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Saturday, June 27th, 2009
| Time | Event |
| 12:03a | SEMAKAU LANDFILL        |
| 11:08p | :D thanks yang for welcoming me back to the club with such enthusiasm... your words are prob the best thing i have heard in the last 2 wks : ) ... the club is now back in action with the full team!! err aka u and me... hahaha... |
| 11:26p | WELL.... i feel bad that i have caused a disappointment yet again... but at the same time, the other part of me felt a sense of relief.. and i could finally sleep thru the nite last nite... suddenly i felt a release... like a butterfly that can finally come out of it's cocoon... i think the word butterfly cant be a more apt description for me... being a social flutterfly prob gives me the kind of gratification i want... laugh and be the centre of attraction when i want to... flutter ard to entertain and be entertained... completely no strings attached... my perception may not be main stream and it is hard to explain why i do and think the way i do .. and i dont feel obliged and do not wish to explain either bcos others dun feel or see things the way i do ... and they will always think it is wrong... very often ppl try to impose their thinking on me just bcos that is wat the majority thinks rather than listening to wat i have to say... and even if they do listen they still think their hypothesis and reasoning are right... oh well... and given my character... in whatever i do and decisions i make... i have neva looked back... i m wat i m and i dun think i can change it and dun expect other ppl to change for me... if sth doesnt fit or if it makes me uncomfortable i have to stop it or move on cos it will give me tremendous mental stress that i cant deal with... it might cause others to look at me in a different light possibly a -ve one.. but thats the way it is... things i wanna tell myself.... no more _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ no more _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ no more _ _ _ _ _ _ and perhaps no more _ _ _ _ _ _ some random thots that are goin thru my head now... i have always felt strongly that doin things for the sake of doin and thinking that you like it and doin it bcos of passion is entirely different... do it for yourself and not others... i dun believe that chemistry can be cultivated fr scratch.... jus like dancing... 2 ppl taking a gazillion diff dance lessons together doesnt necessarily give them dance chemistry.. they will jus be dancing technically but they wont exude the kinda feel... its jus like goin thru the motion... wat makes dancing even more enjoyable apart from being able to execute the moves is to let yourself loose and jus dance! i guess thats wat makes social dancing fun... :) will be back in the social dance scene soon ;) |
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