Unidentified's Journal

Saturday, December 6, 2003

1:17PM - long time............. no write

well i know i havent written here for god knows how long. a lot of shit has been happening... and the spare time i had i was too lazy to write in here. im not gonna say everything thats happened in the past because itd be waayyy too much to write. im going out with joe .. but we dont really talk tor see eachother so i dont know... its a blizzard outside, i was suppose to hang out with hannah today and then drink with some ppl tonight but i cant really go out of my house. hannah and i are kinda drifting apart.. i dont really feel like trying tho. she treats me like shit... all she fucking cares about is her bf mike. its annoying as fuck. like i called her today and i had been calling her all morning and her fone was busy and i finalyl got the chance to talk to her and like 3 mins into our convo shes like oooo shit i should prolly call mike and tell him were not drinking and then ill call u back... yeah its been like 2 hours... and she hasnt called. and this happens all teh time like shell say shell call me ...shell be on the fone with mike for like 3 hrs and not call me .. then ill finally call her .. shell talk to me for like 10 mins tops... and then goes back on the fone with him. im sick of it, so ive decided, instead of trying to be all close with her like we once used to be im just gonna be distant because im tired of being neglected by her. its not the greatest feeling in the world :-/ . its pretty sad her and her bf dont even like hook up lol. and they see eachother every day. i only see my bf like once every other week lol since he lives in irvington and every time i see him we h/u the whole time, and i would have sex with him if i saw him more. oh by the way i quit weed.., i havent been doing it for like over a month :-) happy face... i guess ... i dont know .. life was a lot better when i was on it. i kinda wanna start again...i dont know.

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Monday, November 10, 2003

7:49PM - my love life blows cock

:-(
this really sucks.. im actually really upset. i really miss joe. what happened was on saturday night when i went to chill with a bunch of people in union includin him me and him didnt hook up because his friends kept sayin like "put a move on her " and stupid shit like that and it was all fucked up. it was also the only time i chilled with him while i was sober and the other 2 times when iwas drunk we were hookin up the whole time so now i think he has the impression that the only reason i hooked up with him before was because i was drunk. but seriously im tired of hookin up with ppl i want a fucking boyfriend. someone to love me and hold me and that i could be with and no matter how bad my day is i could be with them and they would make everything better. im tired of fucking hook ups man ! seriously!! and then like before i got into my taxi on the way home from union i took a taxi with sue, mike mindick, hannah and denine in it... and like joe was like "im not going tom illburn anymore" .... i dont think he thinks i still like him. i wish he did. i know his number but i feel weird callin.. he also knows mine so lets hope he calls... shit i wish i knew his sn :-/. im pissed as fuck my love life sucks.

Current mood: sad
Current music: senorita - justin*
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Friday, November 7, 2003

1:34PM - *

today is pretty boring... i am hungover :-/ and am not in the mood to do much exept sit around on the computer... sleep.. eat... and watch some tv. my cousins are leaving tomorrow and moving into their new apartment in springfield, which is gonna be pretty close to our house. this weekend was pretty crazy. we had thursday and friday (today) off because of some teacher convention thing. wednesday night me and hannah didnt have much to do so we put some money together and asked melissa to buy us a bottle of Smirnoff Apple Twist. We went back to hannah's house and drank about 3/4 of the bottle and got pretty drunk. not like piss drunk but yea. my mom got into a car accident that night, she flipped her jeep over, and luckily and surprisingly she was fine, but my dad picked me up from hannahs early, around 8 oclock. yesterday, thursday night, me, hannah, sue, mike, mike, joe, lenny, and monica all went to dan pack's house for a party. there were some other people there like ian, chris, and bella. there was a good amount of liquor... 2 bottles of Smirnoff Twist (one apple and one rasberry ) a bottle of Malibu, 2 bottles of Alize, and some beer. Mostly everyone began to drink, but Mike ( sue's boyfriend) drank by far the most. he was drinking whatever he could in huuuge amounts. a lot of ppl like me and hannah were telling him to stop but he didnt listen. i hooked up with joe and we were in a seperate room in dan's basement, but then i heard mike throwing up. so i was like joe we have to go out there and help and joe wouldnt listen to me and i was really drunk and i knew we had to help. then some other ppl showed up like pedro, vitaly, sashka, boris, igor and some other ppl and dan blamed it on me that i had invited them just because they were calling my cellfone for directions. dan's mom came home and realized something was going on. then she found out that mike was piss drunk in the basement with his pants off.. and she flipped out and kicked everyone out and said she was calling the cops. just mike stayed, because he was in no condition to leave. we all got outside and joe said the mom called the cops so we all ran as fast as we could and hid in someones back yard. then ian called his mom (GRANNY) and she came to pick us all up which in total we were about 10 people. most of us were drunk. i called dan's house to see what happened and his mom told me that mike told her sue brought the alcohol and she is gonna be in a lot of trouble. granny brought ian, hannah, chris, mike m., and bella to ian's and then brought them home. but she dropped me, sue, monica, lenny, and joe in town. we went to starbucks to see what was going on and we talked to melissa about it. casey was there and she ran home to get her car and drove us all home. i was on the fone with joe and then sue last nite talking about what happened. hoepfully dan wont tell his parents our names because if he does were all fucked. ibrought some of the alcohol too and were all responsible for it cuz we all payed for it sooo yea. thats about it... later.

