||Avenged Sevenfold--Seize the Day
I never used to be up and brighteyed this early in the morning until I got my new job. There's no way I could sleep until 11am today. It must be due to the fact that I get up at 4am everyday that I work now. I have today off, even though it's Monday, which is actually kind of nice. I'm pretty sure my boss Laura will let me pick up more hours a week eventually, which will be nice after I buy my new car.
I'm not sure of Ryan's motives. I know that he cares about me. He sends me mixed signals like crazy, and I don't know exactly how to deal with them since usually I'm the one sending crazy signals. I've decided to finally put the ball in his court for a while. From everything he was saying to me after he got here on Saturday, I almost couldn't believe it. He proclaimed how much he cares for me, and said he wants me to meet his family, and he wants to meet mine. I'm suprisingly not stressed at all about it. I'm still a little boggled about the whole Treasure thing, and on Sunday morning, he didn't even remember telling me about her. When I brought it up that he had told me, he was a little shocked. Who knows...right now, I haven't a clue. That's why I'm not going to get worked up about this boy. Things will happen as they will, and eveything will work out...whatever the outcome. I'm crazy about him, so I hope everything continues to go good, but like I said, it's his move, man.
Danielle will be here in two days. She was shocked to hear that I was in Michigan, which must mean that she hasn't talked to Dad at all. She was supposed to call me back yesterday, but has yet to do so, so who knows, maybe I won't be seeing her when she comes up, which will be both ridiculous and sad. Sometimes it seems like Danielle has washed her hands of me completely, which is bullshit because I'm the older sister, and I am supposed to make the mistakes first...and that's why she dosen't make the mistake that I have...she has seen what it's done to me, and I'm proud of her for not choosing to do so. However, that does not give her the right to be "holier than thou" to me for the rest of her life. I miss my sister and really hope I get to see her while she's here.
I'm supposed to call Walker today, and I don't want to forget, but I probably will because there was somthing important I was supposed to do today, and I cannot for the life of me remember what it was!! Ahh...I'm still in a good mood from the other night...I can't explain it man, he just does something to me...like heroine or something. (just to for the record...I don' t do heroine, or crack...sometimes I do, however use them as reference points)