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dear mr. i'm-too-good-to-hug-or-kiss-my-girl, [07 Apr 2008|02:12am] lost_forgotten [ mood | crushed ] it's too little too late...when you asked me if i was mad at you, i wish i could of just yelled out "yes! yes i am fucking upset with you!" "why?" you'd ask, and i'd reply with tears in my eyes "because unless you're fucking me, you don't touch me...you tell me you love me...yet don't show it...you sent me a text that said 'i wish i was lying in bed righ now holding you.' why? because that sounds better than being at work!? because i can't remember the last time you did that!!!" then i can't even guess what you would say...then i'd cry more because you'd probably make up some stupid "stress excuse" that you always use to try to make me feel bad for bringing it up, which is actually quite fucking funny, because you always get mad when i'm upset about something but don't bring it up, then i do, and you freak out and make me feel bad for feeling bad in the first place!!! *sigh* i hate fucking cheating on you...and "technically" in some small, strange twisted way, i really haven't...i have not had sex with him...but i let him kiss me...i've never kissed back...it's never even been on the lips...i let him "love" me...i let him shower me with affection...because that's the only thing we lack...or i should say i lack...i lack the feeling that you love me, in a way i know you do, but i don't feel it...it's like knowing earth quakes exists with out ever experiencing one...only difference is that i felt loved by you once...i think that's why i'm so bugged now, because i've lost it...and it frustrates me...that's why i still go on dates with other guys...that why sometimes i skip out on class and lie to you and don't come home till 11 o clock when i was suppose to be out of class at 8...that's why i have that paranoid look on my face because i'm scared i accidentally smell like him...that's why... 2 comments|post comment

[03 Apr 2008|11:21pm] anonymous15 Dear Jesse, I cannot talk to you anymore. I don't know exactly how to put this into words, but I'll try. I hate the fact that we are both in a serious relationship and you still tell me that you love me. I thought we could just be friends, but it's like you're wanting to carry it out to be more than that. I like talking to you. You were with me during a hard time in my life. You've seen the worst of me... but I can't take the fact that you say you still love me and want to be with me. I'm in love with someone else, and I've decided that it is best if we do not speak. I've tried to avoid talking to you... and now it's time to say goodbye instead of playing these childish games of coming up with excuses on why I cannot talk to you. I'm really sorry for this, but I do think it is best if we do this now before we ruin anything that we have going for us now. Goodbye Jesse. 1 comment|post comment

[02 Apr 2008|05:57pm] purely_metal Dear Brian, It's been a crazy month for us. We just got together and there has been so much shit that has happened already. We did some things that we knew we shouldn't have done and now we're paying the price. The price is large, not being able to talk about you, see you, having to sneak around just to talk to you when I want to. I've had a lot of second-guesses about what we are and what we should be, too many for the short time that we've spent together. So many rumors are going around and there have been numerous times that I believed them, numerous times that you disgusted me, numerous times that I wanted to do nothing more than hit you. I've stayed despite that, and I still wonder if it's the right thing to do. I know that my feelings for you are strong, otherwise I wouldn't have put up with everything that I have been; losing the trust of my parents, fighting with them, disobeying them. I know too that you care for me, as all evidence has shown. You've stuck by me despite the times that my parents have beaten you down and tried to run you off. We've never been in this situation. I'm so curious as to how it will work out, what will happen next, which very well may be a large part of the reason for why I've stayed with you. It's exciting and myschevious, sneaking around, having late night sex at all hours of the night, rolling around on the floor wrapped up in you, holding one another up as we're too drunk to make it to the next room alone. It seems so full of passion, more passion than I have ever known. Our adventure has been an eventful one to say the least. I can almost not even wait for what waits for us around the corner, what other trouble we'll get in to, and how long, if long at all, this will last. I know one day I'll look back on this and laugh. You're nothing like I've ever known, and despite the pain I've felt, I'm so glad that we happened. How crazy it is that we managed to stumble upon one another and end up in this. I've known you for almost 2 years, feeling deep companionship with you, and now much more than that. We've evolved into something that no one else in the world seems to want or to even look at. I love the danger within it all, I love being angry and able to express it, touching you and not being afraid of who sees it, living every moment in fear of being caught with you but still feeling so much excitement as it happens. It's amazing. We have something that I swear I will never forget. One day it will end, it's inevitable, I dread for the day that that happens, the pain I'll feel, and the changes that will be made to my life. At the same time I long for that moment, knowing all too well that through whatever happens, everything will be okay, you and I will always be okay. I'll never forget this. Yours post comment