Current mood: exhausted
Current music: no music ^_^
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Tuesday, November 4, 2003

5:16PM - ...

hi. well today i stayed home from school... because my throat hurt and we have thursday and friday off this week, so mad parties, and i didnt wanna be sick for the long weekend. :-). most of the day i chilled wit my cousins ... well just rosi, georgie was mostly watching tv and stuff. rosi was online a lot and we talked about a lot of shit. then i talked to some ppl after school and shit when everyone was home. mostly pedro, im really gettin to know him better and shit, and hes a really nice guy i really like him a lot as a friend hes a really good friend. anyway thats about it kinda bored.

Current mood: calm
Current music: runnin - tupac and biggie
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Sunday, November 2, 2003

9:19PM - who knows...

well, i was about to go to sleep but theres too much on my mind. i should be sleeping since i had a crazy weekend and i need all the sleep i can get because i have school tomorrow. for one thing, ive came to the decision that i am done with weed. at least for a while. my cousins came, nothing too interesting about that. they didnt really talk to me much. hannah says she never hooked up with jason.. hmm .. confused about that one. VERY confused about that one... anyway um. i dont know anymore.

Current mood: stressed
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7:23AM - crazy weekend

well... today is sunday, and basically all day i will be sittin around the house and then goin to the airport at around 3ish and picking up my cousins who are coming here and then i have to chill wit hthem all day and yeaa. friday (halloween) was my birthday and it was one of the best days followed by one of the worst days. ill start out with my birthday which DEF was one of the best birthdays ive had so far. first me and hannah were suppose to buy weed from paul carbone but then he didnt show up ... suposedly he was arrested. before that we heard from pedro that he was at michaela reds so we went over there and she wasnt home but just as we were leaving she pulled up with jill in jill's moms car and was home... we ate some of her food hung around and then some kid robbie edell whos in red's grade (8th .. a grade younger than me and hannah ) said we could all go over and drink.. and since it didnt look like we were gettin our weed we figured wut the hell why not... red had to be home by 6 tho cuz shes still grounded for gettin arrested. so robbies mom picked us up in her very nice range rover and drove us to robbies very nice house. when we got there we were surprised to see that robbie and vito(a really cute kid that was over lol hes also in 8th grd tho unfortunatly) had put out shot glasses on the kitchen table... but then we realized his mom didnt even care if we drank!!! she let us take all the alcohol in the back yard. so we went on the trampline and got really drunk... surprisingly i didnt throw up.. so then a little later robbies mom drove us to dunkin donuts and then me and hannah walked red home cuz we had our backpacks there... buuttt... we saw sal.. who said dan pack was getting alcohol and then they were all goin to sues, so me and hannah went with them and there was only suppose to be like 5 ppl there but 20 sumtin ppl showed up and sues mom was a lil pissed. anyway we got reallllly drunk even more drunk than before and i hooked up with this kid joe.. i think... well i kno it happened but i dont remmeber it actually happening. then we had to run all the way back to hannahs house to get picked up even tho my house was rite by sues.. looong story.. anyway yea.. then we just came to my house (piss drunk) and went to sleep. the next day (saturday ) was also supposed to be a great day. we were gonna go to greenwich village in nyc and i was gonna get my belly button pierced. we were on our way and then we made a HUGE MISTAKE. matt called my cell and asked us to come over...we thinkin they had weed went there since it was really close (well actually we saw scott daly half way so he drove us). jason parish was there and they had noo weed! but then kyle keyloune finally got some and we smoked out of matts really good bong... at first we were completely fine. we were laughing at everything and having a lot of fun being high. then we decided to leave so we get up to go. matt was trying to hook up with me and honestly i just wasnt in the mood to hook up with anyone i just wanted to chill.. but i did. then as we were leaving hannah hooked up with jason parish! i was REALLY surprised. EXTREMELY! i defently did not expect her to hook up with him like u could tell he was trying but i thought it wasnt even like an option i was like yea hanah DEF wouldnt hook up with him. but little did i i know!! hahahha! the reason i was surprised is cuz shes always like omg i hate parish with a passion hes such a fagget and all this shit. and shes always like yeaa hes sooo nasty i dont understand HOW he can get so much ass. and she always says how she hates him so much that even if he smoked her out she wouldnt wanna smoke with him cuz she cant stand him and shit. and also like i remmeber when pedro liked hannnah and wanted to hook up with her she WOULDNT do it when we were at his house like she kept pulling away. and i mean pedro is her friend and at least she likes him as a friend so u know why not? and she was even more fucked up the pedro time then this time. but she goes and hooks up with someone who she talks major shit about how she hates them so much and shit. wow i def did not expect that from her. o well lol w/e. anyway so then we go to leave, but matts house is like a 2 family house so u have to go down a buncha stairs and shit to get to the front door outside. and so we like went in the wrong door in some ppls house and it was hilarious. anyway then we go outside and we called a taxi cuz we realized we felt like soooo sick and wanted to throw up everywhere and we were both feeling like sooo depressed and it sucked ass. im def gonna not smoke weed as much, i dont like it NEARLY as much anymore. so we got our taxi went to hannahs and threw up .. A LOT, well actually i didnt throw up that much i threw up once and then i was better but hannah kept throwin up a lot. then i went home like 10 sumtin. soo yea yesterday basically sucked... if only when we were on the way to the train station and matt called we shoulda kept goin and got on our train to ny. we woulda had SUCH a better day... well i guess that teaches me a lesson : DO NOT SMOKE MARIJUANA WHEN YOU HAVE A HUGE HANGOVER. thats about it. later.

