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[19 Sep 2003|01:51pm] |
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"Throw Down" -Motion City Soundtrack |
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Oops, time for a fresh new start. Go here.
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[02 Sep 2003|12:39am] |
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There's a big scary cricket in here right now. It won't go away. Sob. It's scary. Just when I think I got rid of it, it comes back and attacks me. But I just threw a big pile of blankets on it so that should keep it away for awhile. I don't want to go near it to kill it or pick it up and take it outside. Because it's HUGE. And it scares me. Someone save me plz. :[
Not really much to update about. He's still avoiding me. Things are still complicated, and I've had a lot on my mind. Which has caused me to turn down dates with really nice guys. I suck.
I just talked to Kat. She's alive. Yay. Looks like someone has been distracting her. *COUGH* But I'm glad things are going good with that...situation. Kind of makes me miss the old days. Which makes me rethink other situations. Do I miss being with him? Yes. Do I want to reconstruct the relationhip? I don't know. And there you have it Brendan...I don't know. The forbidden phrase. But really, I don't know.
Anyway, I'm bored. ( So fill this out and entertain me. )
Edit:
I am the  Which smiley are you?
I got the sex face. :O!!!!
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[29 Aug 2003|01:57am] |
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I'm not really sure what is happening with...everything. Not just certain situations, but literally everything. I don't really know how to explain it. But it's just like...everything's changing.
But then I remember what Shiri said. At least my life is like a good soap opera. Not some cheesy one like "Passions". I'm not like pregnant with the spawn of evil with a midget stalking me. Hi Shiri, look at my icon. :-*
And then certain people like to get mad at me. I'm not even sure why. But really, it's been bothering me. Maybe because we were actually getting along. We were closer than we had been in awhile.
I've been trying to keep myself pretty busy lately. Like an "escape" I guess. It's been working somewhat. I've been spending a lot of time with my sister, Marieh, going to a lot of promo stuff with her. By the way, her movie Jeepers Creepers 2 is coming out today. So everyone go see it okay. Even if the first one sucked. Anyway, I think I'm done with that. So, Jason, when are we running away together?
By the way, happy birthday to my favoritestestestest porn star ever. Hi David :-*. I hope you have fun, and get lots of bingo and film it for me, and other stuff.
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[25 Aug 2003|08:49pm] |
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"Ape Dos Mil" -Glassjaw |
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I did something bad. Now to decide if it was a mistake, or not. I love how every entry of mine has a lot of vagueness in it now. So sue me.
By the way, I take back the whole last entry. I'm ready to talk now.
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[25 Aug 2003|02:04am] |
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"Konstantine" -Something Corporate |
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So, the last entry was a bit vague. And I never really clarified it with anyone. It's not that I don't want to, I just can't.
Only a few people understand, and I like it that way. I don't like others seeing me "weak". I'm supposed to be the strong one. The one who acts stupid to cheer people up, instead of the one who needs to be cheered up. And whenever my "down" mood kicks in, I remember that. I've become fairly good at covering it up. ;X
No, but really. Don't worry about me. I'm okay. Eventually it'll pass. And in the meantime, I have my peanutbutter cup ice cream and Little Mermaid dvd. If I want to talk about it with you, I will. If not, then don't worry about it. I hate to be that way. I just...don't know.
None of this is making sense is it? Once again, it's too vague. So, the end. I'll write more when I don't have to be so vague. And when I'm not confusing myself.
P.S. Someone should make a Maj-on-a-stick. :[
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[20 Aug 2003|12:25am] |
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"Harder To Breathe" -Maroon 5 |
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Maybe it's harder than I thought.
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[17 Aug 2003|03:08pm] |
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Ew, why am I being emo. It's so homogay. I need to stop. :[
On another note, I've been hanging out a lot with Brendan lately. Basically doing nothing at all. Just sitting around the house being lazy. We've watched Roswell a couple of times. AHAHA. I used to watch that all the time, but then it switched times. I'll have to start watching it again. *Yawns* Too bad it's not on on weekends. I have no clue where Brendan is either. I can't believe we're actually still getting along. Usually by now we're at eachother's throats. But I guess, he's one of the few people who actually understands me right now. So, it's nice being around him.
Everyone else is slowly showing up too. Yay! You have no idea how happy I was when I saw that Emilie and Jason were here. I was like %$&%^(^*&(^&%#$!! Five Roswellians are here now. Muhaha. Now if Shiri and Colin would get off their asses, it would be great.
I haven't talked to Emilie yet, but I've gotten to catch up with Jason. We talked about Roswell, and other...stuff I'd rather not say. When we're forced to provide commentarys for the Roswell DVD, I think we're going to go into hiding. Eheheh. ;X Don't get me wrong, I loved Roswell. But it's in the past. I think it's about time to move on now. kthnxbye.