[01 Apr 2008|09:35pm] angelicsetsuna Dear "love of my life," What happened? In the beginning you were so different...so sweet. Now it's like you just don't care about me-or rather, my feelings- anymore. I do things to try to make you happy and all I get back are rude remarks. I know you're just joking but seriously, be a man...tell me I'm pretty every once in a while like you used to. Stop calling me childish names and acting like you're eight years old. At least act like sex isn't the only thing you want from me anymore...unless that really is all you want. Because that's how it feels. I love you so much but...where are we going? My heart can only take so much... 1 comment|post comment

[29 Mar 2008|06:09pm] noxassociationx [ mood | aggravated ] dear itunes, thank you for having so many errors. i love that you let me put things in my shopping cart, only to give me an error when i have too many things, and then have to have my entire shopping cart of $400+ things deleted because i can no longer get to my shopping cart. maybe apple should fix this. if you're allowed to have that many things in your shopping cart, then maybe there shouldn't be an error when it happens. this wasn't just me. many people complained about this error. in conclusion, fuck you itunes and apple. you fucking blow. 1 comment|post comment

[25 Mar 2008|04:36am] fluffy36 Free Comments & Graphics By the way I know yesterday was your birthday. Hope u had a good one! 1 comment|post comment

Forgiveness... [22 Mar 2008|09:41pm] forever_naive [ mood | peaceful ] Dear people who wronged me, To all people who have done me wrong, you are forgiven, whether you caused me a day of hurt, a week of heartache, or a lifetime of self-loathing. I am not angry, upset, spiteful, hateful, vengeful or frustrated. I hope you know that you are beautiful, timeless, cherished, and most importantly loved despite all your faults. Today, here, now, I'm calling out to this higher being called God, undefined by any particular relgiion. I ask for repentance for all my sins, and for the sins of others. I hold myself accountable. I am turning a page in this fraying book called my life. It's not a new beginning, or a false sense of renewance that comes with erasing the past. Let the shadows come out of our closets and be exposed to the light, naked and vulnerable. Let self-reflection resolve what ails our humanity. Let us strive, not for perfection in goodness, but simply innocent motivation in our goodness. I have no ulterior motives, only love in my heart. God give us all the strength to forgive and forget, to love and be loved, to fall apart and to pick ourselves up once again. Let light invade the darkest corners of your subconscious. Love, Just a very small, insignificant girl in a very big world 1 comment|post comment

dear you [21 Mar 2008|06:33am] mylife2008 you might want to check and see how Miranda is that is if you don't already know. 1 comment|post comment

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[19 Mar 2008|04:44am] fluffy36 [ mood | calm ] You never know when your guardian angel will be there for you so I have to try... I am sending this to you to see how many actually read their e-mail. Your response will be interesting. Pay attention to what you read. After you have finished reading it, you will know the reason it was sent to you. Here goes: People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know w hich one it is, you will know what to do for that person.. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season. LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in o rder to hav e a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime. 2 comments|post comment

dear mr. i'm-too-good-to-call-or-write-my-fans, [07 Mar 2008|12:45am] stan_marsh [ mood | drunk ] [ music | M&M ] touch my body. 1 comment|post comment

Dear You, [05 Mar 2008|10:40pm] lost_forgotten [ mood | curious ] please stop saying those things...i'm falling for you fast, and i'm just not sure if you're for real... 1 comment|post comment

Dear friend [28 Feb 2008|06:51am] mylife2008 [ music | news ] sorry i hear about your troubles yesterday. I don't know the whole story and really it isn't any of my business BUT I just wanted to say one thing. Before you jump to conclusion and think it is a bunch of crap you might want to get to the bottom of it and see exactly what happened. there are always two sides to the story. I wish you luck in recoverying. me 4 comments|post comment

