Hey Journal..me and my thoughts again. Not really knowing what to say. I did but then I lit up a cigarette and plum forgot what I was thinkin..Something about how Fucking depressed I am..Jeeeeeeeezzzzz. I just don't know anything..Now my dog Chances wants to go out..I dont want to let her out but if I dont she sits and stares at me, AND GETS IN MY HEAD....I let her out...Had to..LOL don't want to blow out another light bulb...I gotta get for now..TV has grabbed me and I really hate being down all the time...But then again there are commercials..Chances is back in and going crazy..She must have took a big old shit..Good she wont wake me up in the morning..which I need to get up pretty early,,I HAVE to do this stuff tommmarrro..i have to..okay asshole,,later
Just another Shitty day. A little better than yesterday..ahhh but so damn shitty......I got to go...I'm just so bored...It's rainy and nasty and I'm hurting and I'm hoping things will get better..It's 2004 not 2003..Hopefully this year will turn out better than the last one...PLEESE turn out better..okay fellow martians and those who are just fucking crazy..later
Current mood: amused.
Hey, It's Me Again..
and who the fuck are you?
Sorry..I'm bored..Self Destructing Again..Yeah right..I'm really trying to stay out of the hospital..yeah right...the God Damn voices get me down...All these feelings wrapped up 'in one little old not know how to handle it all me'..New Years Eve the light beside me blew out. Pop! right when I was thinking about my lifes past..All those feelings bottled up inside me!!!!I am going Crazy and I am Self Destructing one day at a time
Current mood: groggy.
Hey this is me again..Just wondering what all this 'blurty' thing does. Chances is out on the porch enjoying the 'simple' life..I'm feeling like pure dung..Lets see if this new program works or not....
Current mood: amused.
Hey it's just me again against the world..Not understanding who I am or why I'm here..afraid of the world I guess. pure anger comes to tears then turns to fears I don't understand..
Current mood: disappointed.
its just me afraid of the world