07:12pm 03/06/2005
 
music: Cursive "Gentleman Caller"
Dear Gerson,
Dude you've been my bestfriend since we were 11. Now were 17, we're graduating next week....Well you're graduating, me, not so much. But we both know I could care less about that....Well this year has been a true test of our friendship and they way I see it I wouldn't have made it without you man. Technically I didn't make it, ya know with the lack of cap and gown in my wardrobe but I'm not dead, a druggie, a drunk, a rapist, or a member of a skool activity or sport....And I have you 2 thank for that. You've been like a brother 2 me over the years and I've never been able 2 figure out how we came 2 be exactly....But I guess the way 2 think of it is that you hate me for getting you into certain situations but we're friends because I'm right there with you when the punishment is being dealt out. I've only kept a few things from you over the years and since you won't be reading this I guess I can say them.... The mystery girl I fooled around with at my house that I didn't tell you or Paul the identity of was Jenny.... Oh and I used 2 wet the bed when I was a kid. And when I was at your house once in junior high I stole a batman toy from your little brother....He didn't miss it. I hate Jodi....Sorry dude but it's true.... I just can't stand the girl sometimes....But she's your girlfriend so I make an effort. Oh yeah....And those flyers Olivia made of you that got you and Jodi so pissed.....Well I didn't help her or anything but I knew she was gonna make them so I guess I had a hand in it....I'd say sorry but it was funny....Ha! Oh umm I can't think of anything else so lastly, the reason I wrote this.....I'm leaving. Like town.....But not only am I leaving town but I'm leaving the state. Yep, I'm moving away. Not with my family or nothin. They'll still be here. But me, I'm following my heart. Bailey lives in Indiana and thats where I need 2 be. Funny how I tried 2 keep you from going 2 DVC which is like half an hour away and I'm moving 3,000 miles away....Go figure....I'm gonna miss you but we both know I have nothin left for me here man....Lifes gonna get pretty outta hand without you there 2 tell me when not 2 do somethin and I'm sure your life will be as exciting as a faucet dripping without me around.....Life will be different, this I know.....But we were gonna have to grow up sooner or later....Or should I say I was gonna have 2 grow up sooner or later?

-Dominic		  
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Sorry will never be enough.   
09:27pm 03/06/2005
 
mood: guilty
music: Hotarubi by Dir en Grey
Dear Sha,
It's been almost four years since we've seen or spoken and I still can't forget you. Last night I dreamt about letting you die. That's something that I'll forever be haunted by. You were my best and only real friend for so many years. I can't believe I let him get between us. I promised myself I would never put so much importance on a male. I didn't want to end up like my mother and sister. I wasn't there when you needed me. I never tried to stop you from self-mutilation and that night you came over and gave me that suicide note, the first thing I did was call him. He told me you only wanted attention so I didn't follow you home. I stayed there with him on the phone and ignored your cries. I hate myself for that everyday. You could of died that night and it would of been my fault. And in the end I lost you both and I know I deserve it. I know it doesn't mean anything now, but I've learned from all that and never again will I be so blind and stupid. I just hope that wherever you are now you're happy and realize how much your worth and how beautiful a person you really are.
--x.Kaori ♥		  
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