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(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[26 Sep 2004|12:56pm]
[ mood | pensive ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

if i had to choose one world to live in, over all of the others, i'd pick Neverland. even over harry potter. over lord of the rings. over everything. i'd fly to neverland and live with peter and tinker bell and the lost boys.

(1 words of love and words so leisured | words are poison darts of pleasure)

[23 Sep 2004|09:31pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]
[ music | the hives--tyrannosaurus hives ]

fuuuuck! i killed the pretty format i had!!!!!! then my comp died!!!!! and now i can't make it go back! poo monkeys!

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[21 Sep 2004|10:25pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | loveline ]

i haven't updated in a long-arse time. meh, there isn't much to tell. i think i might be picking up smoking again. i know, i know, stop. i got sims 2!!!!! it's unbelievably awesome, but sort of sad too, because i'm so much more into their lives than mine. like i think i fell in love with a sim. how sad am i? i feel like the saddest excuse for a person. and not just because of the fact that my writing teacher thinks i'm making everything i write up. and i'm going to fail my geography quiz tomorrow because i haven't started studying and instead of studying, i'm posting. i'm going to go now, i'm being distracted by andy and his pictures. then i will study. really. shut up.

(5 words of love and words so leisured | words are poison darts of pleasure)

[11 Sep 2004|11:48pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

i hate high school. i'd elaborate on that, but i'm still building up my tirade and i'm too tired and too close to tears to work on it- it'd push me over the edge.

(1 words of love and words so leisured | words are poison darts of pleasure)

poll #2 [08 Sep 2004|10:02pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | the streets--original pirate material ]

laurin's second poll:

how young is too young to lose one's virginity?

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[05 Sep 2004|10:19pm]
[ mood | giddy ]
[ music | blink-182--blink-182 ]

haha. i'm supposed to sneak out tonight around 2 so i can go with jordan and caroline and have mad, crazy dancing fun. grin. unless i'm caught. in which case i'll be grounded for the rest of my adolescence. woohoo. i love my life. well, bits of it, anyways.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[05 Sep 2004|04:54am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

mmmm. it's five in the morning and mia and i are going to bed. my cat is killing things in my room... be back later...

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[30 Aug 2004|11:18pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | the darkness--permission to land ]

well, my comp is having an unbelievable amount of problems. and is annoying. but i haven't updated in a while. today was the first day of school. jake was born today. i talked to steve today. he laughed at me a lot, but we'll still miss him. steve is cool. but he likes mountain view a lot, which is good. school was okay. weird but okay. had too much homework for the first day of school, though.

anyways, the real reason i wanted to post:

on saturday, rekha and cristina and bethany and kelly and, well almost everyone threw a suprise coming out party for becca, chrissy and me! it was definately the highlight of my summer. sooooo much fun. and it makes me realise how sweet and wondeful they are, and how much i love and miss them and it makes me appreciate them more than is humanly possible. aaaaaaaah! it was soooooo awesome! anj came, and so did ariel. and i saw chelse! and olivia and sarrah and courtney and sarah and kersten and katie were there! it was awesome oppossum-ness! it made me feel so unbelievably loved. wow i miss them. but saturday was so much fun, i thought i was going to cry when i left. haha bethany jumping out wrapped in a happy coming out banner scared the shit out of me, but it made my life.

sigh. now i'm all happy thoughts.

national coming out day: october 11!

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[29 Aug 2004|12:49am]
[ mood | cranky ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

grrr, why do i do this? why do i fall in love with cars i will never own?

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[24 Aug 2004|03:36pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

hmmmm. i'm really tired. and i can't really see too well. last night was fun. i'm just trying not to think about it until tomorrow when my brain and my body have returned somewhat to normal. grar. i'm going now.

chivalry is dead. thank god.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[22 Aug 2004|12:52pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | the clash--london calling ]

hahahahahahaha... i am so fucking overdramatic when i'm depressed! ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[22 Aug 2004|12:19pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | the clash--london calling ]


(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[22 Aug 2004|12:17pm]
[ mood | tired ]

well, i can't use my mouse. i don't know why, but the cursor whon't move, nor will it click. tis strange, but true. so, as most of my usual comp practices are way too hard for me to deal with (b/c i'm lazy) i decided to post. jordan should be calling me SOON, when her dad gets home with her car, so that we can go do something, because i really want to go out and be with people who are not a) my family, or b) my art teacher. anyways, i'm hopefully going soon. i'm kinda in the mood to paint right now, but i don't have the paints i want for my next project. i've been wanting to do this for a while... playing with massive amounts of neon paint... in both liquid and spray form... droooooool... ah, well, until i get them (i.e. get more money) i will entertain myself with my basic paints. still fun even if they are not neon. i decorated my notebooks and binder today using mia's recomended method. they will entertain me greatly during the great boredom that is school.