Current mood: crappy
Current music: not listenin to any
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Monday, October 27, 2003

4:21PM - its raining and your stupid

ok so today was um school...it wasnt bad it wasnt good it was just school. after school i had a cigret wit denine and then i jumped in puddles with hannah, owen, fee, mike, and crackhead. i got soaked and now my head kinda hurts. then i went home.. soaked. Friday is my birthday(big smile)... yes i know i was born on halloween ^_^. Hannahs gonna sleep at my house and before that were gonna smoke mary lol. hopefully... if we get the money for it cuz riite now were kinda broke ... and i was planning on buying a lot with all my bday money but thennnn i realized that i wouldnt be getting my bday money until like that day and that mite be too late to buy soo yeah. hannah and fee wanted to go trick or treating for a little so ill go w/e i hope not for too long tho lol im not really in the mood to trick or treat i just wanna get fucked up and party lol. soo yeaaa... hmm. well thats about it. later on.


--It's better to burn out than to fade away.--
-RIP Kurt Cobain

*BaBy DoN't CrY yOu GoTtA kEeP yA hEaD uP, eVeN wHeN tHe RoAd gEtS hArD nEvEr GiVe Up* -
-RIP TuPaC AmArU sHaKuR

Current mood: cynical
Current music: red hot chilli peppers - the zephyr song ^_^
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Sunday, October 26, 2003

10:58AM - i saw this shit on someones thingy so i said wut the hell why dont i put it on here??

000.Name: Radina
001.Nicknames: Dina, RDZ lol, RA ( only by the one and only jenny ) and more shit
002.D.O.B.: October 31 1988 ( yes im aware that i was born on halloween)
003.Location: ->>973<<- MiLLbUrN, NeW jErSeY--
004.Religion: Christian
005.Occupation: Student


APPEARANCE
001.Hair: brown
002.Eyes: bluish/green/grey.. yoo ppl always tell me im wearin contacts!!! im not i just have cool eyes! lol
003.Height: i think im almost 5'5

STYLE
001.Clothing: i dont know... anything i feel like wearing i dont really have a certain "style"
002.Music: a lot... umm rap, ska, rock
003.Make-up: eyeliner mascara eyeshadow lipgloss??
004.Body art: i want a tatoo


RIGHT NOW
002.Listening to: "That Girl" - Marques Houston.. such a great song lol
003.Thinking of: how fucking bored i am
LAST THING YOU...
001.Bought: marijuana? duh.. lol jp that was last week haha um prolly like food or sumtin idk lol
002.Ate and drank: coke and mac and cheese :-D
003.Read: this
004.Watched on TV: rocket power


EITHER / OR
001.Club or houseparty: both.. depends where theres the most drinks and bud lol
002.Tea or coffee: coffee
003.Achiever or slacker: defenitly a slacker lol
004.Beer or cider: beer
005.Drinks or shots: shots
006.Cats or dogs: dogs! i love em!
007.Single or taken: im single bitch
008.Pen or pencil: pen
009.Gloves or mittens: mittens are soo cool! i love them lol
010.Food or candy: i have a major sweet tooth! so candy lol
011.Cassette or cd: CD
012.Coke or Pepsi: pepsi is good but coke is the classic shit man so i gotta pick coke
013.Hard or mild alcohol: hard! i dont really like the taste so i just wanna get drunk quick and get it over with lol
014.Matches or a lighter: lighter... i never have one tho so i gotta light shit with matches
015.Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: the bold and the beautiful? wTF is that.. sunset beach i guess
016.Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey: ricki lake...oprah's boring.


WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
001.Kill: ...a lot of people!!! does that make me a terrible person??
002.Hear from: you
004.Look like: um... that hot girl in the rollin with mvp video ( lol hannah )
005.Be like: i dont fuckin know
006.Avoid: several people i dont wanna say

LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN?
001.Touched: what kinda touch do u mean? lol
002.Talked to: my mom
003.Hugged: my mom she just gave me a hug before she left
004.Instant messaged: sue
005.Kissed: in a non sexual way.. i think hannah
006.Who broke your heart: lets get off the topic...


WHERE DO YOU...
001.Eat: wherever
002.Dance: wherever theres music and im in the mood to dance
003.Cry: wherever i am when i get really upset but i usually try not to cry in front of people
004.Wish you were: in greenwich village, new york


HAVE YOU EVER...
001.Dated one of your best friends? um not one of my BEST friends lol
002.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yeaa
005.Broken the law: yea man i do almost every day lol
006.Ran away from home: well i didnt RUN
008.Cheated on a test: Of course.
009.Skinny dipped: haha...um no i havent done that yet.. mm i should try that sometime lol
010.Played truth or dare: who hasnt?
011.Flashed someone: nah.
012.Mooned someone: haha.. um i dont think so
013.Kissed someone you didn't know: yeah
014.Been on a talk/game show: Nope
015.Been in a fight: o yes
016.Ridden in a fire truck: yup i did that when i was little at one of those parade things it was fun!
017.Been on a plane: many times
018.Come close to dying: i dont think so
019.Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: yes i did, i dont think they know that though
020.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: o yeah all the time lol
021.Eaten a worm/mud pie? no
022.Swam in the ocean: hell yea
023.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: uh huh.


WHAT IS...
001. Music you can't stand? classical music bites my ass
002.Your bedroom like? well there is my computer which is black dell, theres my tv, my ps2, a black light, 2 black lights posters, a bunch of pics and posters of cars, alcohol, ppl, and shit on the wall. um my bed, my desk
003.Your favorite thing for breakfast? french toast is so yummy
004.Your favorite thing for lunch? mm im hungry
005.Your favorite thing for dinner? feed me
006.Your favorite Restaurant? wendy's! lol and kfc.. o and talking about real restaurants Joe's Pizza in greenwich village in nyc is def. the best pizza on earth.


ARE YOU...
001.A Vegetarian?: no meat is so tasty
002.A Good Student?: im okay
003.Good At Sports?: when i feel like playin im alrite.. i used to be great when i was little but i stopped playin
004.Good at surfing/snowboarding: nah i only did each like twice ... i was alrite at snowboarding but surfings hard man
005.A Good Singer?: hah not really
006.A good Actor/Actress?: i dont know im ok i guess lol
007.A deep sleeper?: YES defenitly
008.A Good Dancer?: im alrite
009.Shy?: no
010.Outgoing?: yea
011.A good storyteller?: sure..why not
012.Last words?: mo0o0o0o

Haha ok well um yeah... that was exciting

Current mood: dorky
Current music: baby dont cry - tupac
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10:25AM - i saw this shit on someones thingy so i said wut the hell why dont i put it on here??

000.Name: Radina
001.Nicknames: Dina, RDZ lol, RA ( only by the one and only jenny ) and more shit
002.D.O.B.: October 31 1988 ( yes im aware that i was born on halloween)
003.Location: ->>973<<- MiLLbUrN, NeW jErSeY--
004.Religion: Christian
005.Occupation: Student


APPEARANCE
001.Hair: brown
002.Eyes: bluish/green/grey.. yoo ppl always tell me im wearin contacts!!! im not i just have cool eyes! lol
003.Height: i think im almost 5'5

STYLE
001.Clothing: i dont know... anything i feel like wearing i dont really have a certain "style"
002.Music: a lot... umm rap, ska, rock
003.Make-up: eyeliner mascara eyeshadow lipgloss??
004.Body art: i want a tatoo


RIGHT NOW
002.Listening to: "That Girl" - Marques Houston.. such a great song lol
003.Thinking of: how fucking bored i am
LAST THING YOU...
001.Bought: marijuana? duh.. lol jp that was last week haha um prolly like food or sumtin idk lol
002.Ate and drank: coke and mac and cheese :-D
003.Read: this
004.Watched on TV: rocket power


