| Sick sad little world |
[11 Apr 2004|04:01pm] |
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Incubus - Sick Sad Little World |
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No, you're not the first to fall apart
but always the first one to complain
you better get careful or
you'll compromise everything you are
The world is a drought when out of love
please come back to us
you're all of the above
"I'm making a choice to be out of touch
leave me be" he said
he said, he said
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
I've never had unpaid confidantes
it's more than I would care to explain
but I have an open door
policy when it comes to blame
The world is a joke when out of love
please come back to us
you're all of the above
"I'm making a choice to be out of touch
leave me be" he said
he said, he said
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
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solitude | aggression
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| Sick sad little world |
[11 Apr 2004|04:01pm] |
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Incubus - Sick Sad Little World |
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No, you're not the first to fall apart
but always the first one to complain
you better get careful or
you'll compromise everything you are
The world is a drought when out of love
please come back to us
you're all of the above
"I'm making a choice to be out of touch
leave me be" he said
he said, he said
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
I've never had unpaid confidantes
it's more than I would care to explain
but I have an open door
policy when it comes to blame
The world is a joke when out of love
please come back to us
you're all of the above
"I'm making a choice to be out of touch
leave me be" he said
he said, he said
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
"Leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world
leave me here in my
stark raving sick sad little world"
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solitude | aggression
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| Who knows? |
[09 Apr 2004|02:35am] |
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311 - Eons |
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I'm sad, lonely, and I feel like any inkling of energy has been sucked out of me. I'm so angry at myself, because I am so worthless. The walls are calling to me. This fucking sucks. What the hell am I doing? What the hell is wrong with me?
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solitude | aggression
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| Why?...Why not? |
[22 Mar 2004|07:08pm] |
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Lo-pro - Sunday |
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What's wrong with me?
I'm out here on a limb for you again
Around and around we go
Getting nowhere
Why can't I explain the way I feel again
Why can't I just stand
Instead I crawl again
Why does it always feel like Sunday
Like Sunday
I hacked myself to bits for you again
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solitude | aggression
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| 3 days |
[17 Mar 2004|07:16am] |
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RCsoundminers - (Isogone) He fights for us |
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Three days till I'm with the person that means the most to me. One week together, I need this, so much.
After that my journey begins, after that, my life begins. Its going to be tough but maybe, just maybe, I'll have the life I deserve.
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solitude 2 nothing(s) | aggression
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| What a night... |
[14 Mar 2004|06:41pm] |
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EDGEY - RESIST |
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Ok so this a bit late but so what. I went to Platinum 2 days ago, by myself... So what I still had a fucking great time. Saw 3 dj's, Dieselboy, Pendulum, and Tech Itch. The place has a really nice EAW soundsystem, which made the whole night that much more enjoyable.
Well how were the sets? Awesome. Pendulum I never heard before. Very nice progressive set. Didn't recognize half the shit he mixed but it was still good. Dieselboy was...well he was Dieselboy. Not much else to say. Unimpressive set overall but I guess he runs out of ideas spinning every thursday for years and years. Anyway, on to Tech Itch.
His set was in a word, SICK! SICK! SICK! I had high hopes before he even started but he far surpassed. Some of the most evil, twisted, and disgusting breaks I've ever heard. And even though the set got progressively more and more aggressive as it went on, he never left you feeling like you couldn't dance (I don't either way) or at least move around. Which was good for everyone else there and kept the energy in the room going. I can't even describe how aggressive some of the songs were. Was I listening to Panacea? Ok maybe not that brutal, but enough to make me very very satisfied.
All in all it was an excellent show and even though the commute home was a bitch and a half (considering that I didn't get home till nearly 4AM) it was worth it I'm defintely going back everytime that Tech itch spins.
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solitude | aggression
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[05 Mar 2004|10:02am] |
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Technical Itch - Abduction (Technical Itch & Decoder remix) |
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You seem angry and I don't know why. You won't talk to me, I'm angry. You ask me what's wrong, I'm afraid to tell you. I'm tired of apologizing. I will try and speak my mind.
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solitude 1 nothing(s) | aggression
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| Once again |
[21 Feb 2004|08:33pm] |
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Lo-Pro - Reach |
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Once again, lyrics that ring too close to home. I hate people. Don't mind me, I'm in one of those "angry at the world" moods.
