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Its still here... I have not posted to this place in years and yet its still here. Well knowing this I may be back again later on to update everything *LMAO*
Current mood:
surprised.
Which Sex and the City Vixen Best Matches Your Sex Style?
You're Lili St. Cyr!
What Classic Pin-Up Are You?
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Two different answers were true on some of the questions on this quiz so two are listed below
The vision and hearing of Grandmother Owl is
very powerful. Those with this medicine are
can be gifted with the ability to see into the
human psychic and become clairvoyant listeners.
Owl often visits those who are teachers,
therapists and counselors. As a guide, the owl
teaches us to see and hear past shadows, beyond
fear and darkness, though to the other side
that promises light, happiness and knowledge.
Owl's Wisdom Includes:
Stealth
Secrecy
Silent and swift movement
Seeing behind masks
Keen sight
Messenger of secrets and omens
Shape-shifting
Link between the dark, unseen world and the world
of light
Comfort with shadow self
Moon magick
Freedom
The owl, whose large eyes peering through the
darkness can see any deception. He is always
wary of those who he does not feel completely
close to (which is not many). The owl is a
loner. Call on him if you think people are
keeping the truth from you. He will be able to
open your eyes.
Animal Spirit Guides ~ Which One Calls To You?
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Cougar/Mountain Lion/Puma ~ The Puma spirit
represents power, grace and stealth in
darkness, but its real power lies in the
silence of its eerie, unblinking stare that
seems to bore deep into one's soul. This
teaching can help us to discover the benefits
of concentration, deep contemplation and
prayer. As we peer into the darkness of the
unknown to feel its power, we can be guided by
our puma friend to the light on the other side.
The puma is extremely quiet during the hunt.
It knows when to be invisible and when to make
its awesome presence known. Silence is its
sword and power. Silence is highly respected
among American Indians and is seen as a holy
state of consciousness as we quietly behold the
grace and glory of the Creator. It is said
that silence speaks words of the Great Mystery.
When the student is ready, the puma teacher may
bring knowledge of this powerful medicine.
Cougar/Mountain Lion/Puma's Wisdom Includes:
Using leadership power wisely and without ego
Balancing power, intention, strength
Gaining self-confidence
Freedom from guilt
Cunning
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Animal Spirit Guides ~ Which One Calls To You?
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Tinkerbell
Who 's Your Inner Sexy Cartoon Chick ?
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Not really sure about this one
You're a "Black Angel" which means your
an Angel of Death. You don't really care much
about people since no one was particularly nice
to you and now you want revenge for their
cruelty. You're always alone unless forced to
be with other people and you love to cause
trouble. You feel depressed a lot and don't
have something that could cheer you up like
most people. You don't find joy in people or
the arts or any item or some sort. You have
darker desires and you're very secretive.
What Color Angel Are You? (PICS)
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How do you take power of attourny from someone that was always so independant and private a person? WHen they are so tight lipped about medical problems till its nearly too late. and their reason is they don't want to "Worry anyone". It hurts to think that all this is left up to me near being the only family in town for this person and the only family of close enough relation that the Law would agree to grant me such. Not to mention two other aging family members and an Aspergers Syndrome child. Sometimes I wonder how I manage... but some how I do nearly all alone. James helps me with my daughter but he is not blood family and therefore not able to help with any legal situations with the other three. Sometimes its enough to make me question my own sanity and emotional stability. I am the "colder" more Thinking instead of emotional reaction part of my family and yet I don't know if I could ever really put at least my mother and father in a nursing home. Dad has already stated that he does not want to be put in one no matter what not even an assisted living center. Mom I don't konw if she would be as against it due to the Apartment complex she lives in now caters to the elderly. My grandmother is a different story but I think that is more the fact that we were never that close due to differing opinions of who should run my life Me or her *sighs* SHe I could if I had to put in a nursing homeor assisted living care center. My Aunt wants her to move out where she lives so she and her husband can take care of her. That went over like a lead weight through thin glass. Personally I guess I would rather her move out near them so I would not have to put her in a Nursing home or Assisted living center but... that remains to be seen.
I realyl wish I knew where to turn or what to do about all of this especially with school starting for my daughter and her growing up it is a rough age for me with her right now and with all three of them needing my help too sometimes I wonder if I will survive till Thanksgiving and our trip to See James parents then will give me a little bit of a break but Christmas will be fun with having to deal with two christmas parties then christmas out with Nana and Mom and then with Dad and time for just Bri James and I and other friends. On top of all of this there is still the wedding planning and all the bills that seem to not want us to have any money for it and the fact that James is STILL Determined to have a traditional wedding and not just going to the justice of the Peace and be done with it for now. Really beginning to think I would have an easier time of going for the long ride on a PBR Bounty Bull in the National finals than deal with my life right now *lol* Ohh well Gots to Jet for now so...
