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bored bored bored bored bored [28 Mar 2004|05:19pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | still talking to David.... ] You have an angry soul! Angry Souls arent always angry, but they cannot easily forgive and hold grudges. You probably often get in fights with your friends and family, and its difficult for you to understand. When someone makes a mistake, you dont let go easily and hold on to those memories. Your very stubborn and your rage is known to everyone. Though you never actually mean it, you can say mean things in a fight and go over board. Many people are sometimes intimidated by your anger. But you have many redeeming qualities and those are that you are quite intelligent and smart. You would make a good businesswoman or lawyer because you know how to prove your point. You cherish the ones around you, and appreciate life, even though you can complain or throw a tantrum now and then. The good things is, you keep your emotions very outspoken, and are normally a very happy person because all your rage is let on the outside. Anger is simply a state, but you, yourself as a person, are great. What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla Nightmare Before Christmas! What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!) brought to you by Quizilla you are the "I hate you so bad" happy bunny. You hate everyone and eveything and your not ashamed of it. which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla You are a moon shadow. With the moon as your source you are a being of great mystery. Constantly drifting, you descend into darkness to conceal your brokenness. You have come to believe that you are the only one you can rely upon for constancy and safety that you need. But those who know how to see you find enchanting beauty in your wistfulness and fragility. It is to them that you should flee, for their arms are an open haven where your true light can finally thrive..(please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create) What Kind of Shadow Are You? (with gorgeous pics) brought to you by Quizilla Bondage Bear Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You? brought to you by Quizilla your fuck. What swear word are you? brought to you by Quizilla Your a Dark Angel...and hey, you probably knew it. Dark angel are in truth, very malicious, but a sign of one also is very sad. Dark Angel all used to be pure angels, but something went very wrong with their life. Either it was the sudden, murder of a loved one, betrayl, or pure torture to them, dark angels have commited their life to Satan himself. They are silent, and their wings are dark black feathers, or blood red. Dark Angels appear when there is someone dying, or a murder. If you see one, it means the death of a loved one is expected. Dark Angels cannot actually harm a human, but they love to see the suffering of one. What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla post comment

MUAHAHAHA! [28 Mar 2004|05:02pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | talking to David on the phone ] Disorder Rating Paranoid: Very High Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: Very High Antisocial: High Borderline: Very High Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- post comment

PLEASE CLICK THAT LINK!! ^_^ [25 Mar 2004|06:55pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] man i seriously need to get a life, ive been working on this damn site all fucking afternoon. Jon is at work until 9 and Nikki just got home from the mall and her dad is being a major cockass. I swear her dad can be awesome as fuck sometimes and other times I just want to kill him. Ugh Im so fucking bored its not even funny. OH YAY PETER JUST GOT ONLINE!! finally someone worth talking to. lol I dont know why but I really do enjoy talking to him, its like no matter what he always makes my day better. i mean i dont know, he always makes me feel good about myself even when im depressed, or have had a bad day. he is going to new york for a while * pouts * thats really going to suck!! >.< i hope i can talk to him while he is gone. fuck i have so much to do this weekend, and most of it im dreading like hell. well i just wanted to post my banner and write a bit before i got started on some homework. LATERZ "STAY SANE " post comment

crawl on me, sink into me.... [10 Mar 2004|08:20pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | rob zombie-- living dead girl ] hello to all. today has been a wonderful day. oddly enough i actually mean that. today was the first day nikki told me she loved me, and REALLY meant it. i cant believe it, i really thought she was going to move back to charleston but now that her and david arent fighting anymore and that we are getting more serious, i dont think she will leave. i really hope she doesnt, it would kill me, i really do care a lot about her. i can even go far enough to say im really in love with her. other than that, i found out i wont have to go to summer school, im passing science with a C when i had an F in that class last quater. im so excited, i will actually have a life this summer and i wont be stuck in jacksonville. im planning on going to miami, houston, new orleans and los angles. i dont want to waste all of my time in the same place. i love to travel and now that i have my ID and im actually getting my car in 2 months. i will have nothing holding me back. i cant wait!! ^_^ ugh i dont know why ive been so tired lately. i have been asleep every night this week before 10pm and that is just really weird for me. normally im up until atleast 3 or 4 in the morning. well i guess its a good thing, im actually not half dead in class and i can actually think straight for 2 minutes. my poetry has gotten a lot more personal and i guess u could say they are a bit more upbeat. which is also odd for me, used to all of my writings were about death and suicide and never finding ur way. now they are about love and good times and fighting back. its weird, i think that goddamn medication is actually getting to me. nothing has ever been able to get through to my head like that before. i dont know if i like it or if it freaks me out. i guess it does a little bit of both. well i guess i need to go. im about to go watch a movie with a friend of mine. a very cute friend of mine to be exact, hehehe. LATERZ " STAY SANE " 1 comment|post comment

