06:51pm 13/02/2004
 
mood: lonely
Is it normal to feel left behind? I've been feeling left behind as of recent. Sure I'm not alone... but I'm still left behind. I know why... I always know why don't I? Yeah, it's the same old problems, same old reasons, same old hell. All I ever do is break my back... I break it and get left behind. It matters not why it got broken. I get left behind anyway.

People dangle on the edge of cliffs and I'm always there to pull them up... but when I trip and I start to fall... no one is there to pull me up... ever. I always have to pull myself up... always.

I'm upset that this keeps happening. Everyone sees it happen. No one does a damn thing. I know why too. Everything I have with anyone or anything, is taken away... by the people I love the most at that. It's tiresome... I'm so tired. What makes it all worth it. Nothing... nothing at all.

I'm done bitching now		  
    fly me to the moon
 
   
07:16pm 13/02/2004
  You didn’t stop to look ‘round
You were gone before I hit the ground
You went on your way
And no prayer was said
Ah, you left me for dead
You didn’t cover my face
I didn’t merit a communal grave
You set me aside
And no tears were shed
You left me for dead
And I say I won’t stop, no, ‘till hell is your home
There’s nowhere to hide, no, nowhere
You’ll feel the cold of my gun at your head
Ah, you left me for dead
And it’s not like you stayed by my side or you called me a priest
You searched through my mouth to check for gold teeth
You were pawning my shoes as I bled
You left me for, left me for, left me for dead
You kept on taking your time
Until it was certain I couldn’t survive
Judas remained, you turned and fled
Ah, You left me for dead
And it didn’t trouble your mind
It did not disturb you to see me decline
You turned out my lights
You put me to bed
Ah, you left me for dead
And I say that I won’t rest my head until Hell is your home
You’ll think that you’re safe, but oh no
You’ll feel the cold of my gun hit your head
Ah, you left me for dead
And you didn’t stay close to me, didn’t stay by my side
I was choking in blood as delight filled your eyes
You’re going to burn for each word that was said
‘Cause you left me for, left me for, left me for dead
But I don’t want to search no more
There’s nowhere to hide
So why don’t you come quietly, my love
I wanted to say, to say that you sure proved the death of me
‘cause Now I’ve reached a dead end
And I can’t go back
But if I’m going down then you’ll come with me
You didn’t stop to look ‘round
You were gone before I hit the ground
You went on your way
And no prayer was said
Ah, you left me for dead
‘Cause you didn’t cover my face
I didn’t merit a communal grave
You set me aside
And no tears were shed
You left me for dead		  
    fly me to the moon
 
  demios
 
 
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