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[10 Mar 2004|09:33pm] I don't use this anymore. I use lj. yo Do you notice im gone?

[28 Jan 2004|08:57pm] My mom used to apologize after she yelled at me. My grandma doesnt give a fuck. Do you notice im gone?

Ow [26 Jan 2004|06:18pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | tainted love-manson ] Today i got my braces. I cried when they put this one thing in. because theres something up with my jaw and they pushed on it and it hit this nerve or something and i started crying :( heh im a baby. I look dorky. I'm not opening my mouth for 2 years. Do you notice im gone?

:( [25 Jan 2004|09:23pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | a static lullaby-withered ] Tomorrow im getting braces. Do you notice im gone?

heh [23 Jan 2004|07:50pm] going to ashleys my bestest friend i love herrrrr 2 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

[20 Jan 2004|07:02pm] Don't call my name out your window, I'm leaving Do you notice im gone?

[19 Jan 2004|08:18pm] [ mood | crappy ] i went to write in my journal because i havent written anything in awhile and i have absolutely nothing to write about. Do you notice im gone?

[13 Jan 2004|10:44pm] i miss my mom and dad i can't stand living here i have nothing to do i used to be able to walk down the street to justines or someones i don't know no one here understands i just want to talk to ashley no i want to talk to my mom i want to not have seen what i saw Do you notice im gone?

yeah [11 Jan 2004|10:54am] blah blah blah Do you notice im gone?

yay [09 Jan 2004|07:02pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | haha some rap song ] Ashleys here ohhh what what she fly. Ashley R Britt. I love ashley She loves me. 4 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

:) [09 Jan 2004|05:32pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | nothing ] Wesley gave me his jacket and it smells like wesley. I slept with it last night. it makes me happy. Do you notice im gone?

[07 Jan 2004|09:08pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | my sisters tv from across the house ] I smiled myself to sleep last night. Despite my aching teeth due to spacers. 2 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

nooo [06 Jan 2004|06:49pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | nothing ] I'm getting braces january 26th :( 2 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

[28 Dec 2003|12:28am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | get up kids-close to me ] Ok children I'm going to Holiday/npr from tomorrow until next weekend ill miss you xoxo heh it was the best earlier tonight me n wes were laying in his bed and he fell asleep and starts snoring lol it was funnny hes the best i love wesssley miller 2 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

why did i laugh so hard baby [25 Dec 2003|02:11pm] [ mood | lazy ] [ music | a static lullaby-lipgloss and letdown ] blind to the answers, find yourself, walk for the moment, find the reason in yourself, theres a reason for you and i, take this time to find a meaning, a reason to sit back and measure the worst 6 years of my life, waiting for your legs to close on my best friends, last night i saw your life flash before my eyes, why did i laugh so hard baby? (you won't be back and i'm still laughing) i never meant to hurt you(but i did) i'm sorry that you cried so hard darling, i'll never hurt you again, take this time to find your tongue, a sorry excuse to stop your lies, the best 30 seconds of my life, my angel take your pills, my angel i sold your ring, and now i can't stop laughing, i didnt want it this way, i hope you're happy where you are and i'm glad to say i put you there, who's the one that's laughing now, i'm the one who's laughing now(now theres nothing left to say i hope you're feeling my embrace, and i can't sleep) you should have left me sleeping, you should have let me sleep... Do you notice im gone?

ya uh merry christmas [25 Dec 2003|01:14pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | a static lullaby-the shooting star that destroyed us all ] well apparently this Christmas is definetly not traditonal..and extremely hard It doesn't feel like christmas I can't wait until michele stops by i love her soo much Shes the most helpful person in this entire world and my moms good friend I was so happy to talk to justine last night and this morning i miss her so much Everyone makes me so happy.. I'm going to Ashley britts sunday until whenever then to justines and micheles It will be great to see everyone I'm going to universal tomorrow or saturday.hopefully saturday Uh its just not the same without them. I MISS THEM SO MUCH. Well MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone I guess i just wish you were here Do you notice im gone?

[23 Dec 2003|08:10pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | afi-morning star ] I'm home! yay wow i had the best time in georgia i love everyone there everyones so nice and it was great to spend time with my uncle HE IS EXACTLY LIKE MY MOM i loved it i felt like i was with my mom it was the best ahhh im in a good mood Merry Christmas. 2 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

yes no maybe [19 Dec 2003|07:43pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | afi-this time imperfect ] i have no clue. im so confused. i hate that im in this terrific mood then someone just totally destroys it i hate you uh i am definetly not looking forward to 8 hours in the car yeah im going to georgia until tuesday night. to see my cousin rachel im happy to go..but im not anything like their family it'll be weird i probably wont be on until sometime after christmas this is so untraditional im going to the dreaded marc n caras christmas eve and then to universal christmas day this is really upsetting me. i just wish my parents could be here.that would make everything better yeah uh merry christmas I'll miss you. 4 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

fo sho [16 Dec 2003|06:15pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | wesleys voice ] Wesley is the best. 3 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

the christmas sled [15 Dec 2003|06:28pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | afi-miseria cantare ] I'm finally home.I haven't been here in so long.Mom and Dad arent here again..I seem to miss them everytime.I know their still here.somewhere.It's just like ive imagined night after night awaking in my bed and i finally am here but yet im disappointed because i dont feel any different like ive never left i wonder if i'd be in trouble if i burnt down the house.i want to..just burn the memories its not like they mean anything.I'm sitting in MY bed writing in the blank page of some old christmas book.well we all know there wont be christmas in this room this year. 1 noticed | Do you notice im gone?

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