| slient nightmares |
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| 02:30am 10/02/2008 |
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dear you,
why did you have to hurt me?
was i a part of some list?
were there others?
before me, after?
the innocence is long gone .. and you stole it.
you took away the one thing that was mine ..
and you didn't even care.
you broke me in so many ways
i can't even think of sex the same way
if it wasn't for you i woudln't be scared
i still have nightmares that haunt me
they remain silent as the fake smile comes about.
you've killed a part of me
i will never be okay
i've felt dirty and disgusting for 5 years bcuz of you
and you really didn't care.
you won.
i lost.
i could only imagine how many others there were.
you don't deserve life when you steal others
i am the stronger one.
though you still come back and haunt me ..
i've finally learned that it was never my fault ..
but you ..
you are weak ..
you can never admit your sin
you can never feel sorrow.
you pretend that you're so great.
but you're not.
you a sick bastard that burried a part of me.
bcuz of you i am nearly deaf
bcuz of you i have headaches every day
bcuz of you i panic
bcuz of you i'm not okay
bcuz of you i've wanted to die
bcuz i'm strong i'm letting you go
bcuz i'm strong i made it this far
bcuz i'm strong i realize it's not my fault
bcuz i'm strong i am getting better
but i still have silent nightmares .. |
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