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I refuse [26 Jan 2004|12:27pm] [ mood | calm ] I'm here. And I'm not goin to update. It's late. I'm happy. I have class. Where are all these people I know I haven't seen? The University looks quite different. I'm thinkin about Ana and she bein an aunt now. When am I becomin an uncle? I shouldn't be here. 2 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

My Journal ! [31 Jul 2003|05:41pm] [ mood | busy ] Woooooooow, they should shut this journal out!! I never write!! Well' I've been super busy... I guess I'll write again someday 5 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Terrified [06 Jun 2003|10:45am] [ mood | Terrified ] I'm so scared... In 10 minutes I must face somethin that may change my life completely... No...... I can not lose. I'm not allowed to lose!! NOOO!! I won't!! I won't!! I can't imagine how my life will continue if things don't be the way I need.... What should I do? What do I do? What do I do?.... I'm really scared 8 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Scotland [09 May 2003|04:02pm] [ mood | pleased ] I wonder how Niebla is doin. I'm sure my baby wolf is missin me. One more month... The other night I dreamed about Scotland. I was runnin through the highlands and it was rainnin. Despite it was a very cold afternoon I felt ... comfortable. Scotland is a beautiful country. When I stop runnin, I could clearly hear to the rain over the trees and when I closed my eyes, I could feel the spirits of the ancient celts.... and the sound of a Scotch Bagpipe comin from somewhere in the forest. The home of the eagle, of the wild deer and of people polite and hospitable..... Scotland is one of the most beautiful places I've visited. After that dream, I remembered somethin nice I learned from scots. The desire of tryin to make people happier... always smilin... always a nice word or a wise advise. I may not be somethin big in the universe, but if I can do somethin to make this world a better place... I will do it......... and the cozy melody of the Scotch Bagpipe comin from somewhere shall remind me that when things don't seem to be clear in my mind... (or in my heart...) 6 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Gambit [05 May 2003|12:27pm] [ mood | good ] You are Gambit! You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have. Your preference for solitude and your attractiveness make you very intriguing to those you meet. Unfortunately, close relationships are few and far between for you because you often have trouble opening up to others. Which X-Men character are you most like? brought to you by Quizilla Hmmm, sounds like me n_n 1 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Scorpio Returns [23 Apr 2003|05:40pm] [ mood | depressed ] I'm finally back... I guess that's the point of this entry... I had 3432457696 things to say a minute ago... but now I suddenly feel I shouldn't. I don't know.... I think those are things are just for me. All I can say is that these days have been wonderful... I did many things. I'm so happy I saw mom. She was so happy when she saw me. It makes me feel so empty when I notice I'm all alone again... I feel many things. I can't stop thinkin bout Alejandra's face when we were sayin good-bye again. I feel my heart broke in that moment. I DIDN'T WANT TO GET AWAY FROM HER!!! It really sucks... Well, at least I still have the egg she gave me. It was the only which I didn't broke. Maybe I'll eat it later. Medellín is called the city of "the eternal spring"... however, it's been rainin a lot today. I feel cold. I don't really want to keep talkin bout that. Maybe later when I'm in a better mood. There're only 2 people who can make me feel better right now. They make it worths to be here again... I'm sorry. I should be all happy and energetic talkin bout all the adventures I had........ but I just can't..... maybe my next entry will be better. 