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[13 Aug 2003|03:23am] |
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"Letters To You" -Finch |
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I guess now would be as good as ever to update. Since I'm feeling all productive and all that jazz. Seriously, I've been writing like crazy today. Three new songs have come out of it. Plus, I've been doing lots of stuff on the computer. Hella new icons, and stuff.
Yeah, things are over. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later. I even talked to a few people about it, which was really weird. I'm psychic yo. Nah, it was just really predictible. You know, given the situation and all. In all reality, I'm suprised that it lasted as long as it did.
I wasn't too bummed, until the "You will always be special to me" came out. I admit it, that got to me. But what can you do? I'm not one who's going to sit around being hurt. Everything happens for a reason. And I knew this was going to happen, so I prepared myself for it. So I'm not really sulking or doing any of the after-breakup stuff. Sure, there are still the unanswered questions, and I do miss him. But in all reality, it's probably better off this way anyway.
It's really not some cover up. Brendan asked if I was just trying to cover up me being hurt. In all honesty, I'm not. That's how I really feel. Sure, the whole situation is unfair and really sucks. But once again, everything happens for a reason. It was meant to happen. And would've happened sooner or later regardless. I was ready for it, and I'm okay.
And by the way, Brendan and Cleopussy win for being there.
And now it's time for peanut butter cup ice cream. ;X
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[12 Aug 2003|04:44pm] |
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House Of Mouse - On Disney |
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I guess this is where I stop having other people update for me, and update for myself?
But then again, I don't want to. So oops, I'm going back to being lazy. Plus, the other entries are so hot. Mike and Chelle win. A real update may be coming soon.
And on another note, I HATE YOU DIE. kthnxbye.
Now back to watching cartoons. :D
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[11 Aug 2003|11:25pm] |
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[11 Aug 2003|10:28pm] |
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HiLaRy DuFf!!! I LUFFLE HER |
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OMGAH I am Majandra Delfino and I love Michelle Branch more than you could imagine. I like to mab to pictures of her hourly. And then when I'm done, I call Chelle and give her all the details. We are secretly in love but no one knows because we keep it such a good secret.
I am so hot. You should all grab my tits.
Oops, mab time. GG!!!!!!!!!!!111111111!!!!!!!!!! LOL LMAO ROFLMFAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TeEhEeZ!!!!! By3-By3z!!!!!!!!!!!
<33333333333333 xo xo xo xo xo I LUV U!!!!!!!!!
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[27 Jul 2003|07:24pm] |
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"I Want To Save You" -Something Corporate |
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So, Bill is making me update. Even though I have nothing to update about. Well I do, but it would be all emofied. I hate writing emofied updates. Because I am not an emofied person at all. And it's just blah.
I just hate being so helpless. You know? I'm supposed to be the one all making everything better. But I can't. I don't even know what to make better. I should take William's advice, but I can't. Instead, I am just giving him space. Hoping that when he is ready, he'll come around. And who knows, maybe I am making it out to be a bigger deal than it is. I do tend to do that a lot.
As for you, I'm not buying that whole "She's ignoring me" thing. If you would've actually have bothered to talk to me, I might. But you never really did. So how is it my fault? Sure, this may be me being stubborn. I do that a lot too. But really, I'm not ignoring you, and you should know that.
Enough of the stupid emoness. I love my Bill, and I always will. Even though he tried to steal Delta from me. She is mine ok. I might be nice and share though. Just for Bill. Cause he is my favorite. And he cheers me up. And gives hearts to me doesn't use hearts. And he has desperate girls on his jock, which is really funny. ;X
And I love Cleopussy too. Because she is always there for me. And gives the best advice ever. And hi she is way too hot yo.
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[16 Jul 2003|02:37am] |
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"Everything" -Lifehouse |
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So, Brandon wanted me to update. However, I've been busy doing...um, stuff...almost all day. Not to mention, blurty has been being a hater. So, I am writing this in hopes that it might let me post it. Hi Blurty, I love you. Please be nice. :-*
And by the way, Brandon and Natalie are way too cute together. ;X
I don't really have much to say about what's been happening. Why? Because it's not of my business. I love them both. I'm not taking sides, or talking shit about either one. And I'm not judging anyone. It's not my place to do that. But hi guys, if either of you need anything. Whether it's someone to listen, talk to, or just be stupid and make you laugh...then you know where to find me.
Eh. I noticed Brendan is here. That makes me kind of nervous. I just don't know what he expects. Whether it's us getting back together, or friendship. Hopefully it's the second one. I'm happy with James, and I'm not going anywhere. Or to anyone else. Sure, Brendan was my first love. And I'd love to still have him in my life. Just...only as a friend. And I hope he understands that, because I really don't want to disappoint him.
