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[06 Oct 2004|05:52pm] |
Let me update my blurty because no one reads it or knows about it,
Besides I am in a very open, confess it all mood
If I could pick a mood for myself it would be a thin line. Some days I feel like myself and i have all this hope. Than there are other days when I see nothing. I just look in the mirror and see this failed 15 year old.
It's normal to have these doubts and it is normal to feel this way. It just makes it better to let it out in words or for me.
I am just so lonely.
I remember when I was going out with him and we wanted to shut everyone out. We wanted to make a world where only we were. Than he left me. I never seen him again. I wanted solitude, but right when he let go of my hand, I felt it. I knew it.
I am so afraid, but I am not one of those high school dramatic assholes. The future is something I am looking forward to and things aren't that bad. My feelings will be have their highs and lows.
If I want beauty, I need the pain.
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[09 Sep 2004|03:41pm] |
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I thought this was cute:
I want somebody who i can chill with as well as get with and who i dont have to make small talk with and that awkward silences arent awkward with and if i say something dumb they will laugh but not at me.
- toby (but it applys to me too)
Yeah just to update.
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[04 Sep 2004|01:58pm] |
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And if you repeat my words
You said them before, and I remember the sound
I keep the lights off
I know you're right here
No matter what, you can't say no to me in my dreams
I am too into anything that is beautiful which is not a good thing. It makes a person become so wrapped up and tangled in illusions. Than all they see in false realty.
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[23 Aug 2004|08:31pm] |
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I really hate how people in Fenton have to bring other people down.
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[13 Aug 2004|04:38pm] |
stolen from Jojo
1. What is your full name? Samantha Dyane Lange Martin
2. What color pants are you wearing now? nothing..
3. What are you listening to right now? Katee!!
4. What are the last two digits of your telephone number? 81
5. What was the last thing you ate? spider man mac and chesse
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? bLACK. so I can color over
7. How is the weather right now? kinda cool for August.
8. Last person you talked to on the phone? I'm on the phone right now....with Katee!@
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes... oh so gorgeous
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you? I <3 Jojo. I stole it!! We have hot sex
11. How are you today? I am happy because I am the phone w/ Katee. hahaha and sex in the morning in the evening bowl of oranges. Other than that I feel like shit because of this boy I have obsessive and I don't know why and it drives me crazy and I wish I could do it to him, but that will never happen because, he is god and I can't fuck god wooooooooo lonnng sotry
12. Favorite drink? wine
13. Favorite sports? ballet
14. Hair color? brown
15. Eye color? Blue
16. Do you wear contacts? naw
17. Siblings?
18. Favorite month? September/december.
19. Favorite Food? noodles
20. Last movie you watched? the michael jackson sotry on vh1.. veryyyyy bad
21. Favorite day of the year? Samhain
23. Summer or Winter? winter
24. Hugs or Kisses? bad kisses
26. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate Vanilla Swirl. yes I agree
27. Do you want your friends to write back? shhhure
28. Who is most likely to respond? kates
29. Who is least likely to respond? uhhhhh
30. Living arrangements? house on the rocks
31. What book(s) are you reading? my sister, marilyn
32. What is on your mouse pad? the abc's
33. What did you do last night? had sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
34. Favorite smell? vanilla
35. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? No.. that would be cool if i could
36. Who inspires you? anais nin
37. Popcorn buttered, salted or plain? uh buttered
38. Favorite flowers? Roses.
39. What is the first thing you think about when you first wake up in the morning? take a wild guess
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[13 Aug 2004|04:36pm] |
I will update my blurty now.
I love everyone on my friend's list
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[01 Aug 2004|06:34pm] |
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[31 Jul 2004|03:12pm] |
i JUST THOUGHT (eww caps) well anyways starting over, I am too lazy to press the backspace key, okay well I just thought about blurty. So why not update.
Well life has been..
It could be better. hmmm where did my coke go? damn... not gooood.
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[31 Jul 2004|03:12pm] |
i JUST THOUGHT (eww caps) well anyways starting over, I am too lazy to press the backspace key, okay well I just thought about blurty. So why not update.
Well life has been..
It could be better. hmmm where did my coke go? damn... not gooood.
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[31 Jul 2004|03:12pm] |
i JUST THOUGHT (eww caps) well anyways starting over, I am too lazy to press the backspace key, okay well I just thought about blurty. So why not update.
Well life has been..
It could be better. hmmm where did my coke go? damn... not gooood.
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[15 Jun 2004|09:21am] |
I updated for JoJo!
or um jordan..
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[15 Jun 2004|09:18am] |
I remember at spring fever I picked up a flower and did he loves me..
It got to he loves me. If only.
I feel like doing that again because, I am a loser, but I'd probably get carried away and my mom would probably murder me because all these petals and flowers will be all over the yard.
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[04 Mar 2004|04:10pm] |
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Today was alright. I mean I started and finished a great story. I had all the good stuff sex, violence,but no drugs. haha I am a loser. I shall add the bitch to my live journal sometime.
I hate B days they are so boring. I am going to a bright eyes concert I do not know when or how, but I know I am going. haha whatever see you fuckers later.
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[26 Feb 2004|01:01pm] |
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We are all fucking alone
Tell me where do the children play?
I really should make this look all pretty.
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[11 Feb 2004|05:47pm] |
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How the cold air hurts..
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[13 Jan 2004|06:19pm] |
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Exam week. ::sigh:: Than there are new classes next week. Well a four day weekend is coming up. I have to hang out with Elisha and Rachel. I think I am like Kadison's Rachel, that is why I can relate to that song. Hell, I can relate myself to all his women. Of course Rachel N. is the only one who knows what I am talking about.
I wish I had a better computer and I was not so damn lazy. I still need to get my mom's guitar fixed. Damn. I wish I could pause time.
Damien.
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[10 Jan 2004|07:04pm] |
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I will melt with your touch.
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[31 Dec 2003|06:58pm] |
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I am not going to do any special work on this. For awhile there all my blurty showed was a rose.
::sigh::
Well happy new years eve.
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[30 Dec 2003|12:59pm] |
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I think I might try a layout today!
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[26 Dec 2003|05:30pm] |
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Promise me.. We will stay forever this way.
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