4 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Dreams [31 Mar 2003|05:27pm] [ mood | hopeful ] Ana said I should update this journal. I told her that most of my entries were private so she brought her opinion bout "private" journals. I think that if a private journal sucks, then EVEN Bean's journal SUCKS. But... this time I'll do what Ana wants n_n Hmm, I've many things to say. I feel hmmm, Chimndggurama.... well, that's what Ralph would say in my case. After savin Lorena's ass last week, I'm back to my duties as a swordman and scientist. Well, the scientist part is the toughest... I've the impression I have an exam everyday. Besides I need to finish my paper before next friday or it won't appear in the Journal. I hope Janet did her part... *sighs* I always end doin everythin. I feel energetic in this moment. I've just came out from "Water" second exam... and I feel I did well. It's fair cuz I studied constantly almost 2 weeks for it. It even took my time with muh Monkey ò_ó. -Why do we dream? -I don't know... maybe it's a way to show somethin we want, or fears we have" Yestarday was a very long night. I dreamnt I was an "X" in an equation and that I couldn't solve it. I guess I'm paranoic with all these subjects I'm takin. I also dreamnt I had been invited to see the ejecution of a killer whale which was guilty of a weird crime. The whale was trown from a plane and I saw when its body explode in the floor. What a bloody dream. My life is pretty ironic, and I have the impression that someone is laughin bout it... I mean... Finally.. when I'd lost all the hopes... I found my scotch bag Ò_ó. Well, that's good.... Now that we're together again everythin seem to be alright n_n. Specially now when I'm plannin to go to New York in Holy Week for Alejandra's Birthday. I feel happy when I think bout it... I haven't seen her in more than a year...and hopefully I'll see my mom too. I also think a lot bout another person... however she's too far from the East coast and I only have a week. Maybe if I had more time... Anyways... it seems there's a new mistery in my life. I discovered it yestarday when it started rainin and I noticed ... well... I noticed a new feelin within me... I think this new feelin is related to the essence of my existence... 13 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Needin a hug [20 Mar 2003|12:15am] [ mood | sad ] I feel so lonely... Where are my friends?? Sometimes I wish I were surrounded by people... at least not to feel the crudeness of silence. Like i used to believe.... "In times of need, old friends came to help you"..... I wonder where are my friends. Maybe I must face this ALONE. Like always. Solitude...... Maybe it's my own fault.... 8 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Soul Edge [19 Mar 2003|12:56pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] Today is wednesday. Time goes by very quickly. I'm surprised. There're only 7 weeks left to end this semester, and the subjects I'm takin are really tough. I really have many things to do. Yestarday I went to the Dojo. Everythin seemed very paceful there. That's good cuz I need to relax. Master Kyo asked me to fight a dude who came from Sabaneta. I really was not in the mood but I did what my master said. Well, once the duel started it was pretty excitin, and well I won like always u_u. However Master Kyo was not so happy. It seems he sometimes can read what's on my mind. He said I must learn to control my emotions when I'm fightin.... I don't know... maybe I just fight to let everythin go out from me. These days I've just been so... Mmmm Yestarday it rained very much. I love the rain, I love the water... it's my element and it can regenerate me when I'm wounded. I guess somethin is ....hmmm..... missin. 1 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Nature [11 Mar 2003|11:55am] [ mood | calm ] -What are you thinkin Gabriel?- -Uhh, I was waitin you to ask me that... actually I was thinkin bout somethin really stupid, and were tryin to think bout somethin better before you asked me that…. what bout you?- -I just find out somethin that make us very different- -Oh really? and what is it?- -Somehow, our personalities- -How so?- -Well, yeah... In some way we are opposite.... I mean, I'm pretty outgoin and keep laughin all the time. You know it's true lol, I'm just in first semester but I'm already very popular at the U- -uh huh- -On the other hand your cold to people, well, not with me but that’s what I’ve heard. I almost never see you smilin, and seems you don't like to be with other people- -I smile when I'm with you >_<- -Well, yeah...- -n_n- -It's 5:00 pm, I need my mum, I haven't see her in 6 hours- -I havent' seen my family in almost 2 years- -oh.... I'm sorry- -No, it's ok.... I'm used to that- -Used to be alone?- -Yeah- -Oh…That's .... sad- -Hmm, maybe.... but for me.... my loneliness is like.. uhh, my hideout -How comes? -Yeah, I don’t belong to this place, I find very difficult to open my mind to ideas and behaviours that I don’t like… and I just feel I don’t fit in… so I just create my own world, and that’s my reality- -But… don’t you feel sad?