01:57am 05/04/2005
 
mood: confused
Dear donovon

It's been a long time, but still I catch myself thinking of you. I hate it...I don't want to think of you anymore, because I know that there is no way, that I'm still on your mind. Do you think of me? Eventhough you've moved on? Because I know I do. I wake up, loving someone else and I love it. But I miss you too... It's hard to explain, I wouldn't trade what I have now for the world, but still I wonder sometimes how it would be if you were with me today. I guess we never pulled through, you never wanted to. The way everything ended. You never gave me a chance to see that we really weren't meant to bo together. I mean I would've known eventaully, because who I have now is my happily ever after, but I wished that you'd just gave me a chance to find it out on my own. I'm a stubborn person I know, but isn't that what made you love me a little bit more?
If only you could explain everything, all the why's and how comes' all the goobyes' and the tears...I love you for giving me what I never thought I could have, but I hate you for thaking a space you weren't whorty to fullfill, to make what I have now, my new boyfriend, work so hard just to make up for your mistakes, when all he ever really does is love me for me...I love him...and I so deeply want to hate you

Kate		  
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02:11am 05/04/2005
 
mood: confused
Dear donovon

It's been a long time, but still I catch myself thinking of you. I hate it...I don't want to think of you anymore, because I know that there is no way, that I'm still on your mind. Do you think of me? Eventhough you've moved on? Because I know I do. I wake up, loving someone else and I love it. But I miss you too... It's hard to explain, I wouldn't trade what I have now for the world, but still I wonder sometimes how it would be if you were with me today. I guess we never pulled through, you never wanted to. The way everything ended. You never gave me a chance to see that we really weren't meant to bo together. I mean I would've known eventaully, because who I have now is my happily ever after, but I wished that you'd just gave me a chance to find it out on my own. I'm a stubborn person I know, but isn't that what made you love me a little bit more?
If only you could explain everything, all the why's and how comes' all the goobyes' and the tears...I love you for giving me what I never thought I could have, but I hate you for thaking a space you weren't whorty to fullfill, to make what I have now, my new boyfriend, work so hard just to make up for your mistakes, when all he ever really does is love me for me...I love him...and I so deeply want to hate you

Kate		  
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10:24pm 05/04/2005
 
mood: contemplative
music: mix cd
Dear the boy who loves me too much,

You just revealed emotions and feelings to me. You said you love me alot, and im not sure if i love you as much as you love me. I just want to be with you. It's going oh so fast. Slow it down. Just slow it down. Dont express all these feelings until you're completely sure, because if you say you love me so much i might believe you and develop feelings for you. So please boy be sure of these feelings. Don't express them to me alot. It's kinda of scary when people like me, the kind who doubt themselves has someone tell them they're beautiful and that someone loves them so much. It's just all too much. I want to be with you. But am i ready for this kind of stuff? am i ready to commit to you? i dont know. Please let me think before you say anymore.

love always
that girl you're madly in love with		  
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