Azrylle's Blurty

Well... I just made an attempt at getting John to come up and be my "date" for the Valentine's Banquet... I mean, he didn't freak out and think I was hitting on him... but he didn't concede either. He has a concert that night, which really sucks. I'm tired of going to these things with people who I hardly know or am afraid that they like me when I don't reciprocate. Of course, in response to my lamentations, all John can say is "seriously, formals/banquets are things that should've died in high school." -_- thanks, John.... Ugh, so now I dunno what I'm gonna do. I know no one is gonna ask me, cuz even the guys I do know well enough to enjoy the company of, they've all got other girls in mind. I give up. Plus, just when I was starting to trust Kat again, she went and betrayed me AGAIN. She talked to Biddy last night and was asking him all this stuff about the issues that have made me choose not to talk to him anymore. THEN she came back to me today and was telling me how wrong I am for ignoring him and blah, blah, blah. Thank you very much, I'm entitled to feel how I want to feel about people and situations, and it wasn't HER who got hurt and screwed over totally, so I do NOT want to hear her crap anymore. It's really none of her business - it's between me and Biddy. Forget all of them. They aren't worth my time at all, and I think I'm finally understanding how true that is. Thanks, God, for showing me how right Mom has been all this time. I'm through with this. I know the people who haven't let me down yet and who I know aren't so wishy-washy as some. There are only a few who I can tell pretty much everything... like a whole FIVE out of 600. There might have been six, had Kat not stabbed me in the back, but... c'est la vie. Anyway, I'm keeping everything to myself now, because it's not worth the crap I get later. I might tell Christina or Lyndal, but mark them probably the only ones, unless Sarah wanted to know stuff.

Current Mood: cynical
Current Music: Born Too Slow, by The Crystal Method