… I wouldn’t like to be alone- -It’s hard to explain… you’d have to feel the way I feel to understand…. However…. sometimes I feel sad. Sometimes I wish I had someone I could share my world with - -Hmm, I don’t like when I see you alone, I feel bad - -Oh, you don’t have to… It’s not big deal tho. Besides, the time I share with you is enough for me. You make me feel I’m not alone- -I… also like when I’m with you… you’re so different from other guys. You make me feel different- -So you are… I haven’t found someone who listen to me the way you do… besides… I don’t need to use many words when I’m with you…. That’s something I like… very much- These are some of my conversations with Lois. I’ve been thinkin very much bout her words… hmm, well yesterday was a very good day… n_n 1 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Telephone [10 Mar 2003|06:28pm] [ mood | contemplative ] -Why are you so proud of being a girl?- -I like it... I just like it very much- -I think it's better to be a guy... for example, we have more freedom in the sexual field- -Hmmm- -n_n- -Yesterday.... I ...- -oh.. really?? What bout ?- -Hmm well, I dreamed that you called me... I wonder why you never called me in real life- -... I've already told you.... I hate the phone- -You know? sometimes us girls like to be called and have someone to talk with...- -... Don't you have your boyfriend?- -You know what? forget I said that- -...- -...- -I'm sorry- que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Feelins [07 Mar 2003|12:26pm] [ mood | indescribable ] She once asked me: Do you think you can love more than 1 person at the same time? I said: I'm almost sure After some days I asked: Do you think you can love more than 1 person at the same time? She said: No, I don't think so I wonder... what's the truth?? Does anyone know? I think sometimes is difficult to say which feelin is stronger..... however from time to time, it appears a certain someone who can make a difference... 2 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Where's my scotch bag?? Ò_ó [04 Mar 2003|03:54pm] [ mood | thirsty ] I'm in a very mood in this moment. I can't help it; I'm hungry and sleepy. Besides, I haven't found my bag these days. I'm really worried cuz that bag means a lot to me. It's one of my only recollections from Scotland ó_ò. I've been studyin all the day, and those 4 hours in the lab were eternal. I just have a terrible headache. And the worst thing is that I have class of electricity at 5:00. That sucks big time. At least today. It think the best moment of my day will be at 7:00 pm when I meet Lois and we go home. At least we may have a nice moment together without the annoyance of the rest of the world. I wonder if she's as tired as I am wherever she is.... Damn, I don't want class today. I just want a lasagna and a lemonade ò_ó. Ahh, and I also have to go to the Dojo later. What a pain ¬_¬. I hope Lois agree to go with me >_<. Ahaha, I sound like if I were dependin on her. Anyways, yestarday she was walkin with a glass full of water and then she stumbled and soaked her skirt. I don't know why but she blamed me for that >_<. Anyhow, I was laughin my ass off cuz.... it's really funny to see such a good lookin girl in those embarrasin circumstances lmao. I wish I were in her same year. It's difficult for us to meet ó_ò, but whenever we do, we enjoy very much. That's enough for me n_n 3 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Disorder [28 Feb 2003|01:43pm] [ mood | apathetic ] Disorder Rating Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: High Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: Moderate Borderline: Low Histrionic: Low Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Moderate Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Click Here To Take The Test -- 1 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Friday... [28 Feb 2003|01:02pm] [ mood | calm ] Wow, Today has been a very moved day. I HAD A VERY COMPLICATED EXAM ! ! ò_ó, and it took all my energies. Hmm.. I hope I did well ó_ò. I'm sure I did n_n Hahahhah, Lois is super sick today, and she keeps blamin me ! ! ò_ó. I don't know if thats' true but the fact is that I got a punch in my stomach for that. lol, I guess it's her fault for bein so close to me. Hmm, I don't know what else to say. I guess I'm goin to the movies later cuz I'm pretty stressed. Things are the same... Master Kyo is still yellin at everyone at the dojo, the house's a whole mess with that couple havin sex every night ¬_¬, The milkman broke his leg and now I have to buy the milk, classes are more borin than ever, etc. However, there're new things... I'd a rendezvous with soccer.... we