| *2004--sucks already |
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*well 2004 is finally here! and im glad it is!..well i was glad..i hung out wih my family and then went to jenns..and i was actually allowed..but only bc my mom let me..and it was the best night ever!! i was so glad i got to go there..it was great..every time im with her its like everything else doesnt matter..bc im so glad i get to see my best friend bc our parents are assholes..our fathers dont understand shit! fathers always have to make daughters lives a living hell..and thats what ours are doing!!
*yeh..i got a new years resolution..my last year was to stop being a bitch to everyone..and stop smokin n shit..well gee that didnt work..well this years is to just not give a fuck about the little things..and just to give up on the shit im not gunna get..or had my chance and its gone now..ie--jeffrey..he told me he liked me..and got a gf..but yah know wut..im happy he does..as long as hes happy thats fine with me..same with mike..things dont always work out like i want them too..and thats just too bad..atleast someone is happy here!! im glad..really i am
*on another note..since mikes gotta gf thing goin on..i have no date to the semi..oh fucking well for me..i dont even have a fuckin dress or anything..but stefano sed hed go with me..and ever better..he gets to stay here all weekend!! ahh..lotsa sex that night!! jking--jking but he gets to sleep in my bed!! woohoooooooo...thats even better than chris--hah sorry man..i still love you too!!!!!!
*anyways..things with sean are going good..i just wish we could have the talks and the stuff that we did before..i was so happy when i was with him..he was the only one who treated me right..and all that good junk..shit happens..but then we realized that we had to be best friends no matter what..and im glad we did..im so glad hes there for me and such..bc he is the bestest!! ryan likes tina..tina likes ryan..tina and ryan are probably gunna go out..i guess im happy..its just that i was the last person ryan was with..and i love that kid to peices..hes the best thing that ever happened to me..and him being my best friend i dont wanna see him with someone..i mean i love tina..shes the coolest..but i just dont know..wutever..like i said to matt..i wish that fuckin skiier dude would have hit me just a little bit harder..maybe he woulda killed me! yay..danas not here anymore..cry me a fuckin river..but then yah know wut..i dwell on the stupidest fucking shit..i mean come on..get the fuck over it..theres so much better stuff out there waiting for me...........somewheres..please..come here..i need it now!! i cant wait 4 months to go to florida..and its not even a vacation..my dad and tommy are going!!!!! talk about being up your ass all the time!! and then im goin to daytona in july..but thats way too far away..i cant wait that long..i need to go away nowww!!!! im taking caitlin with me and we are goin on a god damn getaway..where we can have sex (not w. each other lol!!) all day and night..every day and night! and not give a shit about anything!! yeh..wish that could happen..maybe ill win the lottery and leave this shithole..another thing that will not happen..oh fuckin well!!!
*well im gunna go to bed..piss off yah fuckers!
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