04:14pm 19/11/2005
 
mood: embarrassed
Dear Nes,

Sorry I've been such an ass, I wish you could apologize too. I just wanted to say that I'm really really trying hard not to be bitter. If I did something recently to upset you, sorry.
I don't know if being around you is worth it, I bet you feel the same. I guess what we could benifit from tolerating or even (gasp) enjoying one another's company is that the heart ache won't be there. And we can breathe easy in social sittuations. And the bad dreams will go away ....well some of them.

I wish we could forget everyone else, the peope you know who don't like me, I know she's your "sista" but come on. And if there was anyone who I knew really doesn't like you, my friends tend to make up their own minds.
Ugh there I go again.

Fine well I guess I'm just sad that being friends didn't work out.
~Nyne		  
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07:06pm 19/11/2005
 
mood: crushed
Dear You*

Tonight, Im sitting at home, why you ask cause i need you so Im sitting by the phone waiting on you,
like always I wish you'd see what you do to me. I mean damn im rapped up in you, I try to pull away trust me I do but you call and text me little things like that make me think about you, sometimes I'd wish you'd stop but then again I'd go insane wondering what I'd do without you.

You work alot though, so its rare we get to talk. I e-mail you but you barrely reply back. I dont know what to do anymore. Im screaming inside for someone to show me the way and tell me how to act.

As you read this tonight I hope you'll think about me, about how you make me feel. The way you push me away.

Love
The heart broken FOOL.		  
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