EITHER / OR
001.Club or houseparty: both.. depends where theres the most drinks and bud lol
002.Tea or coffee: coffee
003.Achiever or slacker: defenitly a slacker lol
004.Beer or cider: beer
005.Drinks or shots: shots
006.Cats or dogs: dogs! i love em!
007.Single or taken: im single bitch
008.Pen or pencil: pen
009.Gloves or mittens: mittens are soo cool! i love them lol
010.Food or candy: i have a major sweet tooth! so candy lol
011.Cassette or cd: CD
012.Coke or Pepsi: pepsi is good but coke is the classic shit man so i gotta pick coke
013.Hard or mild alcohol: hard! i dont really like the taste so i just wanna get drunk quick and get it over with lol
014.Matches or a lighter: lighter... i never have one tho so i gotta light shit with matches
015.Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: the bold and the beautiful? wTF is that.. sunset beach i guess
016.Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey: ricki lake...oprah's boring.


WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
001.Kill: ...a lot of people!!! does that make me a terrible person??
002.Hear from: you
004.Look like: um... that hot girl in the rollin with mvp video ( lol hannah )
005.Be like: i dont fuckin know
006.Avoid: several people i dont wanna say

LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN?
001.Touched: what kinda touch do u mean? lol
002.Talked to: my mom
003.Hugged: my mom she just gave me a hug before she left
004.Instant messaged: sue
005.Kissed: in a non sexual way.. i think hannah
006.Who broke your heart: lets get off the topic...


WHERE DO YOU...
001.Eat: wherever
002.Dance: wherever theres music and im in the mood to dance
003.Cry: wherever i am when i get really upset but i usually try not to cry in front of people
004.Wish you were: in greenwich village, new york


HAVE YOU EVER...
001.Dated one of your best friends? um not one of my BEST friends lol
002.Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? yeaa
005.Broken the law: yea man i do almost every day lol
006.Ran away from home: well i didnt RUN
008.Cheated on a test: Of course.
009.Skinny dipped: haha...um no i havent done that yet.. mm i should try that sometime lol
010.Played truth or dare: who hasnt?
011.Flashed someone: nah.
012.Mooned someone: haha.. um i dont think so
013.Kissed someone you didn't know: yeah
014.Been on a talk/game show: Nope
015.Been in a fight: o yes
016.Ridden in a fire truck: yup i did that when i was little at one of those parade things it was fun!
017.Been on a plane: many times
018.Come close to dying: i dont think so
019.Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: yes i did, i dont think they know that though
020.Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: o yeah all the time lol
021.Eaten a worm/mud pie? no
022.Swam in the ocean: hell yea
023.Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: uh huh.


WHAT IS...
001. Music you can't stand? classical music bites my ass
002.Your bedroom like? well there is my computer which is black dell, theres my tv, my ps2, a black light, 2 black lights posters, a bunch of pics and posters of cars, alcohol, ppl, and shit on the wall. um my bed, my desk
003.Your favorite thing for breakfast? french toast is so yummy
004.Your favorite thing for lunch? mm im hungry
005.Your favorite thing for dinner? feed me
006.Your favorite Restaurant? wendy's! lol and kfc.. o and talking about real restaurants Joe's Pizza in greenwich village in nyc is def. the best pizza on earth.


ARE YOU...
001.A Vegetarian?: no meat is so tasty
002.A Good Student?: im okay
003.Good At Sports?: when i feel like playin im alrite.. i used to be great when i was little but i stopped playin
004.Good at surfing/snowboarding: nah i only did each like twice ... i was alrite at snowboarding but surfings hard man
005.A Good Singer?: hah not really
006.A good Actor/Actress?: i dont know im ok i guess lol
007.A deep sleeper?: YES defenitly
008.A Good Dancer?: im alrite
009.Shy?: no
010.Outgoing?: yea
011.A good storyteller?: sure..why not
012.Last words?: mo0o0o0o

Haha ok well um yeah... that was exciting

Current mood: dorky
Current music: baby dont cry - tupac
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Saturday, October 25, 2003

