09:02pm 07/02/2005
 
mood: pissed off
Dear you,

You think that I’ll come crawling, on my knees begging, looking for you? You think I’ll waste a single moment Hoping it isn’t true? Well, you’re dead wrong, and about to be rudely awakened. You’re nothing but a low, filthy, self-centered, honorless, piece of scum not worthy to be on the bottom of my shoe.
I’m surprised that I had the power to make you “miserable”. I’m surprised that I ever fucking crossed your god-damn mind. I find it hard to believe that you gave so much of a shit about me that I could ever do that, nor, do I really care. Because you mattered, and I was willing to fight for something that I saw, something that you did nothing but stomp all over, and spit on.
That’s for completely and utterly disrespecting me. I love how I matter so little, that you can do thing through something where I can’t return. I love how you have so little of a spine that you can’t do it any other way. I live how you’re such a COWARD that you can’t even leave a message on a phone, or even an e-mail.
Am I upset? Yes. Depressed? No. Surprised? No. Angry? VERY
I’m glad to hear that somehow I pissed you off through my insecurity. It was never me that did anything wrong, and It’s a wonderful, warm, fuzzy feeling being told that I did something wrong, that it’s my fault. When it isn’t, there’s only one person at fault here, and that’s you. I’m not surprised at all, seeing as how much better you are than me, how much smarter, funnier, more intelligent, dependable, trustworthy, etc etc etc. Yes. Sure.
You said once that somebody told you that you could never have a relationship last, nobody would date you, because you came with too many strings. Well, they were wrong. It’s not the strings, it’s not the past, the skeletons in your closet. There’s one problem. That’s the fact that you aren’t happy with a single guy. You need two or three, and if any of them don’t like that, they can go fuck themselves. Well, maybe it’s time you realize that there are almost no guys out there, who will EVER be willing to settle down in a long-term relationship if they know that they’ll have to share you. UNTIL you learn that, you will never, ever, be anything less than the self-centered, single, scum that you are.
Sorry? I’m glad you’re not, because I sure as hell aren’t. Maybe now I can find someone who I can matter to.

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