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[17 Apr 2005|08:40pm] |
you are lisa rowe, girl interrupted
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[12 Apr 2005|10:24pm] |
this next one is perfect actually: though i won't admit to several of them:
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[08 Apr 2005|02:24am] |
You Are 50% Normal
(Somewhat Normal)
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While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself |
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[08 Apr 2005|02:07am] |
Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
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[05 Dec 2004|01:01pm] |
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as of now: i am on hiatus from this...and everything. I may be back or I will disappear into the void. Thank you ~the management
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[29 Nov 2004|02:01pm] |
Take the quiz: "ARE YOU THE DEVIL"
devil himself
you are the keeper of the underworld. dont kill me i make a good slave.
Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"
Modern Satanist
Thinking yourself to be a god, realizing Indulgence as your main goal, not believing in a literal Satan, and counting stupidity as your highest sin. You are a proud LaVeyan Satanist! You might enjoy www.churchofsatan.com if you're not already a member.
Take the quiz: "What natural disaster are you?"
tornato
YOU ARE A TORNATO!!!
Take the quiz: "What Cutter Fits You Best"
From Depression
you cut because you hate life and you always get depressed from alot of things and cut to make it all go away
that's really disturbing...especially right now...
Take the quiz: "What Cutter Fits You Best"
Your Insane
dude your just insane go to some help
there's something about that picture that's...mesmerizing...
Take the quiz: "Which deviant fetish should you indulge in? (sexy pictures)"
Blood Fetish
Mmmm... hot crimson blood, delicious! Blood fetish is definitely your thing. Experience hightened pleasure by sharing your blood, as well as receiving some from your partner. Blood can be very sexual if used correctly. More than likely you love vampires!
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[25 Nov 2004|09:17pm] |
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thank you...no seriously...thank you all for everything...my life wouldn't be nearly as fun or bothersome if you weren't part of it....i don't know how to explain the precarious situation in which i find myself... i am drugged to the point that i cannot feel...my thoughts and emotions are considered by no one and matter to few...blades and alcohol solve nothing, nor does poison or education... i cannot choose my future and my past is all but a blur...i have so much to do in my lifetime but my health is questionable, my sanity is all but gone and i don't know how much longer i can keep up these pretenses...screaming in my mind achieves nothing besides echoing off the walls into a void as the world crumbles around me...i love my animals and parents but aside from them, who can i trust? and do i need to? can i not survive being suspicious of everyone and rigid to the outside world...can i not take my children and run into a vast cavern amungst nature and the occasional sprite..? i lack the energy to end it all and i know my destiny is not to fade into the background with all the angst ridden youth who begged for mercy and recieved a noose in return...
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[24 Nov 2004|07:50pm] |
march 1, 2073 is supposedly my death date...age 87...hmmm..or November 4, 2065...depending on which lifestyle habits i change apparently...or if me or my friend configures it...
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[27 Oct 2004|03:18pm] |
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alive...barely |
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annoyances at this moment:
~the president (big suprise)
~the mosquitoes in my room
~my head
~me
~you
~collin quin
~repetitive game music
~drawn together
^---not as bad as it could have been but definitely not as good as i thought it would be. Especially when the 20s chick pulled up her dress, cut her thigh then made a very stereotypical comment and a joke about cutting...definitely turned me off to the show...not even south park goes that far...fucking insensitive pricks... ok my head hurts i'm done for now
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[25 Oct 2004|12:42am] |
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why does it hurt so much? it's supposed to be so easy...i know i'm not on mood stabilizers yet but i can't deal with this...i'm the free spirit, the crazy radical one yet i can't deal with having no support. i can't take up any bad habits, i can't make friends, and right now i can't live....it's so hard to breathe...anyone could say anything and i wouldn't give a shit, but you're words hurt more than this razor and nothing will ease the pain.. maybe i'm not meant to be here any longer, is this a sign? is it time to go?
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[12 Oct 2004|03:06pm] |
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the hum of fifty computers |
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I feel as if my heart and head are going to explode; i can't think or see straight and every little thing sets me off.. the people around me have turned into a droning conglomerative annoyance... a book of translations would be much easier than this, but who would read it?
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[09 Oct 2004|09:13pm] |
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she's "dying" and i can't be there...i can't help..nothing. I suppose we're all dying technically, but her decline is much more rapid...sometimes I feel as though i'm on the same track, hopefully it's just an empathetic decay. went shopping today and felt physically sick as I perused the many over-priced slave produced items and watched as human drones walked amungst them, acting as if their choices and purchases actually made a difference in the long run. Even though there was not one "cheapie" store there, the same pseudo-jewlery dealers with their carts roamed the streets, looking for unsuspecting victims as they gossiped over the daily celebritiy filth. My veins are bulging in my arm and my hand is shaking....my heart feels like it's on fire in my chest...is this what it's like to known ones own mortality?
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[06 Oct 2004|12:05am] |
amy slit her wrists and i just found out as i was posting this...how ironic...
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[05 Oct 2004|11:14pm] |
What's wrong with me?
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[30 Sep 2004|12:11am] |
Larry King live tonight features five random "spiritual" leaders ranging from muslims to christians of sorts and a hindu doctor. The theme also contains a plethora of subjects from gay marriage to terrorism to the state of the economy. All from the religious point of view. One, a Dr. Deepak Chopra is a presumed hindu and absolutely the coolest. I know that sounds rather immature... ok taken too long to finish this and started paying too much attention so i'm stopping this before i start a real war....
anyway: that's it and i'll try to be on this plane later
P.S. Southern baptists [in general] are complete morons/assholes.
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[29 Sep 2004|01:21am] |
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Somehow i've fallen through this plane and landed somewhere. I can't focus or stay on track or get anything done. I'm completely numb and everything is an effort...everything's an act and i can't keep it up..the cracks are growing larger and it's getting incredibly difficult to keep up pretenses... everything hurts and i need a break...the resolution is getting worse and the most depressing song ever made is not playing, as if a sign...from who i don't know...i'll keep the darkness as bay no longer, you're not worth it
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[29 Sep 2004|12:56am] |
i love you more than life
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