On another note, this has been the hottest day ever. *coughs* James is really the best anyone can ask for. Hee. Hi James. *coughs, points at icon*
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[29 Jun 2003|05:31pm] |
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"True Star" -Caroline's Spine |
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So, everything is okay I guess. He told me that he didn't want me to go anywhere <3. Which was really all I needed him to say. I never realized how much I cared about him. Seriously, it's amazing how oblivious you can be to those things. Then something happens to wake you up and make you see it. And it's like "wow".
( I really like these lyrics )
Chelle invited us to go to Austrailia. So, I think we're going. She's flying us out there tomorrow. Woo. I love my secret lover. :-*
And mmm handcuff movie. ;X
Anyway, the point of this post is for Jonny to spam me. So spam away. ;D
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[26 Jun 2003|11:56pm] |
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"Tired Of Waiting" -Track 10 |
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Yeah. So, I found out some news tonight. I took it pretty well though. I wasn't mad or anything. I didn't freak out too bad. It happened before me, so I really don't have a right to be mad. The past is the past. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that. It really doesn't matter what happened before me. I've never once had my past questioned, so I'm going to do the same. Of course, none of my past includes something this big. But...yeah. I'm being cryptic, so sue me.
It did scare me in a way though. I mean, I am willing to work through this. I will be there for him throughout everything, and help him whenever he needs me too. I'm not going anywhere. Unless...he wants me too. And part of me has this gut feeling that he wants me too. Maybe it's just paranoia. Maybe I just think too much.
Then I started thinking, what if he didn't want me to be there? I would be upset, I admit it. Over the past couple of months, I've fallen for him hard. I don't know if I would call it love. Frankly, the word scares me now. But I do care a lot about him. So yeah, I don't want it to happen. But I was talking to someone about it. And they made me realize. I'm a strong girl. So if it did happen, I would be able to get through it. I can get through anything. And I'll be okay. And regardless of what happens, I'll be there for him. Whether it's as a lover or a friend. Either way.
And I love Cleopussy and Damian. Thanks for everything. <3
And I'm tempted to post Moffatt lyrics.
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[25 Jun 2003|02:15am] |
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Tobey said I should update so I am. Just for him. And his labido. Cause hi Iove Tobey :V. Even if it's not his birthday. By the way, I was the first person to tell him Happy Birthday. I win.
Leo is back. Which makes me happy. Cause he is the best roomie ever. And I missed him lots. *loves Leo hxc and spanks like whoa*.
Teddy Behr has been social lately. Gasp. He promised me he'd stay social too. So yay! It's great talking to him again. It's just like old times, minus all the Roswell stuff. I tried to get him to watch Hanson with me today, but he wouldn't. Sob. That's okay J, I forgive you.
Speaking of Roswellians, everyone should show Shiri some love. Or I will beat you up or something. She is one of my favorites, so I have to pimp her. Everyone add her and im her and stuff. She wins I swear. :-*
And the rest of the cast should really come here, so we can have a full reunion. Not just four cast members. :[
And in conclusion...
MY SEXUAL STAMINA HAS BEEN BROKEN. SOBSOBSOB. JAMES COME HELP ME FIX IT.
hee. I just watched an informercial about sexual stamina and labidos.
Edit: ( Hi I'm a druggie )
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[09 Jun 2003|03:26am] |
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"Emily" -Bowling For Soup |
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Cause everyone else is doing it.
I ____ Maj.
Maj is __________.
Maj needs to ________.
I want to ________ Maj.
If I have seen his picture(s), I think Maj is ________.
In one word, I would describe Maj as ________.
I can see Maj being (a) ________ someday.
If I were alone in a room with Maj, I would ________.
Someday Maj will ________.
Maj reminds me of ________.
Without Maj, my life would be ________.
Maj can be ________.
________ is how I describe meeting Maj.
Worst thing about Maj is ________.
Best thing about Maj is ________
One thing I would change about Maj is her ________.
Maj needs ________.
I am ________with Maj.
( Because I'm not too embarassed. )
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[29 May 2003|03:57am] |
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"Vertigo" -American Hi-fi |
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Today was fun, I went to the studio. To record, you know. And lay down some killer triangle tracks. Cause I am the triangle player for Soco. And I mean, why would the band go to the studio without me, their triangle player? *coughs and glares*. No, but really. I went to hang out with William. Cause they are too good for their triangle player now :\. But I managed to keep William entertained. I don't know how he managed putting up with me. Cause I was super hyper today, and all stuck in a small studio. But I didn't drive him crazy. Hee. Bill, I love you so...I always will. :-*
And for the record. Just because I like creating farts, doesn't mean that I fart during sex ok. >:O *glares at James*
Edit: James just farted. And his was a real one. ;X
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[28 May 2003|03:46am] |
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Look what I made
This site kept me entertained way too long. :\
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