my mouse needs to start working.

well, i just got back from my "escapade" with jordan as caroline likes to call them. i'm kind of tired-ish after i was all hyper with her and jess. grin. this night'll give them nightmares, it will... i gesticulate wildly and uncontrollably when i get hyper. 'twas quite amusing from my point of view. well, i'm going to go do homework. gack.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[19 Aug 2004|12:32am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

i love my crazy friends.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

sleepy and shag-worthies [17 Aug 2004|11:46pm]
[ mood | sore ]
[ music | loveline!!! ]

i'm on my comp! woohoo it's been so long! i'm taking a quiz w/rekha to see how out of the loop i am. i got 3/7 right. i live under a rock! at least she lives there with me. i'm too lazy to say much right now except that during track season i might be doing track, dance, and art. i will have NO life.

oh, and now this list of famous people to shag:


prince harry (not prince henry, i'm retarded, shut up rekha, i can hear you laughing in your head)
johnny depp
rupert grint
julian casablanca
jeremy sumpter
sean biggerstaff
orlando bloom
viggo mortensen
billy boyd
dominic monaghan
mike skinner
tom delonge
jonathan rhys meyers
brandon flowers
diego luna
james dean
robert hardy


paris hilton
lindsay lohan
avril lavigne (i know, i know)
gwen steffani
angelina jolie (my god yes)
bridget regan
karen o
mary-kate olsen
ashley olsen
ashlee simpson
scarlett johansson
marilyn monroe

okay, make-believe characters shag-worthy:

draco malfoy
sirius black
lily potter
weetzie bat
barbie markowitz

more later, when i become unlazy!

HE'S COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[05 Aug 2004|05:06pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]

i am NOT what you would call in a good mood.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[02 Aug 2004|11:57pm]
[ mood | crappy ]
[ music | "fairies wear boots"--black sabbath ]

well, suzanne's due by tomorrow morning. it's exciting but weird, too. i have no fucking clue when mia gets home so i'm pissed about that. but i'm happy to be home. i just really need some beer so i'm about fifty times less stressed about tomorrow. and moose #1 (a.k.a. johnny c.) confused me today. so nothing new there.

more tomorrow when i'm all hopped up on painkillers.

mother moon, take me to bed tonight

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

thoughts of my best friends [02 Aug 2004|08:35pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

i really hate when i make myself cry. i just read a bunch of stuff from before/during/after the end of the erica/chelsea world. and i realise that it's far too late for the i wish i could have told her this stuff, but no matter how much i loved and still love chelse (and believe me, i do love her) i could never love her as much as i loved and love erica. and i wish that she weren't so far away right now. i have no idea where she is anymore or if i'll ever see her or even talk to her again but i wish i could just attack her with a huge hug. because i feel like one big sobbing hug would at least give me closure. i haven't talked to her, i mean actually spoken to her for almost two years. i haven't spoken to my first real best friend in what seems like forever to me. and while i am happy now, and while i love mia dearly. as much as i loved erica, i never hurt her like i hurt erica. i never fucked her over like i fucked erica over. and she isn't too far away to apologize if i ever did fuck things up. i know erica can't read this, and i know she can't understand how much i love her and want to tell her that i love her. i really wish mia was home. both my best friends are far away from me right now. and mia can make me feel better, because she understands about the whole erica thing, she understands and she isn't jealous of erica and she was there for me when everything was so bad. when i was breaking down sobbing in the middle of algebra. she was there through the worst time of my life and she's been there ever since and i love her and i want her to get the fuck home from french camp and be with me because i haven't been with her or talked to her for over a month and for me that's too much. especially on the eve of a gum graft when i am waiting impatiently for franz ferdinand tickets to go on sale and i am crying about erica.

times like these i really need my mia.

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[02 Aug 2004|04:38pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | 105.3 ]

OMFG! franz ferdinand is playing in sf next month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BFD BFD BFD BFD VBFD!!!!!!!! dear god let me get tickets!!!!!!!!!!!! if i get tickets, it will more than make up for my graft tomorrow!

(words are poison darts of pleasure)

[02 Aug 2004|02:07pm]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | 104.9 (franz ferdinand!) ]

poll #1

in highschool, does anyone really know their sexuality? or is everyone undecided?

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