3:57PM - whatever

yeah its like 5 oclock on saturday and im sitting here doing nothing... wow souds like great fun huh? yeah im sooo amused. yesterday school was gay as fuck as usual and couldnt fucking wait for that bullshit to end and then it finally did. hannah didnt go to school because she didnt feel like it so after school i went to her house. then sofia and bella stopped by for a minute or two and then they left. at around 6 me and hannah finished wut we had left of the 8th which we bought last week. and surprisingly we got like 6 joints out of it ! we thought wed be lucky if we get like 3 or 4 but i guess the shit was reeeeallly dense. so yeah of course we got extremely fucked up and ate a disgusting amount of food.. hmm lets see like 4 bags of chips, pizza, a BUNCH of candy, 3 donuts, oreos, a cookie, and umm more shit that i cant remember. and im still fucking hungry as hell!!! lol and im soo burnt out. anyway umm then we went into town for a little it was pretty boring. so last night my mom calls me and is like anne and george ( sofias parents from maine ) called and they wanna go if u wanna go sleep at their friends apartment wit sofia in nyc and then go to the yankee game tomorrow nite (tonite) ... and i was like fuck i cant becuz hannahs sleepin over and i cant cancel on her cuz thatd be so dick. so then my mom was like ok ill tell her. so then sofia calls me later and i was fucked up off my ass smokin a joint while talkin to her and shes like blah blah blah and im like o yeah my mom told me but i cant cuz hannah has to sleep at my house... and then hannah starts like making the eating out signs and like throwing shit at me and doing stupid shit and since i was so fucked up i was laughing histerically so sofia hung up on me so i called her back and she was really upset and i apoligized but she seemed really upset and so yea i couldnt go to the yankee game with them :(. but im really pissed because today hannah is hangin out with sofia marques and jenny(she just came to visit again for the weekend) and hannah didnt even fucking invite me!!! and there doing like all this shit like going to nyc and to the jersey gardens mall! and i wasnt gonna like invite myself but i cant believe she didnt even ask me to go. HOW fucked up is that??? i mean seriously...she slept over my house and she knew i gave up something like really fun ( going to NY and the game with sofia ) to have her sleepover and shit and then she like calls sofia and jenny and is on the fone with them all morning and then just like leaves my house at 11 to go to sofias... if i were her i would DEF invite her like no question about it id be like omg u have to come with us it would be so much fun !!! but of course shes a fucking bitchh about it and she cant invite me ... w/e im really pissed .. fuck her !!!
p.s.... sof im sry i couldnt see you!

Current mood: bitchy
Current music: weed song - bone thugs
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Tuesday, October 21, 2003

3:38PM - burnt out

today was pretty....amazing ^_^. there was delayed opening for school because the juniors were taking the SATs so we the freshman, and sophmores and seniors too i think, got to go to school at 10:45. my parents both leave for work early, and i didnt feel like walking so me and hannah decided for me to get dropped off at her house the regular time school woulda started.. like 7:30 or sumtin, and chill there and when her mom leaves for work, at around 8:30, to wake and bake. so of course we did. we smoked at around 9:30 and we smoked 2 and a half strawberry flavored joints. then we went to the public library because hannah had to make copies of sumtin and then we went to school. bella, chris, and ian also blazed so it was cool. our periods were all mixed up like we had i think it was homeroom, 7, 5, 8, 1, and 2. my 7 period class which i had first today is geometry and luckily i sit in the back becuz i was VERY fucked up. he called on me like 4 times and i was just like uh i dont know. everything was just like a big blur lol. then i had lunch ... hehe munchies! 5 period i was pretty high, things looked clearer and werent all a big blur, but i i was still laughing at ... umm... everything. after that pretty much i was just really burnt out and tired. my head was definetly NOT clear... but i was fine. then after school i went to town and hung out with hannah bella mike paul tyler and some other ppl and then i came home... mmm i want more pot :-D...we still have a lot left surprisingly and u kno wut that means... friday nite :-) ... yeah.. umm my birthday is in like a week and 3 days... eh. well thats about it. bye for now.

Current mood: hungry
Current music: AND im very tired...o yea im listenin to bob marley
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Sunday, October 19, 2003

