Thursday, January 22nd, 2004

Time	Event
1:19a	It is a very disheartening thing to walk into a crowded cafeteria and not be able to find one single person to sit with. That happened to me tonight... But things got a little better later. I went to Walmart with Kat, Heather, and Aaron, which is always a nice little vacation ... but I couldn't stay too long cuz I had mounds of reading for homework to do! There was just one thing about the Walmart trip that bothered me.. or rather what WOULD have been the Walmart trip if things had gone as I feared they might. You see, we were all waiting in the lobby about to leave when Kat sees Lesbo come in... and she invites her to come along! What kind of friend does that?! Just cuz she's decided to be all chummy with that disgusting leech doesn't mean it's right for her as my friend to subject me to such uncomfortable situations. I definitely did not appreciate that, especially because she KNOWS our history! Besides, she had made a comment earlier today in Chem class that kinda pissed me off too... Just because I had other homework I had to do and was choosing not to go to the lab today for time reasons, she gave me this look like "what a retard, that's a stupid thing to do." What does she know of my schedule? What happened to the COOL Kat I remember? She's like a walking timebomb these days... she hasn't been like she used to be, and I can definitely say I do NOT like the new Kat. She's not as good of a friend to me as she once was, and if she's going to be putting me through painful moments and hurtful opinions, I want none of it! She better change, or she can just forget about my friendship, cuz what she's doing is NOT what real friends do to each other!!! I wanna know that someone out there REALLY cares about me... where's Dweenie when I need her? I wish I was back at home... I want to be home now, with my parents, and with my brother, so I can hang out with him and make him feel better during his hard time too. We'll suffer our loneliness together! And Dweenie and Cherith... after the time I spent with them over winter break, I think I can safely say they care about me. Where are those people who actually wouldcheer me up? At home, that's where. They listen to everything I need to say and they don't judge it, which is more than practically anyone at BRYAN can say! I won't name the ones who still mean something to me, at the risk of leaving out a name or two unintentionally. For those few, I love you. For the others, why do I even waste brain cells on the thought of you???? ARGH!! I'm so tired of all this crap. So tired... Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Say It Isn't So, by The Outfield (Comment on this)
1:34p	Okay, so today has been better than yesterday - except for one tiny thing: FRED. He definitely came to say hi to me this morningwhen I got out of the shower. I freaked out too, cuz it really wasn't smart of me to be using white towels during the "time of the unknown." OK, so I'm an idiot, sue me! LOL. Anyway, I hate Fred. He's a real pain in the butt - really. Intro to Bible went well today, cuz despite the fact that generally I don't have the attention span for an hour and 15 min. class, I actually stayed with the mainstream discussion. I mean, yeah, I daydreamed every once and a while, but not as much as usual. wOOt! So anyway, I am reeeally not looking forward to Zoology lab in an hour... THREE HOURS of that, dude. UGH, it makes me wanna shoot myself in the face cuz I am SO tired. I don't know why, cuz I slept a lot last night (no chapel today so I got to sleep in ^_^) - it might be cuz I was having to get all my reading for Intro to Bible done last night, so I had to skip my nightly 30 min. walk. Oh well, I'll walk tonight, and hopefully I'll get to go to the weight room and work on my upper body again. Now that my abs aren't screaming with pain from that first time, I'll probably be able to get back on those machines. Okay, okay, enough about that... all I wanna do is be braindead until I have to go to lab... I'm just gonna sit here on my bed and listen to music.... Man I can't wait till this week is over, cuz I am so homework-ed out!! >. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Juliet, by LMNT (Comment on this)
