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[15 Jan 2005|07:00pm] |
All day
Staring at the ceiling
Makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
and I don't know why
Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me,
talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talkin' bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin
Somehow I've lost my mind
Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I've been talkin in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away
Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, How I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
(A little unwell)
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
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[15 Jan 2005|06:33pm] |
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I am really starting to hate myself. One day I'm going to commit myself to a mental hospital. I should probably do it now. But I'm better than I was and I haven't done any of that, which is good. Real good.
I'm having temporary loss of sanity fits. Does that make sense? Like, I'm be perfectly fine and then I'll lose my mind and scream and throw a fit. Or, I'll randomly start crying. Weird. I'm not even going to attempt to blame this one on my period.
PS I took off the friends only thing for now.
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