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AS I WAS FILLING UP MY CALENDAR...
it suddenly occurred to me that it has been almost a yr since
i joined the comms team... the initial few wks i was still abit
doubtful whether i could fit in the team and i missed my 17
floor lunch khakis dearly... but it didnt take me long b4 i got
comfortable with the team... I m glad that i decided to take
the step out of my comfort zone... i m enjoying what i m doin
now jus that i hope my boss will have lesser mood swings
and be less of a micro manager...
the yr has been so busy that it went by it in flash.. looking
back.. events seem to be my forte.. think i have quite a no.
under my belt... the big ones in the last 1yr were family day,
siww, mb opening, amongst other smaller ones.. lotsa
stressful situations... sleepless nites... but i muz say i get
lotsa satisfaction and oso meet lotsa external ppl.. have met
quite alot of nice ppl along the way .. this adds to my fren
list .. on the other hand some are lost.. ppl come and go i
guess.. but i m glad to have the handful of close peepz who
are always there..(u noe who u ppl are :D)
work aside.. late last yr was abit of emotional rollercoaster
for me... i wouldnt say that person broke my heart.. it is not
that serious.. but he def sent my heart on the most confusing
ride for at least 2mths.. when i finally put my foot down and
got over it... someone from my long ago sch days appeared
and did swept me off my feet until i found out certain things
that almost gave my weak heart a heart attack... den it was
over...
these kinda stuff happen to me ever so often that close frens
always ask me if the next one is less dodgy or less weird den
the previous one.. so it is no surprise that i turned into a
commitment phobic person... cos such encounters reinforces
my independent nature more and more each time to a point
i actually prefer doin things alone where i wont be inhibited
and wont have to wait for the whole world to ding dong and
decide..
i m glad to finally found someone who cares so much abt me
i noe that there will always be a shoulder to lean on when i
need it... a hug to comfort me when things get stressful...
as a result i think it is helping me to slowly lessen my current
forced strong independent nature back to my normal and not
over independent self... but i guess i will need abit more time..
when u spent most of the time being put into a role of looking
after ppl... and when u have many unhappy encounters.. it
takes abit of time to adjust back ...
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