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Friday, December 12th, 2003
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12:51 am - Busy
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I haven't had time to do much of anything lately. Jeff, gave me my job back, because everyone quit, like they said they would...heh Plus, he admitted today, that he missed having me around to "lighten the atmosphere." So, for the past few days, I've been working 11 and 12 hour shifts. Apparently, he just let everything go, in the office part, because he intended on bringing me back, and this was suppose to fit as some type of "disciplinary measures." It was nice to be a complete bum for about two weeks...LOL Well, I'm in dire need of sustenance...au revoir
current mood:  hungry
current music: Johann II Strauss
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| Wednesday, December 10th, 2003
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10:55 am - Four days and counting...
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Early this morning, I had my cell phone off, and apparently Kari was trying to get ahold of me. It was around 1:30a.m. or so, and she decided that she was going to come over anyway. I was sitting here, poking around on AllPoetry, when I heard someone tapping on my patio doors. At first it scared the shit out of me. It was raining fairly hard, and the wind was quite fierce. I jumped out of my chair, and felt like an idiot when I heard a giggle.
She said she wanted me to sketch her. It was rather odd, to me. For her to show up in the middle of the night, and ask me to sketch her..? I mean, I figured it would be, "I need a ride home", or "My car broke down a few streets over", or maybe even a "Want to go to a party with me?" None the less, I was happy to oblige. The sketch is at this address:
http://velvetorchid.deviantart.com/
I finally decided to start sharing some of my art with the world. I figured why not? My poetry seemed to be accepted with open arms, so, I finally built up enough confidence to post some of my art. At the moment, it consists of nothing but sketches. My camera is extremely old, and one of those that takes polaroids. The quality isn't any where near, good enough for me to post any of my paintings yet.
I haven't slept since Saturday. I indulged in about a half hour of sleep, only to awake and not be able to fall back to sleep. I'm contemplating on loading up on a vast amount of sedatives. When you have insomnia for extensive amounts of time, it becomes difficult to seperate dreams from reality. Time seems to crawl. Seconds pass like minutes, minutes, pass like hours, hours pass like days. I think I'm going to go take those sedatives now. au revoir
current mood:  exhausted
current music: "Pictures of You" - The Cure
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| Tuesday, December 9th, 2003
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11:28 pm - Starting Over
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This evening will hold the birth of new beginnings. Happiness only lies, within grasping one's desires. I shall start from nothing, and become the man, I wish to be. I no longer have the need to hide behind a mask. On the contrary, I will continue with my gothic makeup. I feel the need to grow my hair long again. The time has come for me to be who I am, without holding back. Never again, will I be depressed on the account of another. Never again, will I hang my chin low, because I feel beneath the one whom is glancing into my eyes. Until next time, I bid you adieu.
current mood:  pensive
current music: Andre Dublin
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