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|Friday, April 4th, 2003|
the Party (a reveiw)
Recap of the party
Dave----We got to the point where we can chat about music and shit, but the friendship that we once shared is gone forever.
Diana---I pulled her to the side and told her “that Chris is whom she really wants and she should forget about the idea of a relationship with me.” She agreed, so that’s taken care of.
Kelly---Had to leave the party early because she had to work the following morning… But after taking to her I now know that she does in fact like me and I also found out that I was the only the second person she’s had sex with… in short, this could be a little tricky.
Chris---Had to work and didn’t come to the party… but I ran in to him last night and he is acting like nothing happened… see, I told you all that he was a great guy… so once again, that’s taken care of.
Sara---well… I just avoided her the entire night… plus I don’t think that she likes me that much… just a crush type thing.
Emily---Emily, Emily, Emily, well where to start?
Don’t you hate when you think you are about to get a answer and all you get is a hundred more questions? That basically describes Emily’s eyes.
Things seemed very platonic most of the evening (which is o.k.) but at the end of the night I had gone up to my room and was listening to a record…
Emily appears at my door (which was a surprise because I thought that everyone had gone home) anyways… she comes in to my room and lies down on the bed with me… we sit and quietly sing along to the record (occasionally raising our voices during the lyrics that we want the other to hear).
We begin to kiss (by the way she is possibly the most amazing kisser in all of Texas) but the kiss is interrupted by the sound of the needle lifting off the record and returning to its rest. I got up flipped the record and returned to the bed I then apologized for kissing her when she was drunk.
She say’s “it’s o.k.”
We both lay next to each other and continued to listen to side B. After a while Emily whispers… “When you apologized… was it because you’re drunk and you didn’t want to kiss me.”
“No, I apologized because you are drunk but I did want to kiss you.”
Her only response after that was to hold me tighter. We spent the rest of the night and most of the next day simply lying in my bed holding each other.
The time came for me to go to work. We said goodbye and that was that.
Now you’d think that this sort of thing would be a good thing, right? Well it’s not… I’ve spent several evenings like the one described above with this girl… the only thing is the next time I see her she always acts as if the night never happened
Basically I’m sick of this shit… I mean if Emily is just a friend then that’s cool with me… but if she wants to be more than just friends she needs to not be afraid to show it.
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: red house painters - it's all mixed up
|Thursday, April 3rd, 2003|
When you race the sun, you lose.
My sheets smell like Emily... I didn't get any sleep last night... I'll explain later.
Does anyone else ever feel like the only reason they’re here is to turn over the record?
P.S. Has anyone else noticed that on the list of Current Moods that 'loved' and 'lonely' are right next to each other?
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: The Good Life - Black Out
|Tuesday, April 1st, 2003|
And it begins (I'm sorry)
Well I guess I’m going to start using this thing... I will post stuff that i can't post in Live Journal (because certain people i know in real life would see it) I’m saying I'm sorry to the 2 people who added me as friend (if i bore you feel free to remove me from your friends list)
Let the melodrama begin!!!!!
1.Dave--------Friend for 8 years... who now hates me (because this past valentines day i made out w/ his girlfriend (Emily) while he was past out.
2.Diana-------The girl that tried to kiss me 2 nights ago (i don't like this one) her Boyfriend (Chirs) saw this.
3.Emily-------(I will often refer to her as the evil one) I'm crazy for her... she's perfect for me and horrible for me all at once... you know how people say "women are evil" well if you disagree with that you haven't meet Emily.
4.Kelly-------I don't really like or dislike this one... she's just someone that i drunkenly make-out with/have sex with (I'm not sure how she feels about me)
5.Chris------(Diana's Boyfriend)He is the reason that i didn't kiss Diana back, he thinks that i did though.
6.Sara------wants me... but I’m just not interested.
Dave-hates Me, Emily-hates Dave, Dave-hates Emily, Chris-hates Me, I-want Emily, I-hate Emily, Diana-wants me, I-don't want Diana/I-think Chris is a good guy, Sara-wants me, I-don't feel the same way, I-don't know if i like Kelly, I-think Kelly likes me
All of the people that i list here are coming over to my house for my friend Matte's Birthday.
Alcohol + the stuff listed above = this will be one interesting night
P.S. I will take pics of the people listed and post them soon.
Current Mood: Reply hazy, Ask again later
Current Music: Bonnie 'Prince' Billy- i see darkness
|Tuesday, March 25th, 2003|
Damn you internet (i hate you)
Great! another fucking reason to be online.... i swear it would do me a world of good simply to throw this damn computer out the window... but them i'd have to deal with the real world and well... that's just far to much troble for someone as lazy as i am.
Current Music: red house painters - mistress (piano version)