4:50PM - im sleepy

this weekend was over all pretty good. friday was kinda shitty because me and hannah had been saving up all week to buy an 8th on friday but then andrew never got it so we couldnt buy it from him. and i mean we were really saving like our lunch money and everything. so we were really pissed we couldnt get it. but we did get it last night (saturday night). yesterday first we went to greenwich village and soho in nyc. we took the train to penn station n then the 1 and 9 subway to greenwich village. it was A LOT of fun there holy shit that place is fucking awesome. theres all these places that sell like bongs and pieces and papers, like every other store is like that lol. we bought some rolling papers ( strawberry flavored yum) and if i had some money i woulda gotten my tongue pierced cuz u dont need parents in some of the places. in one of the stores there was this really fucking creepy old guy who like told us he was god and that he was gonna teach us a lesson or some bullshit it was freaky so we left lol. then we bought our 8th from andrew and went to her house ( her mom wasnt coming home for the nite ) so we smoked in her room. and we like hot boxed it. we smoked 4 joints, 2 bowls in our home made piece, and like 2 bowls in our home-made hookah lol. we were fucked up off our asses. we def. think it was laced because we were hallucinating like crazy and pots not really suppose to make u do that. anyway her room reeked holy shit until this morning!!! we couldnt get the smell out but we finally did. anyway um today hannah came over becuz we had to watch the history channal together for history and we had to write some shit on it so i met up with her at cvs and we walked back to my house... buuuuttt.. before that we took a little detour ( smiles ) lol... um yeah .. we went on the train tracks where we smoked 2 pre rolled strawberry flavored joints that hannah had already rolled at her house and we got very fucked up, not as much as last night obviously, but still cuz the joints were so fat. we could hardly walk lol and we were like screaming stuff at suza's house as we walked by. then we came here and like nothing was on the history channal so we watched this really bad bullshit but w/e it will do. ew i dont wanna fucking go to school tomorrow. but yay im excited about tuesday because we get to go to school at like 10 something since theres SATs so im gonna go to hannahs house early and were gonna wake n bake before school in the res. :-) (huuuge smile) well thats about it... bye for now, im very tired and burnt out so i think im gonna go to sleep... fuck n then i have to write that stupid ass history paper. god fucking damn it school sucks balls.

Current mood: sleepy
Current music: no music but i am watching newly weds .. hehe
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Thursday, October 16, 2003

4:26PM - shoot me

well i havnt written here for a few days but i havnt really had time or when i did i was just too depressed or lazy to actually get on here and write so here it goes... the other day my dad came and was being a complete and total dick to me and made me feel like complete shit. he yelled at me about everything i did becuz he is a fuck and made me feel like complete shit i just said whatever and tried to ignore his stupidity but it got to a point where i couldnt fuckin take it so i cursed him off and got into a huge ass fight with him... and the worst thing i regret is that i cut again for the first time in a very long time... i hate to think im that weak that i do something like that and turn to that shit that i promised myself iwouldnt do again, but wut can i say im stupid... i cant wait until tomorrow ( friday ) because me and hannah are buying a 8th and smokin all weekend :-). well i still havnt talked to my dad he said not to call him for anything anymore and flipped the shit on me so w/e, i dont really fuckin care i just wish i hadnt fuckin cut. well w/e lifes a bitch and then u die .. someone fucking shoot me please.

Current mood: depressed
Current music: nirvana
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Monday, October 13, 2003

4:22PM - umm yea...

today was a half day :-). me nd hannah met at dunkin donuts but then her mom called my cell n told her that she forgot her keys so we had to walk back to her house and by then it was already like 1st period so her mom wrote us a note. we came to school at like 8:05. my 1st period teacher was being such a fucking bitch. last week me n ariana ditched 6 period togethter and then at the end of school i went to talk to my 6 period writin teacher so that she didnt send it down as a cut to the office and i was like yeh my friend was cryin n shit so i had to stay with her and my 1st period english teacher mrs cross was there so she over heard. so today when i was late shes liek getting to class has been a problem for u hasnt it? and i was like uh not really and shes like yeh well u had a situation with mrs krueger last week and this is the second tiem uve been late to my class. stupid fat fuck its none of her business i had a fucking pass sooo wut right does she have to get into my business why doesnt she go eat some more donuts! omg these fucking stupid ppl piss me off... anyway after school i chilled and d did nothing wow fun yeh i went to hannahs for a little and looked at bongs online lol... umm yeah thats about it.

bYe!

- i can drink a whole hennessey fifth, some call that a problem but i call it a gift -

Current mood: blah
Current music: bob marley :-
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4:22PM - umm yea...

today was a half day :-). me nd hannah met at dunkin donuts but then her mom called my cell n told her that she forgot her keys so we had to walk back to her house and by then it was already like 1st period so her mom wrote us a note. we came to school at like 8:05. my 1st period teacher was being such a fucking bitch. last week me n ariana ditched 6 period togethter and then at the end of school i went to talk to my 6 period writin teacher so that she didnt send it down as a cut to the office and i was like yeh my friend was cryin n shit so i had to stay with her and my 1st period english teacher mrs cross was there so she over heard. so today when i was late shes liek getting to class has been a problem for u hasnt it? and i was like uh not really and shes like yeh well u had a situation with mrs krueger last week and this is the second tiem uve been late to my class. stupid fat fuck its none of her business i had a fucking pass sooo wut right does she have to get into my business why doesnt she go eat some more donuts! omg these fucking stupid ppl piss me off... anyway after school i chilled and d did nothing wow fun yeh i went to hannahs for a little and looked at bongs online lol... umm yeah thats about it.

bYe!