[27 Feb 2008|12:47pm] nowordz2speak [ mood | contemplative ] dear heart, I know you like him. Maybe even love him. But how do you know for sure if that's what he really means?? Sure, he says it and he's been sweet and charming. But that's how he was before. You thought he loved you then. Look at what happened. He left you and now has a kid on the way. I'm not saying that you shouldn't go for it. You deserve happiness. And he seems to make you happy. But maybe his motives aren't as pure as you would like to think. I'm just warning you not take this with blind faith. Just be careful. 4 comments|post comment

dear you, [26 Feb 2008|02:12am] lost_forgotten do me a favor & die. ♥ me ps. make sure it's messy & painful. 1 comment|post comment

Dear husband's exwife [18 Feb 2008|06:12pm] mylife2008 [ mood | annoyed ] why this week you have requested to see your son? YOu have been in Mobile since July and haven't once asked to see him on the weekends you think you are entitiled to. So why now?? Is it because you know you might lose him when we go to court and get this settled in front of the judge?? I dont understand why you didn't settle last week? You think he will let the son see you when he doesnt even know where you live and you live 6 hrs away. so what if something happens?? No where in the court papers say he has to let you see him so the way it sounds tonight he isn't going to. You need to decide to wake up before it is to late. If not then the way it is now it will always be. You will lose both your kids. 4 comments|post comment

Dear Mom [13 Feb 2008|09:22pm] mylife2008 [ mood | crappy ] I sure do miss you. I wished I had the money to come to see you more often. When I don't feel good I want your shoulder and your words to make me feel better. I wished you and I could get away, maybe take a little trip. I don't think we have ever done this. I hope all is well with you and everyone back home. your daughter 7 comments|post comment

Dear Puppy [11 Feb 2008|11:35am] mylife2008 [ mood | worried ] I pray that you make it. But if you don't I will understand. You never had a chance from the begining. The guy with all the money should have taken ur mom to the vet to get a shot so you wouldn't be here this morning. It just isn't right when you belong to your mother's son. Inbreed isn't good. I think that is the reason you won't eat this morning. If I had the money I would take you to the vet right now but I don't and I am sorry. I pray that you have enough energy and will power to live!! 4 comments|post comment

slient nightmares [10 Feb 2008|02:30am] toxic_disorder dear you, why did you have to hurt me? was i a part of some list? were there others? before me, after? the innocence is long gone .. and you stole it. you took away the one thing that was mine .. and you didn't even care. you broke me in so many ways i can't even think of sex the same way if it wasn't for you i woudln't be scared i still have nightmares that haunt me they remain silent as the fake smile comes about. you've killed a part of me i will never be okay i've felt dirty and disgusting for 5 years bcuz of you and you really didn't care. you won. i lost. i could only imagine how many others there were. you don't deserve life when you steal others i am the stronger one. though you still come back and haunt me .. i've finally learned that it was never my fault .. but you .. you are weak .. you can never admit your sin you can never feel sorrow. you pretend that you're so great. but you're not. you a sick bastard that burried a part of me. bcuz of you i am nearly deaf bcuz of you i have headaches every day bcuz of you i panic bcuz of you i'm not okay bcuz of you i've wanted to die bcuz i'm strong i'm letting you go bcuz i'm strong i made it this far bcuz i'm strong i realize it's not my fault bcuz i'm strong i am getting better but i still have silent nightmares .. 4 comments|post comment

Dear husband's exwife [09 Feb 2008|03:57pm] mylife2008 [ mood | frustrated ] why is it when you have a chance to see your son you don't want to?? Ya'll have court this month on the 14th so you will be driving all this way for court. I asked you if you were going to see your son. We would even meet u in the same town as court so you wouldn't have to drive 15 minutes out of the way. But you said no you had to turn around and head back home. I then proceeded to ask you if they continued court would you take time to see your son. You said no matter what you had to go straight back home. My question now is why can't you take 30 minutes out of your day on the 14 to see your son?? You haven't seen him since Dec 24. You expect you will be seeing him for spring break but that isn't guarenteed. You know your ex husband won't let your son go that far and spend a week with you. One he doens't even know where you live. two it is 6 hrs away. so the only way he will let him go is if the courts make him. You should know this because of what happen during Christmas break. You frustrate me sometimes. But this is your life you are living. I hope the courts see and understand all this. I asked you what do you want in court? You said you won't settle for nothing less than full custody. Well I hate to tell you but you aren't showing you want full custody. You are fighting very hard for custody for your child. I mean you haven't even asked to see him or if we would meet you half way to see him. Nothing. Why?? 4 comments|post comment

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