5:29p	CURSES TO ALL MEN... okay, so just Biddy. I got out of Zoology lab early today cuz Natalie Best is my lab partner and we decided we're going to take time this weekend to read over everything before we dive into our lab work.. We'll do that on Tuesday of next week. Anyway, so I'm registering for a friend from home, Katie, to spend the night on Friday night when I hear the card beep at the door to Long Dorm around the corner. Then I hear the door being pulled again and again but not opening, so I decide to be nice and let the poor girl in. WEEELLL... it ends up actually being stupid Biddy at the door, and naturally I didn't let him in - besides, his card worked right at that moment. When I saw him though, I accidentally mumbled "Figures.." out loud. He just had this retarded look on his staring face. Grrr...!!!! Then he waits for a while on the other side of the wall (cuz by this time, I've gone back around the corner to finish filling out that form) and then Natalie Campbell (his wretched girlfriend) comes up the stairs from the base floor and sees the back of my head then sees him, and starts laughing. Yes, that's right, laugh it up, you despicable trollop. I'll be the one laughing when the two of you come to your tragic end.. and if you two actually make it, I pray for the sake of the human race and the entire world that you aren't able to reproduce. --Dear spirits, take that thought from my head!! *smacks forehead repeatedly* I never want to have that mental image EVER. *shudders* Anyway, I don't want to think about them anymore at all. I have successfully not spoken a word to Craig Biddy since the week before Thanksgiving break, and I intend to keep it that way, but that doesn't keep him from showing up wherever I am on campus *growls*... I swear, there is no getting rid of that craphead. Okay, since it would be an abomination to devote a whole journal entry to that ass, whether it's in insult form or not, I'm going to write about something else for a little bit... but it probably won't be very long, cuz I'm tired of typing (I did have a long entry after this point, but this is the only part I saved, and I accidentally pushed the back key *cries* all is lost, CRAP IN A HAT!!!! I was saying how I'm looking forward to the weekend, but there's gonna be some problems with my schedule during it.... You see, my former brother hall is finally showing the guy flick for them and my former hallmates tomorrow night... and I've been looking forward to this for a while now! But it so happens that Robbie, Abby, and I were planning on watching Life As A House that night too. So I'm hoping that I can persuade Robbie and Abby to watch their movie earlier on and hope that the other starts later in the night, so that if I'm lucky, I can watch both all the way through! Yeah right, I doubt the likelihood of that happening, but it sure would be nice. Katie, like I said, will be coming to spend the night that night too, but that shouldn't be a problem as long as she's willing to come with me to watch both movies - cuz I AM watching them one way or another! LoL Anyway, it was funny though. Today I saw Tim Opelt come up to the cafe as I was sitting down with my food. While I was eating, and while he was waiting for his food to be made, I felt a bump on my table... it felt like it had come from below me, like someone had kicked my chair or the leg of the table, but I knew no one was near me. I thought to myself "...surely, Tim isn't being retarded and throwing stuff at me..." So I got up to throw away some of my trash and refill my drink as Tim was getting his food, and he said I should look under my chair. I laughed and told him what I had thought and that apparently I had been wrong about it... So I did as was suggested to me, and there it was - my highlighter that I had let him borrow like at the beginning of last semester hehehe. Every time I've seen him, I've always been like, "You still have my highlighter.." and then I'd smile teasingly. I guess he got tired of my bothering him hehehehe. Well, it's weird cuz I had a dream about him last night or the night before last,-- I'm standing next to a sink or something, and he sees me and is like "are you okay? you look like you're about to faint..." Sure enough, I pass out... and for whatever reason (you know how dreams are), my shirt is off when I hit the ground (I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!! o.O) ...but Tim runs over to me and tries to help me... but that's weird since I'm only wearing my bra. I don't remember anything else happening, but yeah... so, when I saw him today, I was like "oh no..." and then I kind of laughed to myself. Anyway, after he was done eating, he left, and I didn't hear him go, but I did glance around later and saw that he was gone. I decided to try to get a headstart on my reading for next week in Intro to Bible, so I pulled out the assignment sheet and my Bible..... Yeah so I looked down at the assignment for next week.. Guess what it says the Scripture reading is? "2 Tim 1-4; 2 Tim 1; 2 Tim 2; 2 Tim 3; 2 Timothy 4" ... I rolled my eyes and muttered under my breath, "Funny, God. Reeeally funny." No blasphemy intended, of course, but I mean, come on, what are the odds of that?? Well, I wrote more than I intended to! So now I'm off to dinner... I have less time now, cuz instead of the usual time, it started at 5 and ends at 6 tonight... So see all of you later! Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Dead Boy's Poem, by Nightwish (Comment on this)

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