- i can drink a whole hennessey fifth, some call that a problem but i call it a gift -

Current mood: blah
Current music: bob marley :-) high music lol
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Saturday, October 11, 2003

8:21PM - blow me

im so bored, i have absolutely nothing to do im just sitting here ... i didnt go out cuz i was too tired n too lazy and too hung over to go out ... im just sitting here with my black light on and i just got off the fone with mike cuz my cellph0ne died and its recharging.. and my stupid bitch moms on the fucking house phone and wont get her sorry ass off of it so that i can talk on that .. noo shes too fucking selfish to care about anyone but herself and her stupid ass friends on the phone..

Current mood: bored
Current music: good ridance - green day
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3:31PM - die

life is so fucking boring... my fucking god i wish i had a car.. speakin of cars, ben just got his 2004 wrangler yesterday and this morning me and hannah went to his house cuz she slept over and we looked at his car and he drove us to get food wit his dad in the car cuz he doesnt have his license yet n then his dad left and we just like drove up n down the driveway basically lol and he let me and hannah drive down the drive way once lol... it was so funny cause his car the top can fold back so it comes off basically and he was tryin to do it by takin out the fuckin screws so it like fucked it up cuz ur not suppose to do that and he told me and hannah to do it and we told him that we didnt think they were suppose to come out but he was like no im sure i read the manual so we tried taking them out and he had this really shitty screw driver so it didnt work cuz they were so tight cuz they arent supposed to be taken out, and its not the easiest thing tryin to do that with a major hang over :-/ . so then george came to see the car and he saw that ben fucked up the top so we finally fixed it ... and um thats basically it. its a really hot car , i think i mite want that as my first car maybe but idk ... its so hot tho. last nite i got really fucked up... first i went to andrews wit hannah and smoked a lot and then we went to town and we chilled with some ppl like boris ariana suza and uh ... liv, ian, mike, owen , paul , a buncha ppl ...... and it was kinda boring and everyone was like pissin me off cuz they kept saying i was being an asshole to andrew or sumtin just cuz i wouldnt hook up with him cuz he smoked me out but it was kinda fun n then we went to my house and got really drunk... and i dont really remmeber wut happened too much after that lol and this morning i was REALLY hung over and i think hannah was too... life is really fucking boring tho it sucks asssss...u suck too! die! bye

Current mood: hung over
Current music: bob marley :-)
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Wednesday, October 8, 2003

5:23PM - my ass

today was booorrring.. another day of school fun huh? met up at dunkin donuts wit hannah wow im so proud of her she wasnt late today then we went to school. then i chilled wit hananh n sofia after school ... it was so boring. hmm lenny wants me to dress thug on friday? dunno ... well i dont have "thug" close he said he wants to give me thug close lol ... but aint happenin lol... i have a shit load of hw like an esay and shit but that can wait until later, for now im just sitting here doing nothing and talking to people on online and there windows keep poppin up its annoyin man. friday after school me n hnnah are goin to go tannin at the tan place in millburn. and then hopefully we gonna smoke i hope. our lifes have been filled wit that lately lol :-) oh and announcment: vicky needs a bra! man i was sittin in art damn wow those things were out of control and like poppin out onto her desk... i mean shes a nice girl but come on have some r-e-s-p-e-c-t for ur classmates jeez wow... ok anyway um im gonna go have a cigret in like 30 mins wit ben :-) thats about it. bite me bitch.. bye for now :-)

Current mood: lazy
Current music: none.. just watchn porno come join me u horny son of a bitch
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Tuesday, October 7, 2003

4:19PM - beep beep!

ok um i have nothing to write today nothing happened i went to school hung out in town uh yeah... ill talk to u all later... well actually shit did happen but nothing i feel like writin about im tired... bye
-dina-

Current mood: okay
Current music: not listenin to music..wtf..ok im goin to put on music now
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Monday, October 6, 2003

4:59PM - umm

hi. yeah... this is my first entry. life's not too bad rite now i guess. things are ok. today we didnt have school and i did basically nothing all day. this weekend was pretty fun though. i smoked with hannah and some other people on friday night and we got pretty fucked up. then we umm...yeah i dont really remember, i dont think anything interesting happened after that. saturday i think i went to the mall. all day yesterday till about 8 something i went to nyc with hannah and jenny. jenny visited from lawereceville ( or however u spell the schools name ) for the weekend. we had a lot of fun and did a lot of shit. today me and hannah were gonna smoke again but we couldnt unfortunatly. tomorrow i get to go to school .. woo.. im so excited i think im gonna explode. well thats about it im gonna go take a shower cuz i feel dirty and then maybe i might just start that long essay thats due tomorrow ... or maybe not.. who knows.. bye..and if u dont like my journal then fuck u and have a nice day.

Current mood: dirty
Current music: you know you're right- nirvana
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