01:35pm 27/06/2007
 
mood: depressed
Dear katelynn,
I dont know what your probelem is. I tell you one thing and it goes in one ear out the other. i just wish that we can some how be together and i know you want to too but you claim your not ready. You said you needed time i gave you time but then you have a relationship and yet you say your not ready. Your all set to marry him and you've only been going out with him for a few weeks. I mean what the hell? If you marry him how can you keep your promise that we can eventualy be together? And to tell you the truth when you told me about his fight and said there was a chance for him to die i was hoping he would but then i realise that you would probably never love anyone again. The front of my mind said leave him be the back of my mind said i hope he dies. I know thats wrong to say but i did wish it. I like your boyfriend but i love you i have since i figured out who i was. You blaim yourself but you know its my fault i held on to long i kept hoping we could be together. I was wrong to keep hoping. Why do you get bad vibes when you think about us being together but when i think about us being together i get good vibes. are you sure your not ready for an us or are you afraid of finding out the truth about yourself? maybe someday you'll see this i really doubt it though.

love,
samantha		  
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