things have been rather drama these few weeks and i dun deny that i have been a little disturbed by someone's behaviour or rather indecisiveness.... and i decided like err last nite to jus shelf this matter...
and to my delight... something else unexpected but nice is gonna happen....after 5yrs, i m finally gonna have a proper meal together with him!
we were talking abt how busy work is and we were sharing our weekly schedule and i mentioned we could go for body balance class again if i m free... den he suggested dinner and immediately we compared schedules and voila! we are meeting on wed :D
why cant the other guys be like that?
we had a really good chat on msn earlier.. i was perpetually laughing in front of my laptop screen... i m really looking forward to this meet up ;)
ever since instant messaging started, it provided another platform for ppl to "socialise" and get to know each other.. during my era, the first was probably IRC and den to ICQ and den to the MSN.... den with the aid of friendster and facebook...
it usually starts with the social networking sites where you can gather info abt new ppl you meet (esp your potential crush) thru their profile page... den slowly you exchange msn add and start chatting and finding out more abt each other... u know, its like msn is the answer to all the qns u want to ask abt the other person
i think i was trapped in this cycle for way too long.. i m not really a phone person... so its either sms, msn or face to face.... the convenient and comfortable option for most ppl has to be msn i think...
more often than not we start bombarding each other with tonnes of qns abt the person, his background blah blah .. it has become like SOP .. ultimately u find out alot of stuff abt the person ... technically you "know" alot abt that person but thats just factual info...and base on those info, you start to imagine what kinda person he is and most of the time you think u are right with your assumptions.. as it turned out... it is not wat u think it is...
i m glad that this time round we went from emails to sms rather than msn... not even facebook messaging... i think it kinda prevented me from shooting out an array of qns... and for some reason i felt that it is slower, but i got a better sense of what kinda person he is... and things move at a slower and more comfortable pace...
which is good... unlike in the past, i always get the feeling that i m constantly in a rush.... it is stressful and makes me breathless...
it trains up my patience i guess cos smses are not that instantaneous... sometimes u cant hear the alert or you r in the midst of sth etc..
i like the pace now... and perhaps he being much older, he expresses himself on these platforms in a diff way compared to the younger dudes... certainly not too flowery and kiddish like those i have encountered that sometimes make my hair stand... heh...
i was taking a bus from serangoon mrt station back home last nite and i sat beside a bangla who was busy playing ard with his phone...
from the corner of my eye i noticed that he kept turning his head to look at me... no, i wasnt wearing low cut and even if i was, there is not much cleavage to gawk at... neither was i wearing a short skirt...
and when i took my phone out to sms, he kept looking at what i was typing (in a non discreet manner) ... when i tried to tilt the phone a little... he still tried to look! fainted... so kpo can~
the best part when i was alighting... he turned ard and his eyes followed me till i got off the bus (-_-)lll
i wouldnt say that it was super fantastic... but i jus wanted to satisfy my curiosity of what i could see in the museum so i went with Ker to the Mint Museum of Toys on sat...
was talking to yang over dinner that nite... we were on the topic of if a bf or gf for that matter is in a profession like events or pr or sth similar whereby they will be out meeting alot of ppl.. wont the partner feel insecure?
den yest while in the cab... my designer and i had a similar discussion... we were analysing which guys might be more likely to derail....had a similar conversation with ker sometime back on this too...cos she attended some psychology class on it or sth
there are 3 types of guys as we kinda concluded
1) The Closet Derailers
the most 'innocent' goodie looking ones are the ones that you might have to be wary abt...i have come across quite a few decent looking, studious looking, good husband looking type ... but beyond that facade.. gosh i tell u... they do it OPENLY... not worried abt airing their dirty laundry in public... there is someone i noe, the wife is voluptuous and pretty..i wonder why does he still stray around...
the argument is, these so called more studious guys may not have been much of a party animal and all when they were younger... so they haven "tried" this kinda excitement... so they are experimenting with fire now...
2) The Party Go-ers That Had Enough Fun
these are the naughty boy bunch who have "had fun" for the longest and when they get tired of the 'high' life... they will settle down and be good... cause they have seen it all and finally decided what and who they really wanna settle down with
3) Swingers Forever
these bunch just enjoy flinging ard and nothing, not even marriage can change that...
my conclusion?
everything is a gamble ... you will neva noe what you are gonna get... ppl change overtime.... fate? luck? karma?
had lunch with angie yest... and when she shared abt how she dealt with this particular person... i was like GARANG!! certainly not sth i would expect from a softspoken and angelic gal... but i was really IMPRESSED! you go gal!!
suddenly i thot to myself... what happened to the garangness i had b4... but b4 was like errrr 8 yrs ago? garangness in work i def have it... but for r/s matters.... i think skin getting thinner and thinner... increasingly becoming more and more bo chap..
i muz say again... i m really really impressed with the way my dear pal handled that guy.... m sure he was caught aback...and i hope he will wake up his idea QUICKLY! tsk...
the weekend started on a good note with the excellent BJ class on fri nite...
on sat morn i received an sms from my colleague who lives 5min walk away from me... she is currently on maternity leave and wanted to come pass me some stuff to hand it to hr...i decided that i should pay her a visit instead so that i could see the little fella..
this is Ethan :) didnt managed to catch him awake..