Later Days and Nights
Current mood:
exhausted.Current music: Old Coven 13 music.
Found a trip of a site. So thought I would place a link to it here for any of you to sign up for if ya want
Celeb Pimp
Current mood:
amused.
It seems strange but I really don't care if My grandmother is at the wedding or not. SHe told me today if I had it at the New church we are joining she will not be there. So what I went from a Baptist to a Methodist Church. I don't understand her problem with it... a good friend of mine goes there and Ifeel I have found a place to help. Yes I know many of you are wondering due to the fact that I believe in Many different things but being in a Church for now seems to be what is best for Brianna so I go and it is an interesting study in the various beliefs that are all labeled Christian... but I digress. I have heard today that I amturning my back on what she and my mom did for me to help me growing up, and all for friends and crap like that *SIghs and shrugs* No matter it really doesn't bother me that she will not be there it should keep down on the arguements between her and mother and if she is going to be that petty and always complaining about everything that I am doing to prepare a year in advance for the wedding since I know that she will not pay for anything and Mom and Dad can't afford it then Hell yeah I have to plan everything out early to know how much we have to save up and anyways a year in advance is what is recommended by wedding planners and other friends that are married.
But back to vow writing and wedding planning...
Later Days and Nights
Current mood:
aggravated.Current music: Jessie Colter Looking for Blue Eyes.
Dress for me... Narrowed down to 3 maybe 4 dresses ((REason that its a maybe 4 is one is just online and 3,000 US Dollars))
Dress For Bridesmaids and Maid of honor... No big using seperates from a company I pick one skirt type and give them 4 top types to chose from for wht looks good on them.
Jr Bridesmaiids Dresses... NO clue and too many growth spurts to be able to pick them out till probably the day before the wedding.
Flower Girl... NOt a prob go to a nice normal store and get her a dress that matches teh Color of the Bridesmaids.
Grooms cake... Designed and a Bridesmaid has said she will make it to save us money.
Grooms Tux... Narrowed Down to two styles.
MOther of the Bride Dress... *Insane laughs* Sure find something for mom that she will like will look good on her and won't Break her or me... RIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGHHHT
RingBearer... Done.
Catering and Brides Cake... Caterer chosen. May have to sell Left kidney and a few Lungs and gallons of blood for but almost done on list of what is wanted
Invitations and all that jazz... Narrowed down to three invites but leaning towards one in particular..
Photography... Have a Company we want to use IF they will travel from their location to our town about hour and a half or two hours away.
Wedding site Not chosen yet
Reception site... NOT chosen yet
Music for both... Not Chosen yet
Anything else... Not even thought of or chosen yet I don't think.
Well Feeling a little better about all of this not feeling as insane about it all.
Current mood:
accomplished.Current music: Asleep at the Wheel Route 66.
Wedding Planners... How can these people do this professionally... DO they OWN Painkiller Companies on the side? I have a year to plan and even getting basics out of the way I either keep a headache or want to rip out my own hair. Its Insane
Dress for me... NO CLUE what I want
Dress For Bridesmaids and Maid of honor... No big using seperates from a company I pick one skirt type and give them 4 top types to chose from for wht looks good on them.
Jr Bridesmaiids Dresses... NO clue and too many growth spurts to be able to pick them out till probably the day before the wedding.
Flower Girl... NOt a prob go to a nice normal store and get her a dress that matches teh Color of the Bridesmaids.
Grooms cake... Designed and a Bridesmaid has said she will make it to save us money.
Grooms Tux... Narrowed Down to two styles.
MOther of the Bride Dress... *Insane laughs* Sure find something for mom that she will like will look good on her and won't Break her or me... RIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGHHHT
RingBearer... Done.
Catering and Brides Cake... May have to sell Left kidney and a few Lungs and gallons of blood for but almost done on list of what is wanted
Invitations and all that jazz... A few Ideas nothing Concrete.
Photography... *Busts up laughing* Yeah Right Like I have hadc time to look for any of that.
Wedding site Not chosen yet
Reception site... NOT chosen yet
Music for both... Not Chosen yet
Anything else... Not even thought of or chosen yet I don't think.
SHOOT ME.... PLEASE!!!!!!
Its Overwhelming to say the very least especially with My knowing there is NO WAY We can afford this and James will settle for nothing less then full big blowout get whatever we/I want for this wedding
Current mood:
intimidated.Current music: Whichever playlist I picked.
Sorry its been so long since I posted but the car the idiot sold us has been a heap of trouble among other things and well some good news. I am engaged no date or anything like that is set but will keep you posted
Current mood:
accomplished.