I'm tilting and swaying inside shattered mirrors

Evil Little Pixel Child
oil slicks
prismatic swirls

up with the crows? 05 May 2007 556
time runs out side line in the dirt nap for a bits and pieces of me left here and there you are you listening to the breathing in and out and in with the good air, out with the bad air of mystery and uncertainty seems to pervade my thoughts of you challenge me in ways I never would have imagined standing there on the edge and looking over to see what lies in waiting for the last shoe to drop acid washed in the blood thirsty monsters of my past the point of no returns or exchange this one for that one day at a time...
4 opened their eyes to hallucinate

I was awoken at 140 with this is in my head 03 May 2007 730
It's all about the chemistry set, go! forward two space and time frame the photo-graph the points of interest bearing savings account for where you were three weeks ago and far away in my beautiful balloon animal in a cage-d bird sings a lullaby bye for now and then, what does it mean in the big picture box of goodie two shoes left their footprints in the sand castle's northeast tower of London calling to me from my slumbering giant's beanstalk-er cat is watching you are a weakness I never meant to have...



I wonder if I'll be able to go back to sleep...
2 opened their eyes to hallucinate

...sometimes... 29 Mar 2007 2048
If I thought the phone would ring
and if I thought it would be you -
I'd hesitate on purpose to prove I wasn't waiting.

I'm living in a dream these days and
imagining cats crawling
looking for your hiding place.
You were denied and returned;
you do that a lot, but I wish
you'd just go away!
...sometimes...

If I thought you could see me inside
and if I thought you could do any good -
I'd hesitate by accident in revealing I'm afraid.

I'm staying in this dream world
imagining a smile
calling you from hiding.
But we both know it's a farce -
I want nothing from you,
other than that you'd go away!
...sometimes...
2 opened their eyes to hallucinate

14 Feb 2007 033
sleep is irrelevant
12 opened their eyes to hallucinate

watching her watching him 01 Feb 2007 2040
They caught my eye the moment the door opened. His left hand on the small of her back and his right hand opening the door for her. He kept his hand there as he approached the counter, he moved to her left, "two, please". While his total was being calculated, with his wallet in his hands and arms resting on the counter, his head turned right, back to the girl and smiled. She coyly smiled also and broke his gaze. "You're so beautiful". Her eyes met his again and then he looked back at the counter. He paid for them both and they turned away from the counter almost in sync. He put his left once again in its place on the small of her back and motioned with his right hand to the entrance, all the while staring at the top of her head with a shy smile tickling his lips. She led them to a table near the bar, but not at the bar and they took off their coats. He took hers and layed it on top of his on one of the extra chairs. He pulled out her seat and as she sat, he gently pushed it in under her. He then took his place to her left and they began talking. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but they were both laughing. He got up from his chair, kissed her on the temple and walked over to the bar. I watched her while he was gone. She watched him walk away and then turned her attention to the dance floor. She moved slightly to the music and smiled. Upon his return, he kissed the top of her head and set her drink in front of her while sitting down. They talked and drank and smiled and laughed. Then she got up, he stood up when she did. My eyes followed her to the bathroom door and then went back to him. He, too had watched her and now he was watching the dancers with a smile. When she returned, he again stood up, pulled out her chair and put it back in as she sat down. He took her hand in his, she took his hand in hers and they stared at each other. I could feel time stop for them...I could see the world moving in slow motion around them. Then he kissed her hand, she smiled, looked down and then back up at him. I watched them stand together and he led her out to the dance floor. They moved in perfect unison, their gaze never failing each other. When the song ended, they hugged each other and he kissed her forehead. He took her left hand and returned to their table.
6 opened their eyes to hallucinate

stop the presses 24 Jan 2007 1733
circles and circles and circles and circles curving their arc round your skull-cap, snow-cap, tip of the iceberg-er, would like fries with that's the secret-life of cats and dogs and everything after-all is lost-in space-s in between me and you and rainbows-are for hope and faith and love is not for the faint of heart of the matter of fact is opinion agreed upon by a majority rules are made to broken? hearted and light headed version of what I meant this to be is quickly becoming circles and circles and circles and circles
2 opened their eyes to hallucinate

26.Dec.2006 28 Dec 2006 2213
It's a 737-300 calling me home with the fleshy wounds your absence leaves.
I'm rubbed raw with emotion wondering if I can logically stand another minute without you.
Clutching my 4 engine pendant leaves indentations and intentions I never thought I'd have to match the feeling of wishing you were seated in seat 12B.
6 opened their eyes to hallucinate

The Sunshine State? 19 Nov 2006 1936
surrounding my back porch is a fence - it's fashioned out of wood and painted an ecru type of color. I watch the sunlight play through the slats - slowly illuminating and fading as the clouds drift by - a slight breeze comes through unencumbered; swirling and circling 'round my face as if caressing it. It's much the same as I imagine you will upon your arrival...
1 opened their eyes to hallucinate

18 Nov 2006 1541
let's disregard, for a moment, your changing face.
we'll pretend, for awhile, that you are what you say.
I'll be, in a second, the one to believe you
you'll send, any minute, for the girl with the smile
3 opened their eyes to hallucinate

guilty pleasure 09 Nov 2006 1844
tilting into calm

Once again, she's sitting there with nothing to say knowing she should say something. She just didn't care and, therefore, couldn't coax anything meaningful to spill from her lips.
He sat there searching her mouth as if his very existence was pinned on her ability to muster more than a meandering thought.
A fifteen second eternity later, he let out a heavy sigh, bowed his head and ever so slightly looked to his right - towards the door. She was watching him do this - all the time hoping he'd make some excuse to leave. His presence weighed on her and all she really wanted was for him to go away.
He looked back at her, kind of motioned towards nothing in particular over her left shoulder, drew his lips in the way a child does when they don't want to try the strained peas and used his hands to help him up.
Each step he took towards the door lifted her spirits, but she sat there guiltily wanting to say something. For the first time in her life, she just let him go.

6 opened their eyes to hallucinate

turn me anti-clockwise
spying 10
shards of glass