played yestarday and I even mada a "chilena". I remembered when I wanted to win the World Cup. I don't know why I quit soccer. It's difficult to feed a long distance friendship. However these days I heard from an old friend and now things are the best they can be witout seein each other. It'll be better... cuz I'll see her soon. I don't know how did she find me, but I'm glad she did.... cuz now she's changed many things. que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Isla Para Dos [25 Feb 2003|04:00pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | Isla para dos ] Voy a tener un mundo a la medida, Donde tu y yo seremos soberanos. Una pequeña encantadora isla, de eternas primaveras y veranos. Bajo el ardiente sol de las pasiones, ese era nuestro amor fuerte y risueño. Y sin otra preocupaciones, Velaremos por una felicidad de ensueño. La tierra del fuego será una unida por las aguas del romance y con el color de nuestros sueños pintaremos el cielo azul brillante. Y cantareeeeemos eyyy eyyyya, en nuestra isla para dos Ay gozareeeeeemos eeyyy eyyya, en nuestra isla para dos Cantareeeeeemos eyyy eyya, en nuestra isla para dos Ayyyy Eyyya, en nuestra isla para dos No existirán complejos ni malicias. Será un paraiso verdadero. Yo vestiré tu cuerpo con caricias, y adornare con orquideas tu pelo. Bajo el ardiente sol de las pasiones, crecerá nuestro amor fuerte y risueño. Y sin otra preocupaciones, Velaremos por una felicidad de ensueño... (Kaouru, quisiera que pudieras leer esto... Donde quiera que estés quiero que sepas que cumplí mi promesa. Aquí estoy... y sigo siendo el mismo de siempre y no me rendiré hasta hacer mis sueños realidad.... al menos lo haré por tí..... no sabes como te extraño) 3 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Hmm, Where're my covers ! [23 Feb 2003|12:17am] [ mood | sick ] I'm really sick ! ! I'm goin to bed ! ò_ó 2 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Saturday Night [22 Feb 2003|11:45pm] [ mood | depressed ] Uhhh, What day is today? um Saturday. I lost notion of time >_<. A lot of things have happened. I'm really weak now, umm that's cuz I'm really sick. I didn't expect that these days. (I guess it was for that night in the rain... um I wouldn't change it tho n_n) Last friday I got lost. I guess I was lost in my thought and I didn't noticed where I ended. The fact is that surprisin, I just didn't care. I didn't know where I was and had no money. I guess it was good to be alone. Things there where I'm livin are tense. A couple that divorced and are fightin for a daughter, my neighbour Ana María's sister had an accident and almost die, her grandfather had a heart attack... These are not very happy days for that family, and I kinda like and seein her cryin make me sad. Today is Saturday. I guess Lois went out with her boyfriend and that was good cuz we see each other much time and I need some time to study. That was all what I did today. Studyin. As I said, I’m really sick. It makes you down, but however I like that feelin… somehow this chill…. the cold weather on my hot skin… umm relieves me. I think a lot bout many things… I think bout people I care and have learnt to love with time. I think bout Lorena and how she is always ready to take care of me… I wish she were here with me. I think bout Alejandra… despite she’s so far. I’m sure if she was here she’d find a way to make me smile. I miss that crazy girl. I think bout Ana…. This girl I don’t even know in real life, but shared many beautiful things with me. I know she’d look at me like _. Hehe, I will never understand her behaviour, but here presence would make me feel better. I think bout Luisa….. and I think many things…. I’ve written too much tonight… I've just relize that maybe I've been wrong bout many things.... one of them..... I understand why I always ended feel so empty..... maybe I'm the one who's always wrong.... Even tho I wouldn't accept this in other circumstances..... I don't wanna be alone anymore.... que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Character [21 Feb 2003|08:59am] [ mood | satisfied ] You're An Inu (Dog)! Loyal and protective. A true friend all the way. You love having yours ears scratched, and being near your loved ones. What Type Of Anime Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla que tiene de malo perder la razón?

Heart [21 Feb 2003|08:41am] [ mood | curious ] Your Heart is Black What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla 3 perdieron la razón que tiene de malo perder la razón?

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