I run away
But never have to go far
Cuz I know a place, where I'll be (living in my head)
Far away from everything
You'll never reach me
Never see me
Sinking any lower
you'll never reach me
Never see me
And that's what makes me happy
Up here again
I always win
Cuz I know a way
Cuz I know a place (living in my head)
Far away from everything
You'll never reach me
Never see me
Sinking any lower
you'll never reach me
Never see me
And that's what makes me happy
All around me
I've heard empty faces
Speaking empty words
You'll never reach me
Never see me
Sinking any lower
you'll never reach me
Never see me
And that's what makes me happy
Living in my head
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solitude | aggression
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| One day |
[18 Feb 2004|10:33pm] |
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PNFA - Lava |
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Please forgive me I don't think I'm the same
Reconnect me and program back the haze
No way I could ever be the same
If I could have one day to sweep this all away
I'd find a million ways to feel nothing
I'd find a million ways to be free
And everything I've lost would mean nothing
And everything I am would be me
Reinsert me and I won't ever wake
This has hurt me and I don't want to stay
No way I could ever be the same
If I could have one day to sweep this all away
I'd find a million ways to feel nothing
I'd find a million ways to be free
And everything I've lost would mean nothing
And everything I am would be me
Redefining, adjusting to this place
Understand, I know what it will take
I'd find a million ways to feel nothing
I'd find a million ways to be free
And everything I've lost would mean nothing
And everything I am would be me
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solitude | aggression
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| I feel....strange |
[11 Feb 2004|07:03pm] |
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PNFA - Schwarzes Eis |
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Mention this to me
Mention something, mention anything
... and watch the weather change.
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solitude 2 nothing(s) | aggression
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| Fortunate Misfortune |
[10 Feb 2004|05:44pm] |
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Vast - Beautifull |
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Fortunately I got a job. Unfortunately its only for two weeks and the pay isn't very good. Fortunately the job is easy. Unfortunately I may have to work this weekend when my love comes to see me. I have the most fucked up luck.
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solitude | aggression
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| No reason for it |
[09 Feb 2004|10:01am] |
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EDGEY - This is Jungle (Old School Mix |
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To take my mind off a few things for a while I started working on songs that have yet to be finished. Its actually going pretty well. I had some really good ideas and it pretty much resulted in the total rearrangement of the the songs I worked on (for the better, of course) =). Now if only I had a decent interweb connection I could upload these damn songs.
You're daily dose of boredom is over now...
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solitude | aggression
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| What happened? |
[03 Feb 2004|05:38am] |
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Deftones - Passenger |
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Within the past few minutes I have gone from feeling fine to feeling overwhelmingly sad and lonely. I have problems, and I do nothing about them. I don't why. Maybe I'm just hoping they'll go away. Maybe I'm stupid. Maybe I'm too afraid to fail (can you be blame me?). I'm such a mess. I need to fix my life.
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solitude 1 nothing(s) | aggression
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| Yes that's right, I'm happy |
[30 Jan 2004|10:08pm] |
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Paul Van Dyk - Connected |
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A very special someone is here for the weekend. I haven't felt this good in what feels like a very long time.
You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver.
"And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from
the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets
and used them to peer into the souls of those
on trial to make a judgement. He knew that
with endless knowledge came endless
responsibility."
Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena
(Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya
(Indian).
The Dragon is associated with the concept of
intelligence, the number 5, and the element of
wood.
His sign is the crescent moon.
As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and
wise individual. You weigh options by looking
at how logical they are and you know that while
there may not always be a right or wrong
choice, there is always a logical one. People
may say you are too indecisive, but it's only
because you want to do what's right. Dragons
are the best friends to have because they're
willing to learn.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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solitude | aggression
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| Will I be ok |
[29 Jan 2004|01:39am] |
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Lo-Pro - Never |
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I feel like I'm running in place
The world goes by, I watch it slowly drift away
One more time and I'm just stuck here
With the same
Same old questions
Same old lies
It makes no difference what I feel inside
I don't wonder, because I don't care
I feel I'm broken beyond repair
Must be nice to just forget
Sever ties, I'd watch them all just drift away
No goodbyes and I'm not living
With the same
Same old questions
Same old lies
It makes no difference what I feel inside
I don't wonder, because I don't care
I feel I'm broken beyond repair
Can I just get this
Can I just get this right
Same old questions
Same old lies
It makes no difference what I feel inside
I don't wonder, because I don't care
I feel I'm broken beyond repair
Will I be ok
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solitude | aggression
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| Its me |
[15 Jan 2004|09:55pm] |
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Celldweller - I Believe You |
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 | You Are Edward From "Edward Scissorhands."
You are very shy and often misunderstood. Innocent, sweet, and artistic, you like to pass your days by daydreaming and expressing yourself through the arts. You are a truly unique individual. Unfortunately, you are quite lonely, and few people truly understand you. |
Take The Johnny Depp Quiz!
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solitude 1 nothing(s) | aggression
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| Shut the fuck up |
[15 Jan 2004|09:46pm] |
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Celldweller - The Last Firstborn |
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Its one of those days. Something annoys you and everything from that moment on is annoying. One of those you wish you could just say exactly what you thought to everyone. I'm trying really hard to hold back.
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solitude 1 nothing(s) | aggression
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bored