drank away her memory. Life is short, but this time it was bigger, Than the strength he had to get up off his knees. We found him with his face down in the pillow, With a note that said: "I'll love her till I die." And when we buried him beneath the willow, The angels sang a whiskey lullabye. La la la la la la la La la la la la la la. La la la la la la la, La la la la la la la. The rumours flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself. For years and years, she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath. She finally drank her pain away, a little at a time, But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind. Until the night: She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger. And finally drank away his memory. Life is short, but this time it was bigger, Than the strength she had to get up off her knees. We found her with her face down in the pillow, Clinging to his picture for dear life. We laid her next to him beneath the willow, While the angels sang a whiskey lullabye. La la la la la la la La la la la la la la. La la la la la la la, La la la la la la la. La la la la la la la La la la la la la la. La la la la la la la, La la la la la la la. >Ded!cated Current Mood: bleh Current Music: Brad Paisley- 'Whiskey Lullabye' |
| 11:04 am | Death From Above Hey great name for an entry ey? well guess what... the U.S.M.C. has been calling me an keep askin 4 me 2 sign up... 6 times within the last 2 & a 1/2 weeks... wtf... i guess you could call it destiny knocking on my door... :-\ after i finally decided genst going into the military... they tell me they are impressed with my A.S.V.A.B. (Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery) score basically its a long >atleast 3 hr< test an they looked at my score an seemed amazed that i was in the top 10 people who took the test in my school when more than 200 took the test.. me off all people had 1 of the highest scores that the recruiters have ever seen... hmmm oh well i am startin to rethink everything now not sure what i want these days... well thats all for now ill put more up later >PeAcE OuT Current Mood:  confusedCurrent Music: Mase- Welcome Back >only cuz it tiz on MTV< |
| Monday, July 19th, 2004 | |
| 12:16 pm | Free Concert I cant wait till this Thursday cuz 95.5 WBRU is having a FREE CONCERT at the park in Providence across the street from the Prov Place Mall... The bands are gunna be Local H, Lit, and Finch>? not sure bout Finch but im almost positive it is them< I cant wait another day to chill with people yayness... lmfao well ill b back later... PeAcE OuT HoMiEs!!!!!! Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: LiNkIn PaRk- PaPeRcUt (HeLl ReMiX) |
| 2:00 am | bleh im watchinng MTV an right now NOKIA presents THE HARD ROCK LIVE is on. YELLOWCARD is the band thats performing right now. the song is "Believe"... Yellowcard is just awesome so, anyways im bored ill be back later. |
| Friday, July 16th, 2004 | |
| 5:47 pm | Wise words from Rodney Dangerfield "What good is it to be the best if it briongs out the worst of you?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" Wise words from Rodney Dangerfield |
| 1:01 pm | "Always tell someone how you feel. mean what you say & say what you mean, even when its hard. opprotunities are lost in the blink of an eye; but regrets last a lifetime." |
| 9:27 am | Dedicated SEETHER (f/ AMY LEE)- 'Broken' I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore |
| 2:13 am | Wendsday i drove to the store an on the way back i stopped by an saw Kate K @ her house she was happy to see me she went wit me down 2 my house an i dropped off the stuff i got @ the store... then we went back to her ouse an stayed there till almost 9pm then we went an picked up LeeLee an we were gunna go see 'Rissa but wen we got there >after gettin lost i dont kno how many times, lmfao< we decided her mom wud kill us we went bout 9:30 quater of ten an we went an got iced coffee then i drove to providence with them cuz Kate wanted 2 show us her aunts house that just burnt down an i was like wtf i used 2 live like 3 streets down an Kate was like omg an then we all were like 'dude' but then i had 2 get LeeLee hokme for 11 pm sharp otherwise her mom wudda killed me an Kate... then dropped Kate off bout 11:15pm we had fun an that was the first of many joy rides i plan to randomly have over the summa... well yea i cant wait if anyone wants to chill just call me lol. Current Music: Lexincrypt- Aftermath (Little Sap Dungeon remix) |