worst night in a long time.... [06 Mar 2004|01:34am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Nikki's laughter ] well everyone here comes another sad story from the mind of Zura...tonight has been horrible. everything started out great, i went to prom expo with my girlfriend Nikki who was one of the models for the night. i went with her this afternoon to get her hair and make-up done, just the two of us so everything was fine. then it seems like as the night progressed things began to get worse. when we got there we were late but everything was ok. we met up with our friend David ( who had been there for almost an hour waiting on us. ) problem was, my ex boyfriend Jon was there, but i didnt think anything of it at the time. so we sat down and david began to talk to me and as jon would say " send my attention elsewhere " well we were all tired, like always i guess. so david put his head in my lap, and its like jon just exploded. he got all mad saying i was " neglecting " him, like i should have some kind of reason to spend every waking moment of my life trying to please him. i dont know, so i kind of tried to ignore him after that. well at the end of the night, all the models ( couples of course ) began to slow dance so i was going to be polite and ask jon if he would dance with me, and the response i got was " no i dont want to dance, i hate dancing " so i said fuck it and asked my friend brandon if he would like to dance with me instead. well jon got pissed and glared at me for a moment and stomped away. as if i had asked brandon out of spite which was not the case, i just wanted to have a nice dance with someone for once that wasnt in come club or at a party somewhere. well then as we all started to leave, jon asked nikki for a ride to the mall so he could walk home quickly and since it was on the way to nikki's house she didnt mind. at the mall he asked if we could talk, and not expecting a fight i agreed. well during our " talk " i think there was maybe 2 minutes of actual talk instead of fighting and screaming at eachother. i swear, how can someone u love so much hurt u so bad, to the point of where u just want to never see them again. so i told him to fuck off and walked away to get back in the car with nikki, and as i am walking away i hear a faint yell from behind me saying " well i never expected u to be the one anyway! " ugh i dont know sometimes, i feel as if i never get a break and im never going to get one. all i want is to find someone i can be happy with and love and be with for a while without getting tired of them or wanted them to disappear. well i am super fucking tired, i think i am going to go cry myself to sleep yet again. i will probably write again tomorrow night. LATERZ " STAY SANE " if at all possible.... post comment

Going to the MMAALL [27 Feb 2004|06:47pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | TV PROGRAMS!! ^_^ ] Hello everyone. Today has been kind of boring, not a very eventful day. Just sitting here watching TV and admiring how beautiful my girlfriend looks while she sleeps. I love my Nikki so much. I cant wait until Tuesday, it shall be our anniversary ^_^ hehehe I'm dying my hair as I type this, well just my bangs. They were begining to turn orange and they are suppose to be red!! stupid hair dye! errr Anyway, I guess i shall write again when i get back from the mall and before i go to gio's house to drink. muahahaha i love mah alkihol!!! LATERZ " STAY SANE " post comment

*yawn* [22 Feb 2004|11:19pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Dimmu Borgir- Fear and Wonder ] well everyone it was a pretty uneventful day so it kind of sucked. i havent heard from nikki which only makes me assume she didnt have a good day at work. i hope everything is okay. im about to go lay in bed and either watch The Crow of listen to my new In Flames CD, hehehe i love them. but yeah good night to all, and to all some wonderful wet dreams. hehehe LATERZ " STAY SANE " post comment

muahahaha i love mah nikki! ^_^ [22 Feb 2004|01:47pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | In Flames- cloud connection ] wow last nite was great. i got to stay at my gf nikki's house last nite, hehehe. i love her so much ^_^ it was kind of funny, she caught me and my ex bf making out in the arcade. she got mad but she understands my feelings for him. i love him more than life itself, although i still love her, i was with him longer and we have had more experiances together. i dunno, i want to get back with him so bad but i dont want it to fuck things up with me and nikki. i really like her, and i dont want her to feel neglected. its not like we wouldnt spend time with her, i would probably spend more time with her than i would with him. heh my mom is still trying to deny the fact that i am bisexual, its hilarious. nikkis mom has a great attitude about it, nikki was suppose to stay at my house friday and her mom was like " no shes gay, and ur gay, U'RE BOTH GAY! " even then she ended up coming over anyway. hehehe well hell i have to get all this shit out of my floor cause i just put my dresser in my closet and now all the shit that was in the floor of my closet is now in the floor of my room. GODDAMN SHIT!! lol but yeah, i hate my room being fucking crowded and shit. but yeah, ill probably write again tonite. LATERZ " STAY SANE " post comment

WHOA! one hell of a night [20 Feb 2004|07:17am] [ mood | drunk ] [ music | RHCP- otherside ] Ugh well everyone im just not getting home. damn it was one hell of a night. i have never been so fucked up in my entire life! hehehehehe i know most of u are thinking that im some idiot who does drugs and gets drunk all the time. well u are only partly right, yes i drink and do drugs but i am no idiot. im not some bum, i go to school and i work everyday of the fucking week. i just know how to party and still keep my life on track. muahahaha im talking to my friend ben at the moment ( guitarist of cystic dysentery ) he is such a smartass. he is always telling me to go to school but yet he called in sick today at work cause he is jus tired of working. great work ethic ben *thumbs up* well um yeah, i think my drunk ass is going to go to bed, i need to sleep this shit off before 3pm. LATERZ "STAY SANE" post comment

Back Again.... [18 Feb 2004|05:13pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | arch enemy- we wil rise ^_^ ] Well hello all, bet u thought u wouldnt be seeing me again huh? well guess what?...IM BACK! Slightly happier and having a lot more fun in life. My girlfriend Nikki and I are moving into our own house this June, I cant fucking wait! Our friend David might move in as well. Badass house, 2 bedrooms and one is going to be a hookah lounge/party room. Man school is almost out, last year man, last fucking year FINALLY. Oh btw, for those of you who dont know me, people call me Azura Lee, Zura for short. i have shoulder length hair that is black and i have red bangs for the moment. I have grey eyes ( natural ). im short, pale, and skinny. I'm really into death/doom/black metal music and i also LOVE good electronica. I have a HUGE blood fetish and umm im a real party girl i guess u could say. well yeah im going to go for now, i have some shit to do for class. LATERZ *STAY SANE* post comment

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