after I left her place, had lunch with my family and den went to cityhall to meet missy beh...it has been terribly longggg since we went shopping! like doing some serious shopping.. not counting the online ones which i have been doin cos it's convenient and cheap...
as usual.. we ALWAYS get distracted by:
1) Lingerie 2) Swimwear 3) Beauty products
:p
while we were at suntec, I went to the photo studio called "picture ME" to collect my free solo photo fr dnd... the lady that attended to me...she had very poor customer service... and she looked like she was quite sick of her job... although i had to choose 1 out of 5.. it was tough... cos the photos aint very nice...
in the end i settled for this... the colours are more vibrant on the actual copy...
after the shopping session, i headed to our rec club for a deepavali event... the briyani was yummy :) one of my colleague, an aunty lent me her daughter's punjabi outfit... so nice~~ will post up photo soon.. so after the makan, we decided to head to the karaoke room.. been dying to sing... haven sang for quite some time.. and so we sang till abt 1plus... that explains why i m still awake now... cos as usual... waitin for hair to dry...
tmr another session of karaoke.. haha with evil twin and gang... postponed for a gazillion times already..
it has been a great weekend... like i told angie.. i jus need a few gd pals rather than a bunch of new, frivolous "frens"...
muz have gotten a tad bit emo cos of the stress at work.. but i m feeling really great now after the session of body jam earlier.. i jus love attending gym classes... my avenue for relieving stress :) dun worry peepz i m a tough nut... everything is fine~~
either i dun have confidence in me or i dun really have much confidence in men in general
i should be excited but yet i m sceptical... its like a struggle b/w the head and the heart all the time... mayb it comes with age? i din used to be such a procrastinator... it has sure gotten worse
perhaps the nature of my job of having to meet and get to know ppl just makes me wanna hibernate whenever i can now...
mayb i m jus tired of goin thru the whole cycle again... mayb i m jus afraid that there will be empty promises again....
anything can happen... even when it seems impossible
others say... this is totally ridiculous... honestly, i think it is indeed ridiculous... and mayb naive too
why m i in such a ridiculous situation den? jus when my life seem to be happy dandy...and hoping that i can jus enjoy this feeling a little longer or forever.. sth always happen out of the blue.... i m not ready to take on this kinda stuff right now....
after lotsa sweat, our social comm's event of the yr finally took place at Orchard Hotel last nite... although not many ppl came dressed up, our consolation? our Chief Executive was 'forced' by his wife to dress up! and as a bonus, he went round to scare ppl.. esp the directors! they all were shocked when they realised it was him... lol
the committee :) we put in lotsa work for our dance item.. haven seen the video yet but i m sure we did well!
my dance partner for the second yr in a row..hee~
thats our emcee edmund....rrrr
our performance for the PUB Got Talent competition.. although we didnt win i think we did an excellent job! but we are quite appalled by the judges aka the boss's definition of the word "talent" :P watever it is we had a great time performing on stage...
i cant embed videos here so u can check out the video on my facebook..
the rest are some random pics... i finally got a sense of how brides feel having to change a few outfits throughout the nite :P
i love this witchy pic!
there are still lotsa pics lurking ard somewhere in someone's camera... esp when the dance floor was open...
i jus cant stand it when some men drink, they get all touchy and start groping the gals *sweat* i spent quite abit of effort steering clear of their path... there were other scandalous stuff too... haha..thats a hush hush..
anyway...like my mum always say... u wanna see a guy's true colours? drown them in alcohol~~ ;)
The first time i met him, I was totally "electrocuted" HE is suave, charismatic, smooth, gentleman, a little quirky... but i bet tonnes of gals tat met him must have thot the same way too..hahaha...
a possibly unreachable target... but well at least there is a glimmer of hope for the single women out there.. now that i noe ppl like him (though i think a small %) still exist ... lol
this whole dnd performance thingy and everything else that comes with it is already stressing me out.. and den there are two ppl who totally irritated the hell out of me..
one is bimbo gal... btw she has nothing to do with bimbo club she had no contribution apart from turning up for dance prac and costume fitting.. we told her to try one set of the costumes to see if she is comfortable with wearing sth like that.. instead she "CHOPPED" the prettiest one in the lot... den later she kept complaining that the bottom of the skirt had a lobang.. and her heels kept getting trapped in it.... i asked her to show me her dance move and obviously she wasnt doin it right thats why her shoes got stuck....
anyway we told told her that we will be mending it... but she jus went on and on and on and i really cant stand when the guys kept echoing wat she says like hellllooooo i can understand english perfectly and i dun need to hear the same thing a gazillion times... plsssss...seriously i m not deaf... well she din turn up for dance prac yest and we couldnt alter the length and waist area of the skirt until tmr....
on another note... another team member of the inter dept perf decided to finally speak up today which is 3 days after our last dance prac session that he aint comfortable with one of the move throughout the whole practice session and i clearly remember when i suggested that move, i kept asking if he was comfortable doin it... he said it was okie.. didnt utter a word... and now 2days b4 the show he tells me that he cant do that part w/o giving any constructive suggestions to try and salvage ... i asked why didnt he bring it up last wk or even during the last prac where we tried to thrash things out? he cited that WE did not having many moves as reason... i dun deny that i dun have a whole library of moves to pick out and execute anytime.. but i told him that if he had sounded the alarm earlier, i would have gone to youtube or ask my frens for suggestions
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