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Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in Day_dreamer's Blurty:

    Monday, February 25th, 2008
    1:12 pm
    home....
    so yet again im back home visting. Everytime i come back i just get the feeling that i may actually breckdown if im forced to go back again i know i have to but that besides the point. I pretend that i am so content over there and soo happy to everyone when really im just totally lonely and soo unhappy. Hey!! on the brightside only have another 2 years left. Whats with the expectations that parents lay out for you. i know that i would never be forced into doing somethin i didnt wanna but its just if you didnt you'd get that feeling that you were just a let down.
    I am sitting here all alone in a complete daze wondering how the hell am i going to get out of my date the nite.Since the re-appearance of the x i just feel like i should cut all ties with guys. A career in the nunery sounds so appealing right now. Also i have to travel on wednesday to meet the x which i am 100% dreading. Does someone want to save me? haha
    Sunday, February 24th, 2008
    5:28 pm
    Mistakes.....
    Last year i met this guy.we were together for a pretty long time like and well i stupidly fell in love with him. After an incident he finished it between us.For the past few months i have been tryin sooo hard to get over him, i had convinced myself i was over him. Even though i constantly feel sick when im talking to him with nerves and new years eve when i saw him kiss someone else it hurt sooo bad. Last night he kissed me and what makes me feel stupid is the fact that i kissed him back. I have fallen for him all over again and i am soo scared. I know that he dosent like me anymore he just saw the opportunity. What am i gonna do yet again i see myself wantung to be with him wanting to talk to him.....im sooo confused i just wish he had left me alone now im completely for him again. I have to start all over again trying to get over him and you know the worst thing is hes soo bloody nice to me i wish i had a reason to hate him!!!! :(No guy has ever matched up to him......
    5:28 pm
    Mistakes.....
    Last year i met this guy.we were together for a pretty long time like and well i stupidly fell in love with him. After an incident he finished it between us.For the past few months i have been tryin sooo hard to get over him, i had convinced myself i was over him. Even though i constantly feel sick when im talking to him with nerves and new years eve when i saw him kiss someone else it hurt sooo bad. Last night he kissed me and what makes me feel stupid is the fact that i kissed him back. I have fallen for him all over again and i am soo scared. I know that he dosent like me anymore he just saw the opportunity. What am i gonna do yet again i see myself wantung to be with him wanting to talk to him.....im sooo confused i just wish he had left me alone now im completely for him again. I have to start all over again trying to get over him and you know the worst thing is hes soo bloody nice to me i wish i had a reason to hate him!!!! :(No guy has ever matched up to him......
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